I know who it is beneath the smile... Behind the eyes that drive some wild... I see a different person in the mirror than others do... My depths run deep n they're hard to move... From the tatas to the heart that follows my own head... It which never rests... I know why I live the only way I feel I'm better off alone... I couldn't ever count on anyone to help maintain a home... From inside out I know me... As words spew out duscrediting unwanted n useless dreams... If I let someone in best believe I know where they stand... Bcuz I have no issue with living on my own if I havta prove myself as a man... I've figured me or a while ago... N I ain't for the contradictions if egos... It's jus my train thought that conflicts others... Most jus wanting an emotional connection n a luv'r... As I take the mental road that dilutes the pain... Even goin without sex to gain the movement of becoming untamed... Unaffected by the lusts that linger causing so much hurt... I'm jus the type that enjoys my own worth... N it came off of a bounce jus past relations that did me in... Had me feeling a certain way so I went with it as I non chuckle within my own grin... I know I'm content by not allowing luv without like in my life... I can comprehend a friendship is the most cherished thing available wanting to take up space in the mind... Yet I crave the touch on my fingertips that hasn't felt a damn thing in some time... But then again I know the reasons why... On the inner makings of the individual I seek to be, I enjoy being me... Proving some can sidestep wants for the every so needed needs... Rounded mentally in ways desires can't wait to who I let in... As passion will doesn't like a wildfire setting flames awakened in a kiss... I'm not one for the half hearted stereotypes that plague genders as characters in rolls that fail their individuality... I know I'm a bit of an aww when it comes to defining insanity... N want no part the torture come of strangers pretending I matter somewhere along the lines of what I should n shouldn't do... My birds will fly as my lips will help sound out a phrase like fuck you.!. I'm me n that's all I can ever be... I'm tuned n synced to the way I breathe... Standing solo with the world revolving around me I am not lonely far... As my biggest secret is, I'm patient on who is gonna be too rectify my heart... To make it wanna express a few things that's been couped up inside... Unable feel the way it does one an other hold it tight... But it's not a necessity to play house if urs truly cannot get down... Breaking like the wind without a sound... I understand who I am no one else can visualize without assumptions... Bcuz very few every got to know me as they failed to give affection... Losing my interest on a mature note of i gotta fuckin go... There's nothing worse than a fake tryin to buy time as the stillness erodes... So it's me I take after as I've reinforced the cage that protects my reason of being... N there's no chance to relive what I stopped believing...
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