She was done pretending...

She said she can't stomach the feel of it anymore... N that it made her feel like a self center lil whore... Always craving luv as in n outta relations jus got old... Telling me we all have a story n they sound the same as they're told... Falling into emotion n dropped from the hand that is supposed to care the most... The said she finally lost hope... That things were better off if she jus remained alone... Oh how sad it is that men do not find comfort in a home... As I shook my head n tried to reply... I got cut off with a few more words as she read my mind... She knew real men are so hard to find like a woman hidden in a crowd... N as she spoke I heard the opposing gender of myself relate through sound... Of how it's a dream fed to lil girls that never get their prince... As I to know the brutal misdirection of fairytales we need to dismiss... She admitted there was a time she was raw n uncollected... Unable to reason with an others needs as it was hey own twisted mindset that was rejected... Takin time sensed open her up as she stated, there's a balance that needs corrected...

I couldn't do anything but agreed as I nodded with her frustration through rambles that got to the point of self being inspected... For I to was lost the cause of two mingling as one... So quick to get caught up in the middle of a rush always coming undone... She sighed n whispered, do u ever feel like it's our own heads brainwashed to believe in this imaginary retardation of people wanting to do right by others.?. N as her eyes close I felt her disbelief in luv for everyone jus wants to be luv'rs... So we say in silence e for a bit n jus looked into the distance where everything felt like nothing waiting to happen... It was a dose of reality that showed me it's individuals are hard to find in a world based on a self righteous disaster that shouldn't even matter... Knowing the pain is gonna come for the signs tell us to keep it moving... Yet as we're willing to be someone to an other we wind up losing... Proving life itself is the joy once we learn what it is that helps us live... Redirecting comfort die to no one had anything good to give... N as I went through my thoughts she chuckled n gave a smile bcuz she said she could... N lemme tell ya, upon her face, it looked so fuckin good...