Faces change...

I got caught up with what I have to do n turned a few good ones away... Seems their patience could'nt find me worth the wait... I take it that people want what they want when they want it as it's fuck what others have goin on... As it's all good due to at least I see them for who they are when they ain't with me in the norm... Once things get back to the way they were originally so life can continue... After I've been called wrong for shunning others out while I do so without a rescue... Damn, why can't a man maintain his own without being labeled scarred of relations.?. Or want to be able to offer a lil something more without his struggle becoming an issue of hesitations... Shit went wrong n I jus took some time to reverse what had occurred... N I'm not gonna complain bcuz faces have shown how selfish they are as they become a blur... It's two birds in the wind as life moves on... N there's no telling once the hardest thing I've done lifts for I dunno where I'll be goin... Can't please everyone in the blink of an eye so it's fuck em all... Sitting in the silence shaking the head for others have no will to luv anyone else other than self as emotions crawl... Alway's wanting the feel right now or u ain't shit is how words escape the mouth... Without the understanding of how bad my life had become that I needed to overcome... N I believe others have actually lost hope... N I'm jus needing a place of my own called home... as no one is willing to stick around due to there's always someone else wanting to give them what it is they seek... It jus goes to show they have no idea what they truly need... Bouncing from one the next before my eyes as I sigh, it could've been me... Actually finding relief the way they stepped away from me tryin to simply breathe... So I sit... N I flip fingers bcuz I see what's coming before it finds me throwing a fit... Luv has no reason other than to feel good by an others hype in its life... N it's the soul purpose I find a greater comfort in the word like... It's where true friends are created that flow with compassion... N I've been passed up enough to know no one truly knows of a lil thing called passion... Willin to take on anyone to have a crack at the throne... N every time they find themselves rushing to be alone... Losing my interest bcuz they have no chill that is to see what is to come once I've gotten me together at last... Then again, I can'expect them to stick around as they chase what it is as their soon to be past...Ii jus let them go one at a time as their curiosity in me was someone they're looking for... It wasn't me n I'm comfortable knowing I'm not trapped then behind closed doors... The individual within me has grown to take notice in certain things... N it's sad how people claim to be something they will never be...