Hi... Don't mind me... In jus entertaining myself... Living the so called dream... N I don't want nothing... Jus to see if I can get u to smile... So I can feel better myself... I promise I won't bother u to much or act like a child... I jus get bored... Don't know what to do alone... Sitting in this room can bring a feels down ya know... There's not much to do here at home... But I have u to fuck with... That is when u let me... When even ur life seems like there's nothing goin on... We don't havta meet... Believe me I don't need help filling in the blanks... In as random at it comes... Thoughts run wild when I get restless... It's like I jus don't wanna feel anything unless it's fun... Hiding the facts that things aren't as great as I claim... But I won't tell ur secret if u don't tell mine... We can be friends from a far... U know, protecting self from everyone around us like they're not worth the try... Ssh... It's between us as I jus wanna tickle ur ribs... Maybe touch a piece of u in that drawn out feeling of nothing... It's jus me n my sense of humor that had a fucked up twist... N my filter didn't work right... Even though there's things I won't say... But hey, no one special... U can ignore me n do what u do as I'll jus go on about my way... I'm jus looking to give whoever a chuckle if i can... Or make them think of a few details I've gathered on my own... Talking about life n general in ways so many have forgotten about... My hands won't reach for a grope... Nor will I come on to u in any way... I'm not looking for anything but I don't know what to look for if I did... I'm not lost, I'm jus caught in the middle of this thing I call wtf... That n always saying damn, fuck n shit... N I don't know what else to do with the down time i have so here I am... Talking to myself like someone's listening... Talk about weird huh... Jus wait until I get to whispering... That's when I answer myself like I don't want anyone to hear me... No, I'm not crazy... At least I've never been certified legally... But it's better than being mentally lazy... My mind is active... It's jus people talk to me for a while n move on bcuz they have their own lives to tend to... N I'm not mad I do the same thing... Pretending to have so much to do... So we don't get involved with the fear that strikes our nerves... I'm sure u can relate... N I apologies bcuz I don't mean to ramble on... I honestly get lonely n talk to my reflection in which I hate... It's what I have been forced to occupy my life with... Knowing if rather have someone around I can touch... Have sex, mind fuck n caress... Maybe take the way I like them n Yangon it into luv... Yet, it's so quiet here I can hear my chest pulsate a beat... As o leave the now n go back to the past memories I have no business fucking around with... Only if I had something else I could enjoy... I wouldn't be writing this bs n user the morn in my jibs... Creating movement with my lips... Funny how things change n the silence hushes tones in voices that go away... From a once upon a time ago to the echo the walls that do not speak... But I'll leave u be so I don't overstep my boundaries as it's getting late...
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