Never the one...

N if i had something to offer... What would it be that might get u to see me through.?. Curiosities of my state of mind runs down the interest... Thinking who in their right mind would wanna come close enough to the soothe... Or claim the motions it takes to react to me standing still... Kinda in their way so they'd have to deliberately move around me to get by... Or change directions once they've had enough... It would be great if I was something of worth clinging to someone's side... But I do not believe so I don't even try to be anyone to an other not knowing of what rests beneath the skin... Rockin back n forth in a dead silence waiting for them to turn n walk away... All with my own lil nitch unlike most that is willing to open up... But I feel unloved after the hype wares off so what's the use in remembering another face.?. If I were to catch more than an eye as it to could see within me... As if there was this one that wouldn't take no for an answer n show me luv exists... Able to do more than say no matter what jus bcuz it feels right... I'd be shocked if my emotions wound back up upon my lips... Like, if I was what someone was looking for... Who is it to them I'm suppose to be.?. Walking around tryin everything I can to get them to crack a smile... Scared to death that they'd leave me like everyone else has that's retired... Given up on is what I know due to I'm jus not that guy someone wants to keep around... No I don't feel the incisions until I'm bleeding out... N I'm well aware she'd havta be twisted n rare to even consider me lost yet found... Only if it was known that I to am jus waiting on the flip of a coin... To have my chance to relate until all else fails... Falling in for luv to drop me to my knees... As the release frees me from her grasp back in to a works alone n more confused to why they all get derailed... Coming to terms the details that they're looking for someone I could never be... With so much to give that goes stake inside of me... A luv'r I am n a fighter I can be if she'd jus awaken one morning pulling me from her dreams... Holding on n giving life a struggle to keep me with her needs... If I could jus be someone's final call... That one person that seems to want the ban I've become... Without the betrayal that hurts beyond words expressed in so many different ways... Simply looking me in the eyes is more than falling in luv...