Jus wanting to know...

If I couldn't speak would u be my words.?. Somehow know what I mean when I go unheard... If my lips were as silent as the tears in my eyes... Will the comfort come from u with no cost if I allowed u in to my mind... When depths rise to the surface yet cannot find air... Do u have it in u to breathe for me n show me u care.?. Giving life to me in a way as if I ever forget who it is u are to me... Would u bring me back from a place where if I were to walk without u lost chasing u in my dreams.?. Imagine life n I was missing what brought u into my own arms... Would u let me lose the best thing I've ever felt that caters to my heart.?. N if I were to come unglued before ur eyes as someone changing without u by my side... Where would I be without u never to tell me a lie.?.

Without...

Either they forget or they can't comprehend we've spent too much time alone... Lost in our own heads without others missing the only thing they know... We're used to not having anyone around n can live on our own... So goin without accepting life with the end of time jus goes to show friends are harder to come by than hope... So they misinterpretate the will within us that finds attachments to be the maturity of being grown... Ties cut wasn't for their eyes as they weren't there when things changed n self came out to play with the flow... Feeling only the wind blowing through to give motion to the heart as painful as throwing away thrones... N honestly I don't believe they have any idea to where our minds have been chasing the heart listening in solitude of it's own moans... Slipping from their understanding is the only thing they tend to be able to control... The definition of being unfazed is a reconning unless the mind itself is blown... There's more to relations than jus rocking the fuckin boat... That type of shit finds luv face down without like as it floats... N they refuse to dig deeper than they've ever been to coexist on another level without being hooked... They cannot fathom what it takes to reside with self so self can come to life without the help of being told no... For it takes the giving up on others to find who it is they haven't found wanting the skin to be groped... I guess u could say they ain't as of yet woke...

Faces change...

I got caught up with what I have to do n turned a few good ones away... Seems their patience could'nt find me worth the wait... I take it that people want what they want when they want it as it's fuck what others have goin on... As it's all good due to at least I see them for who they are when they ain't with me in the norm... Once things get back to the way they were originally so life can continue... After I've been called wrong for shunning others out while I do so without a rescue... Damn, why can't a man maintain his own without being labeled scarred of relations.?. Or want to be able to offer a lil something more without his struggle becoming an issue of hesitations... Shit went wrong n I jus took some time to reverse what had occurred... N I'm not gonna complain bcuz faces have shown how selfish they are as they become a blur... It's two birds in the wind as life moves on... N there's no telling once the hardest thing I've done lifts for I dunno where I'll be goin... Can't please everyone in the blink of an eye so it's fuck em all... Sitting in the silence shaking the head for others have no will to luv anyone else other than self as emotions crawl... Alway's wanting the feel right now or u ain't shit is how words escape the mouth... Without the understanding of how bad my life had become that I needed to overcome... N I believe others have actually lost hope... N I'm jus needing a place of my own called home... as no one is willing to stick around due to there's always someone else wanting to give them what it is they seek... It jus goes to show they have no idea what they truly need... Bouncing from one the next before my eyes as I sigh, it could've been me... Actually finding relief the way they stepped away from me tryin to simply breathe... So I sit... N I flip fingers bcuz I see what's coming before it finds me throwing a fit... Luv has no reason other than to feel good by an others hype in its life... N it's the soul purpose I find a greater comfort in the word like... It's where true friends are created that flow with compassion... N I've been passed up enough to know no one truly knows of a lil thing called passion... Willin to take on anyone to have a crack at the throne... N every time they find themselves rushing to be alone... Losing my interest bcuz they have no chill that is to see what is to come once I've gotten me together at last... Then again, I can'expect them to stick around as they chase what it is as their soon to be past...Ii jus let them go one at a time as their curiosity in me was someone they're looking for... It wasn't me n I'm comfortable knowing I'm not trapped then behind closed doors... The individual within me has grown to take notice in certain things... N it's sad how people claim to be something they will never be...

Spoken without sound...

Written in blue ink as if leaking

from one line to the next...

In a scribble white paper

as if bleeding through to

touch the chest... To luv or

Not to luv... Here the

smead taking form in the

moment of the release of

the truth talking from

the impossible finding words

comin from what's been

on the hush... Speaking in

rare form in its own

spread before the eyes.. jotted

down without an end to linger

into upon request... It's times

like this that makes me need

a better friend... Broken down

as if the alphabet pieces

the explanation of self without

being able to lie... Standing

back up jus same as I

went down that one time...

Rolling solo the ball of this

pen spins with the hands that

take to long to get to know...

               Giving my words a home...

Silent minds...

It's the fact the matter the conversation can take a break... As jus being with someone is a comfort that speaks with heart rates... Moving to the feel of how close they can get the skin before emotion rips loose... Feeling at home as long as they're there with their truths bared in a silent room... It's the way words can never express the excitement of knowing luv truly exists... N to like them enough to lay as still as to feel heartbeats wanna live... There's a presence that takes place that no other can fulfill... From beneath the surface to the skin on skin that touches the thrill... The muted sounds tell no take like the response the body has when felt... Finding motion in every sense, allow desires to melt... At one an other in the same mindset of no one else will ever do... As whispers crawl upon pillows as sighs tend to move...

About as far as...

I believe I've gone about as far as I can go... Seems relations never turned out to appreciate what I've had to give so I gave this world alone... Sitting there waiting of when it feels right I'll give it another try... Knowing I found what I was looking for but knowing it was with the wrong one in the middle of sighs... Having patience with time had become as moment for me to enjoy who it is I am for once... Since no one's ever taken the interest to find me falling them so deeply in luv... So I've taken this route about as far as I can tolerate the silence... As I'm finding there's some good ones left of I could jus step out n n feel a new set of lips... Tasting my skin the way my imagination craves the flavor their own... Finding the dos n don'ts of whoa to moans so my desires don't havta feel so alone...

Done with the silence...

Lookin for something new to say needs a change in what occurrs... Send timing outta ways to put things finds rhymes repeating what's already been heard... Where's that fire.?. That feel that comes alive when the mere thought crosses the mind ready to be admired... I need a fresh spark to light up the next wave of life that is to create a vision of happiness as I breathe... I've said all over to say it until now as writing hah become a relief... I found me n my flaws as there's been others that's made their own way before the eyes as diddles have been read... Yet, I'm cracking something else that doesn't linger into view from within the walls of my own chest... Something for me to appreciate without the cleverness of letters finding form in words that mean so fuckin much... I'm tired of recitation things here where none can find me living as if hushed... I want what I've never had n it's not written in twists confessions jotted down... Here soon I'd like to feel something in the real world give me a luv that reaches for me as I speak out loud...

The past is no more...

There's nothing in the past that's intriguing... Not one memory spent is worth the time to think of as they're all misleading... Dead ends with lessons that taught me if who others their are... Chances the one thing within I've kept closest my heart... They tried to steal the will of luv that hides without a true friend... N it's the one thing unaffected by the misdirection of emotion in the motion lent... As what's happened is it is as I wait for a moment to become to keep memories made... As life moves along leaving faces so far behind I could only hope they fade... I've given up on matters that do not feel the need to better who it is I am... N as for the situation I've come to know I'm jus thankful for what was is no longer hand in hand... The letting go of the chains I held sunk in to my mind no longer bond me for I've dug the hooks out for someone else to feel... I'm no prisoner of passion wanting old flings n relations as I await something real... Walking away from those I thought was the answer that I found within... N it's my face now that lives knowing cannot affect the tickle in my ribs... Free I have emerged from my own depths with a more sound state of self... As my heart still beats building the expectation of when it's truly felt... I've concurred the beast that controlled my flaws... As I sit with patience ready n willing to fall...

I'm listening...

Say something... Come from the wave of eyes batting a peek... Jus one sound from ur lips would be the silence I need broken... I don't wanna fall for anyone else if ur willing n ready n it's what u tell no other showing... Step forward so I can see u standing amongst faces not goin any further than a look... N free me of e false interment of others that need shook... For u I'd be a one woman's man digging in to pleasures that speak way u should right now... U don't have be a dream nor love jus only a thought of what we could be if you'd jus open ur mouth... The wonder can end... N we don't have to go without with luv thrown at one an other sent... Straight to the heart feeling the best thing to every come along... Shedding the feel of always wandering around lost... Lemme hear u get over the fear that's settled in to ur nerves n come life... I'm not doin shit but waiting on u to enter me mind... Look at me... Tell it like it is n become the way it makes u breathe... It's the comfort from a friend that clings to the most sacred place within... N who better than someone ur attracted to to give in the return of a win win... Drop ur jaw n let what you've been holding back be known bcuz I can't tell who u are hiding in the crowd... Our lives aren't gonna be around forever so I think it be best to express a few things n see what comes of the vibe the chest that pounds... Aching for a chance at something as real as who it is we are... Whipping away the texture of old familiar scars... Living in the new era of who it is that enjoys for once the time it takes to find a piece of mind... As we're jus sitting around with time here laying alone in the deeper depths of nights... Thinking of the twist our lives would spin in to... N all that's needed is for u to give it to me straight n jus be u...

We want what we want...

Gimme the key n I'll believe whatever it is u say... Bcuz I'll be able to get to one u like I know myself... N the joy of the find is a gift trasferred to the naked eyes... Hands feeling whichever part closest to the feel of help... Comforting sighs in the midst of expressions untangling the twine within... Free would be the lose if ever there split takes the luv away... We want what we want n I don't wanna ever give it back... Put ur heart on the line n act like an adult n a friend we shall see on another level of trust tongue chasing names... Give it to me in its rare form of use willing to be touched... That'll be when I accept u could never hurt me... Give to something real standing on the pass of is it u.?. N there's no end to what I can open to show what's waiting for worth to hold on with to need to change the mind... I'm goin in, save me from myself n jus be... But ur gonna havta see what it is that moves a lil more with a sway bcuz u came along... No shit n down in a moment to take a wing at a mystery... Goin down in history written in the mind as visual of us... Make luv to me as u fuck me the way u do in ur dreams... I'm gonna be me living life n looking to mingle into days n nights changing outside... Wrapped up in the mix with me liking the way ur staring this away...  With no refusal to deny the u of I want no other... So the norm can flow with the rhythm of settling beneath the skin bcuz there isn't a fuckin thing wrong with wanting to see ur face... Hand over the goods n let's walk... The scenery around us is waiting to be a thought held in the minds as a timeless never ending motion... Talk to me n tell me only what u mean along with ur desires put on point... Let's be human n tap in to the fact of needing devotion...

Turned off...

They claim it's luv yet can't find time to like someone other than self... Funny thing about that is they don't like themselves trim to live through an other lookin for help... N words mean about as much as to get what they want without someone catching on as if we have more than our own share struggling on our own... Their fake in every sense looking out for no other but wanna scream victim so their true intent isn't shown... The shallow ones that cling to the will of anyone who gives the time for their games to be played... Believing they wanna commit is like changing lanes bcuz of a detour then taking the blame for goin the wrong way... It's a disposition that's unavoidable unless luv is the one thing that we refuse to accept... Becoming lonely tryin to ourselves it doesn't matter due to others fucked up habits that sheets tend to vent... Reaching within us to grab the ugly that tried so hard to relate... But they don't give a shit so it's us who look for the escape... Attempting to heal her n over again until it gets so fucking old it isn't worth the head trama caused by the sending of so called friends... Finding the edge of maturity in those who like to pretend at the bitter ends... Loosening the grip on even lists bcuz they've become a straight turn off the point we don't give a chance to anyone who's anything like them... As we all sure back n talk shit of how the other gender is blame one again...

Don't look...

It makes me sound like a woman to say if jus like for someone to get to know n like who I am... Yeah there eyes that follow are nice to look at yet, it's not who I am as a man... Jus once to feel someone fall for me one they get past the outter shell without drifting into another lifestyle or off into the distance far to be seen... I know it's not me due to the on relations I miss a beat... N it's funny how I'm so different n catch an interest but somehow sit tapping on my heart to see what comes from it's inner makings goin without... Finding every inch having a piece to say that never reached the mouth... Damn I'd enjoy being touch for someone else's pleasure that ain't on some ol okey doke... Not only to hear me moan but to feel the vibration that ripples like a wave to the shore of their own luv provoked... The scene in my mind plays with images I don't even know as the lights go out... Turning away from the belief they get the point of a place called home as the walls go without sound... As age rolls away with days getting older I wonder as I wander on about my merry ol way... Waiting for that one time from lips that cannot help but to say my name... Thinking don't look at me jus be... Simply living n bringing life to dreams.

My own lane...

Sticking to the exit lane goin unheard... Interest isn't spoken due to men are considered to be looking to quench our thirst...  So stepping outta tge norm won't occur if it's up to me to make the first move... I have better things to do than to be judge by egos that curse with tongues so loose... Like it's us seeking the attention from strangers jus to play the victim screaming out... Jus to have an outlet for females to taste their hate that makes us pathetic for their low self esteem to feel better in the early awakenings of each mornings frawn... So I stay close to what I know as it's me I refuse to play into the foolishness... Even though I know somewhere there's a lil bit more to add to my own happiness... But it's not in our hands no more as women decide who in the fuck climbs aboard... Talking shit about everyone who attempts to say hey like we're some kinda pathetic whores... Self righteous nitwits for the most part fill sights as attractions in all honestly isn't worth the fuck... It's sad we havta witness the display of pettiness gathered by their own past relations that turned on their luv... N they call us fuck boys as to categorize the pack as if we're all the fuckin same... Yet truth be told they can't tell one from the next acting like they're clinically insane... I'll stay to self until I see an individual of my likings happens to stroll on by... I don't wanna play the game for it doesn't appeal to me of how I wanna spend my time... On cruise control with my mind intact bcuz within me there's no goofiness involved... It's jus me laughing at the childish behavior of many lil girls pretending to be grown after all... Unable to see self claim to be something other than what they're own words unfold from their precious tongues... Talking about how the opposing gender don't want nothing to do with luv... As the wonder takes a single thought of is there any real ones who aren't broken from self inflicted choices that need repaired... It seems the good ones hide like self as the others are on display thinking who in the fuckin cares...

This for the real men tired of the bs...

In different worlds...

Unclaimed n standing in the moment of movement closing the gates... Knowing the attention of letting go there feel in the heart is harder than the softened tone of names... Listening to the click lock out any other notion that might think it wants in to the kingdom of the mind... There's a loosening of thoughts that need to be released so the definition of the resurrection attempts to fly... Over the walls into the wide open where the capture allows the tingle of self to emerge from the depths... Free from the inner makings of hinges rusted stillness without a swing to be felt... The unwanted hide beyond the reach of arms stretching to pull pieces away from self... Living with the facts that there's one key to open what there is to give... As if the prisoner within awaits the comfort of true freedom to be the only thing I've knows how to be n live... 

Moving on...

She claims she jus doesn't wanna be left in the dark... As he admits even he can feel those type of scars... Walking relations hand in hand... Words tell tales of others that have failed n ran... Taking vital pieces of self given the depths of comforts will... As both sides of a new found friendship must climb a hill... To overcome what someone else has been allowed to do... In ways pain changed mindsets as emotion refuses move... Stuck in a trap within the walls of an aching heart... Doin what they can to prove it is no longer chard... Finding the temptation so strong it cannot be overlooked... As fingertips touch the sensitivity of the flesh left for dead once the getting got shook... With guards up on high alert fallin in behind closed doors... Patiently waiting for like to reason with an other of wanting more... Tasting the way luv sits upon lips feeling so fucking alive... Sinking in to the attachment that clings to the need of wants deep in the mind... Man verses woman in an attempt to have that sacred bond... Leaving the past where it is so passion can respond...

Ur face...

I await to see ur face awaken before my eyes... Watching life come to witness me so everlasting in luv... Silently with my patience the moment of reconning will surface with ur expressions for another day with me... Unable to see through me as if u cannot look past me in the find of my skin willing to be touched... As I wonder what shape u will take n how high the corners of ur smile will rise to me unable to look away... At one with satisfaction roaming freely through the hearts own desires coming true... Moving in sync to like fingers dancing in a caress that reveals the comfort grazing the nerves that will flutter... I remain urs eventually even though as of yet I do not know u... In the flesh to meet time will stand still clinging to the chance to see what's been missed... Proud to have n hold a friend that took to giving long to make... A mate n a luv'r the transforms emotion into thoughts giving way for the peace writing to live... N the only thing I can think of is I wanna, for once, jus see ur lovely face...

How does one know.?.

How can u tell if an other share the same wave.?. That intuition of the point gathered self to use in trade... To resemble self like a reflection moving a similar style... How within a variable types can one relate without having truths told by the eyes.?. Some need know the dates that exploit what we cannot see... As others seen to be able to look through the vision intrigued... N what of the clue like triggers that find train to be found.?. If one is interested right knowing how can life tend to rearrange for a moment to stand proud.?. Loosened the affect of someone getting closer than the speed Reddick we thought would come to... Is there a way to worked them without words on the move.?. Thinking the same thoughts of who could it possibly be... As it feels someone like a restless dream...

Settlings for what.?.

I'm not looking to fall in luv... It's that piece of mind that tugs at emptiness goin without being touched... That deep cling isn't worth a fucking thing if friends cannot talk freely... As even the jibberish loosens the ability to think appropriately... Singing to the heart without a tune to carry the find... I'm not willing to collide if transparent is the outcome not to far along in life... Bouncing around from old to New in a repeated pattern didn't convince me if anything but no one can commit to something real... N from where I've been I'm sure most can admit were tired of the same ol fuckin feel... Groped flesh as nerves tend to miss what turns n walks away... Leaving the twist to engage with the voice in the dark callin self names... No, I need not comply to terms that abbreviate my status in a switch... Jus turn about that with isn't on the tongue hidden behind zipped lips... I don't cater to in the moment type situations emotions doesn't know wtf is goin on... So I say to myself bcuz no one seems to listen, it's ok to live without an other n watch some porn... The communication never gets couriered confusion bcuz someone always tends to forget the bond... N I ain't committing to in shit if I'm the one losing my norm... Drifting with someone on the fresh sense of sex being the topic discussed... That bs even brings out the flipped tones to the point where I wanna cuss... So I will only go under passion if there's more to desires to breathe... N I'm talking diversity of character as real truths understand the connection is free...

Figure u out...

Do u want a friend or is it a luv'r.?. It all comes down to what kinda relations do u want, with or without rubbers... Shit gets confusing lookin in to too many fuckin eyes... As the chaos of intentions will make one lose their mind... Goin to the next in some what of a musical chairs scenario... Takin about once again, here we go... So is the full package ur willing give to get what u seek.?. I don't put a price on what I can do but I do not come cheap... There's value in morals if it's getting down u wanna fall in to... Deep in the roll spinning the hands of time as bodies move... Or is it the companionship that's more intriguing to ur mindset.?. Ready to be opened n dug in to as if thoughts coming to life through convo good enough to invent... Like something never seen before developing before ur in intuition... Gathering the feel to the compatibility of admissions... Admitting there is no other that can extract the common morals from within... Is it ur to into yourself to realize ur fighting ur own grin.?. Is it a who ur looking for in the darker places of ur mind goin numb.?. Or can u relate the qualities come in different packages willing to be touched.?. It's jus answers I thrive to know so I to look u can live on the comforting end of sighs... As I wait briefly for u to figure out that thing in which u choose to reply...

Rambling on the dark...

Who am I might I ask everyday... No one special comes to mind as thoughts chase my brain... Lookin mirrors like, u ain't shit... N the truth of the matter is I ain't no one to be missed... So who is it in the real world without words that comes to life... Always tryin get otherwise to smile while I secretly hide... Tucked behind smiles is no true place to exist... Yet here i am alone in the dark without a single word dancing across my lips... The me who no one can witness is whom desires untold truths... Hidden away in depths goin untouched by a true friend claiming use... I'm nothin more than another have in the crowd goin numb... Secretly wanting the feel back I thought I found as like want the equivalent of luv... Knowing my thoughts get to the better version of my heart... N memories only set of the sounds of alarms... As the passion within knows what it needs to survive... A different type jus ain't a part of the way i feel that vibe... I guess that's jus a lil piece of me that'll go without saying into the open air... As I drift on the thought of who is it within that defines the individual lurking so rare... Or am I like everyone else n jus not know it as of yet.?. A pawn in a game in which I've lost my eagerness to play when movement is spent... In complete understanding of what willingness holds in... What am I if i hide behind my grin.?. Am I convinced my reflection is the better visual others seek.?. Yeah, bcuz I to feel shit when feeling the want of needs... But who is it I've come to be when the question comes to call.?. I'm someone who isn't attached to words read hoping one day to truly fall... One that awaits that spark lighting up from the inside out... Goin to waste until the day recons to come along n give meaning to the chatter from my own mouth... Silent I am for the attraction to the wrong one will refuse relations in the long run... So who am I waiting patiently for the entanglement of trust.?. Sitting alone like so many others wondering is it me.?. As the thoughts exist the mind due the blame of past times was never provoked by my own list dreams...

In a moment...

Everything changes... N the hardest of all is the constant rotation faces... If it ain't there expressions it's the replacement itself... So how is the heart to melt... In the wrong hands it can be beaten so badly... Sending signals to the brain as if it's all it knows n it's saddening... To feel the expiration of those luv'd n held close to the comfort so sacred... As it's jus us as self standing with the coming n goin of features that shape shift... Tryin to crack a smile of our own as everyone spits the same ol bs to protect the emotion that gets caught in the crossfire... Losing interest yet feeling the void of a friend none ever had to begin with once the reality of the situation kicks in of how single trickles down into eats been retired... Nothing ever stays the same... N tones through voices call out different pitches saying names... N it's the reflection more than so often are avoided due to the lack of compassion within friendships that lose hope... Having only one way to every cope... Turn in... Talking about fuck u once again... Finding luv be an irritation due to like was never established goin for it all... Then getting the unlubed feel of getting done so raw... Things switch up in the middle of life n it hurts... Downplaying our very own worth that takes blows on the fluctuating nerves... N tryin to come back after a few times that had gone so wrong is an issue that confuses the flow of trust... Seems every now n again the scenery gives the fuck up...

Hidden away...

So the good ones don't wanna play... So what is there to do if we cannot get used their names.?. If the question were to be asked ya know... Looking at what's out in the open to be shown... I don't see one for me... N I'm tryin to lower the bar for I to wanna be able to breathe... Yet who's left but the hateful bunch wantin a mericle that does not exist... Hidden away as if someone like me isn't in the crowd willing to be dismissed... Needin that chance to come face to face... N if things aren't what they seem my presence can be erased... U see it's harder for a man anymore to catch a woman's attention with so many others making us look bad... N I believe females have given up due to them relations they've had... As it makes it truly difficult to wonder if they even have it in them to give one more fuckin time... Jus one list in a moment in my very own eyes...

The sacred flow...

U don't havta cry with me once we meet...

U know, in those sacred moments where emotion digs deep n it tends to leak...

On the lean to feel u upon my skin...

As it's my moral that purks the fuck up knowin I can feel u n I exist...

So u can imagine what the sound of ur voice does easing my expectations bcuz u are intact...

The tears to trickle are gonna feel so vividly real as the joy gets attached...
Given a reason to shed the happiness as eyes grip the passion...
Worn hear n there behind closed doors unable to hold in the truths of besties having satisfaction...
Dripping on occasion over the fact that we found what we were looking for in each other...
As friends who became so much more than the freakiness of luv'rs...
Set for life is the collection of moistened devotion fallin in to the cure...
Down the cheek headed for the leap as the descend looks for the roots beneath the floor...
To grow in an unconditional state of mind...
All coming from the inner most sacred place deep inside...

Frisking the heartbeat...

Patted down by a heartbeat searching for a vibe... Needing to know if it's still alive... Frisked at will do time doesn't get lost... Emotions been felt the fuck up to snow the dead zones so communication doesn't turn the worst... Diggin in to find if there's anything that resembles worth... Feeling for tge pulses tempo to tell the truth on how the skin is touched... All due to e circumstances of so many claiming the are true luv... So goin for of the ripple effect is down with the movement of the rush... Listening to the way temptation collaborates with the shockwaves racing through the feel of hope on the hush... Simply getting close enough to witness if the tingle trickles need bloodflow picking up speed felt by fingers within heartbeats pounding rapidly fast... Passion is fondled by interest so the knowing can live without ever returning to a broken past... Groped if necessary to get a rise from even the turn in of life happening before the eyes... All in a moment to live a lil with a guarantee that luv is secondary to like...

Approached...

Hey.!. How are u.?. Are u taking to anyone.?. Why not.?. Oh... Yeah, I know what u mean... There's allot of so called women that need control bcuz they feel they can't trust a man... Liking who u are is a good thing... Well if u don't mind me saying, I find u appealing... I think I'm kinda drawn to u... Ur jus different... Are u really single.?. So ur not tied up at all over an ex.?. Why not create something beautiful someone.?. N what's too soon.?. But u can't blame others by hiding away... U had a choice in it... I know the feeling of others tryin to be someone else until it's too late... U wanna get out.? Yeah, outside.!. With me goof... That is a choice ya know.!. What makes u think I'd have something in mind.?. I was jus being random for once... Yeah... I'm tryin to break free from the chains I allow myself to carry... Then let's do something... No bcuz you'll over think it... Trust me I do it all the time... I love for willingness not rules... So what's u say we figure out if we can get along.?. Bcuz ur not like ither guys n I soon need something away from all the chaos if broken men... No I'm not broken... I've learned how to bed me some time ago... See.!. I knew I was right about u... Let's jus say, it's not jus a physical attraction iI hav for u... How long doesn't apply to anything without actions being taken... So whata u say.?. I knew you'd give in... Lol, I jus get to know u... Well if I like you'll know... I don't really go out much myself but there is this one place... I'll tell u what, give me a couple days n I'll get back with u if that's ok... Yes, yes I am... Oh, I will... Lol...

Hello... I'm doin good... Nah, I haven't went lookin for someone to be in my life... Idk... I jus haven't come the terms in which females make rules... I jus like who I am i guess... What's that.?. Oh u do.?. N what makes u think you'd wanna take an interest in me.?. I see... Yeah, I'm really single... I'm not in to jus throwing my heart around... Lol... No, I haven't been in some time... I'd like to but the attachment seems to grab ahold of like a lil to soon... It's jus what I've been through... Well yeah, it's the choices I've made... Thing is no one ever turns it to be who they say they are... Yeah I bet u can relate... Out.?. I haven't done anything in a while... Oh, with u... Well, I wouldn't know what I'd want to do... I've gotten used to being alone... Lol... What is it you'd wanna do.?. Idk... U were the one who asked so I'd assume u have something in mind... It was random huh.?. Sounds deep but I get it... I've been feeling the same way... Can I give it some thought.?. Ok... So ur making the rules.?. Makes sense... I'd start by asking what lead u to come to me.?. So ur saying ur not broken.?. Now u sounds like me... N what makes u think that.?. Oh, so I've been in ur mind for how long.?. True... Lol... I'd say I believe I'm not doin anything so why not... I'm not as easy as u think... N what if u like who I am.?. Fair enough... So it'sis t sooner place within ur comfort zone you'd wanna meet.?. Lmao, ur up to something... Ok... Hit me up when ur ready... Lol...

Friends or I gotta go...

Finding the differences of what it means to live someone else's life n to share the one we have with someone new... Things change in the blink of an eye one self isn't a key factor the hesitations of clues... Always doin what an other wants as ones interests are set to the side... People are to in to themselves to open up n actually live life... Having an issue with the feel of doin something they do not wanna do... N those kinda people shouldn't be relations if they're willingness refuses to come through... As the flip side of the matter tells a take so rare two individuals can actually exist n not pass tests... Walking in a daily realize neither left in the middle of the darkness as bodies found rest... Goin for it all bcuz a friendship been to the feel of have each other around... N to hear choices speak is something not to many had found... It's a friend's or I gotta go policy that needs to live out in the open... Bcuz they're a difference in hoping n chocking...

Never the one...

N if i had something to offer... What would it be that might get u to see me through.?. Curiosities of my state of mind runs down the interest... Thinking who in their right mind would wanna come close enough to the soothe... Or claim the motions it takes to react to me standing still... Kinda in their way so they'd have to deliberately move around me to get by... Or change directions once they've had enough... It would be great if I was something of worth clinging to someone's side... But I do not believe so I don't even try to be anyone to an other not knowing of what rests beneath the skin... Rockin back n forth in a dead silence waiting for them to turn n walk away... All with my own lil nitch unlike most that is willing to open up... But I feel unloved after the hype wares off so what's the use in remembering another face.?. If I were to catch more than an eye as it to could see within me... As if there was this one that wouldn't take no for an answer n show me luv exists... Able to do more than say no matter what jus bcuz it feels right... I'd be shocked if my emotions wound back up upon my lips... Like, if I was what someone was looking for... Who is it to them I'm suppose to be.?. Walking around tryin everything I can to get them to crack a smile... Scared to death that they'd leave me like everyone else has that's retired... Given up on is what I know due to I'm jus not that guy someone wants to keep around... No I don't feel the incisions until I'm bleeding out... N I'm well aware she'd havta be twisted n rare to even consider me lost yet found... Only if it was known that I to am jus waiting on the flip of a coin... To have my chance to relate until all else fails... Falling in for luv to drop me to my knees... As the release frees me from her grasp back in to a works alone n more confused to why they all get derailed... Coming to terms the details that they're looking for someone I could never be... With so much to give that goes stake inside of me... A luv'r I am n a fighter I can be if she'd jus awaken one morning pulling me from her dreams... Holding on n giving life a struggle to keep me with her needs... If I could jus be someone's final call... That one person that seems to want the ban I've become... Without the betrayal that hurts beyond words expressed in so many different ways... Simply looking me in the eyes is more than falling in luv...

Infected by lies...

Trusting in others will leave u broken n alone... Somehow after putting everything on the line wondering of a lil place called home... Where'd it go under the conditions of luv...  The question surfaces once the hearts been touched... Infected by lies made to seen like the truth... Put to use for a more selfish cause while the mind begins to come unglued... Torn from life emotion floods thoughts attempting to make sense of the chaos missing the point... All bcuz believing in others sheets comes back to haunt the void... As chains jingle tryin to get loose... They'll hurt ya in ways crazy seems normal... N make the one in reflections feel down right horrible... Choosing someone other than self to look after in a moment in time... Finding words stuck in poetic rhymes...

I gotta let u go...

I guess I'll be seeing u around... Since I can't let u in beneath the way my tongue makes sound... It's the flavor of the taste that jus cannot be... Believe me it's not what u think... I'm not an easy one to crack open but we can be friends... U see there's no emotion unless my mind can find reasons more than warnings causing the end... N I believe u to be good people so I'm jus gonna let u go... My time isn't meant to be in ur arms for I'd feel alone... Knowing I couldn't give u what u seek within me... For it's someone else's I haven't yet met prolly with an other wantin to be free... I do apologise if it seems a lil far fetched... But when my heart agrees with my mind the feeling alone knows best... N even though we get along I thing differently bcuz I've come to know who it is I am... N I'm jus tryin to be honest as an opened man... Tryin to let someone in beyond the texture felt so I too can live with comforts touch... N I can't help myself but to wanna connect lives not jus two individuals willing to fall in luv...

I can't be seen...

I think I've said all there is to say... N my words jus sit here lookin the black expression upon my face... Waitin for something to happen as if I'm something more than the next... I can't be seen through letters that show the character to invest... Not if I'm too remain locked in to taking out my heart n mind... Lost to the feel of the way it comes from within so I too can remember what it is I miss as time unwinds... Trapped behind my eyes is who I am hidden away like some fool scared to breathe... Yet, this who I am coming to some sort of life finding some sort of means... N I don't know how to put it anymore... I think I've been repeating myself as their no reward... Jus me in my thoughts goin over the same ol scenarios left on mute... Wondering how can I move someone's heart if I can't remove myself from this pattern hung from a noose... Needing to put actions in to play that could very well get me someone with the conversation takes to teach for the vocal chords... That way I'm not lounging around letting life pass me by bcuz I've become a bore... But what else can I say to have what it is the hearts wants to fulfill it's needs.?. There's things that frightens even a man like me... As my tongue misses the daily movement that defines what a friend's truly is... Knowing the type that could bring so much joy to someone like me jus wanting to live... Without do much wordplay creating situations in my head... Only if I could gather the exact alphabetical twist to be heard as they're read...

It's always something...

Many fall through the cracks of the heart to get in... As the mind seperates the differences in which I would live... Some come off as quite as others are straight to the point... As those that surround them create an atmosphere in which I have to decide is is worth the void... There's even those who tend to get ahead themselves as if they're still living with the motion of an ex that's long gone... Unable correct self as intent doesn't mean to treat me wrong... As there's been a few that's leaped from the edge bcuz I don't play with my emotions so freely... The think throwing the pussy at me will make me wanna open up to the attachments clinging to their own dreams... When mne move a bit slower due to its a friend I need the most... But telling the majority of them this makes them claim that have what it takes to keep me close... As conversations turn sexual the package doesn't always seem to have a fresk wanting to play... I'm not picky but damn I want someone in my level willing become something great... N if it isn't that they seem to feel they're better in ways of classification that turn my fuckin stomach... Or some about shit jumping from one goon to the next is jus as much... As I think, where are all the down azz females that have a well rounded way about themselves.?. Even in my time of hiding I've come to at the minimum talk to others jus wanting to be self... Yet it's the rejection that time then off when I know they're things I'm jus not comfortable with... As honestly will remain to be the only thing spoken n released from my lips...

The mentioning of self...

If I were to talk about me I'd speak of someone you'd think is be allot like you... From the way choices burt to the now if knowing better bcuz I to have a use... Needing free from the chains that blame others it's not I that is confused... I'm willing the right one that can relate the way I can to the truce... N I'd go with a few chosen words that would sound like how you're not the only one to be betrayed... Wrapped up in the facts that none of it matters to the way we all change... As there's things to be told of my character that I'd rather die you so you know the only thing different about us is the gender we claim... That is if you asked me what it is about me that comes to mind when thoughts wanna speak up to your smiling face... Goin on n on the same way lips find intentions as a form of entertainment seeking jus one person to find themselves lost without me... N I'd go on by saying I'm jus me n to get to know me you'd have spend some time away from the force fed fairytales that cannot awaken from dreams... That I am jus one individual loving with this life given to me the best way I know how when my heart had a constant need... A want that I cannot seem to find so I quit looking until you came along n have me a reason to once again breathe... I'm nothing special if ur interest isn't too see past the past where I to went through time n wound up alone I my core... Yeah, I'd be willing to tell you things from this point on like I was to myself if I felt you so people didn't me to be a bore... Knowing others have different mindsets on what attractive is like words used for nothin more than to lure the purity the heart through musical chords... As my own disruptions of self come without the rhythm other than the emotion that I have within me that clings to you behind closed doors... So listen me as if none else can be heard for I know me better than anyone else that claimed they wanted more... Spitting truths is how I wanna be heard as what's happened before now needs not exist... I'm me n how I come is what you get... N honestly I'd luv to sweep you from your feet n press my lips to yours n create a kiss... Knowing without you a party of me would be missed... I'm the probate type careful enough not to let jus anyone in... U see, I've worked on a lil thing for myself that gives life to my very own grin... N sometime like you would be a great addition to the way it feels stretched across my face as my joy jus is... Talking about me I've gotta mention you bcuz there's things that could make me a better person if you were to feel me in your own hands squeezed with a grip...

Alone with u...

The softer the whispers the greater the smile to life behind me eyes... So take to me as they're closed so u can gain the space u seek in my mind... With the softened chatter upon pillows as I fall under ur spell... I was hear ur voice until I go insert the feel bring felt... As ur time alone brings a joy to my ears as I lay motionless with u by my side... Gabbing at the gums to my comfort right here in the middle of the life... The silence of ur breath making sound opens my heart jus to let u the fuck in... Come, talk to me n we can hold a moment so perfectly in sync... Feeling the vibes spoken so softly that listen way ur lips move... There's a passion tellin me there's more to the word like every time u quietly release my worth on the loose... So don't stop the jibberish carried on sound waves from u to me... I've waited so long to hear the pitch it takes gain the way u make my luv sing...  Beautiful I are as u caress my eardrums with ur presence so alive... As still as the night showing me there's nothing to hide... It's jus u n I speaking on content held so close... As one drifting off ever so slow...

The truth of the lies...

The feeling of a smile can light up the life within... As so many are walking around taking about to give is to get... Being hypocrites n pointing fingers that are confused on their directional aim... Then turn around n tell the world they have so much to give as they claim... Everyone's the same in their minds as they keep goin after the same ol bs like they aren't attracted to anything else... Hiding the facts that they may or may not know about self in how they've jus gotten used to a type the same way they can as another will eventually be felt... Craving the connection they once had in comparison to what it'll take eyes go blind to the thrill that never occurs... Falling in behind closed doors where the smile asks the heart why can't u jus give in so it can stop slapping it's lips with self righteous words... Wanting the feeling of being wanted without the desire of looking desperate so the mind plays it's games... Over thinking the process like everyone's the same that wanna taste ones name... As emotion never tends to forget the horrific betrayal of events when luv awakened to the pain that crippled thoughts... Afraid to dig in n find out the complications of someones else's flaws... Seems worth thinks it's more than the next wondering why in the fuck is everyone on some bs... Trapped in a state of mind sheltering the gift within that cannot reach the exit... N the one thing gone without is the memories never made bcuz one goes beyond limits not to give a fuck about others like it was everyone else that made them choose who fucked them over... Refusing the temptations of rolling around with the attachments of one luv'r after an other.. Rehearsing the play back in the mirrors reflection due to they cannot let go of the past... Finding self in a moment of wtf wanting the content within relations without the turning of yet another friend... Wrapped up in dreams awakening the life goin solo as it tends to come to the mind that it'll never end... Judging some n feeling the need to lean into others to kiss the tears fallin down cheeks from time to time... Caught up in the motion here in the middle of life tryin to decipher the truth from lies... When in actuality it's self that must overcome the choices we make... Willing to take what we put on others as the blame... All bcuz luv awaits if the correction of who we are stands the fuck up... For the sake of simply being touched...

Vibe with me...

Let's experiment n tell it like it is... Bounce off each other n talk some shit... I'm game if time is what u wanna see go kaboom... If it's more than ur lips u wanna work loose... I'm not doin a thing but u here in a couple of ticks... That is if u feel the need to crack open some satisfaction n get ripped... Tapping at the bottoms up as the taste is so smooth... U n I should get together n see who calls the truce... Laughing n getting to the point of who's in charge... Doin things the tongue can't help but to speak on as only lies a bared... Bringing to life the inner makings of joy held in for so fuckin long... Listening to a lil music to muffle the noise beneath each n every song... Play fighting if we must to gain control of what it is self wants to do... Without fear of losing grounds that shake when we move... Being creative through wordplay that sends vibes to the sweet spot waitin to live... Me n u jus goin at it as our minds a ripped... Torn from thought so life can happen here the now... As our voices change tones in between moments with heartbeats that bounce... Invading privacies that will no longer exist... Talking all kinds of jibberish set loose from the lips... I think we should have at it n go where we tell ourselves it'll take that one we cannot resist to open up that can of oh noooooo... Oh yeah, there's syllables that need captured n thrown in to sounds that could rectify our hopes... Showing games aren't a bed thing if they're meant with good intentions... On a verbal reflection of who we are together in a moment of redirection...

Good morning...

It's those Sunday mornings where jus laying around with nothing to do feels so good... Looking over at eyes stuck on ya lost in a moment alone in a room... Smiling n in the mood for a lil tlc all snuggled up feels so real... As the sounds of whispers are content with the friendship that seals the deal... Getting closer as the sun peeks through the blinds so the presence itself can be enjoyed... Thinking I got one more day with them clinging to comfort that had filled the void... jus relaxing for a few hrs with nowhere to go... Finding the chatter sound off with the heart pounding softly to skin being groped... Felt with the movement of ligaments tryin to touch every inch of pleasure as time seems to be still... At one the satisfaction in a new dusk remember what occurred in the dawn the prior night chasing thrills... Opened so hands can reach in n tickle a rib... Wanting a toothbrush so lips can lean in to that unforgettable kiss... As breaths taken share the same air upon walls that tell no tales... It's how gestures of acceptance linger across pillows as if following a happy trail... One that leads to stares sighing bcuz emotion has come back to life... Awakening to the vibe of chuckles with an open mind...

As matter of fact...

On a regular, it be nice... To have that turn to in my life... Someone who's there without the loneliness getting involved... It be something else to lean over n whisper soft luvn's as she looks past my flaws... That one that's always there no matter what... Knowing in me there no reason not to trust... Giving comfort on a daily as long as I open my mouth... N speak to her as if she matters by the tone I take making sound... It be great to have a friend to hold on to that will never disappear... One that ticks around bcuz it's me she doesn't have to fear... A one of a kind in my mind that connects the dots... With an emotion that could never eva stop... Passing time to enjoy once as life makes memories with the thought... It be me n her doin whatever as even bodies upon the bed switch positions as tongues are tossed...Being in a luv that can do no wrong... Jus wanting in return of somewhere to belong... With a no matter what policy that comforts the heart... Resting the tension removes the bars...

The whole shebang...

Could u live without me if something happened.?. How long do u think it take if this life of mine stopped for u luv again.?. How deep within u every level is it i could reach.?. There's questions of clarity like, am i the one u cannot get off ur mind.?. If I wasn't with u come tomorrow, what perception of difficulty would it be for u move on.?. As if I want even here... Where would the memory place me being therethe I've who truly knew me standing still.?. Am I worth the time to make it a lifetime to ache without my presence one day.?. N after the moment of gone do u believe u could eventually move on.?. Or would I be that one person like jus wouldn't be the same without.?. Living the rest of ur time here alone n often drifting away with the visual of me lost in a silent daydream... Is it a piece of u if I was die first that I'd take with me.?. Who is it I am to someone like u.?. What would u do if I got trapped in ur head after giving u an attachment forever gone.?. Will the grief of the loss leave u alone as u slowly remain on ur own.?. Unable to look at an other the way u do me in the here of now... Or will the next one that comes along get the whole shebang n be the one u stay loyal to.?.

Choice of words...

Can I talk to u for a while.?. Maybe see who comes from beneath ur smile... Or even better yet, attempt to jus communicate on gp... Open up n be self to feel what it's like to be free... I'm jus looking for a lil conversation to see if it's good enough to continue it into tomorrow's interest... I don't wanna jus talk to anyone on higher levels of intellect jus tryin to vent... If actually like to listen to ur mind ramble on over a bite to eat if I could.. U know, the way adults should be able to the mood... Takin on an attraction other than what the word can see... Bringing to the possibility of a friendship able n willing to breathe... On some other shot so rare the have is the laughter of things go as well as relations that swing... I don't know what we'd say but I'm curious to venture into a direction I've never been before... Thing is, do uu hav it in u to dibble dabble in what could be in store.?.

Forever after...

I'm tired feeling like there's nothing left of me... I jus want someone to turn to who gets the best of me... One who falls in luv with the reality n not the dream... As those wants feel so fucking much like endless needs... I wanna stop the writings of words that have no meanings... N do away with the heartbeat that can't seem to feel me breathing... To come back to life without ever losing them leaving... There's no point if they're gonna always wind up fleeing... N I'm over the selfishness of the more for less scenario... The need of the want can be one in the same thing if we're considered amigos... Friends with no end circling back towards smiles as if on a merry go... Goin around n around with the sounds of baring moans... I'm so over the term of luv that can never relate to the admittance of like... N the way it plays the part until it exits my life... Pretending to claim it all as everything within the hype... I feel a change to come so I too can enjoy the temptation of mine... Bringing me back from the dead man's walk that's left me so alone... I believe in a place I hear others call home... Where the walls talk of visions in frames capturing happiness full blown... N passion finds desires creating something worth the tongues tone... I'd jus like to fall in for once n never return... Bcuz what I've known n gotten used to did nothin but hurt... As my own sensitivities are never heard... Until it's ashes to ashes n dust burying me in the dirt...

The crossover...

Dreams only last so long... Then one wakes up n everything they luv is gone... Losing the feel of a friend... One that said they'd stay until the end... Not knowing the lifespan the terms has a timeframe... N it's the change of the mind that gets rearranged... Left to live without the comfort of the lala one gets used to... Coming from within a deeper thought as the illusion moves... As faces shape shift before the eyes can open... Emotion awakens to the feeling of constantly hoping... Wanting to go back under the hypnosis in whick makes the individual smile... Even act goofy aa if bringing out the inner child... Goin beneath the level of reality so far from the realness of truths... Finding daydreams the closest thing to the imagination put to use... On the other side where everything lasts as long as life remains... There's a place one can relive the memories once made...

Why not me.?.

Why can't it be me who finds u standing alone somewhere somewhat lost.?. With ur emotions in ur hand willing to give them to me as my own heart somehow gets suck in a pause... Why is it ur looking for someone else u don't even know exists.?. As it goin from one the next n I'm right here waiting to feel the texture ur lips... Why do I haven't sit out while u get hurt by others only in triggering for themselves.?. N how am I supposed to feel knowing I'd do u right n u over look me as I'm not felt..?. Why do u insist on listening to the lies that kiss u n u beyond in them over me.?. Is it luv that is actually afraid of as u  drift in n outta ur confused dreams.?. Why is there a need in sleeping so many to come n go when I'd stay by ur side n show u the definition of a man.?. I'd give about anything to hold u at night n create moments where u knew I was it biggest fan... So why run if reason wants to look u in the eye for the comfort u so desperately crave.?. Is it the way I say ur babe that scares u away.?.

The thoughtless type...

They run like cowards... Tryin to save themselves from their own tarnished emotions... Showing immaturities to those so proud to go home to them giving devotion... Falling schoolers to get what it they want for brief moments until they move on... Not knowing what they truly want due to they haven't a clue of where they're goin... Changed facial expressions like irritation an attractive feature... They're the thoughtless type without kind words on their behalf of the directional change kinda creatures... Selfish to even the touch that lies of the attention was to be taken into consideration... Wanting eyes on them at all times as if there's time for infatuation... Turning on a friendship that never meant anything to them jus to have someone in their lives... Yet step behind their own heart not wanting to be felt as if a child claiming the hype... Wasting valuable time on others tryin to make them a part of something that could wind up being the truth in which they seek... Easing the reps of breathing only gets them to eventually admit to them luv is jus a thing...

Goin nowhere fast...

Not knowing the hidden ones that can not be seen... Invisible shells covered in skin they so desperately need... Unable see self in eyes walking through minds... Listening to words spoke unravel depths of muted lies... On the figuring of who might reside within an honest thought... Walking with the scars of the hearts texture goin soft... In a state of confusion lost in worth to the wonder of hope... Tasting names tease tastebuds slowly groped... Witness to the configuration of choice waitin on actions to move... Hesitant to jump in with so much to prove... Lingering in life resisting the urge to dive in... Not knowing where an others emotion has been... Goin nowhere fast standing completely still... Seems in place n in between the lines simply has no thrill...

Invisible ink...

Acting out bedtime stories with a vulgar display of sound dripping from the lower lip... Nibbling interest of a new version every single night it takes to perfect the motion of the twist in hips... Creations finest getting it in beyond nightfall loosening up the feel of hormones wantin to play... Agreeing on a safe word so intensity can feel free to be inappropriate when calling names... Becoming a character in a tale of sexual desire diggin in to the depths claiming even the texture of fondled nerves... As the plot thickens with girth, worth finds the moans craving the vibrations to be heard... Writing in an unworded novel where fantasies meet fairytales with an outcome of explosions that very from one night to the next... As freaks expose the hodden glorification of satisfaction climaxing from terms like head to wet to partaking in some bomb azz sex... Flipping positions like pages gathering the movement to tell the details without speaking of the passion griped upon the neck that goes all out... Hearing the filth from thoughts come to life undergoing a moment of truth to where the g-spot resides like wow.!. As each chapter is a different scene damn near takin on the affect of porn when body parts mingle for a lil fun... Giggling n chuckling n goin with the flow earning thrones as strokes are felt from the tongue... Wrapped up n sweating as the skin glides n heavy pants roll over for tops to wind up on bottoms where the role reversal takes place... Having turns with one an other jus for the simplest expressions reaching to display the attraction upon the face... Captured in a form that excites the will to please a friend on another level of mmmmm... Talking shit in the end of sessions with a photograph memory whispering ah hmmm....

Silent nights...

Tucked in n laid out with the motionless stillness I cannot avoid... Bed seems kinda empty anymore afraid to accept something i jus might enjoy... Yet it's jus me laying in the silence that comes around every night... N there's no need in pretending of reasons of why... I've jus become picky due to what I've jus allowed to come n go in my past... N it's my comfort that feels the void wanting my smile back... Yeah, behind closed doors I fall beneath a moment where the light doesn't shine... To scared to open up n see who's what they say they are as I'm too wrapped up with life... As only I know that's a lie that hides me in my confinement dying to be felt... Snuggled up in solitude as I pillows can really replace a body but I won't tell... It's no ones business how I feel hidden outta sight... As even my words are losing their creativity fallibg from what doesn't seem to be coming back to life... Feeling I'm talked bcuz my heart refuses to give in on technical twists individuality my mind tells it out cannot live with... I've gone mental in the pitch of black that finds a tear every so often disattaching from the ribs... As lips that's been shut to be muted so I don't get in any trouble finally had control... Without the sound that creates words feeling emotions eventually losing worth... I've lost hope that someones level mind would be willing to crawl up next to me n jus be for once... I don't believe I have it on me to give that kinda trust... As the numbers on the clock change the further into the morning I go... I'm frustrated with s touch of loneliness as even my desires don't feel the need to roam... So I toss n I turn well past midnight until my thoughts give in too let me sleep... Wanting one thing n that's too hold someone who will never leave...

When it rains...

N yet it's another day almost gone... As I wait on the darkness to chase away the light n remind me of everything that went wrong... It's rainy n cool as the breeze is a lil to chilled to go out n play in... It looks like I hatae face the pain tonight by forcing a grin... Knowing what's slipped from my hands that I can never get back... Only if time would allow me to remove precious moments that seemed to always make me laugh... I can hear the wind outside callin for me as I sit silently awaiting the truth to come back to life... It's when I'm alone n the weather falls beneath the warmth of the comfort that memories stir up the mind... Reincarnating faces from my past as they single file run from my touch... Making me afraid to feel anything with anyone else for to they fade in the presence of luv... N the air whips it's own movement to be heard against the windows not wanting to leave me be... Like those who've turned against me for no reason right in front of me... Watching desires mean nothing in the blink of an eye... On to the next one that did a repeat action n left me stranded without them in the middle of life... I wish I could do it all over again n choose someone who would be willing to have me for more than a season changing with emotional greed... As I listen to the leaves blown carelessly like long lost dreams... Removed as if I'm not worth the flame it takes to set the mood in someone's heart... I seem to be jus another raindrop filling a poodle walked around as if I'm marked... N I don't wanna relive where I've been but the images stuck in my head insist on haunting me... Demanding I keep them alive so they can breathe... I believe I'm jus trapped bcuz the next phase of joy hasn't found me as of yet... At least that's what I tell myself bcuz everyime I try, something happens before who I am is truly met...

I think about u...

If I told you I was interested in a look more than what's down in between ur legs... Would you believe me if I mentioned there's more to the truth than what it is I claim.?. Like, the silliness of your smile wanting to feel the way it does ao freely when I'm around... N the look I get when you're the flesh coming from within my imaginations moaning sound... Jus to hear your voice awaken something inside of me I've been trying to hide... Yes I've kept silent of the fact that you've been on my fuckin mind... Crossing thoughts in to a weave that create a response to the visual before me when we're close... Even though I'm talking as if I know who you are n touching myself when silence n I are alone... It makes me sound like bit of a perv but my honestly can't help but to reason with what it is I'd do to you if the chance ever brought you along to give me some of your time... The enjoyment in it's own would be enough to begin a better life... Knowing it's you that gets closer than air in the middle of the night... N how you'd be a friend like no other as my smile to, would shine... Loosening the senses to adjust the silliness that's been waiting n starving for the affection within the attention we seek... Did I ever tell you I'd luv to hear you breathe.?. Jus so I know you're as real as they come... For you, I believe I'd fall in luv... Drifting through this crazy place like it's no ones business but yours n mine... Unable to resist the feeling of that need of want at the drop off a dime... If I spoke up n whispered softly of the use my heart could get from someone like you... Do you think it be possible if you n I together could move.?. In somewhat of a dance so in sync passion couldn't refuse our desires holding on... As every once of what's been held back for so long pours...

I don't know...

Hi... Don't mind me... In jus entertaining myself... Living the so called dream... N I don't want nothing... Jus to see if I can get u to smile... So I can feel better myself... I promise I won't bother u to much or act like a child... I jus get bored... Don't know what to do alone... Sitting in this room can bring a feels down ya know... There's not much to do here at home... But I have u to fuck with... That is when u let me... When even ur life seems like there's nothing goin on... We don't havta meet... Believe me I don't need help filling in the blanks... In as random at it comes... Thoughts run wild when I get restless... It's like I jus don't wanna feel anything unless it's fun... Hiding the facts that things aren't as great as I claim... But I won't tell ur secret if u don't tell mine... We can be friends from a far... U know, protecting self from everyone around us like they're not worth the try... Ssh... It's between us as I jus wanna tickle ur ribs... Maybe touch a piece of u in that drawn out feeling of nothing... It's jus me n my sense of humor that had a fucked up twist... N my filter didn't work right... Even though there's things I won't say... But hey, no one special... U can ignore me n do what u do as I'll jus go on about my way... I'm jus looking to give whoever a chuckle if i can... Or make them think of a few details I've gathered on my own... Talking about life n general in ways so many have forgotten about... My hands won't reach for a grope... Nor will I come on to u in any way... I'm not looking for anything but I don't know what to look for if I did... I'm not lost, I'm jus caught in the middle of this thing I call wtf... That n always saying damn, fuck n shit... N I don't know what else to do with the down time i have so here I am... Talking to myself like someone's listening... Talk about weird huh... Jus wait until I get to whispering... That's when I answer myself like I don't want anyone to hear me... No, I'm not crazy... At least I've never been certified legally... But it's better than being mentally lazy... My mind is active... It's jus people talk to me for a while n move on bcuz they have their own lives to tend to... N I'm not mad I do the same thing... Pretending to have so much to do... So we don't get involved with the fear that strikes our nerves... I'm sure u can relate... N I apologies bcuz I don't mean to ramble on... I honestly get lonely n talk to my reflection in which I hate... It's what I have been forced to occupy my life with... Knowing if rather have someone around I can touch... Have sex, mind fuck n caress... Maybe take the way I like them n Yangon it into luv... Yet, it's so quiet here I can hear my chest pulsate a beat... As o leave the now n go back to the past memories I have no business fucking around with... Only if I had something else I could enjoy... I wouldn't be writing this bs n user the morn in my jibs... Creating movement with my lips... Funny how things change n the silence hushes tones in voices that go away... From a once upon a time ago to the echo the walls that do not speak... But I'll leave u be so I don't overstep my boundaries as it's getting late...

Only if words were true...

N what if I'm not what you want once you get beneath my skin.?. As if you realize I'm different than what your willing to accept due to there's not to many like me jus wanting to live n learn come tomorrow jus to do it over again... Like your thought process isn't on the individual I am standing singled out from the rest... Let's say I feel something that most haven't a clue of beating in my own pulsating chest... Are you gonna turn away n face the same direction as me as I'd be forced to watch you go.?. Unable to chase yet another luv that couldn't handle the next level behind the doors of our home... Who's to say what you're looking for isn't what I've come to be this far in my own life wandering with the wonder of luv.?. That it is me in the flesh you find so desirable as the initial gesture never fades away the rush... I'm nothing like you've seen before n this I know... N I've catered to the bottom that I was all others have every wanted until time told me there was no hope... I'm not much of anything to anyone after so long as voices change tones... N I jus don't wanna wind up during all by myself believing in someone new that swore I'd never have be alone... I've got one shot last to do it right n I don't know who it is that feels the need to want me the way I'd crave them coming to life... So jus so you know, this is why I hide... In the shadow within a silhouette that claims my face... I'm scared n not afraid to admit my heart has been done wrong n is cautious to the touch that grows attachments that somehow aren't an even trade... Are you not who you say you are questioning me like I've done something wrong.?. Living in the aftermath of someone else's issue left for you to decipher through jus getting along... Who am I but that one guy you met if it's all to come to close before we ever felt it to.?. I'm jus asking bcuz I know what it's like to lose everything trying hold on the nothingness as lies have found the truths...

It's the...

It's the smell of a woman that awakens a man's interest for the full affect... The feel of her skin that carries hey inner beauty to the next level to invest... As her character in intact with our without him yet better with him by her side... It's the comfort she gives morning noon n night that creates a more enjoyable life... Having the presence in reach so touch can caress n grops n rub a motion with being felt... Finding eyes on sights that weaken the wall within I'm which the climb would need help... It's the lil details from her smile to the shape of her body that turns lusts into luv... She a special kinda creature that provokes a man to give what he can in the middle of a rush... N as her style shows him she's all woman ready to be explored... He'll find himself opening up to the gentleness of her ways removing the shell from his very own core... It's the way she gets comfy when laying around that'll make a male wanna be still... All for a lil piece of a female worth a moment to become the thrill... As the glow upon her face that speaks words never written exposes what he means to her... He's weak enough to feel her in every way until it's ashes to ashes n dust to dust... It's the small of her back to the smirk she expresses when she thinks if him... N the way neither of them can go without a lifetime sinking in... Holding on to a rate sentimental truth that's so fuckin hard to find... Well past the initial likings that never ware off n gives depths to ask the reasons of why...

Goin through faces...

Seeing who's who's ones gotta look at a few faces along the way... It's not playing games but attempting to know what's good for self before it's too late... Gettin it where it's better than the last or cutting ties due to relations jus isn't gonna happen... Looking for the alignment of everlastin... From one to the next without so many bodies is the key... Then again ya never truly know how many it'll take to find more than a feelin willin to breathe... From blonde to brunette will blue or hazel eyes... There's no telling who it'll be unless on gets to moving with life... As some call it a dog jus trying to get laid when it's all said n done... Yet in a man's mind, if there's no true connection it jus ain't no fun... For what's shared if it's real will never hurt thr way the false intensions of the past have... So it's back to tryin to get to know someone n believing they ain't half bad...

Workin on the good life...

Tryin to better some shit to see some shit never seen before isn't so much to ask... Tightening up what's allowed to loosen up the mindset so the heart can have a blast... Trading in memories for jus one face that gets the point of relations simply wanting to live... Passion waitin on it's turn so emotion can decide on jus whom it is thoughts take dibs... Needing to have a more peaceful way beneath the sky that changes the scenery ready to be shown... One more step away from yesterday feeling the voids stretch shortening so self doesn't remain alone... In a more comfortable situation able to ease the fuck up n kick it with not jus any kinda friend... Goin as slow as movement can trigger enjoyment without the bitterness of that horrific end... With someone different for a change so desires don't havta retract... So the rumble within is caused by those hilarious rib breaking laughs...

Who's safe.?.

Is there anyone left that won't fade... That'll never flip things their way n wanna stay... So a man can get use their face... Or are they all in luv with the rain.?. Jus to have a train to complain... Who's hiding with no one in particular calling their name.?. Thinking the same thing wantin to feel the gain... I'd they're sometime out there that can properly use a flame.?. Without burning down the memory of a home ready to be claimed... Seems I should ask, "who's sane".?. Who's able to relate.?. Where's there real ones that don't wanna live in a cage.?. Not wanting to accept the hate, the rage n the pain... As the game of sherades isn't worth a kiss to taste... Is there a single being on my level wanting more than a part time mate.?. One that won't drive me insane... Having to exchange them feeling yet another raid the heart enslaved... Or am I to late.?. Are the good ones taken, locked down or even self made.?. Who actually wants memories to saved.?. To look back on n grin like they're still being embraced... Etched n in the mind engraved... Maybe sit with a conversation while a meal is cleaned from plates... Who can commit their own emotions so I don't havta deal with a life grenade.?. Goin for broke with a looney, nah, I'm not that brave... I wanna know bcuz I to have been delayed...

All smiles...

Opened n riding the vibe of the ribs from the goofiness ripping loose... Goin oh shit it hurts jus a getting along on another level of use... Listening to the harmony of the heart speak of intentions through the chatter finding sound... Kicking it with the horizon lighting up n escaping with every moment as a chance to get loud... Friends cutting up bcuz choice cannot resist the find of a lifetime... Loosened to the feel of comfort chuckling with a sense of humor that describes the look in the eyes... Claiming my without ownership as free will chuckles with the rhythm of laughter... Realizing n knowing what truly matters... Luv from like that perspires interest beyond the confines of depths exploding into the norm... Able to come from within n live never getting enough of wantin more...

The thing we become...

There ain't that much to feel when one doesn't feel like self... Jus wanting to live a lil bit n somehow be felt... Yet the wall constructed has been reinforced with an alert system around the heart... Sitting alone with the whole deck n not handing out a single fuckin card... Unwilling to play the same ol games that brought the solitude of the mind... Reasoning with variable outcomes n unable to open the gates jus to repeat time... I'm not feelin it on a daily as I find movement in smiles when I entertain others... Looking at faces with eyes takin an interest of what they don't know of me as a hidden luv'r... Lost beneath the texture goin untouched... Running from the concept of luv... Goin down in thoughts with no one around dampers the effect of joy affecting life... Yet the silence consumes the emotion held captive no matter the emptiness that comes day or night... The loner that tried to get involved a few times over resides lookin in mirrors for conversation that somehow seems to agree with a solo image... Reflecting the fear that crawls through passion afraid to do more than relate beyond the walls where others tend to cause so much fuckin damage... With lusts wanting to be provoked with ropes n moans as intent of pleasure is shown... But I don't wanna go back to being someone's everything always breaking down as a lie that brings out my version of who I was as a  hoe... I'm my own best friend n every now n again it feels as if I'm hollow... Laughing at the thing we become n words we choose to swallow...

Ready, set, done.!.

Names change tones as voices get lost... Emotions are gathered jus to get tossed... Minds accept a friendly luv'r before thrown away... Touch is felt as the skin is betrayed... Sexual attraction loving it up n goin to waste... Life rearranges movements to give to what escapes... Truths told never stands grounds fallin beneath the feet... Believing in sensitivities harden the heart in disbelief... Strangers meet n greet jus to go sperate ways... Bonds form friendships that torn into hate... Moving as one to wind up single n afraid... Thoughts find memories that have become enslaved... Whispers on pillows turn in to chatter behind doors... Feeling luv'd twists the resurrection of always wanting more... Faces find smiles that fade the expressions lookin somewhere else... Giving in to hope flips what's been felt... Diving in to a leap of fate send it doesn't exist... Lips tenderized by passion leaves emptiness within a kiss... Good things come along n rush into the bitter end... Dreaming become a reality of even lies that are lent... Pulsating the rush of desires finally climbing the walls to fall n break... From there beginning to the finished off lusts we are no longer the same...

She was done pretending...

She said she can't stomach the feel of it anymore... N that it made her feel like a self center lil whore... Always craving luv as in n outta relations jus got old... Telling me we all have a story n they sound the same as they're told... Falling into emotion n dropped from the hand that is supposed to care the most... The said she finally lost hope... That things were better off if she jus remained alone... Oh how sad it is that men do not find comfort in a home... As I shook my head n tried to reply... I got cut off with a few more words as she read my mind... She knew real men are so hard to find like a woman hidden in a crowd... N as she spoke I heard the opposing gender of myself relate through sound... Of how it's a dream fed to lil girls that never get their prince... As I to know the brutal misdirection of fairytales we need to dismiss... She admitted there was a time she was raw n uncollected... Unable to reason with an others needs as it was hey own twisted mindset that was rejected... Takin time sensed open her up as she stated, there's a balance that needs corrected...

I couldn't do anything but agreed as I nodded with her frustration through rambles that got to the point of self being inspected... For I to was lost the cause of two mingling as one... So quick to get caught up in the middle of a rush always coming undone... She sighed n whispered, do u ever feel like it's our own heads brainwashed to believe in this imaginary retardation of people wanting to do right by others.?. N as her eyes close I felt her disbelief in luv for everyone jus wants to be luv'rs... So we say in silence e for a bit n jus looked into the distance where everything felt like nothing waiting to happen... It was a dose of reality that showed me it's individuals are hard to find in a world based on a self righteous disaster that shouldn't even matter... Knowing the pain is gonna come for the signs tell us to keep it moving... Yet as we're willing to be someone to an other we wind up losing... Proving life itself is the joy once we learn what it is that helps us live... Redirecting comfort die to no one had anything good to give... N as I went through my thoughts she chuckled n gave a smile bcuz she said she could... N lemme tell ya, upon her face, it looked so fuckin good...