Tryin to believe...

When the cats got the tongue for the better judgement that holds in the relativity of use... Attemptin to decipher who's who before loss winds up not givin a fuck n the inevitable truce... Undependable words lose interest tucked away from the feelin only the mental understandin can fathom... Shakin the head in disbelief rather than gatherin the facts of what's best for moment to find comfort in the middle of what appears to be random... Goin through the process of not bein able to be self as if trapped within the mind jus wantin out... As time rolls behind the hands that spin due to needs neva makin a fuckin sound... With honesty breakin down beneath the hearts selfish wants that has no direction to correct the linger in life... How long til the motion boils depends on the patience ridin the nerves that goes unsettled tossin in the absence of light... Pulled back into another day of the same ol shit as if the one in which we are under the circumstances simply jus cannot live... Tryin to believe in an other with the trust that lacks the full package with so much luv to give... It's at the bottom of our depths where decisions havta be made to release the weight we carry in relations that won't allow us to be who we truly are... With one thought of takin shit seriously n to the ends of what hasta be done to regain the worth that makes what we go through so fuckin hard...