The possibility of closure...

I ain't tryin to get to gabbin at the gums for my bite will sink in n unsettled closure jus might set us free... U see I'm holding on by bare minimum here n I don't know how to go about it bcuz I'd like to believe that it's me... Even though I've mutter on muffled words that only come out when I'm alone with the thought of movin on... As I jus don't know how to tell u how the heart jus can't take no more sittin in ur hands to be constantly torn... So how can I say it..? Where's the courage I once had as I stepped to u jus to taste ur lips... Seems this friendship ain't what it was back when things looked like we were all we needed... As when I think of u now the only thing that comes to mind is that I've been defeated... N this lingers on bcuz I got in me to speak on the loss that'll end what my own emotion clings to as hope... As the movie on is prolly best to say the least so there's no confusion in between how we cope... Yet u ain't come my way to finalize a damn thing either... So how am I to put a stop to this bcuz we jus Mary be takin a breather... Knowin we both jus want someone to hold us tight... To hang on with all their might... N bein stuck in this situation jus hurts to the point where we could be happy if we jus let go... As the silence is neva outspoken as emotions are put on hold... Runnin outta time to build a life with someone new... All bcuz in our minds it is us no matter what fallin short of proof... Times gettin away n life is bein spent waitin around on dreams lost behind the nights where we're so far away from one another... Findin ourselves in the arms of other so called luv'rs... Ones in which are prolly doin the same azz shit... Painterly loving without the one that could fix how it feels to land upon a kiss... N it brings me to ask how much longer is it gonna be before we get on with this or we leave it in the part..? Bcuz something's gotta give n one of us hasta step up n acknowledge the facts... One way it the other this has to be addressed... It's doin nothin but making both of our lives a total fuckin mess...