Choices... Plagued by my own heart that's held me back... Believin in what the mind knew of as I was better off... The feel of the decisions left an uncannin void with a side of luv thereof that lacked... Lessons learned came the hard way due to my heart being to fuckin big... As gatherin my own emotion for I cared came to be past due... I laid down my bad habits in females that I didn't wanna miss... Stood up n stepped on like it wasn't shit... Then again if u know me that is a lie... I could neva want em to feel what I felt... I'm jus not the heartless type... I chose the direction that got me here... No one forced my mind to decide this or that... It's my own so it's not their fault... N to say the least no I'm not mad... What I got from each situation was me findin in who I am... N I'm happy to say I'm here... Proud of who I've become... For I  left no one at the bottom unless it was their voices that chose not to have me near... Actions cater to the will that shows what is actually real... N time spinnin needs wanted me to live that kinda life... As my own thoughts wrapped up my best n stuffed it away... Done with helpin the so called hype...