Two in the same...

I felt alive once.... Kinda like a past life that found its way into emptied dreams... I smiled as if it couldn't get any better... As I remember I was bein smothered for selfish needs that turned out to be wants instead of me... There was a time well before the change within that redirected my place in my own hearts ache where I had what I wanted here... Draped in luv so shallow only expressed through words that ended the battle of worth... Gone I went to be unheard even though there were perks... A will to be sat alone wonderin wtf am I... Literally through emotions I believe I lost my mind... Jus to come to in my own standin on what makes me tick... N the reasons given was those there of to her that I'd bneva be missed... In a time where goin all in spoiled the one I had to live without... As days goes by in another's eyes remindin me of the same ol shit as I do not speak that sound... Someone in which the magic could reassure me of what I'm doin is what they seek... Only if she'd see me for who I am still tryin to get her to come along n finally breathe... Two in the same as the identical person capturin my thoughts that jus may be blind... Thinkin what am I doin but runnin outta time... I was happy for a second time as I was revived yet neva accepted in yet another heart that went astray... N neither of them fell in luv with the flava of my name...