caught in a trap

non existent, somewhat invisible.
knowin the feelin of bein irresistible.
always the same tone that speaks.
yet luv so shortly gets a chance to breathe.
for a lil brief moment to live.
the heart is tired as the tongue is tied.
somehow the problem surfaces.
as worth loses its sole purpose.
time simply ruins it well before was meant to.
driftin solo after the devoted proof.
abusin the ownership set in place.
showin true expressions upon the face.
unable to hide luv turned into pain.
catchin self fallin in then outta bein same.
a ghost of a stranger returns as jus that.
back to life with a loss broken n sad.
forced to witness everything change.
as if moments were wasted now rearranged.
thinkin they were never the friend u thought.
cuz for them one actually fought.
the difference made that couldn't last.
for unknown reasons sent back to the past.
easin into memories that mean not a thing.
tryin to change the mind in which they cling.
the visual of a lifetime jus went astray.
attemptin to unload the images as they won't fade.
rottin in the head stranglin emotions.
it's a game of hide n seek with true passion.
here today gone with tomorrow's insanity.
to accept the betrayal is a maddenin reality.
once one has luvd with true intensions used.
all along never able to see the hidden clues.
softenin the touch of vulnerabilities weakness. caught in a trap pretendin to be happiness.
as satisfaction takes an undeservin blow.
feelings hate the rage that forms chiseled ice so cold.
reshapin what it can't remember as the truth.
able to look straight through u know who.
focus blurred in the eyes of a luvrs stare.
causin such a reaction character fails to care.
deprived of the one that matters the most.
after leanin in to the temptation of bein close.
takin the bait that spoke of forevers capture.
writin a rare unfinished book as the teacher.
so it goes nothin good will ever gonna make it.
as unanswered questions ask y r they missed.
guess its jus someone wasn't as real as they said.
deliberately rippin apart papers that wed.
nothin can ever explain the luv shared.
left to die in it's own cell once bared.
to give is to eventually misplace self.
peekin in the mirror gainin strength not felt.
as the resemblance doesn't appear to be the same.
takin every single piece of a lil thing called blame.
watchin the real u refuse to come from within.
resistin the urge to feel another empty grin.