regained

I leaned in n I told her, I will always luv u...


as I turned n walked out the our homes front door.
I had to let her go cuz I need a lil bit more.
thinkin feet don't steer my wrong n ever bring me back here.
I had to let go of the way she luvd in which is what I feared.
the games she played with my heart simply wasn't right.
sleepin on the edge of the bed every single night.
waitin on the descend for another to take my place.
n it didn't take her long to forget my unforgettable face.
I was dyin in desperation jus to be her only one.
standin as the man I was in her eyes goin completely numb.
she forced me to step out on the luv I luvd to feel.
as gettin over her since has been a lil to real.
I often wonder y she did me the way she did.
as I lay around the midnight hours under the grid.
carelessly she ignored the never endin emotion I spent.
the countless times I endured every blow as her smile bent.
n its been some time without her in my life.
but I recall the day I stood my ground n regained my mind.
she was no good for me the way I'd give n do what it took.
abused n overlooked standin in luv I didn't give her a second look.
all she seen was me driftin from her touch.
there's was nothin I coulda done but go on the muted hush.
Losin her before I wanted to only gave me reasonin with the truth.
as I regained what I lost in the comfort of me bein true.
she had me in any way she seen fit to do with me what she pleased.
yet all she ever needed was someone to blame so she could be free.
I know she thinks she's gotten the best of me as I got to off my knees.
but she's lost her welcomein the depths she captured in my dreams.
unable in a childish faze she couldn't maintain.
as the man in me never wanted to but eventually gave her away.
if I could go back n say anything else the day I quit.
I'd lean in jus to tell her, forget that I exist.
cuz I lost the meanin of me standin so close to her.
n of it, I'll never again speak another word.....