you shoulda told me...

 you shoulda told me you were more in luv with the pain than you were with me. because i damn near turned into you walking away from my dreams. as wild as they were, why is it i talk to myself? i hate the fact that it was you that i felt. and yet, here i am in this great big world tinkering with time. trying to figure out who to get things back to the way they were before you walked into my life. i ain't mad because i'm glad you're fuckin gone. but you shoulda told me you'd rather be with another so i coulda left you alone. and how you did me wasn't what i thought you would do. i believed me being who i was meant something to you. as i'm still ashamed to say i fell into your trap. so do me one small favor and stay the fuck in my past. you're a coward that never stood before me and said goodbye. just so the wonder of you would stay in my mind. i figured out your game and it's all good. even though it seems you served me good. you went and played my emotions against everything i am. damn near stripping me from becoming a man. and you just don't know you walked on the bottom of my heart. you were felt that deep as the flame fell in luv with the spark. life came outta nowhere when i looked in your eyes. and as you claim your truths are real they're nothing but lies. you came at me from every angle as i let you in. i let you bury yourself as i regrew my grin. six feet down with your azz in the air. i wouldn't fuck you if you were the last person who cared. there was no need in trying to tare me apart. i guess it was my dick that made you wanna play the part. because it wsn't me you wanted to get to know. i'm just a born again stranger looking for a home. you were jsut lost wanting for me to help you find your way. and in the dark i didn't anna see your face. you the one that fell and attempted to hold on to any piece of me that you could. as that lifestyle you live changed the way you look. and it was a sad day when i realized you really wasn't shit. as i tucked that moisture behind the moisture of my lips. never again to re innact that first kiss that sucked you in. i was about it from day one because i wanted to live. thing is you were just the one i needed to get outta my head. as i was forced to believe you were someone else as i was fuckin you in my bed. damn your friendship and damn your tone. i don't even fuckin like you so the is no luv. though you didn't havta clown on my emotions as i stood true. as i allowed years to by just to call a truce. because i need to know what it is we were. and you showed me with applause and that's why it no longer hurts. and yeah, i'm still chuckling because i'm almost back on top. and if you were on your knees i wouldn't even slap you with my cock. though the thought is you can serve me and leave me the fuck alone. it's like that because there is no hope. no matter how good your lips look wrapped around my girth. just close your mouth for you need not be heard. you shoulda told me i neve meant shit to you. before i gave in because i had no clue. you were just weak and broken wanting to use my strength. and even know i was strong enough for the both of us you gave up on me. that shit makes no sense even to this day. but i'm hapier now so stay the fuck outta my face.