outta my way...

u shoulda told me u were more in luv with the pain than u were with me. bcuz i damn near turned into u walking away with my dreams. as wild as they were, idk why i talk to myself. n i hate the fact that it was u that i felt. yet here i am in this great big world tinkering with time. trying to figure out how to get back to the moment u walked into my life. i ain't mad bcuz i'm glad ur fuckin gone. but u shoulda told me u woulda rather been alone. n how u did me wasn't what i thought u would do. i believed me being who i was meant something to u. n i'm ashamed to say that i fell into ur trap. just do me one small favor n stay the fuck in my past. bcuz u never stood me n said goodbye. like a coward so the wonder of u would stay in my mind. i figured out ur game n trust me it's all good. even though it seems u served me with a hook. playing my emotions against everything i am. damn near stripping me of who i am as a man. n u just don't know u walked on the bottom of my heart. u got that deep as the flame felt the spark. life came outta nowhere when i look into ur eyes. n as u claim ur truths are real we both know they're nothing but lies. u came at me from every angle as i let u in. i let u bury yourself as i buried my grin. six feet down with ur azz in the air. n i wouldn't fuck u if u were the last person who cared. bcuz there was no need to try n tare me apart. i guess it was my dick that made u wanna play the part. for it wasn't me u didn't wanna get to know. i'm just a born again stranger looking for a home. u were just lost looking for me to help u find ur way. n in the dark i left u bcuz i didn't wanna see ur face. ur the one that fell n had to hold on to any piece of me that u could. oh how that lifestyle u live changed the way u look. n it was a sad day when i realized u really wasn't shit. as i tucked the truth behind the moisture of my lips. never to reenact that first kiss that sucked u in. i was about it from day one bcuz 9i wanted to live. thing is u were the one i just needed to get outta my head. i believed u to be someone else as i was fuckin u in my bed.  so damn ur friendship n damn ur tongue. i don't even like u so u know there's no luv. though u didn't havta clown my emotions as i stood true. as i watched yrs go by ending in a truce. bcuz i needed to know what in the fuck we were. n u showed me why it no longer hurts. as i'm chuckling my azz of bcuz i'm almost back on top. thinking of u down on ur knees gobbling on my cock. yeah, u can serve me n leave me the fuck alone. we're finished as i've found my zone. it's like that bcuz there is no hope. ur lips just look stunning wrapped around my girth. so suck it up from the depths of my worth. just open ur mouth bcuz u don't need to be heard. u shoulda told me sooner i never meant shit to u. before i gave in bcuz i had no clue. u were weak n broken n used my strength. n even though i was strong enough for the both of us u gave up on me. that shit makes no sense even to this day. but i'm happier now so stay the fuck outta my way.