to remember...

do you remember that time when uh, oh yeah i forgot we don't share the same past. isn't it funny how the memories we're not allowed to recall make self feel like they just cannot be had? damn near as if life until now wasn't even worth the living. having useless images stuck in your head like somethings missing. but there was that one moment uh, way back when, oh shit that wasn't you. no disrespect it's just those kinda things we havta figure a way to cut loose. you know, never being able to catch a feel worth a fuck. as dreams comfort the feeling of being worthy of luv. as i'd like to think it was you for me some time ago but by now you'd be so far gone. think of me in the same sense of everyone you tried to luv that took that walk. it's just weird as fuck sitting of the edge of  wanting to remember something good to share. i mean how does it feel to know that everyone you've came across, they didn't fuckin care? and i see you lookin at me like i'm lookin at you like, hmm, wtf. is this just another friend to come and go so in need of the rush? as it would be nice to sit still and reminisce with someone for once. over a prior time that leads up to the forever making of the now that never needs to be hushed. because under my tongue there's just too much left over flavor i do not like. so i gotta ask, will you ever be that one to bring life to my eyes? creating something so beautiful before the end comes to call. giving some type of meaning to hope when it is no longer paused. in the process of thoughts later on down the road where we're kicked back with the feet up knowing the mind isn't alone. with pictures of our mingling hung up on the walls as happiness is shown. don't you see i'm sick of the struggling ache that has nothing to think back on. and if i can be honest, i'd enjoy if you became a part of my norm. but we're gonna havta reason with likes before we can step up to what the heart truly wants. there is no need in leaving a friend behind demoralized and crushed. so do you think we can begin right now n say, do u remember how we met? as a smile stretches the face with content we need to get of our chest. just put your hands on me and u can feel it beating and breathing, reaching for you. wanting to absorb you so the brain can put you to use. drifting through my dreams so i can awaken to you every fuckin morning. as i havta say, there's nothing about you that i find boring. yet, do you have what it takes to stick around. i believe you do and i think you should show me how. just give me a piece of mind that i've never had. because there is a me like you that just wants to be matched. to put together a slide show no one else can see. other than you from your angle for you were there with me. moving and talking and doing our thing. if i ain't for you please just walk away if you're just another fling. you see i come in peace and i never wanna do you wrong. i only want that something in between us that makes us feel like we belong. me being that recollection that lives in your smile. damn, i wish it were you i've know since i was a child. what we coulda been all these years woulda been oh so fuckin nice. and yet, here we stand on our own just wanting to feel alive.