Talk...

 I'm not trying to let anyone down... I don't like lookin at frowns... It reminds me of what i feel that no one can see... But you'd know this if u truly knew me... Yet how could u when i stay hidden behind closed doors... Avoiding interactions bcuz there's something more... In the swing of hinges that refuse to move... Just smile n keep it loose... I'm not what you've come to be accustomed to... In a world of who's truly who... I don't like looking at pain... Not even in the mirror that never seems to hide my face... So grin for me in moment when i ain't feeling this life... N ill return the favor once u need me to tap into ur mind... It's just me n the way i am... Beneath the smile when true grit defines a single man...  If u can understand that then maybe there's comfort in ur hand... A softness in the way u relate in a convo free to speak... We all have wants n unfulfilled needs... With an open mind damn near reaching with fingertips touching what u need not fear... I'm just a friend who's not in luv with the twist of emotions followed by endless tears... I like to laugh... N I'm too busy chasing cash... U see, i believe in how trust creates bonds... I just ain't into the how so many claim to be anything but lost... Bcuz single is a self righteousness faking the end result...  N that is to be felt by one person who accepts all of self's flaws... Though that's another topic as i ramble from a place beneath the ordinary tongue... From depths trying to surface as there is no rush... I'd rather giggle with how time passes on by... Without the hardships of relations that changes people into ugly memories when they were once sighs... So gimme something real i can nod my head too... Say some shit that means nothing but everything to an honest truce... Be friendly to someone who doesn't expect anything in return... Or don't, i ain't gonna get mad for I'm not looking for my turn... I'm on some other shit as I'm quietly just moving with the flow... Hoping some day i get over myself n someone gives me a reason to open up to the definition of a place called home... But ssh, if u repeat it i won't admit it's ever crossed my mind... Like u my vulnerability is a secret avoiding another hype... U can lie n even be stuck in a phase... But we're all human just wanting to hear a certain voice whipser our names... N until then I'm just here the same way you've come to be... Living in a different sense of free... Willing to get along for some sorta norm that's escaped ur days... Real is the new fake...