I must be...

I must be tripping bcuz i told myself no matter what...

n from there who in the fuck knows where life defines grunts...

vowing to remain on my own for as long as it takes...

somehow falling in luv with the solitude saves the gestures upon my face...

it's funny how the silence can bring an ease to the heart...

showing the mind it is ok the relax n go with life's lil  sparks...

having a friend within that touches depths deeper than any other could invest...

thinking relations is a convincing death...

for at least i'm willing to stick around...

making the best of how the loneliness consumes each pound...

thumping for the peace found behind the eyes...

knowing no one can get to the sanity created from lips that lied...

off in my own world as fucks have no need to be given...

nor emotions to ever be risen...

the ache transformed into a piece of mine all to myself...

n some time ago i realized i didn't want help...

as faces emerge from outta nowhere wanting to have a turn...

yet my secret is i only feel friendships that come along every so often that eventually hurt...

I must be crazy to think i'm better off without a body to hold at night...

that's what they all say is the best feeling when releasing sighs...

though i believe it's not another that gives the joy to sacred smiles...

n it makes me different for knowing the difference between two opposing lifestyles...

one in which caters to a more passionate nonsense that defeats individuality...

n the other that remains intact due to a mental personality...

having laughter that lasts as long as days can be lived...

never to end unlike unreasonable jabs to the ribs...

hearing promises to self whisper under breaths when attempts recon to get close...

as i distance myself from lusts trying to invade my home...

fearing change will wind me back at the beginnings of where i left off prior to the mingle...

wishing i woulda jus kept to myself n remained single...

with a desire to keep things simple i'm jus not like everyone else...

i threw the cards in when i didn't like what was dealt...

in belief with the slide of hand that steals willingness hoping to play...

slow to over come yet another loss bcuz we were not in the same game...

i fell through the smoke like cloud n came to know deception very well...

resting the thoughts that linger in words that are no more than spells...