i'm use to being alone... i like it... i can do what i want... it's my life... i get a feeling of anxiety when around others for too long... it bothers me... can only do short spurts... guess i'm living the single dream... i don't enjoy getting attached bcuz attachments end... n the heart confuses the mind... losing hope... all in jus wanting a friend... one in which i found within... looking at me in the mirror that'll be with be as long as i'm alive... so i'm good... living alone is a choice until i decide i want a lil more feeling to give... relations mean nothing due to most cannot agree upon condition... claiming they need so much more that hasn't been earned... damn near demanding the thrill... causing a temper mental outburst bcuz feelings forgot to allow the mind to accept self cannot be owned... as convo lasts about as far as interest loses sense for i'm somewhere else in realities search n find of truths jus paying my own fuckin bills... owing no one an answer to the way i am... yet easy to relate with for my heart holds no hate of differences... so it's jus me... having preferences... choice... my own thoughts... without the mental control to act as a so called man... i live to enjoy the simple things waiting on my time to allow the better of me to be given to what would be an honest loss... that is if it were to ever disappear... transparent like luv rushed to the disbelief of why they left... i'd rather gather myself n roam freely talking to whoever i wish... to hear voices that aren't against me doin my best... for me isn't selfish... it's a way of life due to no ones got me the way i do... moving within my own motions... happy n content to remain loose... my luv for self is strong but never cocky... humble n not once arrogant... truthful to the matters i feel is someone else's business... n i ain't paying anyone to perform services for my money is mine until the day i fall over as life is over spent...
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