Once they're gone past the moment of no return...

You've affected everything about me n I don't know how... There's things that will never make sense yet I get on with the now... Knowing life without u isn't the reality I thought I'd have for all time... There's something about u n only u that I cannot seem to ever get outta my mind... Only if I could share with u the outcome of how I like u that never changed even here today... Idk, maybe I should find someone else n jus leave the thought of u to be erased... Yet I've tried that n u still come to me when I least expect it... N I cannot look at another woman without seeing it face n is bs... There's times I feel u close to me n others where my skin feels nothing at all... But I get it n the fact remains my heart fell for a friend that wasn't mine too get involved...