Reloading...

I remember back when it felt like I found it for once... Shit fell short of promises as emotions began to run... Trampling on the trust to get loose from the hectic words that took me by surprise... I never thought from a friend I'd wanna tuck myself in to the creases of life n hide... Yet the pain that comes from an empty heart that cannot be filled will tare anyone apart... Making the belief in relations truly hard... Yeah I think back here n there to remind myself not to jump in no more... To watch for triggers that clamp down on to attachments waiting to feel their way around behind closed doors... No one can trust sex as it is... N the best thing known is worth comin out to play with the movement of lips... But if considerations was taken luv wouldn't be do difficult to find... If real existed I'd be in the arms of a woman that I cannot get outta my mind... As what was is no more n acceptance performs is duties to move on... Still fuckin the visions that play out so beautifully in my dreams... Coming back to reality as it's jus me kept safe n far from the dismissal of emotions I jus do not need... I purposely go with thoughts to kill the feel that have up on this side of the attraction that's didn't even wanna fuck... Those in the past that still linger in life lost me walking away so I would've become numb... I've reconciled with worth a few times n it's always can't back to me looking forward to who might come along... Rinsed n cleansed of an others impact the was allowed as self has been corrected back to raw... Feeling nada after the bounce settled nerves finding the tickle that helps... In my own lane with no reason to show nor tell...