fuck the memories...

Waking to the void just wanting to cry... As the emptiness isn't so shy... Though it has nothing to do with being alone... It's just the heart's been touched by a hand so cold... With butterflies etched into its walls... Whispering when dreams fade so raw... As tears sit in the wells of sockets wanting to be released... Times come upon the eyes opening that the drifting leaks... Feeling the hope of self dismissed by each drip held in... In silent moments loosening to the life ahead without a friend... Lost in mornings not wanting to move... Needing comfort here n there so the mind can call a truce... To ease the weight of memories cut from the now of such absence... Damn near as if the sun was hidden behind the clouds presence... Keeping life to a dull overshadowing of haze... As the taste of a name has the head shaking no longer in pain... Knowing it's just  the thought that creeps up on the blindside of stability... Caught off guard by what never had a chance to perform with motions so vivid smiles were to be created by its agility... Yet it's the remains of particles that sneak into the a.m. looking to damper the mood... Just to rise from the pillow to say fuck it n get on with the day awaiting ones next move... Removing the sheets for a wash for the tainted slush dripped out... Laughing at how self is reminded of pieces of used to bees without sound... Proud to have felt both sides of what was considered luv... With birds floating through the air one more time like it cannot have what's come of what's been forever hushed...

on the hunt...

i've been trying to find pieces of me for quite some time...

digging in to aquire the fragments blown into particles somewhere here in life...

as the puzzle of me slowly comes back into view...

a different version of me resembles who i used to be removed...

as if a stranger to the one in the mirror as still as stares can wait...

looking for answer in my own eyes jus before questions fade...

knowing the clown is the same as the mime muted as if there is no tongue...

silent for words have no need to create a voice until i define the hush...

goin in as deep as depths can be felt to evolve...

lingering with the satisfaction of becoming who i am to be as a problem solved...

reaching for a foundation in which transforms truths upon my face...

as the display settles the nerve beneath the skin unseen by sights that gaze...

there's a new version to come from the hidden expression held in for that right moment to be...

as i search the most sacred places within me...

feeling my way along the walls in the dark knowing the morning will come...

n when i awaken life will once again be so much fun...

i love me...

maybe i like the way it feels...

n it has nothing to do with u...

have u ever thought that i've been truly healed.?.

or that i'm only interested in the way life moves...

relations isn't a must in my heart...

it takes away from the freedom to roam...

as i'd rather not play a role within so many parts...

the turth is, i'd rather be alone...

for i've fallen in luv with the silence...

n the solitude has become a friend...

allowing me to do as i please...

in true form unaltered by ur liking to my end...

having to have every second wrapped up...

unable to sigh in a moment to be...

always tucked in between wanting to leave n trust...

torn from the comfort of who i am on my own to placed in dreams...

maybe i don't feel a fuckin thing...

it's possible i lost the tickle in the texture stroked...

simply not wanting fingers to flow to what's to me as a fling...

i have no hope...

the patience of being on my own has completed me...

there's a certain type of ease i live with...

bcuz of how i found my way without anyone else i've been freed...

tamed by i've come to know my worth sits upon no ones lips...

so in some strange twist i need not temped to luv irritations...

when it's hard enough for me to even like others...

as i sit without the confusions caused by someone else's expectations...

i believe all i crave from time to time is a luv'r...

a specific type...

as i go on about my way n live my life...

being someone's everything doesn't appeal to me no more...

it hasn't for quite a while to be honest...

i have nothing in my depths that needs poured...

i'm happy jus doin what i do even if it isn't my best...

but i don't think you'd understand where i'm coming from...

loosened to how i let go of passion...

a poison to a mental state of of coming undone...

emotion is a bother to a different kinda fashion...

worn with a confidence not having to pose with fake smiles...

the loner within ain't afraid to speak...

in tuned with what is in fact worth a while...

able to fuckin breathe...

ur lips...

I keep seeing ur lips in the middle of the day... Moving to syllables saying my name... Shaping sounds n then u smile... N the feelin I get gets me goin like 100 proof turned up worth the while... Moving with thoughts following u through my mind... Skin on skin tasting the fantasy as u appear in the middle of daydreams so nice... Yet it's ur lips as u lick them staring at me... Oooh how the pulse peeks... Thinking about u wrapped around the erect version of how u make me hard... As I can't get enough of how u nibble ur way into my arms... Listening to how ur lips kiss n create a suction noise sliding off the head... Damn, what I'd do to watch u play with me in the middle of the bed... Feeling the way u slurp a lil jus prior to other motions coming to life... Craving for u to take me for a ride... I see ur lips persuading me to put them to use... As a fixation massaging pieces of me with a bit of tongue rollin to the same fuckin groove... Talking about yeah set on repeat until you've claimed my demeanor coming undone... I see ur lips sippin on me n I believe ur the one... Mmm, jus like that... As I flow with the vision I have of u in my imagination's grasp... Feeling u crawl up on me... Lickin n pleasing until the pressing ur lips meet heavy pants in which I breathe... Ur lips moving is my weakness jus so u know... I want them touching places only u can go as u make me moan...

emotional motion...

there's no wrong way to feel... shit happens as we fall in to even heal... goin with the flow of emotion is a matter of easing up on thoughts... tenderizing the heart for a better cause... sometimes it hurts so fuckin bad we literally hate the one thing we have to cling to... n others are so powerful luv is transformed from likes in such a way the body moves... n when passion drips from the eyes the most vulnerable sensitivity creates a rush that can go one of two ways... as at times it's in the same direction jus before most likely chances will switch up to leave intent sitting alone trying to forget another's name... goin through the motions of lusts until one sticks around on a level of true comfort... living in a perspective of not everything will play out is the answer to depths failed left wanting more... landing in arms wrapped up in some other shit that can't wait until later... yet slowing the soothe becomes as wild as a raider... lookin for the treasure buried in unused cravings settle down... heard in a form where words give meaning to actions strolling along somehow found... n if the bottom drops out it's cool if the change flips the switch for a lil while... setting aside the feels of over doin a thing or two to resurrect the smile... there's no correct reason not to give a go when the pain has had its way... we all havta play the game...

how long.?.

How long will it be before it wears off.?. After the heart claiming to forever go soft... When the breaking of silence finally steps up to play the deal... As honesty slips from ur lips with the true presence of the way u feel... When the heart's had enough of not truly getting what it craves... For it would be my face that gets lost with the drift of exchanging names... When in time to come will the nights fall from bodies touching.?. As the pulse slows back to a subtle thump jus before the irritation begins its rushing... Delivering moments u swore would never lose interest in me... Prior to u treating me as a stranger caught in the tides taking over the shallows of dreams... Do u believe me to obtain the pieces u need to connect within... As hope plunder into a pile of a wasted attempt to mold me into some sort of lift... So u rise to the occasion of false pretenses fluttering as if passion is real... All due to ur too quick to give away the most sacred desires once again to be healed... When will u determine a different state of mind of who i am to u.?. Transforming pure tendencies of luv into distance fading with expressions on the vibes of nerves wanting a new... The wonder wanders with thoughts of actions thrown into motions reaching for depths... Where will we be when i do not allow myself to cave to ur speed to be felt.?. Unwilling to actually know who it is rolling around deep into the presence of the moon... Filling the mood with particles of questions building for a later date to crumble sitting alone in a room... So how far do u expect relations to get if all there is is the demand to be luv'd.?. As the seeking of answers will need to know where ur mind is pondering on scenarios with a free sense of trust... How long until the heartbreak settles into the nerves.?. As we realize to true definition of worth...

Well rested...

Alone with the comfort of nights at peace... Silence touching the darkness as another day leaves... As still as the body rests with the mind... Time seems to no longer exist as emotions has died... Lost in a war prior to the evolving of hope... Life chages as acceptance unfolds... Grounded to the ease of quiet moments treasured... Letting loose of thoughts confused by pleasures... Residing beyond the settlement of light... Deep into the sighs that create salvation throughout the nights... Lonely has no need to speak of pieces that do not fit... Nor carry words of false hopes pressed against lips... For desires have come to be a thing if the past... Showing human intent has transformed at last... To remain subtle in the solitude so praceful it breathes... Giving truths to foes claiming to be more than luv'rs in need... To drain passion from fingertips as the squeeze ends what persistence hides... Knowing the face in the mirror will never lie... Watching desperation through eyes that witness use... As the heart has found its depths simmering with a truce... Believing luv is a trick for others to get what it is they want... N pulling away from what is bewteen the legs as a lust... A tool to provoke sappy nonsense of unreasonable standards... To be turned n pierced into the flesh of the chests scars... It's easy to sleep without the corruption of so called friends... When the mind has no wonder to be in a constant state of defense...

When the old meets the new...

When thinking of another aches in the heart... As time unfolds without a luv once shared that drifted apart... Witnessed with eyes of the change that creates a different version of reality... With the mind transforming new memories on the reel playing with sounds relativity... When caring falls from depths to be collected by some stranger wanting to take emotion for a spin... Stealing the tickle away from preseasoned ribs... Taking the pain from the drip dried out well past its time of dying... As hands soothes the texture of the skin once touched by an old friend... Showing sighs still live in the presence of memories ti be make are more than the attempt of spent... With all the lingering loose ends somehow felt as a worth jus needing to be pieced back together... What was loses its desire lost somewhere in the gathering of the new of better weather... Able to feel the sunshine on a cool breezy day... Life goes on in lanes switching with signals given to evolve with as familiar face... When the distance has come to be the final curtain of wanting to live... Thoughts fear the patience of luv waiting to see where true intent rests... Hoping endless is a term used tgat comes from a sacred place within the chest... As self needs to decide what is to become of unused lips... Having no recent recollection of passion released through a kiss... With who was a supposed to be at the edge removed from the scenery of what is an afterthought standing strong... Like sunsets that change as not a single one of them ever go wrong... Being the beauty displayed as how much is missed out on... When dreams come from nights held in an embrace sensitivities into a familiar form... Nerves ripen to the taste of giving the mind to ones own past... Goin with thoughts that finally wrap around , at last...

Breaking luv down...

What is luv but confusion caused by emotions all stirred up.?. Desperately demanding to consume the mind for the way it feels as the lips stay hush... Reconfiguring a thought process that gets tangled in free will... Side stepping proof jus wanting to believe needs are met in tbe moment of a thrill... Hooking catch phrases to tones as laughter gets embedded in the ribs... Moving in motion without a train of thought as passion craves to live... Opening up to hope breaking the silence attempting to resolve the struggle within... As the battle no one can see is faught to protect self behind the depths of a grin... Losing who resides beneath the skin felt by desires coming to life... N becoming a twisted version of senaitivities waiting on use to feel the trust that derives... Trying to hold out for a friend jus past the hype where everything that will be comes together... Sneaking into the heart to touch the curves that flow with fingers of a luv'r... Raising expectation to an all time high every time the loosening caters to the comfort of laying still... Closer than strokes can eliminate how another failed to attend til the end of time as depths pour... Reaching for temptation to drop gaurds for no other reason than an attraction set in the design of the eyes... Untying restraints chained to old moans n groans upon the tongue flipping lies... Thinking will it be the answer to wonders that remain... Or fall straight through as a moment spared with nothing much more than a lesson gained...

round three...

Sssh. put on this outfit, get on ur knees n remain still...
I have a game i wanna play jus for the thrill...
I want to look at u as my fingers roam ur pretty lil body...
Ur such  fuckin hottie...
Don't move as i break out the suction dildo for u to perform on...
You're gonna luv making this porn...
Slide back on it stuck to the mirror leaned against the wall...
Grab my cock n feel it in ur palm...
Enjoy the real thing orally as u begin to ride yourself into an orgasm...
Raise my arousal as ur do as ur told to make my toes spasm... 
Two for one without multiple partners bcuz I know u like sucking as much as being stuffed deep...
As down ur throat I go making it hard for u to breathe...
I seriously wanna feel ur lips wrapped around my cock...
Suck n fuck n don't u dare stop...
Get it in there deep...
So when I turn u around n bend ur azz over u beg me to fuck u until u scream...
Knowing that initial push would prolly make me nut...
As I hold out jus ling enough...
Thinking, damn the feeling of ur lil pussy sliding over my shaft would be so fuckin nice...
Playing peekaboo with ur clit rubbed claimed as mine...
Head felt inserted...
Slowly on the inches forcing u to sound perverted...
Then back out...
Easing with the feel of nerves that make hormones create sound...
Jus to shove it in a lil more...
Groping ur throat as ur twat pours...
As it's taken out to the tip with a forceful grunt digging into the depths of ur walls...
Punishing u raw...
Hearing u gasp for me... 
Like a naughty lil freak I so need...
I continue to feel u slurping on my nob...
Back down on a hard cock...
Damn near bursting at the seems...
Loosened to one of many fantasies u seek...
Telling u u can have me once you've came...
Calling u all sorts of names...
Used u are for the gain of pleasure that on my own...
As u bust one as u moan...
Vibrating my dick still in ur wet mouth...
Reaching for me to ejaculate to the very sound...
N, boom.!.
Simultaneously our satisfaction fills the room...

now is a good time...

if i need to speak up you can do your own thing...

worth steps with every one taken to earn a place next to the way i breathe...

moving without the static clinging to the discomfort of us...

so decide before i come to say some shit you ain't ready for as you're claiming luv...

what is it you believe me to be pushing me to my limits of wtf.?.

i shouldn't havta tell you what it takes to respect my trust...

i'll do me if it comes to having to protect myself...

n no i don';t no part of u without a friendship more then felt...

shallowness isn't an attractive reality i do to fuckin well with...

so evolve prior to attempting to walk in hand getting closer than pressed lips...

that shit ain't free nor for jus anyone playing selfish twists...

stand on your word without speaking to show intent going the distance gripped...

held in palms draped with fingers never to let go...

with a face for life to be embedded in the memories made with an easy flow...

knowing a cocked head isn't needed to adjust to the correction of who the fuck u are...

i don't fuck around with the depths of my heart...

so if u wanna descend with the mind as emotions fall from the start...

be real n define your own presence wanting to reveal what you feel as a spark...

or let it go due to i ain't the one for entertain your precious lil feelings...

wtf do i look like waiting on u to get it together when there's life in the dealings.?.

i'm jus gonna chuckle n leave you where you stand on some fuckery...

strolling my freaky azz on about my way so happily...

unable to relate to your childish like mentality...

with a chalk line of dust to surround the remains of your memory to undergo your autopsy...

as silent as we met...

loosening restraints for you to play elsewhere as it's u i left...

standing on your own bcuz you refused to round out...

so let hear motions take place without a sound to ever leave the mouth...

i can do better if it hasta be told in such a downplay of wows...

as ticking is time to get it in for the comforts to settle here n now...

What's never been said...

With every day that passes pieces of u are felt less n less..  Jus to come back to the silence of the night as ur still getting my best... Remaining in a luv put to rest helped me live in my lonely so called need... Damn i thought by more of be more than free... Yet i think of u all the time n it makes it hard to move on... I don't seen you believe in anyone else the way my beliefs mourn... N it's harder knowing ur smiling without me being around... I truly thought it was me that gave ur heart that thumping sound... As i sat in the motionless moments wondering if u ever thought of me... Only if i could tell u how that shit change depths screaming for the envisioning of new dreams... Bits if u drifted through days as ur face came n gone... N i often thought with me there was something wrong... To break down to the care essentials that transformed my humble heart into a machine aware of how it is to be touched... Bcuz of me crave i had for u i witnessed myself catering to a past life falsely luv'd... Waiting on what became a realization of a friendship gone... As i felt the need to change the way carried ur presence for so long... N the pain didn't quite dig into emotion the way i thought... Aa it was an ease to let loose of the restraints i held personally that tied me to the way i was suck on a pause... For i was free before i even came to terms with moving on... Remembering what it took to live ice since found my worth... N i can't be happier it didn't last dye to ur you're jus one off those useless drafters who didn't wanna get burnt... Unable to believe in anyone bcuz u have no reason within... Yet u don't run a muck in my head no more for this is what's never been said cracking my own ribs... Laughing jus knowing in those emptied moans that missed u i found something deeper than u could ever reach... I found the real me... Wasting away as if u were under the bed taunting as I me afraid to be alone... Yet when my feet touched the floor to see if it was u u were gone n once again took my hope... Like a child scared of the boogy I laid in my awakening left to rethink who it was laying in the dark... Going back  forth on will i ever feel the way i felt when we were closer than air could ever keep us part... Tears fell n they were expected for it was a deeper kinda passion thrown with a sling... changing the reality in my own thought process that luv has nothing to do with rings... I belong somewhere in someone else's arms where I have a distance from what's never been said... Coming back from the dead silence of my own heartbeat pounding with the thumps tapping like fingernails in my head...  Collected I came to as a shed u from the layers u had gotten beneath... haunted no more i rolled over on the creeping misplacement i allowed u to leave me... struggling to emerge for years I drowned in pillows that absorbed my loss that I still do believe u have never cared for... so released u were some time ago before these words never meant a fuckin thing to how my heart now is poured... somehow reminded of ur deceit better arrangements chosen has given a rebirth of hope worth the appeal... but thanks for showing me what i don't need back when i didn't know i needed to heal... wrapped up with u in my life going down the tubes... as I can honestly say I see why for u I have no use...

 

Making a mess...

Craving the thought of having something one cannot have... Hidden in intent never seen to save the possibility driving self mad... Lingering in desires is the presence of someone gone untouched... Felt in the tingle when crossing the mind is an sense claimed for the rush... Driven to the ends of passions hormones find it hard to stay intact... Not one every gaining the chance to interact... As the entertainment behind the eyes is the definition of perfect coming to life... Tucked in depths to pleasure moments alone is the need to ask why... For the simple necessity of pure tenderness would go all in... If the unreachable one gave in to being violated with a well earned grin... Only then could the imagination run as wild as fingers creating heavy breathing... Transforming wants into needs of every lil vivid detail appears while the body begins overheating... Gripped n fondled the textureçs nerves would reason with the display of Altoona untangling before them... Landing with a sensitivity to please the beast waiting that has no end... Having a purpose to finally devour the taste moans follow... As tones bounce off walls echoed in a room once hollow... It's the irresistible life moving in sights of another line no other that triggers such a reaction... As at will knees will gladly be taken to serve up stone complete satisfaction... Acted out like daydreams causing masturbation in the middle if the day... In tune with how they accept the fact that it's them that would benefit from the skills moaning obscenities being used to her one name... The ahh from the explosion is unreal as the intensity locks up muscles unable to move... Making a mess of all the lil things held in that are let loose... Seeing their fade as they cum simultaneously bust... Locked in to the visual of well played out lusts...

move on...

Sitting in the aftermath with the pain... They're ok with that it's not them stranded holding on to what's left of the gain... As their smiles live on jus past the breaking point... One is damned paused with the feel of the void... Knowing they can move on so fast like nothing every mattered... As the pieces of the heart through life has been shattered... Corrupted by their presence they helped make believe would never retreat... Making every motion trickle with tears as emotion tries not to speak... Finding distance in the comfort aches in the cores disbelief... Waiting on them to give notice of how they cannot move on without us as a relief..  A sigh that clings to the ease in which they breathe... Yet knowing hope even knows they will never turn around n come home... As the feeling of lost creates a bitter hatred luv'd for it's all there is to know... Scattered behind closed doors is the memories cut short... Hiding away in a sacred torment to heal as if a whore... Used n thrown back into a world angry as fuck... Betrayed by the one person trusted the most when it came to luv... With mental scars to remind the sleeve to tuck the heart until friends are made... Having a hard time feeding in to expressions upon another's face... For eyes conceive the power if a stare lies within the contact made... While still remembering what was felt in a lonely place that captured the will refusing to escape... With choices to be taken into consideration before attempting another rendezvous... Digging in to the twist n allowing it to partake fir a better comprehension slung up by the noose... They don't care if ruins becomes of the depths we once shared as desires fall apart... Disappearing life the breeze that blew them in as attachments depart...

what's good.?.

leaving is an option if u ever decide to forget that i am ur friend...

being mistreated isn't something i wanna attend...

spent emotions ain't for the taking without the consideration in tones...

as acts of motions deliver proof far beyond the creation of moans...

hope jus can't be the thrill that i'll stand for jus any ol fuckin thing...

for the balance of worth on both ends of relations has no relevance to wearing rings...

it's either u have what it takes to consider me as a positive presence or it's over...

time i do not have to waste on some prat time, half azz, selfish kinda luv'r...

so telling u bye won't be shit no matter how i feel with a slap on the knee...

once i have seen ur true intent it's the makings of a moment to decide who u are to me...

i'll chuckle as i walk out of ur life for good come the day i ain't shit to u...

so feel free to collaborate what position i am to carry before i cut u loose...

a burden of drama based bs always having an issue with details u can go fuck yourself with...

have some interest deeper than the luv u seek can flow...

for when the hype wears off it'll be u n i standing face to face alone...

as eyes will witness how u come from within...

so i can determine what's good for me escaping the loony bin...

hate is no comfort of mine to live by to fill ur disruptive train of thought...

i need a more soothing ease that's natural to the touch if imma go soft...

i can stay or i can go...

i do not intend to entertain a foe...

hearts spoke...

the closer u got the further i sunk... the sky turned pink to highlight the blue as u gained my trust... the intensity of ur touch gave new meaning to worth... n in the silence of clinging to u it was like a spiritual rebirth... felt it was, deep beneath dreams so rare to reach... n it was u i found lurking in the middle of nowhere as a need... as the sky opened up for a morning to shine on us... we laid motionless without sound as our bodies were flush... held in arms creating sighs so powerful hearts spoke... n in a sense of relief for some strange reason i believed i'd came home... with the lingering through life eased for the mind to grasp a feel... damn, how u felt oh so fuckin real... soft n tender as sensitive as perfect could be... feeling the breeze dancing with fine hairs u made it so easy to breathe... total comfort embraced me to what was believed to be my final resting place... so far gone from reality i could hear ur heartbeat whisper my name... for the time it lasted everything made sense... it was as if all walls tumbled as u walked through what resembled my defense... it was whole n pure to the definitive aspect where life began... n as we were as still as the sun hiding behind the clouds pausing for us to take it all in... poof, like that, u were gone again... trapped in my imagination wanting to be freed... as i awakened to an empty presence no longer feeling like me... wanting so badly to return to what was the best night of my life... hoping to claim u for a lifetime as mine...

 

as i smile in disbelief...

 as i smile in disbelief...

tell me how it's gonna be... yet speak to me like i'm that mutha fucka that u allowed ruin ur dreams... it's all good to know how it is... so go ahead n talk down on me like i'm one of ur kids... u can do so much better while ur all alone... lookin at social media every night through ur phone... say it like it really is... n show what it is you've become as i listen to the chattering of ur lips... always on edge as if imma do whatever i can to hurt u... seen as a threat to ur way not wanting to change for a better use... all bcuz u believe we're all the fuckin same... what a fuckin shame...n funny ur young havta look at what broken truly is... diggin into their heads before they ever have a moment to live... it's more sad than pathetic n that's jus as real as it gets... something u claim to be about while ur worth is a mess... yet i'm good for a couple of rounds so u can attempt to prove ur point... jus don't be surprised if i ain't what once filled ur void... leaving u hopeless n miserable bcuz u forgot who u were... even making flirting awkward as it's two birds... yeah i know, u don't need no one n all that shit... but u fail to admit the feelings u possess n what it is u miss... u try to act hard as some self proclaimed bitch... n u don't care to see yourself for u are not weak as u spit... as every other word is a chip at ex luv'rs that can't be heard... ur not as strong as u pretend to be as the truth in ur eyes lurks... fighting yourself in the mirror acting out what character u are to become... oooh, what fun... i bet that comforts u late at night... while ur snuggled up cussing prior memories for not pulling through with life... so jab me a jibber of what a man is to be... since u know how to conduct yourself like a woman with a fowl tone aimed at me...

Alone in the dark...

She believes she has issues... Lost in the silence of solitude... Unable to adjust the world outside..  Her idea of happiness is to be left alone to die... She thinks she's the only one... Betrayed in between the lines of promises said n now done... Feeling the need to fling birds aimed at luv's intent... Claiming everyone is the same so she has a reason to vent... Creating a place when the darkness evaluates her mind... Changing its thoughts as her emotion hides... Bitter from choices she hasn't accepted as her own... As the smile upon her face is shallow n rarely shown... She drifts with obscenities cut loose from the lip... Without a lick of common courtesy missed... The pain delivered her to the ends of her worth... To soak up the tears like it never hurt... She's caught in hey own disposition as her eyes tell the truth... Yet trust is the one thing in which she has no use... Dead is emptiness of her dreams... Blackened by a once was tgat never had a need... So behind the scenes she climbs walls pretending she's better of... Damning anyone with hey sharoened claws... Digging in to flaws to break down every angke wanting to get close... Living in fear she sits in a lonely home... Running around in her head taking to herself... Refusing to every give in again to being felt... Bcuz the negativity touched her as she feel in luv... Keeping her most sacred desires locked awayas the tongue had been hushed... To remain safe from the monsters that brings the ugly to life... There is no hope for passion has resigned... Inward she spun a web to catch herself slipping... Restraining voices attempting to get through kisses sipping... She's scared but won't soeak of the matters of who she really is... She jus clings to a simpler way to live... Laughing in the dark as her chuckle echoes down the hall... She listens to it fade has her heart stalls... Luv'n the distance of decisions tgat helps ber sleep... As the pillows comfort the way she breathes...

ease up...

i can't be what rests in their design... life is better if u don't wait on my luv... i'm jus a friend in the makings of like... n that stare you've been aiming in my direction is too much...  don't look at me... i ain't as easy as a smile to work me loose... my emotion needs more than a pretty face plucked from dreams... as words are gonna havta be placed on mute... it's not that i can't be luv'd... it's my train of thought that's dug a lil deeper for something else... witness to a gaze make of kryptonite to settle the rush... shallow expressions swing the grin on hinges claimed to be felt... when it's me within my own that has been unseen by something other than sight... guess u can say i've gotten tired of luv'rs unable to deliver a promise set adrift... able to see the sands without the water to create a beach in the mind... i don't want it to be u bcuz i'll never be missed... chasing passion through sex that touches the skin... caressing the surface like stroking a pet... i'm not allowed to have u for ur patience hasn't slowed to adapt to the truth of once lived... going for the moment that tends to end well before i'll ever get ur best... ur a dime a dozen thinking i'm someone u can transform into this image in ur head... as i'll never be enough to the twinkle u have for me right now... fading like the memory yet to admit my free will will disturb ur sought out reality manifest... feeling sensitive to ur own presence as mine is jus around until u find what truly heals ur frown... even though i appear to be this vision for i fit its silhouette... but it's my own shadow having its own shape that define the conflict... all due to demanding what is to be earned that lingers in my chest... i'm not ur sponge of hate as u are not my bitch... gullible is not attractive to say the least... if u want me ur gonna havta slow ur role.... to come to know the individual that isn't afraid to leave... as forever isn't here to determine depression not wanting to be alone... needs over wants is a state of worth... n the way u gawk scares the fuck outta me... so eager to give yourself to a stranger u feel is a good thing like it could never hurt... as if ur solitude was opened up to set u free... too soon is my belief of the glaze not yet evaporated in ur eyes... why is it me to replace the empty void in which u hide as u attempt to escape.?. running into arms to heal u doin everything u can to give it a try... or have u jus not evolved from the last time u were burnt by the ol familiar flame.?. hoping this go around pans out... please save me from falling straight through u... reaching for anything to grab a hold of that isn't in ur eyes telling me i haven't gotten a chance to stand proud... i refuse to collapse without a reason to trust...

feeling ur flow...

feeling it throb as it wraps around the head... sliding slowly to a snug fit as if hormones are fed... stopping half way to take it the tightness squeezing the shaft... dripping down inch by inch until landing at the base of the mass... filing the void that needs to be felt... as filth comes from lips flung to make the gush melt... talking dirty of how it feels between a sweet set of legs... reaching for vocal chords to moan with the display... ridden to preference as walls are touched all the way around... hearing bodies move in motion as sound has been found... true to the sexual act of desires wanting to cum... hips rotate n swing with a pop to create the penetration stroked with a twist n a shove... as speed picks up for the fit loosens to the texture thrusting... with sighs  doin more than their share of adjusting... getting closer to a climax with every lil movement to spring it free... holding out for the pleasure to enjoy how wet n hard mix with dreams... up n down n around goes the working of the mind... putting in an effort to make it last for perfect to be defined... with the gripping of hands around the neck n breasts catering to fetishes on the loose... daring each other to get off so the sensitivity can simultaneously go kaboom... as sweat rolls form the pores... knowing jus once won't be enough as there will be a wanting of more... as one as it's right fuckin there... spittin out obscenities for the full affect coming from the core... aaahhhhhh, yeeees... ur the best...

the sexiest thing...

confidence without arrogance is the sexiest thing one can obtain... the mind is on some other shit that is way more appealing to those who can relate... unbreakable n so much more funner when the smile rises to it's peek... being serious n humorous in the same smirk holds the key... with a smooth flow that delivers worth without a negative tongue towards others... unaffected by judgement's n never selfish for self is as real as what goes on beneath the covers... with poise in movements that define the mindset to a tee... not once showing the lack of courage to be... humble in a way of life that describes rational thoughts... claiming sexy without vanity being the only thing important to the individual within getting lost... as a calm nerve soothes the presence of a stable interaction no matter the situation that comes along... knowing self absorbing is as ugly as an attitude gone wrong... so positive thy will is true to good vibes seen in motion... as beautiful as one can be to earn devotion... taking nothing for granted as every moment is vital to self esteem... believing in who one is a feature of character having quality without the acceptance of others blowing off steam... assured in their own that it's ok to be alone until the vibe is met... so the feel they have to give comes correct from their chest...

makes no sense...

thuggery n this g shit has gone too far... when will it end so men can feel what's real in their hearts.?. convincing others it has appeal so they can shine... creating a visual type of ignorance females like... not having shit bur keeping it real in a hood based mind... knowing the atmosphere is fake with its cut throat way of life... ruining the will of young women of what a real individual is... as hate eventually slips from their lips... falsely accusing hard working men of being the same ol thing... seems to break down females is hinges that swing... coming n goin at will bcuz dudes cannot commit... as others are held to standards so beneath them they submit... feeding into the malarkey everyone people are literally acting insane... as boys have their egos n their image they havta maintain... hard asf with drama based bs spit into the wind... slinging someone else's lyrics as if their own from their lips... mindless immaturity's has become the face of gullible children playing a role... n to say anything one's considered a hater to overshadow stability's hold... like dumbing down is forced or one's a bitch... shit don't make no fuckin sense... pretending as if a show must be put on to prove their better than others... when in actuality all it is is buffoons who refuse to get with more than running through luv'rs... on display due to the shallowness within... yet it's attractive to belittle females with an arrogant grin... it's not a culture thing but the bottom reaching for what they cannot have... as it claims no singled out race as every shade cling to misbehave... so they too can have given to them what they cannot earn outta respect... having a lack of integrity so foolish it's ugly to watch... as so many go along with the disability bcuz their imposition needs another notch...

do me...

mmm hmm... put it in ur mouth... enjoy how it feels... suck it... yeah... like that... yeah... yeah... fuuuuuck... get it ... right there... shiiiiiiiiiit... take it all... taste my fuckin cum... yeeeeeeeeeeah... fuck... gobble me up... play with me... on ur lips show me who u truly are... mmm... get it... yes... yes... yessss... don't stop... ooooo, use ur tongue... suck... twist it... cuff my balls... fuck yeah... there it is... feel me... here it comes... yuuuuuup..... catch it... ahhhhhh.... shiiiiiiiiit... get the tip... yeah... keep goin... more... more... moooooore... oooh.. ok... stop... i'm cool... damn u... it tickles... mmmmm... untie me... 

I have these thoughts...

Drip on my chin until i feel u squirt... Come undone upon my face as orgasms tweerk... Grinding to how u cum with each stroke... Ate n tasted as ur gasps crave my hard stiff cock penetrating depths no longer alone... Have a seat n twist me ur thoughts... Place ur wet pussy in my face n get lost... Rubbing my tongue to fit ur groove... I jus wanna feel the way u move... As ur thigh grip snug to my cheeks... Making it hard for me to breathe... Get urs n think about my cock... Reaching back to grope its girth as hard as a rock... As many as u can get... Keep goin as i hum on ut clit... Jus to allow urmind to crave my shaft... Climbing off to slide down my body until ur kitten meets my mass... I wanna watch u straddle me... Face soaked as u grab my cocks width... Placing the head I between ur lips n slowly inserting it as u slide down inch by inch... A lil at a time so it doesn't hurt... Feeling my girth... Length touching every sexual thought felt put to use... N as u land with it all the way in u i wanna look at u sitting stll... To take notice i the way my hard thick cock makes life of ur will... Squatting on my erection having a looksie... Buried in ur tight sweet beautiful lil petite pussy... Yea, I keep seeing u on top on me... Riding my dreams... Breasts bared n naked so I can see ur skin... My hands feeling the curve of ur body as fingertips sink in... So beautiful u are ready to fuck my eagerness loose... Enjoying how deep you've placed me within u... Pulsating with ur walls  gripping what is real... as u begin to grind my cock back n forth for that extra feel... Allowing it to consume ur sexual desires... As sighs are released n moans come out to play with the flame afire... Lifting to ease back to the lowest point... Filled to max compacity as u rise to drop back down... Finding ur rhythm as i listen to u how we come together to make that wet slippery sound... In n out n around u go with ur hips all in one motion... Proving a point to show me a use for devotion... Fucking me for ur own pleasure as u cum... Yet i ain't ready until ur pussy can't take no more n goes numb... Telling me to get it with a filty tone... Forcing me to bust with the curling of my toes... I'll enjoy how u slip over my dick as it reaches for ur heart... After cumming on my face jus to penetrate the feeling of how tight u are... N if i'm too big, u can work it loose so u can take it in ur depths... Digging into ur g-spot as u gush with sweat... I have these thoughts that I want u to bring to life... As ur looking down on me with one hell of a sigh...

in between ur legs...

lookin into my eyes as u feel my tongue slide through ur pussy lips nice n slow... head felt by ur fingertips as u moan... it's a thought that\i crave oin which i don't wanna do without... feeling ur clit in circular patterns as i taste u in my mouth...  you'd be getting urs the way u want it... pleasured until the nerve tingles from the kisses let loose from my lips... enjoyed beyond the expressions on display through motion as i jus want a piece of u... to feel u move... rotating ur hips with the skills pressed to ur desires... looking down ur body noticing how i refuse to give up until every last nut is admired... i dream of licking ur juices as they come from within...dripping from my chin to create a puddle on the bed... face deep in passion holding on to ur waist... legs spread before me as i into a new reality fade... focused n at ur tones mercy trying not to fuck any time soon... i jus want to go down on u to prove to u i want ur woo's... those pretty lil sounds the vibe from ur throat... released uncontrolled into the air as ur curves are groped... touched n ravished with a sincere stroke to ease ur mind... watching u come to life i jus wanna witness as i peek up arch ur back as hormones climb... reaching altitudes with ur knees as ur thighs squeeze for me to stop... as i chuckle n give u a minute before i show u i missed a spot... commencing to wear u as a facial piece all night long... from the front to the back my swivel is thinking of ways to hum me a song... To be buried tongue deep in ur crotch licking ur eyes into the back of ur head... Mmm jus to be that close to ur orgasms needing to be put to rest... It's funny but I'd definitely please u as i stroked my cock... Jus to feel the the steam from my breath bounce off the texture of ur crotch... Tasting ur juices attempting to drive u mad... Hand wrapped around my shaft... I'd give u head to watch how u quiver when u cum... I'd get off on it jus bcuz... 

until the end of time...

where is the end that claims lives.?. all the sooner than later bs is so fuckin sneaky it never lasts til the edge of life... falling into the descend is the focus on a friend to walk off the face of the earth... anything less is a waste of time as it's temporary memory that havta be reset when the feel wears off of worth... rubbed like a woman's make up back to factory set basics with a wonder of luv in the eyes... as if self is to be lowered into a grave alone bothers character checked from within the middle of life... prior to promises that shift with tongues filth that swore it wouldn't know what to do without... wow... left in the moment to discover jus that... waiting on time to wrap days into comforts that do not move so fast... to get to the taking where there is no return... slowly creeping along to enjoy a bit of something real from the silence can be heard... as together becomes a belief beyond dreams concocted by thoughts that run wild... knowing the hype is lusts rushing up on emotions demanding a gimme now presence as their other side smiles... so done with the bs is the transformation of realities jus wanting to have a chance to remain the same... until death catches up to legs getting it in with the same ol face... goin the distance it takes to emerge at the a lifetime looking back at all the shared interactions that create a friendship so rare... acting a damn fool n as silly as laughter can handle the laughter shared...

Life goes on...

It sucks, it hurts, n we must move on... Another reality awaits the smiles curve moving to its norm... Letting up on the restraints to allow life to evolve... With good things to come as comfort revolves... Spinning the mind of the possibilities that heart is yet to accept... Leaving errors in the past where corrections are quietly kept... As onward releases what we truly thought was the answer being naive... Burying the memory of what was for the now of yet to come is more of a dependability... Loosening to the fact that happiness is a will wanting to live... Not an after thought of careless lips of prior chapters forcing a wedge for change to be missed... The twist aches, breathes, devours passion jus before eyes can see... Touching a mindset where adaption chuckles with all the unfulfilled dreams... Thankful for a chance to be reminded of how self rounded out... Reminiscing later on with a smirk due to what is would've never been if the end back then kept lingering in tones tgat make sounds... Letting go isn't easy, fun, nor harmful to growth... When the toes are kicked up come one early morning with another that fits who's to be known... Looking forward to what days are ti bring side by side... From a time where trying to figure out desire to embracing the transformation of like into a luv speaking through sighs... In the moment at last with a friend opened up for they too have been around long enough to get the bigger picture... As the silence gives to heartbeats in a simultaneous thump pulsating together...

who to choose.?.

options in choice waiting to figure a few things out... going from one face to the next wondering what kinda friend is to be found... who to get close to n who's a good time here n there... seems the mind settles the heart jus long enough to give in every so often to hear its cheer... from this one to the retreat slung into someone new... luv wants to be chased when the mental state of comfort knows better than to continue to lose... having decisions in a variety of differences eager to get loose... attempting to trigger the configuration of pieces misplaced... losing the connection of a body to land with fingertips on what's said to so much more than heartbeats that race... trying to decipher which life to go with in the way it changes when another comes along... looking at their reality as is it what self wants when the fit desires to belong... jus needing to slide into the groves of someone as if the tuck  smooths out curves dug to deep to fill themselves... being as careful not to get sucked into the selfishness of a foe taking jus anyone to cater to how their felt... it's a pickiness that balances pros n cons on the teeter of emotional interest... mature so the weighting of alternatives can be pushed to the side for that one jus close enough to perfect in their own silliness... witness to each possible luv'r drifting in n outta their own personal selection with patience holding on to musts... avoiding the deceitful gimme now type that have no depths as the luv to play in lusts...

only with u...

anything go's when it comes to u... that's what the heart wants to do... whatever comes to be is a gain felt as a truce... jus to feel u closer than air as umove... whenever the moment reaches for smiles lifted up... there's no limits to my willingness... wherever is a mindset craving ur luv... as bounds are not restricted to ur happiness... however it comes about... time is patient to see u come mornings light... forever being the comfort of now... loosening for ur presence to spend long night... together is the bond unbreakable as us... making u an equal in my life... whichever lifestyle we decide to live within as flush... enjoying the yrs to come on one infinite ride... the pleasure is mine as i accept u feel it too... clinging to reasonable stipulation made of common sense... as leisure as putting the work in to make it happen for the sake of emotions on the move... goin further than dreams could ever imagine worth spent... whether good times get rough of bad times lingering on... we as one are the answer to how we coexist... members of a relations on another level of how depths are poured... calming temers with a tone spat from each others voice to ease the tension of this world gone astray... laughing uncontrollably as we're one in the same... neither any lesser than the other as friends trust an honest face... having no restraints to capture who it is we will become side by side saying one another's names...

i jus want u...

i jus wanna walk up on u n commence to kissing on ur lips... walking mine down ur cheek to ur neck... sucking on ur flesh... tasting ur sweat... smelling ur scent... as i fall to my knees slowly... using my tongue to lick on ur body... around ur nips... nibbling jus enough... as my hands grope u... feeling u beneath my fingertips... with heavy breathing trying to control myself.... knowing it's u that fuels my desires... n as i land before u.. pulling ur panties to ur ankles... lifting ur sundress up... putting my head where not even u can see me... i wanna bury my face into ur pleasure coming undone... to hear u moan... to enjoy ur skin as i sink in... unable to stop... wanting u to get it as many times as u can... loosened up... giving in... grinding my will until u pop... again... n again... right up to the moment as u try to get away.... n i force u to hold still... like a beast eating his starvation away... jus to hear u beg... please stop... please... for u can't take no more... the sensitivity being too much... as i release u jus to come back up... inserting a different feel of joy... diggin.. thrusting... showing u how bad u turn me on... deeper n deeper... listening to u become one with me... moving to the excitement that's come to life... looking u in ur eyes... noticing u falling into the design of mine... as we simulatneously implode... gripping each other as we twitch... jus to lay still tryin to catch out breath... jus long enough to capture the full affect... i jus wanna do u.. jus bcuz i can't stop thinking about how we'd meet expectations coming unglued... n the passion we could share... i jus wanna get tangled up with u behind closed doors... putting on a display of how much i actually care... as u can jus lay back n feel all the thoughts i've thunk n how with u i wanna play.... doin more that locking the tumbler to keep us in... as fantasies come to life... as u become mine... n i as urs to serve ur every need... from ur head to ur toe... my sights cannot get enough of how ur body curves... i jus wanna step to u n give u something u would luv over n over again... from me to u... i jus want u...

Come with it...

be exactly who u want me to see... for who it is i witness u as is who u are... switching shit up once we get goin is jus gonna show ur fake as fuck... n to jus to draw me in to a false reality tryin to be what u think i want... that goofiness loses the respect given as a one time chance to keep it real... n i'll be unable to carry on with anything deeper than a so called friend as emotion i will peel... they're second hand next to truths allowed to be seen as a worth... anything less than who u truly are is a lie said to my face as our eyes connected believing in words... be u n a reason to fuck with u will remain in ur favor for as long as we can keep it goin... otherwise i won't think twice to overlook the thought of how ur doin... that deceitful nonsense ain't no kinda attraction when u cannot come from within... living behind a mask to gain a feel u know damn well will end before better days gather for a memories grin... step up or step to the side so use can decipher who it is wanting to enter my heart... bcuz it's the one thing i cherish the most n the last thing u are allowed to affect until i know for sure u can create art... without tones changing in due time bcuz u can't keep pretending to be someone u are not... so think for a minute prior to aiming ur all in my direction putting depths on the spot... i ain't free to jus anyone mingling in to my comfort like a chameleon... stand on ur word with actions to back ur natural flow n we together, our smiles can share the same reflections... jus be so i can focus on the blurry vision coming into view... or we can do whatever doesn't involve me n u... beauty sinks further in when it isn't forced to be seen by blinded sights as that's all their is... Come with it...

dead roses...

goin for days without anything to say... who's friend are u not wanting to see my face.?. if hate is what u feel jus lemme go... i ain't gonna fight to kiss azz on a daily jus so can wear ur throne... we don't havta live under conditions in which cripple emotions running for shelter... it's jus too hard to  be satisfied with the hopelessness of the heart starving to find comfort in a dweller...  i can't be as miserable as the discomfort u luv so much.?. having an issue with every other thing u cannot have ur way... it pains me to havta shut down the roller coaster as it twists me to the point here with u i refuse to stay... if this is who u are u need a more disgruntled individual to disrespect with ur selfish intentions... bcuz it isn't me that will put up with it any longer as u believe it to be ok to cause an unreasonable deception... claiming to luv me yet u throw fits when i wanna be who it is i am... treating me as if i do not matter to ur childish behavior forgetting we were once strangers n we can be once again... reality is u havta matured enough to earn my worth with the way u avoid a common conception that this takes the two of us bringing each other to life... n ur jus a neglecting arrogant self absorbed degenerate to the health of my own mind... i didn't come around for u to break me down so u can enjoy the way it hurts me every time... u can keep the false hopes n the tongues lies of having me in around for my own gain... for ur nothing to give a reason to fuck with how u put a glum presence on display... but u cannot witness what the mirror is blinded to so we need to decide together to walk away from this side show so we can get back to a more enjoyable life... i no longer want u to be my destruction clinging to my side... ur ball n chains is a wrecking ball to my thoughts as ur taring me apart... i jus can't do the topsy-turvy bs n need to be done with all the bitter azz remarks... ur not what i thought u were so this is it... i'm releasing u from my grips... as it was ur very own flame burnt me from the inside out... dead roses were done the day u plucked my nerve with the way u pout...