ease up...

i can't be what rests in their design... life is better if u don't wait on my luv... i'm jus a friend in the makings of like... n that stare you've been aiming in my direction is too much...  don't look at me... i ain't as easy as a smile to work me loose... my emotion needs more than a pretty face plucked from dreams... as words are gonna havta be placed on mute... it's not that i can't be luv'd... it's my train of thought that's dug a lil deeper for something else... witness to a gaze make of kryptonite to settle the rush... shallow expressions swing the grin on hinges claimed to be felt... when it's me within my own that has been unseen by something other than sight... guess u can say i've gotten tired of luv'rs unable to deliver a promise set adrift... able to see the sands without the water to create a beach in the mind... i don't want it to be u bcuz i'll never be missed... chasing passion through sex that touches the skin... caressing the surface like stroking a pet... i'm not allowed to have u for ur patience hasn't slowed to adapt to the truth of once lived... going for the moment that tends to end well before i'll ever get ur best... ur a dime a dozen thinking i'm someone u can transform into this image in ur head... as i'll never be enough to the twinkle u have for me right now... fading like the memory yet to admit my free will will disturb ur sought out reality manifest... feeling sensitive to ur own presence as mine is jus around until u find what truly heals ur frown... even though i appear to be this vision for i fit its silhouette... but it's my own shadow having its own shape that define the conflict... all due to demanding what is to be earned that lingers in my chest... i'm not ur sponge of hate as u are not my bitch... gullible is not attractive to say the least... if u want me ur gonna havta slow ur role.... to come to know the individual that isn't afraid to leave... as forever isn't here to determine depression not wanting to be alone... needs over wants is a state of worth... n the way u gawk scares the fuck outta me... so eager to give yourself to a stranger u feel is a good thing like it could never hurt... as if ur solitude was opened up to set u free... too soon is my belief of the glaze not yet evaporated in ur eyes... why is it me to replace the empty void in which u hide as u attempt to escape.?. running into arms to heal u doin everything u can to give it a try... or have u jus not evolved from the last time u were burnt by the ol familiar flame.?. hoping this go around pans out... please save me from falling straight through u... reaching for anything to grab a hold of that isn't in ur eyes telling me i haven't gotten a chance to stand proud... i refuse to collapse without a reason to trust...