If u somehow found out I was jus tryin to fix my situation... Would u understand why I cannot find the time to step into relations.?. If my truths told u I fuck with others jus to see them smile bcuz it makes me feel normal for to the pain in which I live with hurts as I hide... Knowin I'm decent with those I come in contact with yet live a life where in which I work so much bcuz all I can do is try... If u stumbled upon me in the dark n u heard what truly goes on... Would u be able to relate to me n the way I've been torn..?. Giving every n anything to overcome my struggle so I'm not homeless again... Even though I don't have one as I am one hell of a man... Fallin apart in silence as everyone thinks I'm this happy go lucky fella fuckin with their goochie's so I too can laugh... But what if u know I was depressed behind closed doors as I couldn't feel my worth at all... U see, I went in at a point where things were on the up... I gave in n caved in n found out I cannot trust luv... Even though it's the one thing I have to give as people tend to be more chipper when I come around... The clown with no face paint that forces fake expressions that never make a sound... So what if u seen me for what I am... If u heard me cry as my head was in my hands... Lost without a friend in my solitude twisted within... Willin to reverse what has been... As I won't tell my secret to anyone as I'm afraid to be touched... Goin without what everyone else takes for granted as I sit alone what once was...
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