help.!.

eyes are watching... hearts are counting on me... life's taken a turn... chains grab n bind the need... i can't let em down... as my hands still feel as if they're tied... dads gotta come through... they've already seen past others lies... searching for home... no one is willing to open a door... this legal world will not take a chance... as i hide my tears n more... leaking in silence... giving seven days a week as it's everything i can... my babies are trusting in the only one they can look to... by the will of my hands... as it hurts knowing i trusted others who never cared... as life got turned upside down in a rush... my eyes fight the moisture as relations can wait... doesn't seem any of them get me going untouched... i need help i cannot find... people have forgotten what humanity is... all bcuz it's not their lives... passing judgement over something i am trying to correct... the pain at times gets so fucking pissed... i fight back as i have no quit... as for when i look in my kids eyes i fall apart... the twist, the drive, it all makes sense... i jus wish someone would have a heart...  i feel like i'm dying inside as i wear myself out... the individuals taken outta context... made to look as if i cannot be trusted... yet lil do they know it wasn't me to give up in the middle luv's intent... as invested time took a turn... redirection lost it all... i was made to look as if i were on dope myself... knowing at times i even crawled... neva to give in to a lesser life... as my back aches from all the work... feeling the effects of a choice affect everything i've eva known... yes, i have worth... as it's a financial estate that cripples my chances... i reach but they're all the same... waving me away as if i'm scum of this earth... there's no compassion n my 38 jus wants to take aim... thinking what would mine think if i was forced to take what is not mine... contemplating what if i can pull something off... as the repercussions if not successful could harm them more... but i cannot stall... i'm all they have to pull this shit together... n time i'm running out of... i jus need a moment to put my money on the line... as this torture holds me as if it owns me forever crushed...