Scared I am...

Afraid of being luv'd by an other that's jus gonna eventually leave... As it feels like I've emptied the best of me... I try to find pieces I haven't used as of yet... But the later it gets the more I lose the final stages of interest... As I fear the comfort n tell myself emotion is weak... Seems my reflection in the morning neva agrees with me... I'd rather die than to have someone luv me again... So I know my opened heart won't wind up to the pain I can't stand... Scared I am of what others can do... As this feelin of bein alone has ahold of this fool... Frightened by someone who isn't a friend... N there are so many that cannot comprehend... To live n not like will bring forth the tide that swallows u whole... N once feelings get involved words become the weapons that destroys a home... It petrifies me to think of the loss that comes before I've done givin all I have... That chance of a lifetime to get it right that I can not seem to grab... Those who feel u will eventually tare u apart... So why in the fuck would I let them in my heart..? Gone I may be into the mental aspect of life... It's jus gonna take one hell of a woman to change my mind... I'm good with the freedom as of yet here where I lay my head... As to find a female that jus wants to share a bed... It's non existent due to the feel of a body stuck like glue... Yet one day, I'll give in to who..?