Endless days...

As hard as it is to smile I find it to be the only way to chase away the pain... Behind the curve on display I hide jus like u, lost to the possibility of gain... Even when they think I'm a goof lookin to find that chuckle in my rib... Home is where my happiness rests n I haven't been there in a few yrs as it's missed... Crackin a grin wakin to mornings where pure luv reaches to live... Pulled beneath the truths givin everything I have to give... To find normal once again so mine can come back home... A battle that has me fightin day in n day out as moments roam... Given endless days to the sacrifice where work is at any time, anywhere, the only thing to correct the intent of old flaws... Unable to have a life that most live due to emotion has shut down for the better cause... I jus wanna go home to where my heart had stopped beatin waiting on me to find my way back... With my eyes on the ground afraid out the contact that hides the facts... Alone is where life sits jus wantin a place of my own... Somethin I once had before I tried on luv n lost it all when I was the only one wantin to be grown... N I can't show my face bcuz from the other side of the screen I ain't feeling much of anything... I'm jus waitin on the moment my expressions are as real as the way I breathe... For the ache u cannot see drives the man in me to limits very few have ever felt... N it's self that relies on the will to move my feet as the head tilts... Lookin ahead tryin to find another coarse of action that jus might bring the joy sooner than later... So this saddened feelin will find its way along without me as the imitator...