Listen, lookie hear...

Whatcha wantin? Whatcha afta? Is it who u wantin me to be..? Or are ya chasin my mind to run circles around whatcha truly afta? Don't slip thinkin ur gonna get me with that twist in ya hip... Do u think imma not feel u up like the freak I am blowin n tastin kisses from ya lips..? What's it ur afta lookin my way so ridiculous..? I ain't cha typical opposing gender flippin ur own mind against u til ur crisp... Who do u think it is I am ur comin at half steppin like Ya did the rest..? I'm on some other shit n ain't got time to vent with ya in harsh words gettin my best feelin pissed... This here u see is me bein somewhere else mentally lockin down the heart without it pushin out my chest... So again, whatcha tryin to find out before u spit venom as words as weapons neva the less..? I've been where ur at in ya mental state of mind goin down in flames claimin that immaturity of ur yesterday... Betta step ya game up n listen to ya self in which angle u directin that seductive seducin leverage u grip within ya frame... Shuga coated candy laced in a stare don't work this way for I need not the trap of how good ya think ya snatch can lay... If u can catch the drift in my float straight up n breathin, I will not change for u as I will remain the same... Don't underestimate my lean if I give in to ya suffocation smotherin ya own train of thought thinkin I'm anything less than who it is I am... Whatcha feelin u seem to want creepin up on me holdin u at bay as a man? U see, it's not that I'm not interested by far as I jus don't wanna be hurt waitin on u to appear in true form from within attemptin to land... Whatcha workin with hopin to crack my safe n steal what I'm willin to give with my own two hands..? Fr..! Consider me the way u keep up on Ya self before u run ya so called game my way standin still... Here in plain sight in my way to be seen ya gotta rise to the occasion outside ya minds capabilities to understand I'm not a woman but I can feel as splittin hairs on the back of my neck can't stand the chill... If ya wanna play, hold ya own as an individual with that thrill for me that'll neva fade bcuz for ya I will not spill til time wraps around the clicks goin under... I don't have gills... As I'm afraid of deep waters for the current has an undertow that claims lives here in real life... Don't speak n I won't be able to hear u lie... Catchin ya actions as moments within movements find me attendin the attention u seek... Wrapped up in more ways than desires can vent from the internet of sexual heat... I'm jus me feelin my way along as I know words can alter what it is u do... Jus be u... N the breakin u the fuck off will be a mission every fuckin time I deliver myself to ur needs... From pleasure to the tease jus before I drop to my fuckin knees... Mind ya own n find yourself as time plays out... Then maybe I'll come around to u bein felt as like turns to luv n is allowed...

u gotta show me...

it's so easy fallin in luv with u.
if u lemme, if u want me to.
sounds strange like how do u control it.
allow me to demonstrate thru the b.s.
bcuz u gotta show me who u truly r.
if there's any chance of us neva to part.
decipher with me the mystery of us.
opened n barred, mentally touched.
this is me as if opened for u to witness.
with reality as my only emotional twist.
I have learned of hands that smear.
n endured the feelin of disappointin fear.
lost once luv'd, I am pure n waitin on u.
with ur past jus make a truce.
emptyin some space so life can appreciate ur heart.
endless luv would luv to know who u r.
to level with u as you'd neva be alone again.
this one, this chance, this is a real man.
wantin ur hands in my plans.
lemme collapse into ur truths.
gently intrude so u know for u there's use.
one day at a time, slowly intertwined.
share with me time.
with the ability to get the fuck down.
here in the now...

Thoughts...

ve been thinkin... N I've been patient... I've been places that are now ancient... Felt the highs as low had the feelin of left alone... N home came n went as I felt as if I don't wanna go on... As pavements took me to different arrangements... Back n forth in between phases... Luv forgot about like a couple times when I actually tried... N even I can't speak for the others that had cried... For I've been there on the same end I thought was funny... Yet I to was lookin for someone to truly want me... I've had a few thoughts of hmm's on the tilt in my mind... Fallen into luv for the first time I damn near lost my mind... Lookin at a way effort failed as I neva went back... I remember how I jus made my way along as it felt like I was gonna snap... At the lowest point somethin within simply could neva quit... I'm jus sittin here thinkin we're all dealin with the same ol shit... Thinkin no one else gets it... N we all know that's an excuse thrown into the same pile of bullshit... It's funny how expectations go to far as the wonder floats in the heart... Daydreamin of where to actually start... As it hit me as still as my consciousness could still beat... Even I was in it for me... For luv is selfish to a certain degree... Jus until emotion gives in to the possibilities we think... Choosin what's best as the mental weights reduce the feel of defeat... As we say me me me me me.... I'm jus laid back n driftin off tryin to make sense of the way I am... N I've come to notice we all have somewhere we've been to change the way we were enhanced... Just livin n doin what it is we do... I'm jus sittin here think about u...

I'll be back...

I've been there n one day I'll go back... Yet under different circumstances where no one is under attack... Without the expectations that lurk behind backs opened up... I'll go back when it's actually the mind that is content with the rush... As stayin to self is hopefully worth what all of us would luv in return... Awakenin to the birds that chirp simultaneously with unspoken words... Where the roll over lands comfort upon my chest... As bodies lay motionless listenin to the hearts endless reps... Pulsatin so smoothly as fingers touch the fine hairs in a brush like slide... Givin the attention to the reason we sighs... I'll go when I'm ready to release what it is I have to give... N idk when that'll be so let's jus live... Taken moments in life to enjoy for self to find that chill... Relations don't always havta invade the happiness of the thrill... One day I'll show myself to someone I don't wanna go without... Til then we can be what friends are or neva make a sound... The matter isn't mine to dwell on for the pressin jus isn't felt... When she finds me n can relate in life I'll accept her help...

What is it...

Am I the issue bcuz I see life in a different way..? On a level in my own mind alone upon a stage... I'm jus doin me in a way it makes sense to me... In my senses jus like u yet in a different mindset as we breathe... Showin the definition of me bein me n u bein u... Jus doin whatever it is we do... I'm different... So what... As there's distance...  I don't get the complications nor the fuss..? I have no tensions... Am I lost within my own dimensions..? I'm jus goin with it the same way u are lookin for home... Takin care of mine as my free will is as real as metaphorical thrones... Can u not relate to jus gettin on with it..? To live... To find luv n to lose the chip... It seems we've become nothin more than words reachin from the lips... Unable to accept the differences in which we live... Or is it me bcuz I'm not like u that doesn't fit in..? We've all had somewhere else that we've been... Feeling the hatred spread like butter eva so thin... As if hit in the fuckin chin... Who is it you've become up til this moment in time..? Can u accept that we're all here fuckin around in the middle of life..? Tryin to get by... My my my... I think I found that nerve... The one that questions more than selfs worth... Slowin down the hype so a moment can be heard... As everything that lead us to the now is somewhat of a blur... I jus wanna know so I know what believe... Is it me..?

I'm the middle...

I'm far from proper n I've dissected what's wrong with the hood... I don't like yups n don't wanna go back to where I once stood... Fuck the streets as high society can kiss my azz... I'm jus a rare breed stuck in the middle of the facts... Racism by classification comes from both fuckin sides... N for either sides bs I ain't got the time... I'm right here in the middle class where those like me jus wanna live... While the rest of one another get to jabberin at the jibs... The rich need the pour like poverty needs more money... But neither will admit they both act funny... Want, give, take n talk shit as there's no luv lost... I don't need razors in my back shaped like claws... Humble I am tryin to figure a way to use the system against itself as I look crazy af... Yet, I don't give a fuck...

When ya know...

U havta have the time to be in relations... Committed... Loyal... Gotta want the temptation... Acceptin the feel as it sinks beneath the surface... All in as hands apply intent... That mmmmmmmmmm... The taste.... Passion on a level of way past due... Down n diggin... Noddin heads n restin minds... Ya gotta trust time is in the livin... Sharin life n in luv beyond the eyes... That physical grope that turns u on hasta exist... Comforted... Trusted... Wet in jus the right spots that's not jus upon the lips... U gotta feel it come out to play... Yup... That's like over luv... As u won't be able to resist the stay rollin down the face...

Easy darlin...

concentrate on u n I'll stick to what I know as I squeeze u in... I'm livin my life as time resides beneath fingerprints... Real n in the mood to do whatever comes up... Have ur end for shit always plays out... I'm in no rush... Jus know I wanna go south... Below the limit of return... To be a vision u could put to use... When it creeps up from the opposin end as a friend...  In the motion of patience of Who's who..?

things have changed...

there was once a time i wished i knew who i was... leavin a rhyme jotted in my past that explained the confusion to be read failin at luv... back when everything was put on the table... time slipped as emotion took a hit or two n became unreasonably unable... unwillin to feel the bs they dished as in the selfish ones claimed was real... i got lost givin a lil too much of self n jus needed to heal... n thinkin into the reverse mode i couldnt enjoy the mood... as human as truths could rewind the moments cut short i was through with the games endin its fame with a truce... done n callin it quits before the heart could snip ties hangin on to loosened lips... driftin mentally i knew where i was goin findin the tickle in my own ribs... walkin away from the direction of the relentless pain dished jus bcuz... pluckin out the hooks hung on the passion sunk in to the texture that turned at the edge of the fun... with birds that now seem immature that actually cared to take a moment ro fly... dyin deep in the design of my eyes the drip dried as sighs of relief learned of the meanin of like... but that was back when the prior of the gettin to who it was i wanted to know standin in frame as me... as i was comin back n unafraid to admit i jus wanna breathe... shit was as crazy as livin someones elses life wonderin wtf was wrong with them... when it was me i wound up questionin catchin on to the clues of hints n pushin out the inward cave of useless dents... flippin pages in the mind as my story was far from over... n i went through more than a few different faces as we kept it on the hush side of luvrs... laid in their eagle as it was empty jus after that finally of the boom boom... no, i dont stand as i once stood... things have changed walkin on the rainy side of life tryin to come back up hidin the tenderness of the tip... friends dont ball fists... luv doesnt turn to the reminder of a new founded foes nonexistance as its written... like over luv n we can relate til the end of time... whenever that may sneak its will upon the likeliness of goodbyes!!!

Endless days...

As hard as it is to smile I find it to be the only way to chase away the pain... Behind the curve on display I hide jus like u, lost to the possibility of gain... Even when they think I'm a goof lookin to find that chuckle in my rib... Home is where my happiness rests n I haven't been there in a few yrs as it's missed... Crackin a grin wakin to mornings where pure luv reaches to live... Pulled beneath the truths givin everything I have to give... To find normal once again so mine can come back home... A battle that has me fightin day in n day out as moments roam... Given endless days to the sacrifice where work is at any time, anywhere, the only thing to correct the intent of old flaws... Unable to have a life that most live due to emotion has shut down for the better cause... I jus wanna go home to where my heart had stopped beatin waiting on me to find my way back... With my eyes on the ground afraid out the contact that hides the facts... Alone is where life sits jus wantin a place of my own... Somethin I once had before I tried on luv n lost it all when I was the only one wantin to be grown... N I can't show my face bcuz from the other side of the screen I ain't feeling much of anything... I'm jus waitin on the moment my expressions are as real as the way I breathe... For the ache u cannot see drives the man in me to limits very few have ever felt... N it's self that relies on the will to move my feet as the head tilts... Lookin ahead tryin to find another coarse of action that jus might bring the joy sooner than later... So this saddened feelin will find its way along without me as the imitator...

as it reads... (in the moment)

opened in the moment to the way she caves into me..

quietly behind closed doors where whispers breathe...

as home finds where it is i'll be..

as it reads...

i'm jus like u...

waitin my turn in time bcuz i dont wanna mean to be rude...

i jus don't know who it is tryin to intrude...

i'm not gonna move jus bcuz u caught a groove...

i'm in no race to be restrained by expectations...

so nah, its nothin that u think of a hesitation...

i like my situation...

i'm free without the altercation of stimulation...

i'm all alone n i'm jus fine livin for once no longer playin the part...

as i don't enjoy change unless it's good for my heart..

with luv at the fingertips as if stardust is jus waitin to live as art...

like over luv really isn't that hard...

 n it's ur response that tells the story of emotion comin on too fast...

i'm goin the distance with every step it takes me to neva return to m past...

jus like u  i wouldn't say you'd be the last...

i'm jus statin the facts...

i am what's mine...

in the presence of bein able to have fun outside my mind...

feelin emotion reach in its own way without my help as it has its own design...

tamed for the release in the moment when to try...

imma need a reason u cannot tell me verbally...

n wants will walk with the wabble wibblin next to me...

i'll know if i don't wanna do without u in my life u see...

it's jus the likings of u as of yet jus hasn't been seen...

read the punchline to yourself outloud...

all i can do for u is go south...

til i can't help but to open up n pick up the towel...

all in due process of exchangin sounds...

On the up...

I went down bcuz my money got fucked up... All in the due process of a lil thing that claimed to be luv... N now I'm on the rise like the sun... Layin beneath midnight with my funds climbin up... Fuck luv I jus want a friend..  Someone to make me wanna keep comin back for the extravagant event... Rolled n tangled in the sheets as we get a lil rest... Emotion is not a need it's a fuckin want...  Fell I did n the way I bounced has me wantin to brush off lusts.... Seems relations is a lil to much work to be self no longer on the hush... What to do, what to do..? Bcuz I don't see nothin wrong with feelin my way up on u... One on one with no attachments other than the fix without the luv... Fuckin with a crush... Playin in the tasteful delight as a comfort in life lent... I'm free n what I have is time still in my hands to spend... Lookin for a more peaceful way to live when it comes to relations that will always find its end... At the waste is truly the only way I wanna see u bent... Even at the knees as turns will be taken to unravel what hides beneath the levels of bs in the way... I jus wanna hear her say my name... Someone for me to play with as conversations are limitless with the moment of the tongues use... I jus wanna feel ur simultaneous body move... Takin to the likings of me... Seen as the one thing that teases her dreams... The way u push back into the thrusts slidin to the pulsations where the freak resides... All with jus bein me... Goin down on the up... As in the siftin of ur gears I become clutch... Bcuz friends keep the mind over the heart as time decides the direction of intentions... Without feelings bein henchmen...

Dames gone bad...

It all depends on what it is u think a man is... What u believe in ur heart as the mind agrees with the conclusion of ur end of all the bs... It's in the way u choose to cater to the type of thoughts lingerin in ur head from experiences that changed ur mind... So I ask, how much of a man hater are u n when will the shit run its course in ur time..? In ur own fuckin mindset how could I jus be me n get behind ur defenses when I haven't gotten a chance to even break in..? All bcuz u think ur the only one who's been where you've been... Like there isn't an other side of the opposin gender barrier that points fingers back atcha in luv with that kinda life... As it's pillows feelin the loneliness as ur head collides with mine... How's the game workin for u on ur end bcuz it sux azz on the flip side of wantin a luv that appears to be nonexistent..? But I bet that to is irfuckinrelevant... Talkin the same ol goofiness instead of conductin self in true form... Without the games of "gettin mine" so moments can feel somethin other than what's become the norm... How is it a man rests in ur restless thoughts..? N what would it take to make ur own emotion touch ur heart fallin for the way I to have flaws..? Questions have answers if maturities can find a way to be real standin face to face... What is it u hate..? What is it that u cannot control long enough to find ur happiness that u seek..? Speak the truth so we can keep the peace... Is there anything left in the way u feel that's good enough for u to use..? Or is it like the men that's also felt the wrath of some silliness that u need proof.!. How has relations played out with the diggin of shovels gettin rid of all that applies to openin the fuck up..? I'm askin about like long before the completion of luv... Who did u allow yourself to evolve in to..? Who in the fuck are u..?

However it goes...

I ain't gonna follow u around... I'm not no hound n nah, u don't know my kind... I jus wanna share moments within a single night.... Jus lettin movement find its grind... Talk with a lil chatter jus before round two... As friendly as comfort can rest easy gettin loose... Playin touchy feely to the sigh of close... Opened up n havin some fuckin fun... Back n forth in between goin deep to so fuckin slow... Lookin forward to a next time before daybreak shows me the door... For it be u i wanna explore...

Talking out loud...

I don't wanna be Daddy unless ur bent over in front on me... If u catch my drift I ain't got the time to go in reverse with less than two yrs left from bein free... So call me poppi n bring out the man in me from beneath the crave in which I dwell... A true freak is needed for the lickings of self... I ain't no suga bear gettin anything less than what I give to thee... Jus open up n feel ur orgasms one at a time leave... Dancin with ur body felt deep within ya touch... We can make luv but I'd rather fuck... Senseless into the nerves dyer need pushin the limits... Makin moments invade the thoughts so vivid... How's that sound of a grown fuckin man goin down..? Talkin out loud of some real shit on the tongues flickery adjustin ur sounds...

Jus breathe...

I don't wanna be ur situation... A bad habit... I'm more like an emotional getaway... A sexual computability on the raw end of dag nabbit... Sneakin in on ya tender zone... Evaluated n checked off as grade A meat... Comin from every angle on life to wind me up here... Jus breathe... I need a minute before I can feel u up to gettin to bringin me out... Lemme be a friend prior to divin in... Expectin more than the mental vision of a lil place called home... Bared... I can't be owned... Feel that n u can relate to birds flown like doves runnin from the inner makings of the looney coupe... Like over luv... I said it n there is no oops... Words need no tongue the way motion needs the tongue to make it feel so good... I ain't urs other than to enjoy an easier way to live... Or ya might find yourself somewhere I once stood... Step in ya own moment n add to u... I'mma do the same on my way to the best thing I can put in place for personal use... Who I am is not a weapon in which I will give u to use against me... Show ya fuckin face!!! I don't wanna be somewhere imma havta leave... Fuck the feelin of hate...

Full circle...

Could u tell a stranger from a friend if u jus met?
What if u were standing face to face as if a foe who resembles ur best friend.
As time plays out n u thought u knew what I know bout truths.
Comin full circle where lies flicker in the minds shifting move.
Did u see the end to another beginning u thought would last?
Funny how shit plays out n ur left with a smashed hour class.
Yeah, u really believed the shit that came ripping up from there heart huh?
It's ok, lesson learned as u swallow what was once true luv?
Luv'rs before Freinds explodin in ur face is the funniest shit.
In a moment of what the fuck as ur witness to an unfulfilled kiss.
Did u pay attention to the signs u ignored causing ur own pain?
It's ur own fault that u wasted ur own time chasing luv's fame.
Own it n know ur at one with self as this moment was bond to be.
Cuz an other jus failed n gave up on what was considered a dream.
Yeah, waking up is the worst thing after feelin so complete.
I know, i know, they jus swept u off ur precious lil ol fairy feet.
Yet, ask yourself if they even have a clue of what they jus lost.
I bet if u dug deep enough, you'd find ur nuts dropping back down into a set of balls.
Yeah it's as raw as relations comin round n round they go again.
Jus remember who punked out n helped mold ur inner man.
U snapped i know, cuz I felt my own mind twist into not giving a shit.
Jus keep tellin yourself it is what it is as if u can't be fixed.
Come on man, u knew this was a deliberate infliction made ur own demise.
U trusted n it's cool cuz u seen the end comin n u gave one hell of a fight.
Jus do u for a fool doesn't know any better as they're doomed.
Cuz if they did they'd see what u know bout self that outs luv in the room.....

2013's end...

Could u tell a stranger from a friend if u jus met?
What if u were standing face to face as if a foe who resembles ur best friend.
As time plays out n u thought u knew what I know bout truths.
Comin full circle where lies flicker in the minds shifting move.
Did u see the end to another beginning u thought would last?
Funny how shit plays out n ur left with a smashed hour class.
Yeah, u really believed the shit that came ripping up from there heart huh?
It's ok, lesson learned as u swallow what was once true luv?
Luv'rs before Freinds explodin in ur face is the funniest shit.
In a moment of what the fuck as ur witness to an unfulfilled kiss.
Did u pay attention to the signs u ignored causing ur own pain?
It's ur own fault that u wasted ur own time chasing luv's fame.
Own it n know ur at one with self as this moment was bond to be.
Cuz an other jus failed n gave up on what was considered a dream.
Yeah, waking up is the worst thing after feelin so complete.
I know, i know, they jus swept u off ur precious lil ol fairy feet.
Yet, ask yourself if they even have a clue of what they jus lost.
I bet if u dug deep enough, you'd find ur nuts dropping back down into a set of balls.
Yeah it's as raw as relations comin round n round they go again.
Jus remember who punked out n helped mold ur inner man.
U snapped i know, cuz I felt my own mind twist into not giving a shit.
Jus keep tellin yourself it is what it is as if u can't be fixed.
Come on man, u knew this was a deliberate infliction made ur own demise.
U trusted n it's cool cuz u seen the end comin n u gave one hell of a fight.
Jus do u for a fool doesn't know any better as they're doomed.
Cuz if they did they'd see what u know bout self that outs luv in the room.....

Maybe...

The heart is tired of the tours goin to war...
I need not say no more...
The march is no match to the attachment...
True emotion is the closest thing known to magic...
Knees get dirty n the freak comes out to play...
Let's go deep only when it's safe to relate...
Passionate luv at its highest peek feelin words spooned n spoken too...
Without the connection I jus like the way u move...
Bodies tend to click n get the need as there's nothing wrong with it...
Keep it real n let's get it on with distasteful lips...
Grown to keep jus one person only a text away...
Different versions in the mind come together jus the same...

Talk through a whisper n check ya tone...
Friends don't hold short tempered tongues...
Taste the feel of the way my name plays with the notion of us...
N then once u like me maybe then we can talk about luv...

As long as I can

I'll be willin to luv u as long as I can... For as long as friends can make it to their end... My intent isn't to hurt u but to feel u from within... N as long as I can I will willingly bend... Jus don't confuse me with what u think I am... For I am not like others as I am jus one man... Rotatin the head into another direction will make u become a has been... Yet I have it in me to luv u as long as I can... As the distance traveled is meant... From my luv to urs emotion is sent... Makin words stand on meaning once again... I'll do all I can to believe in u until I simple jus can't... As my hands will only feel for u in depths so grand... As breaths beneath sexual desires get heavy n pant... I wanna luv u as long as I can... For however long I can like u I as me is lent... But if u ever second guess me I will not pretend... No time is at waste as patience stretches thin... N I'm not built to suit the lickings of twisted fake grins... As I will allow myself to luv u as long as I can... For as long as life goes on I will luv u forevermore as my loyalty extends... Betray me n trust is irrelevant... There'd be no goin back to what is considered to be extravagant... In ways where passion pleases the pleasure of a friendships with intelligence... All upon the acceptance of what this truly is... I can luv u as long as I can... But it's on u to earn the feel in which it lands...

Behind the shutters sight....

Yes u look damn good from ya from head to toe back down to what rests in between ya inner thighs... But who are ya behind ya eyes that plays in ya mind..? Who is it standin in the middle of life tryin to somehow hide someone as fine as yourself..? If I were blind what attraction would u be too someone like me so more than vanity can be felt..? I'm jus curious to the depths beneath ya skin of who it is I'd find if I were to somehow get in... As if sight couldn't play games on the deceit we've encountered with what one was a friendly grin... N I'mma jus leave it there in the dark where truths linger behind the shutters sight that hide the knowin... Where beauty can't be seen n who we are is the only thing showin...

Assume the position...

I must jus look like a straight hoe... Like fuckin around is supposed to be what someone like me does... Am I not allowed to have female friends that luv to goof with a side of ache in the rib..? Back when I didn't give no fucks yeah I'd lay some pipe quick... Yet I'm not who I once was... I keep to myself bcuz I found packin thick they all tend to chase luv... So how am I labeled n looked at as if I'm a man whore..? Bcuz I know how to get along n reason without the games that appear to be patiently expectin more... If I were to play u wouldn't see me comin... I don't give a fuck who u think u are I'd have ya legs runnin... By definition i can be the lack there of a dog that u think u know of that would teach u a whole new angle on the shit... But the time it takes to juggle females jus isn't worth it... I ain't what u think I am... I've gotten dirty n stood better as one hell of a man... I could blindside ya n u wouldn't even know what was goin on til I told u so... I ain't on it all like that n I don't pay no attention to the constant wonder of me that u want to believe is true jus so u know... Forcin ya own mind to dig in to the thought that has no fuckin clue... I can't help u tend to accept all males want blowed n fucked good... Thrown a shot of azz to toss it back in ya face... I'm over here mindin my own bein twisted n tryin to have a laugh away from that kinda fame... Yeah I have interests but that's my own curiosity that lays with me every single night... So rest ya fuckin mind n dibble dabble in ya own fuckin life... Jus bcuz I fit the description of yet another big dick doesn't mean I'm givin it out on loan... I sleep alone... N if I did it be none of ur damn business... Thing is I have a daughter n she can see me as independent... Doin what I do as not lookin to hurt anyone else... But bcuz of the mindset in which u live that shit ain't felt... Passin judgements on somethin u thought u knew... Bendin the truth for ya own satisfaction that all men round out to be a fuckin hooch... Who are u to feel around in my life tryin to expose some shit that doesn't concern u..? As we both know now u didn't find shit as u now know I ain't what ur used to... U see, I can choose to live my life in which ever way I decide to get down... N I guess u can get mad now that ur lil plan didn't work as I now can clown... That typical female shit is why mutha fuckas get out here doin y'all wrong... Assumin we as men can't go that long... Yeah I'm talkin about pushin in on ya feelings to get to ya g-spot... Then dippin while ur still drippin on ya azz bcuz u ain't who u said u were checkin up on someone tryin to play cop... U jus showed n sold yourself short n I ain't even got any ties with u either... No chub for u so go leave it to the beaver... Go flick ya bean n taste ya fingers while ur at it bcuz I give no fucks... I answer to no one due to I don't havta fall in luv... N I wasn't gonna post this bcuz it's jus not my style but u pissed me the fuck off... So assume the position, I'm goin in raw..!

endless rhymes...

i miss u as i know why life hasta be this way... it's the reason in itself it hurts the way it does... i know the luv is there... n we both know the separation was a must... my heart is still with u as u lay still without bein curled up to me... i've heard u tell me what it was i needed to hear for sometime now...  as the thunder like shock waves rolls with the tide of emotion i catch every time the sound of u sayin my name calls to me... it's rare what we've found... as it's u i write of when i speak into thin air havin conversations with self that turn into writings i can not control the way they come out... i luv u n i always will.. life has put space in between us i i am no one to point fingers at u... so tell me again to comfort me from afar what it is u want when the time is right... i jus like hearin the truth... it relates to me in a way in which i know exactly what it is i need to do... somethin i didn't know how to do knowin u weren't in ur right state of mind... it is u i went crazy over as i find myself still standin waitin on the day our happily ever after continues... no longer lost in this world tappin out how i feel for u in line after line in endless rhymes...

So we're clear...

If we are friends, open the fuck up... I ain't got no time for no half azz luv... I'd rather u like me... Breathe n let me be... The have that touches me will get in more ways two as one... Friends have benefits on levels in between the ears of want... We both are not gonna need anyone else... Truly felt fun as low as the best can go neva able to hurt the honesty we now hide... Comin from within the mind as bests lingerin in time locked the fuck into stare of the eyes bein fuck so good.. til r end is physically forced buried in a box made of wood... Can u go deep..? It doesn't have be a dream...

my kinda woman...

it ain't no fun if ur lame or even border line phsycotic... u gotta maintain the mind within the brain as ur luv could jus be toxic... luv is a centerpiece that has an orbit of pain... the type where ur wild side can come out n play... yet, emotion doesn't wanna deal with the difficulty of relations if u do not know how to act... it's those hormones that jus luv to be attacked... ravaged behind closed doors n treated as if ur cock thirsty to say the least... as out in the open ur a lady that knows u can get down with the layin of sheets... a freak that turns off morals once playtime begins... but neva will u expose yourself for the sake of jus anyone diggin in... u have that balance of knowin what a woman is mentally n what it is u want in between ur legs...  that to me is the ultimate escape... feelin havin two meanings n knowin which one to use at any given time... allowin the temptation to alter ur ego n unleash the pleasures tucked away in the mind... ur a special kinda twistedness in which crazy only comes out behind the scenes... bcuz u understand that shit isn't attractive unless ur on ur knees...

tamin flaws...

i don't need to hear u talk... even though i'd luv to hear u beg... i jus wanna hear u moan... to hear u cum is better than hearin my name... the sound of ur hmm drives me wild... the way u sound when u feel me hits my sweet spot... as my sound gets to growlin a grunt... n we make beautiful sounds together no matter who's on top... it's not words that find my beast within... yet words if spoken dirty enough can make me cum... i jus wanna listen to the way ur choice of words find that omg comin out to play... as words tend to fight in the collision of a kiss as we're either fuckin or makin luv... ur my fav of all time at least til this moment we share... the way u give yourself n don't care whatsoever of what thoughts think unless they're raw... i like how the least lil thing turns u on n u come get u some... as the least bit given will neva do goin all out to please the connection tamin flaws...

to feel u again...

i often find u in my dreams...sometimes we're jus kickin it... others times we're still in luv... but i like the times where ur legs are spread n my tongue is in motion as i listen to u moan while i taste u drippin to the feel of bein stroked... there's times i lay still n think of what it be like to look up at u hard af n see u ridin my dick until i came so fuckin far inside of u my eyes roll further than my toes could eva bend... it's a nice thought i often drift in to where we don't own clothes as ur body is a playground of my luv... i remember what u feel like to my fingertips touchin u in places that turns u on... n as i can't take it no more i find myself stiff n alone with u on my mind... the things i do to u are great as i vision u lookin back at me tellin me fuck me butch wit that look that forces me to cum deep inside of u... oh what id do to have u wrapped around me wet n grindin yourself into an orgasm damn near every night... with ur skin exposed to my sights witness to how i getoff with my large thick cock penitratin ur pussy... mmm... sometimes ur bent over n other times ur tied up... most of the time i'm fuckin u good n then there's times where i'm goin so slow the luv makin brings me to tears... i srtill fantasize about eatin u out until u goosh so fuckin hard n ur legs squeeze my face tryin to keep from lickin  every last drop outta u... jus thinin about u claimin up on my face as u wor ur way down to mybody to insert me inside of u makes my erection throb... yeah it be nice to feel u close enough to play at times... but htese are jus some of the things on my mind...

Huh...

So you're alone and you feel that shit but cannot speak on it... Huh... Yeah, I know what it is like to have others judgements lodged in the ribs... Seems home does not quite fit the mood once it hits the lips huh..? Sitting back from time to time thinking about the giving of luv... Jus to be touched by someone who wants to feel you is what crave by yourself behind closed doors... Yet you're not the only one wanting the interaction beneath footsteps walked in trying not to be obvious of needing more... As time is following you to bed as a constant reminder that your own emotion is going to waste... Even though it is not every night you dwell on the possibilities rolling over to witness the empty space that displays no face... How does it feel to find that dead end day where a friend has not found you sleeping solo once again..? Sssh, I'll say it for you, damn..! It gets you right in the chest huh..? Settling every now and then for lusts... As it is no one's business what it is you do as the fulfillment of needs are acted out... It is a shame to have the interest in relations and not once has anyone or anything met the promises that seem to only makes sound...

who are u bein fair to..?

if u were to come from inside ur single based mindset as in its jus u without conflictions... who is it that could possibly break through to earn the effort to take an interest..? im for real...what would make u come back n play with a mutha fucka like me... or whoever it be... im jus sayin for the sake of that chip on ya shoulder even i to had to manage as it came down to who it is i am... so who are u bein fair to..? im one man... jus like the rest, are u ok with livin loose... im jus askin to know for my own good... thinkin only i u could... lol... sounds familiar huh..? how deep is the hurt face u wear talkin about fuck luv.!? the nerve is how in which u allowed someone to do u wrong n blame them for bein themselves bcuz what u felt wasnt fair knowin u had a choice... u fell in luv with the feel but more intamate with the endless void... it was all u had to hold on to standin with ur heart in ur hand feelin sorry for self... screamin on the inside of somethin rather the other like the sound of heeeeeeeeeelp!!! get over it... when are u gonne actually live..? i got me... do u understand the difference in wants n needs n relate to that balance between the best shit ever right dab smack in the middle of a mental stability n the emotional ride goin weeeeee!!!

Do u enjoy it..?

Hey miss..! Does the feminine side of u ever jus wanna suck a cock..? Jus to feel it in ur lips... Insertin it to get that sexual fix til it pops... U ever connected with ur own sexuality n realized we luv what u look like when it goes in ur mouth..? How is it for u when u go down..? Do u get off, can u cum by playin with the way we nut..? Are u in luv with the dick..? Takin every last drop twirling ur tongue in it... Who is it u become when u fall to ur knees..? Are u a true freak..? Blowin a shaft for ur own enjoyment bcuz u fuckin can... Do u know how to please a real man..? Lookin up with a moan that drives us wild... No matter how long it takes to extract our denial... Are u that type with a twist n a pull to make my toes curl..? Changing the coarse the mindset n rearrangin plurals... U see, we can't find that experience needed to sit back n jus twitch... So when ur done with it, by all means please, give it a kiss...

On ur insides...

If I can't have n do what I want with u, I can't fuck with u... I'm a special dirty kinda mutha fucka that luv's a freak put to use... n they way I'll speak to u isn't for the faint hearted when I get to goin... To be honest there's no tellin what I'll have it body doin... Jus shakin at the legs isn't my cup of tea... I wanna hear u come undone n try to say my fuckin name as u breathe... Puttin u on ur knees to pinnin u against the wall... A filthy mofo that wants sucked off, balls n all... Sexually imma be who it is I am when I ain't makin luv... Now shit the fuck up n feel me cum.... Makin a mess of ur insides n touchin every nerve connected to ur hormones... I'll call u names n pull ur hair as that azz gets red fuckin with the way u think sexuality is not jus a thought u hold... Feel the restraints as my free will pleases the fill of ur void... I want u to be my favorite lil toy...

Once I left...

Yeah I'm from the other r side where the gutter is n we don't give a fuck to of it chosen words.
N yeah I climbed from the sewer that u consider raw n a waste to stand on the curb.
With my head on swivel I walked from the only home I've ever known n made my way to the gate.
Found people r people no matter how much $ is spent on their lifestyle cuz their all the same.
I'm from the poverty where nothin comes easy n u enjoy what u have when u have it.
Where real individuals understand the struggle bc stick together n that's no bullshit.
So say what u want bout me n my kind as u sit talkin allows that hebbojebbo let loose from it ignorance.
U couldn't last a day in my life where paradise is life itself n dreams r talk condensed....

Snapping at low of happiness...

Jus caught in the middle of standing alone lookin for a lil sum sum called tenderness.
That touch that soothes the beasts grrrowl snapping at a lie of happiness.
One single man fading from passion of having that one that made purpose in the reality of difference.
Walkin round wondering where home is as if home lost its mind n threw away intelligence.
Jus roaming clinging to the feel of a bodies comfort layin still in a paused wrapped n cuddled.
A team of two for a moment eased back n silent letting shit be to experience bein huddled.
Gettin that satisfaction here n there that feels somewhat normal again for we r human to.
Acceptin it is what it is without the games of relations that hide thecuriousit when catching into the clues.
Havin someone that doesn't mind living n goin with the flow of things that is truly madly deeply mind  blowin.
No commitment here for its jus friends doin what we do as self is allowed to live as interest in this lifestyle is showin.
Leaving emotions n luv outside to enjoy a night that doesn't always come to chasing n to clingy nor sex.
Speakin the minds twisted thoughts having fun in reality or thru dirty explicit words speaking of its been to long in texts.
Two individuals not as one but close enough contact itself has the edge to keep it goin for reasons of pain controls the power.
Jus from time to time when time allows schedules to spend time to minglin as neither r scared to bare in a shower.
Theres no relations nor an other that'll claim a fairytale of the hearts misguided ignorance that forever exists with fate.
Its jus one of those things where jealousy n changing someone is never an issue that can be made.
By self til self needs a lil ladies company for a lil din din or a stroll outside of everyday hold.
Maybe a night on the couch under a blanket watching movie with a bowl of popcorn so she don't get cold.
A romance that has no place of the bent hurt torched twisting the unwanted tearing us apart as friends.
Hell, maybe I'll be this way for god knows when for he knows when itll end.
Cuz all relations come to a point of separate ways walking in confusions undying n everlasting questions.
Its jus not worth another punch in the heart to take either overboard with false intentions.
A family man lost in this world is a man with thoughts cut shirt n shutting down.
Livin in brief glimpses in a days worth with honest actions not jus released from his mouth.
Real n to the point for theres no time to waste n no face will ever go unnoticed.
Cuz in his mind no one will ever know who will come along n play witness.

Inner intensions...

If I was honest n jus spoke my mind as if u had ur own thoughts of me lingered.
N my words found ur ears time as u listened to the fascination of how you'd be touched by my fingers.
Lets say I told u ur physical appearance was arousin my inner intentions.
N if I didn't come across so raw but to the point of two tangled in a third world dimension.
Would u believe my honesty as I told u I'd enjoy doin things to u as long as I possibly could?
U see, there's somethin in the way u come across my visual inspection that wonders if u would.
Jus give me a moment to please u in the only way I know how as u explode beneath me.
I'm jus a piece of candy myself with a desire to feel u outside my dreams.
I mean u no harm, nor find comfort in hurting u in ways that separates me from other fellas.
I'd jus like u to know if I had a brief night to spend with u, If you'd allow me to be beside myself tastin the wine sella.
Hear me for a second spit truth to how pleasurable you'd be in my life jus once to claim from dawn til dusk.
In between where the lights r as candles flicker giving sight of shadows dancing about as US.
Lemme jus put me out there n u decide if u wanna pass up an opportunity to be obsessed upon.
Climbed n felt n climaxin til u run up the fucking walls as it be the truth as it be on u to make that call.
Cuz I'm here n my eyes send shivers down my spine that tingles to it curves.
N the bad thing is I'm as human as u r with the presence of mind not to let u slip by without tapping into the nerve.
U know, that lil thing with sensitivity that brings pain along with pleasure.
Hmmm, u see, it's ok to say no to someone like me takin an interest n craving more than it hidden treasure.
I'm but a man as u r a woman, n together we can express the passion hidden within our secrets together.
So think n ponder as u wonder for I know u will, n jus lemme know if I could be a friend n n one he'll of a luv'r....

Back then...

Thinkin back to my yester years n how I use to do things.
I was on point takin care of my main squeeze with. Promise of a ring.
The good ol days, oh how I was somethin to be reckoned with.
Words flowed n actions alone stodgy firm as I had the grip.
Back then it was two to four at a time with the understanding of relations.
Hit me up n ill shoot thru if I had the time for somewhere excavation.
Its was another mind set in another time that once was.
Now I don't feel the need for it consumes to much time to get to the touch.
One breezey is all that's needed for a lil time spent as I've changed.
Damn how life got flipped n turned upside down as I to am rearranged....

Weatherized...

Lemme in.. It's cold where I'm standin. Allow me to unthaw the both of us. Jus melt the chills chatter of bones ramblin. Lets get close U n I n shut it up. For once jus to warm the void. Givin a lil comfort. In from what's become the norm. Open up. I'm freezin n could use someone like u. Weatherised with the burrr that hurts. Shakin with even skin turnin blue. Knock knock. Ding dong. Is there anyone home? Or is it u jus do not wanna get burned by another flame? Would u rather be alone? The heat could do us some good. Wrapped up next to the fire. Lit with a spark to ease the hearts drip. Comin back to life as somethin to admire. The temp out hear has locked up my chest. Stuck in a deep freeze. Like ice cubed for a later date. I have a chisel if ur in need. We can chip pieces of solid moisture a Lil at a time. N take a moment to find what's been shoved away. Jus shovel through the depths forgotten. I'm jus outside if u feel the will to play without games...

Let's!!!

I'm somewhere else doin things in my mind words can not express... The lights are lowered n the mood is set... As my eyes are damn near rollin outta my head... There's a bed... N petals scattered in the shade of red... Fully undressed... Playin anything less than games in total agreement of sayin yes... Let's!!! Movin to the rhythm of the thumping chest... As candles bring out my very best...

As up as grown can be...

Would u wanna actually be mature? Wrap ya mind around a cure to what u thought was so pure. Standin with true intentions without a hook or a lure. Take a tour free of charge n see for yoursrlf I'm not goin door to door. Jus came across someone that seemed to be a Lil more than what others had in store. Paint a picture in ya mind of what it is in ya core. This isn't relations at war. Jus a common interest wantin to explore ur ways before u think I'm jus another bore. As my tongue has now flipped the vocal chords on in the direction of wantin more...

I'm ya depths...

Does it havta be so sexually orientated? I mean yeah it's there yet can't we be more versatile n a bit more obligated. U know, to mental stability n emotional connectivity. There's more shit like, like over luv so relativity levels out with a grown aspect of maturity. Don't get me wrong bcuz I'd like to know what u look like draped in a lace thong. But that's a bit explicit at this point even though I'd like the way you'd moan me a song. I'm jus wantin to tap into the inner linings of ur mind opened wide the fuck up. Sorry to be so vulgar but getting to the source of the eyes wondering back n forth crossin vision is only a crush. I jus wanna know if ur depths have ever been swam in the way I could dig a lil deeper. Find ya thoughts n get back with me as imma ease back n pause for a moment to check out more of ur features...

Sacred truth...

Idk who in the fuck she is... As far as my knowledge goes we ain't neva met... But I betcha I'll know who she is when she says my name... Bcuz so other females will get pleasured to the left... No I ain't a playa n I ain't about to explain myself... All I know is I'm waitin some shit out cut the comfort of self... As she takes her time to come into my life... One like, one luv, one moment is all it takes to be felt... Playin Patty cakes with lips... Feelin more than a simple touch as we meet upon the skin... My day is comin with what it is I seek... Feelin the heat from the emotion within... Yet as of right now I haven't a clue to who she might be... I'm jus living my life til we collide... Stickin to myself tryin not to get too in to myself as me... There's a thing called well rounded I'd like to be when she finally walls into my life...

huh..?

opened the fuck up for the world to see we aint so different after all... careful enough not fall into the same ol poo correctin flaws... here i am tellin u the depths of someone youd only be able to judge what u do not know... not matter if the tongue spits profanity or raw emotion with the maturity of bein grown... i fell away from the exterior shell that became to hard for me to move within... no im not crazy n im not fuckin around with the smell of worthless stench... this isnt a game claimin we aint the same knowin somewhere close to the heart u feel the same shit i do... yeah im jus real n i live beneath the same sky as u... givin it to u straight as i say feelin somethin worth my time is fuckin fantastic... i jus wont fall for jus anyone fakin the funks twist... locked up as bodies intertwine as if the luv reveals a sense of relief... who doesnt wanna be felt in any other position than down on worn out knees... unless the content is sexually stimulatin to hormones moanin to a different kinda song... theres nothin wrong in findin where in the fuck we belong... in a way its a lil more than a bit tad comfortin... so idk about u but imma still feel this way come mornin... tryin to get through to the blinded that allowed an other to change who they were into who theyve become... lifes too fuckin short to walk around feelin numb... this is u n i caught up in what weve been taught breakin free from the relentless bs that seeks to define trust... yet it doesnt know about us waitin to fall back deep in luv... theres no sense in lyin about the shit becuz if u do u aint bein real with ur number one... huh..?

behind closed doors dreamin...

reachin for the design in which u look upon me...

eye to eye  catchin a better view of the way we seem...

strangers gazin in stares as life moves on without the hurt...

with the wonder that neva presses the lips tastin the turn...

damn near blamin each other for somethin someone else has done...

caught in the vanity of look at me before the chase is no longer fun...

from afar  the attraction seems physical enough to go on...

jus wantin to know without the bs that becomes the storm...

not knowin the visual has caught the attention on both ends...

as the thought catches the mind of id like to be ur friend...

driftin in time jus enjoyin more than a daydream that ligners within...

feelin some sort of damn, id luv to get to know the feel of sinkin in...

findin the mood rounds its way back to the possibilities unknown...

for neither has over stepped boundaries to earn the knowin of bein shown...

interest at its best attemptin to crawl beneath the surface...

it twiddles thumbs the way we pass every single moment to live close enough to the same space...

down goes the wall behind closed doors fightin to reveal self...

as true intent finds itself afraid to be seen for we may not be felt...

goin back n forth with the curiousities that round about in the mind...

day after day fallin under the nights skies...

oh the joy that could come to life behind closed doors locked for the keepin of us...

allowin the urge of like to press the issue of touch...

gettin lost with a few seconds of are u still lookin at me..?

fantasizin over the thought of wantin to change the speed in which we breathe...

turned on in ways its not even sexual even though it be so fuckin nice...

to have u in my life...

admit we think the same...

how close can the leavin get..? my appologies, it wasn't u that did what i put myself through... it was'nt u that did me in... my lips jus get to goin due to i refuse to trust an other again... seems my guards to high... n my emotions are still afraid to seek out a damn friend... like u i'm sure, jus caught up in life... feelin the good within goin to waste... tryin not to look back at what will neva be anything but unsafe... as travelin to distant hearts is jus unheard of... i'm sure u can relate that flaws learnin their way is weakened before gainin the strength prepared for luv... wonderin what it's like comin from within a friendship to the other side... crawlin into the shadows that sheltered u from the hype..? ur gonna havta excuse me for ive felt it too... nor do i wanna be used... n im not sayin ur gonna be deliberate in the way u may turn first,,, bcuz thats one thing i ve neva done... traded a friend in for the grr of the hurt... yeah, i to held the one... but thats all behind us now... as we forshadow the future playin out sayin nah, fuck na... aint shiget to me the way u say the same shit so ha..!

yeah i felt it, n i walked away...

She's like a drug that has no end to the pleasure a man seeks.
As he bows to her for more he feels her in his veins that leak.
Speakin with a pound as if morris code tappin his hearts vibe that decodes his luv.
A high of all highs with simple contact that drapes him with the slightest of touch.
His callin has made home a friend for the tender feel or her skin flush.
Restin upon him as he loses himself in the middle of a cravin rush.
There is no cure for the heart that beats in her very own presence.
For she's the best thing yet as the worst thing to happen throwin up defenses.....

time of silence...

If u ain't sayin shit don't speak!!!

Crawl back inside ur head n find ur thoughts drippin a leak...

Learn which u truly r before u open ur mouth...

Shut until u connect n come from within the purpose of sound...

Don't jump th gun, jus take the time n sit within n feel self...

Listen to the voices n u pay attention...

Get down with the gatherin talkin echoes givin ur truths affliction...

Correct yourself n fix the expressions before they leap from ya lips...

Ain't no one got time for all that unnecessary bs...

no half heartedness...

No strings.
No attachments.
No emotion.
N we can hang.
So I can get to know u.
As well as feel u.
Jus no bs.
jus doin our thang.
No useless intervention.
I'm on some other shit.
No I'm not a fix.
Join me in a friendly mentality.
With no excuses on why u can't pull through.
No I don't need a part time luv'r.
No need in tellin lies.
I don't want the heartache.
So jus do not waste my time.

change...

It funny how a man's mindset can change when his everything he gave away fails to give back... It twists him in way shakin the emotion isn't wanted for he's put himself on line that became his past... Passion collapses inside with no interest in luv's lies that fade as a new fav claims the same as the last... Its a game of brief moments n it takes that one he considers like no other to bail out n dash... N he'll collapse the same way a woman would fall away... Feelin lost without that one person he thought could manage to stick it out n play... As it's a shame that feel tends to turn n want somethin new... Leavin the thought of what's the point if they can't befriend his honest truths... 

beneficial friends...

Jus talk to me n don't try to fix me...
I'm not broken...
Jus enjoy the time i have to give...
With a thought of u I'm holdin...

Cozy n soft n flush...
Wit a lil sum sum on my mind...
Nah, emotions ain't involved...
Deep in the moment of the grind...

Be u n jus be...
Two adults jus livin through touch.....
Its an angle no one can get hurt...
Jus feelin a convo without the slush...

Breakin boundaries...
As free to do as one pleases...
Havin a turn to turn to a real individual...
As eye is the only thing that teases...

Wrapped from time to time...
Comfort here n there...
Doin whatever comes...
As natural bodies can get bare...

Down to the naked truth...
In use n keeping the mind...
The heart has no place here...
I dare ya to cross the line...

Get urs n live free...
Do what u do n find a bit of time...
To spend occasionally...
Take a ride...

In a different direction...
Rewritin relations reality..
Live ur life...
N I'll live mine...

I'll be waitin for u to shoot thru...
So we can blow off mind...
come from within the dreams...
Thjere's a different way of life...

With no complications of luv...
Jus a brief few hrs will do...
Showin n receivin skills...
Havin over self the power to come through...

In ur own way...
As mature as adults rollin round...
Until we get to the good shit later on down the road...
How's that sound?

to get into these arms of mine...

Could I kick it with u like u live next door..? Jus someone more like me livin with the reason n expectin nothin more... There's some other shit I'd like to ask... if u have a moment aside all the grab azzin... Like, are u more mental or over emotional..? I like those who find that balance as dimensional... Feelin jus enough to not get over emotional... Lil of this, lil of that... Can i talk to u like ur comin over jus to chat..? No strings to jus be... Where there's nothing on the sleeve... N the mind is clear to live... With jus a smile to give... Yeah, I like being able to breathe... It's jus me... Can u be different..? Unlike the others that feels connected through differences... Tell me ur down to earth... Able to sit n chill at times n not say a fuckin word...Even pleasure is more than sexual layin side by side... Remainin the same comin from behind closed doors as defined..! Can we be friends..? Eventually maybe in time get a lil low key n see if there's a click we don't havta defend... As the possibility of feelins wait util the moment we've established what we are... It'll only take as long as like feels the need to want more to fill the heart... Bcuz to get into these arms of mine ur gonna havta reason with the maturities so the long term effect can do more than dream... Please by all means don't mislead me...

tell it like it is...

bein a woman how is it u know what a man is supposed to be..? we get u got ur own spin on it once u wrap ur mind around it... to us, the wa that was is dirty af... so who is this vision u seek n u speak of let loose from ur lips..? let ur mouth slide on the words n tell us exactly what ur idea of men is... then switch us positions so u have to deal with what u jus dont wanna live up to... that fantasy that set the bar like birds takin flight a tad bit too fuckin high... we jus wanna live n be who we are so we aint gotta call a truce... then again i cant catagorize all females the way u do the male physic... mentally in ur thoughts, did u come up with ur conclusion the way we have..? let get this shit outta the way bcuz i aint done a damn thing to u the way u aint crossed my path til now...  calm the fuck down as attitudes are checked so we dont get mad... talk to me n clear the memory of what is youve come to relate to... seriously tastin the facts of kickin shoes off as the reachin in begins... come, conversation on the tongue ridin a hmm that turns into a mmm... u neva know this could be a win win..!

How time changes...

The past can kiss my azz on its way back to the facts that it's forgotten of as I am still intact... I am one man who stands with empty hands holdin on to thin air sayin damn damn damn... Moving forward without the mornings I once enjoyed as I to feel like I've been reborn on record... Not jus fillin the airways with words that slur n have no worth without actions that teach what is for one to learn... Changin in times window in which life lines up direction seen by sights design... Different in ways the frame of mind neva allows the fade to stand as brave the way it leaves the same way it has came...

knowin what to say...

sayin what u think but cant find the words to communicate... neva jibberish unless that playful side wants to goof n get intimate... down feel the feel of lets do it til life runs out... do u know my kind or am i somethin new to the way u believe men pout..? a different type in the way im bred i dont do well with the bs the used to accept the comfort given in... i aint built that way n wont allow self to be spread thin.. old school n kickin it with a side of reason u might find it to soothe that wonder u dream of... i aint afraid to step to the line n whisper in ya ear settin u off... gentle truths so u dont fade away from me is worth u comin around to the acknowledgement of i aint like anything you eva seen... as it gonna cost u time for my luv doesnt come easy nor is it cheap... u can pay me with that tenderness but hold the emotion down so that craziness u claim doesnt lunge at my use... grown is how i get to walkin in my footsteps playin cat n mouse with gettin loose... knowin what to say is only the beginnin of life changin before the eyes as it will neva go back to the way it was before eva again... where is it u stand..?

whens it my turn..?

thrill me... damn right im a man... whats wrong with wantin that attention u seek..? i mean, damn..! why cant i want to feel someone on me..? to lean in to whether i sit or stand... i like the way it feels in the interchangeable speeds in which luv flip the switch on the way it wants to breathe... be my fan... the way youd like some to take notice n jus be... i wanna be done in another way than done in for my own intellect to understand... intelligent bcuz i can think therefor i realize i too have needs... as jus one man lookin to get what i put in to the way i say i can... whens it my turn to find a lil comfort in a hand that touches me deep..? im tired of flyin n i jus wanna fuckin land..!

what it takes...

shut down on emotion for time has told me im better than given the feel away for theres nothin in return that ive ever been given that has lasted past the bs others places upon the table... im more in to keepin it on the edge of real so when they cant go any further they get that swift kick in the azz as i cliff jump right on over em n live to see another day willin n able... there aint no forcin the hand of friendship for me to reach for what i do not know so i go on livin with the thought of proof lookin me in my fuckin eyes... n the worst thing of all is no matter how many ways i say it i aint met a one that can relate past the feel of meetin me in the middle of this void written in between each n every line... so the togue slips depths callin in the reinforcements of the mental game as itcomes to be i gotta teach em what it truly takes to get to me... i am no fuckin silhouette locked behind their eyes lost in words that cannot find the time to let the most simplest shit to be known for i jus wanna be... i need somthin real on this side of over emotionally attached to the feel as relatin in an undersrandin telepathically sent from mind to mind... i aint lookin to waste time on someone im not sure if i wanna see wakin in the mornin n makin luv to for this life i live as well as u i only have on shot m ice already gained sight... step up but dont eva claim ownership for no on owns me as i cant seem the breathe under circumstances that hold n restrain my efforts to live... that is if they wanna taste more than words shared in a kiss that gives more meanin to the movement of expression worth upon the lips...

from the beginnin to end...

rollin from behind ya eyes touchin the surface of a visual frame... lockin in on the shape of an irreplaceable face rememberin their name...stuck in stares that aw the makings of the click formin luv... as through the initial attraction life sets a drift together as no other can come close enough to replace the trust... in the deep end beneath the vanity comfort clings to time unfoldin life... tucked away in arms as dreams make it to the surface where stayin is the ease of sighs... in no need of driftin for the connection takin place uncovers more than bodies takin turns up top slidin flush... as reason to be n open up caters jus enough to the feel of lust growin up... goin deep in the middle of all the side attractions cut loose due to findin that one person that gives the nothin one doesnt wanna go without... as moments rendered collect the memories thatll last that arent jus words slipped off the flipped from the tongue exposin sound...from the beginnin to the end friends settle in to the passion convinced thought is a considerstion that wont play with the emotion fallin in... as two enter the creation of relations kickin back with time to spare with the enjoyment neva distant...

Lost in life with 3000 ways to say whats on the mind...

When u lose all hope. When people aren't worth the time. When reality switches some shit up. Alone you'll stand Mentally in life.... with 3000 ways to say it... whats on the mind repeats the pasts reoccurances twist... waitin in the shadows unseen my sight... n its self that is most missed...

The dream is over...

Luv is a lie of built up emotions that will one day hurt u.
Don't believe in it for u will feel it's wrath of truth.
If u play luv's games of twisted genders.
U will find yourself in a state of surrender.
So while u think.u feel luv it's actually a friend.
N we all know to well all friendships come to an end.
Try n justify if u will the simplex situation if u can.
But the truth is once u fly u havta land.

Intended to be human...

U get tired of sticking to yourself n jus want something to do... N it seems I've been dealin so long with other's drug abuse... Luv'rs that claimed to be a friend but had gotten taken away...  Leavin me to fight for s lost cause knowin they luv'd me before the chaos took place... Yet o pry party is required for I chose to be a human n be there for them in a time of need... The most fucked up thing is I was the bad guy bcuz I was the sane one that found it hard to watch them breathe...

movin on...

I wish I could be the words I write... Maybe come back to life... Do more than live through an expression read... N possibly ignore the conversation with myself in my head... Feelin something other than four walls closin in on a nightly basis... Workin n playin alone I see the passerbys of faces... As I look the other way waitin on a moment in time... I can't be seen in person bcuz I to hide...

Buried in my face...

It gets lonely being alone ninety percent of the time... Talkin to self is jus a reminder of the devotion that brought me to life playin out in my mind... There's neva anyone ever around that comforts what's goin to waste... N the smiles shown jus ain't neva enough to tame the emptiness buried my face... As hiding behind walls thinking of the moments of luv to live are like a dagger in my heart... N to to it off no one truly knows what I have to give in which is Adrian if yet another luv'r walkin away with what's left of my charm... All I am is words tappin at what's trapped within anymore... N as deep as I can reach there's no one here to feel me come the fuck around to bein draped in happinesses lure... It's more than I what to do with sittin alone tellin myself I'm jus waitin of shit to play out... Knowin it's a fuckin lie I try to express in the mirror that neva makes a sound... I'm so in tuned with myself I've forgotten how to fit in... As e secret I hold is I jus wanna find that passion that ran through my veins once upon a while ago that truly raised my grin... Yet I reside in confinement simply scared to allow anyone to touch that spark that makes me, me... I'm comin loose at the seems... Aching for the attention that can actually show me I'm something to miss... Tastin as I've said many times my name on her lips... It hurts livin in solitude as others have come n gone with interest I neva thought twice about as I keep it movin... N I ask myself, who am I foolin... But I'm in a situation where those closest to me collapsed as I was left here without them as my back was exposed to the betrayal of trust... N all I've eva wanted was to know I'm fuckin luv'd... Yeah I took a hit but I'm willin to explore my options if I could jus feel connected without the emotion at first... U know, find a common worth... A friend that ain't gonna change her mind n walk away... As I thought I'd neva write this shit due to it jus ain't me to openly cry in the rain... Mr. Chuckles always fuckin with everyone has learned how to cover up the truths that fight off this world... N all I want is jus over that I can call my girl... Without the addictions that steal luv in the makin that tends to die... Jus don't tell anyone I've fallen n gave up on tryin to find what's considered blind...

Don't mind me...

Forgive me if I'm human n I do some real shit. I'm addicted to life n the offers tasted upon my lips. Straight forward with my head twisted on swivel. Somewhere else upgraded I'm on another level. Look me over n see I don't throw punches at irrelevant childishness. Taking chances on new pretty faces that come n go with my happiness. Rounding back to self standin more erect than I was before. Unable to find an opponent in the must of configuring luv giving more. Up early to the grind runnin down my keep no one can take. Behind the scenes fuckin with everyone I meet. Over look me for I'm a Lil different in the way I live. My mind tapped out n allowed me to gain a tickle in my rib. Nothing fazes me due to I've already lost everything I had. All but self still laughing at the memories that won't fade into my past. Jus one man I am digging in to getting in to where I fit. Damn near lost without a home goin all in on luv that stalled out n went to shit. Blaming self for sticking it out with empty hands walkin away as a clown. Carryin self in this world made to force one face down. A bit of a slow learner as emotions turn on my mindsets frequency. Standin solo looking for the keys to my castle n someone to listen to me. To feel me comin from the depths of my pit making room. Comin simple with the fundamentals technique hardly ever used now a days. Don't mind me as u pass on by looking off in the distance seeking the same ol same. I've been to the bottom on my way back up bein someone else's strength. Something u prolly don't know about for u woulda bailed out on em in need. So don't let me move the way u sway right on around me peeking up. My reality has taken me to places you've neva felt that left me as a what was. But u wouldn't understand why I do what I do. N that's the truth...

The linger of u...

Lemme see u as the sun's comin up. As my eyes open to u still hanging around. I jus wanna notice u in true form waking to life. Hearing u yawn with a sigh knowing you've been found. Jus to visualize u wrapped up in the morning with me snug to the fit. Damn, the sight of it is jus one of a kind. N the feel of holding u would be a dream awaking in its own. At least that's what's goin on behind the hazel of my eyes...

Raw intent...

If I may ask. How is it u see life? Without the materialistic attributes. If u broke down in a mental moment without emotion to who it is u truly are. Ignoring the chaos that floods the streets. Jus raw thought of what it is u have seen n felt. What is life to u? Bcuz no matter where I am or what I'm goin through,  it's everything to me... It's all there is. It's the tickle that touches my smile. The reason I have enjoyment. Life... YeS I wanna live it...

First to the grit...

Strip yourself down beneath the face mask u wear. Show me who it is I'm casting my stare upon. That is if u wanna see me mentally bare. For emotions will come to the likeliness followed up with a chance at luv's spawn. Open up to like havin more use than four other perfectly placed letters. Alike minds together are better than bars spit so clever. I'm talking the simple necessities of who we jus might be in the presence of life goin right on by. Speak not of what ur actions hasn't moved to to prove to u polishing the smiles shine. It's easy if u jus be yourself as self bcuz self needs to breathe. Hello! Can u hear me?

What it is...

I ain't on fighting ova ur immaturities so called crazy. Nor declaring war with ur selfish stubborn getting ur way or ur flipping out Bs. That's fuckin shady. If u gonna go run that game my way imma walk right on by Ya silly azz.  Even though Imma look u up n down as we pass bcuz I can't fuck with Ya. But I'd tap that. So get ova yourself talking that crap runnin yappidy yap trap u got. Get with it n step outta sequence of what ya surroundings that have taught n sunk into ya train of thought. Loosen the fuck up n turn in the mirror my way so I can decide if u look better comin or goin. For I'd see for myself both sides of ya intentions before they'd have a chance to ask what I'm doin...

Unseen...

Be beautiful to me with my eyes closed. It's a trust thing that cannot be seen tucking my bone. Don't touch, jus come close enough to be felt jus before we collide. Sssh... Jus close ur eyes. Go with ur other senses for once in ya life. Try to see me in a different way I wouldn't mind. Now come undone with what naturally flows. Bcuz like u there's more to me than what's bein shown...

Reserved...

I'm not hollow. I jus have a reserve. Gathering every emotion unused. Jus to be unleashed on a real woman's worth. Whether ur out there or not I'll wait. I ain't rushing a damn thing tonight. I'm jus resting n getting ready for when we meet. Thinking with my head on my shoulders about how it is u bring me to life everytime I tell u goodnight.

The presence...

Where in the fuck is ur mind? Mines wrapped up in rhymes spending time in between each n every line. Piecing words together in truths written without a beat or a hook to help me through. I'm me n ur u. What else is there to prove? Let's make a move n get loose. Let the chosen letters scrambled into a setting before ur eyes find their place. What is it u see in a face? In a shape that makes u taste my name. Can u see me as I cannot be tamed? Where's ur thought as it passes midnight's stroke of clicks upon the wall? Into the pillow as u fall. Questions need an answer if ask not con figuratively speaking. U know, it's a game of chance before we're done breathing...

True intent...

U know the taught version of life...
I live the sought out certainty in my mind...
Come fuck with me...
N I'll explain ur dreams...
Exploring the possibilities of wants over needs...
Can u say woop the fuck ki aye, gimme gimme..!
Tiltin emotion into the mental awareness of what..?
A friend as a plus...
Wearin off on the up side of smiles jus bcuz u n I can relate...
Sit, stay...
Neva by command but a gesture of comfort...
Showin worth...
Yet not financially other than putting in...
Idgaf where you've been...
The realist shit is in the depths we seek...
U see, there's a u n there's a me...
Doin nothin in particular but enjoyin life...
It's ok to sigh...

Dippin...

Lost in a moment of direction as life wound up here... Unfazed on the bounce back luv still lives behind the likeliness of takin the wheel... In control of where the heart makes its pitstop to enjoys a smile... Legs spin as if rollin on pavements stick given traction with style... Gettin to the comforts gain somewhere other than where feelings have been... Able to think over the emotion that can only tend to dream... Hey psst..! Watch me whip... Hittin corners n huggin the curves given shape to the memory on the road... All within the movement of tryin to make it home... A rider... Taken no shit til I digs deeper than my peter deep inside her... Avoidin the late night cruises unless luv has no place prior to like settlin the nerve... Believin n actions over the shit talkin of mere words.... I'm in my own lane as the mirrors shrink the image of what was... Jus wantin to be touched...

The hush...

What if I had a secret sittin behind closed doors that wasn't afraid of luv... Would u know I've been needin a moment after givin all I had to give as I felt that rush in every touch... Let's say I gotta hold my heart shut bcuz it jus wants to know who's out there... Locked away from anyone ever knowin how the man in me is jus a few females past takin a dare... As time alone is curious to feel someone actually get in beneath the visual tease... Maybe in my lost sense of home I truly jus wanna be able to breathe... If I had reason to go beyond likin someone my silence would release the intent of need goin all out... Hidden in the other end of words flipped from the tongue jus wantin that name that has no other sound... As the emotion i cherish put on hold is goin to waste due to idk who in the fuck is who... Yet, how do u know I wouldn't wanna get to know u... On the hush side of life waitin patiently as the pillow next to me has no scent of perfume... If my truths wasn't muted n told u that even a man desires the connectivity absent to the joy that's all but forgotten about... Could u relate to a conversation ready to play in the middle of nothin goin on as thoughts keep goin around n around... Maybe, jus maybe I'd wanna finally go home n know where it is I to fuckin belong... U gotta admit the place in which we live in is down right raw... N my arms ain't got shit to do at night but reach for a new memory I cannot seem to dream... Tangled up in bed alone in the emptiness of chilled sheets... I've jus become Mr solo artist til what I cannot resist comes along n makes me wanna open up... Without having to talk about how like is more important than luv...

Watched...

Thing is, my daughter's thought of me matters... So no, I'm not gonna be what ur used to as a disaster... I'm jus a lil different than most... Mindset mature enough to have some fun even when alone... N as those emotion u seek, they ain't jus given to what appears to be quick n free... Ur gonna havta get to know me if u want to see how a man fills in a word like complete...

No more substance abusers...

One of the few... That small percentage that got behind the lines... Each at their own depth... Only on as far as becomin a wife... All came n left with issues that were not mine... The rare ones... Uniquely tasted with a different kinda pleasure... They are the enjoyed class said n done... As luv with them was set to the side... Three outta so many I cannot remember their names... As it's said I wear my heart on my sleeve which isn't the case... I jus liked sharin feelings in which I could relate... Wonderin what life would've been like if they wouldn't of had seconds thoughts... Without the bs put on the table as so called proof... From the booze to the pills seen to the dope that pressed me away... The way it was expressed I didn't think I could lose... Yet friends of any kind has no worth when it comes to a substance... First is the third as the second is the first... The third bein the second in the proper order of who I luv'd more...  N all I never wanna do again is hurt... Seven yrs of opening up fell through due to a lifestyle I could neva choose... As close as we were in our time they turned... Unable to stand by my side n gain a friend... Each teachin me a lesson well learned...

High af...

U wanna smoke a sticky tree..? Maybe blaze with me... Set fire to some illegal weed... N maybe change the way u think... On a smokey mountin lit to enhance the mind... Toke, toke, takin it to the head in the middle of life... Makin our own clouds as our presence feels that high... Burn one n chill with the vision of slanted eyes... Feelin the effect imagine the thoughts flickerin a spark... Slowin down the flow of the heart... Takin in the thc as a work of art... Come, hear the sizzle transformed by the char... Inhale a moment to ease the fuck back... Jus sit back n relax... Nature is the only thing that will ever last... So jus puff, puff, pass...

Can u hear me..?

I'd like to meet u n get to know u before life gets to movin into the later on down the road... Jus to stand face to face with u in the middle of the attraction that makes me wanna bring my azz home... I can't lie to myself so why would I fib to u even though I don't even know who u are..? Damn it be nice to enjoy the way u smile when u see my face turn to u as to luv u could neva be hard... Goin in with u as we'd be side by side allowin the emotion to ease jus past the friendship in which we've created outta thin air... Where can I find u if u were to look for me so we can feel somethin real come from within the simplest thing as we can't help but to stare... Locked in for a lifetime of fun doin what we do together as what matters is where we are holdin each other tight... I could really use u in my life to settle the questions of who u are in the empty space in my lonely mind... Hey!!! What do u look like so I can stop fantasizin behind closed doors of the shape of not only ur face but ur body touched by my fingertips loosenin up... I'd hold my end if u could jus come from out of the sea of all others that could needs be u as u tell me the bond we share comes with undeniable trust... Listenin to the pulse reachin for the vibe in sync with the rhythm of what we can become... Knowin no other will ever do due to the reason behind the eyes that carry through actions as a must... Look up n u jus might see me peekin in between the crowd tryin to connect with ur in subtle sight... Oh how my comfort would give u what I could as a man cuddled to u as my woman in the satisfaction of flight... Givin two birds to the rest of the world that could neva be u in luv with someone exactly like me... But you'd havta surface as yourself for me to know who u are so I can shut down the wonder in all my late night dreams... I jus wanna play with u here in life n show u what awaits u that I can't give to anyone else... Openin up so u know u are felt... Can u hear me callin to u without a name to go by wantin to jus get ur attention so we can finally breathe..? Hello!!! I wanna feel ur heat layin next to me.... Snuggled up n in the mood to trust what u neva havta question for I mean u no harm... As a friend first doin my part...