The turn that hurts...

Tears beneath the happiness is the truth behind a grin... Knowin not a damn person cares for where we've been... Putting the front up to hide the emotional pain in which we live... N even I've gotten away from tellin my tale havin nothin left to give... Feelin the twist that hurts that can never be mentioned... Jus the happy lil thoughts so other don't think we're demented... As fallin in luv with the feel of sadness is a thing... Down into depression yet don't tell no one or they'll act as if ur breath stinks... Turnin away knowin they to feel the got wrenchin emptiness themselves... But don't tell them I told u for the leave u to yourself... Admittin truths for the world to know is unheard of... They even get jealous if they seem u under the impression of luv... Even though there's secrets we all save for the mirror inside... Unable to tell the closest to us of what changes or minds... The leakin comes in the dark when we're alone... Driftin on the thoughts of a place called home... Runnin from the past that holds on for dear life... Over thinkin again in the absence of light... Talkin a ramble that makes no fuckin sense... As all we know is the feel of it is too intense... Wantin needs to come to terms with both are relevant... I want there for I need or is it the other way around where needin wanted without hesitance... Changin every so often as the grip chases the final shot before it connects... As there's no true line of defense... Jus movements on moments that build the memory til it goes nuts... All the while tryin to keep what's real on hush... As afraid could give a fuck less to the minds that comes care less... Bcuz the heart has felt the flip side of an opened chest... Fillin the void so solo isn't the worst thing ever... Tryin to stay away from sayin no not me never... Yes, I hide me from those that have no compassion... N I suffer quietly as I sidestep the beginning of passion... Scared I be for I've been touched by the beauty life has to offer to... As it turned n left me standin the way it did u... Goin through one issue after the other within attemptin to figure a way to fix what been broken... I wrote the end... As I didn't listen to what it was I said... Even though it was the truth as I admitted I felt at I'd I were dead... Lost in own loss of feelin my time had me by... Knowin it's jus the way I adapt n it's all fuckin lies... It's the turn that hurts the worst... When u cannot get close enough to hear their words...