Shanked...

Only if u knew what its like behind my eyes.
Knowin what I know n livin without a night.
This shit isn't normal that twists a shanked two edged dagger.
Still in the state of mind of havin no ends that will never matter.
Double takin life n repeatin a bobbin motion, jammin n steppin.
I never thought I had the heart for skeepin alone as me alone I'd be reppin.
Easy is a word better said than swallowed when unspoken anymore irritatin vocal chords.
Standin with a frog in the throat, letting go of pourin of evermore.
Still as fresh as yesterday waking up lookin around it's me I found.
As the rivers dry yet the texts roll in n for help n only I know what I know, wow.
The dog wants out but the man in me has checked his ass to heal.
So here I am, leaning forward n falling into place ever so real.
I seen the life after her n I'm enjoyin the way I move on my very own.
Shits in my grasp n before eyes that stare my character is grown.
The one in which that was slept on as lessons were slowly learned.
So here I go drifting back to the world I knew so well, firm.
Acceptin the thought of i know what I want n for now it's not luv.
N I always said inside relations with an other, I swore I'd never touch.
I'm out n roaming solo, free with a heart guided by a pure n unintimidated mind.
Knowin who n what I am in the aftermath of releasing the one I considered mine!
Never again shall I sell self out the way I have once upon a time for u.
The dog in me is house broken n the rest of me has found its use.
Jus gonna be a minute to get into a grove n open up somehow.
So for now I'm lookin for a lil time n a lot of touch if an other can deal with my growl.
For I'm past the point of an intimate night n it's almost that time to prove myself again to breathe.
Yeah, she released a dog into this world that's best friends with the man within me.
Jus wanting to kick it with one, when we can.
Isn't life grand???