Oct 16,2016

I ain't feeling it... My reflections isn't right with me in the mirror... Something's missin... Y is it, I must feel this fear... Y do I see a stranger avoiding me... Y can't I look at myself... I don't feel like me no more... Wondering if there's any fuckin help... Fucked up I am inside... Mentally exposing who it is I've become... N IDK, I'm not the same no more... Yet up high is two thumbs... Yeah, sure, I'm OK... As I hide the same as u do behind a hurt smiles curve... Tryin not to be seen... Forgetting what I'm worth... Somethin in here turned on me... I think I turned on myself... Runnin down a dream lost in reality... Unable be be felt... Retractin emotion n intent to keep for me... I'm literally at a loss of words... I got ran over by life...  Strugglin to find a reason to make me work... Hatin the pity eyes ponder with a stare... Stand back up Butch... When my legs won't fuckin move... Fuck u Butch...