The rare one...

Lookin up I laid my sights down upon her on her knees... In luv with what she can do to please... Willin n wantin to taste the width of a long n hardened piece of meat... Only the way a woman could as she sat me back off of my feet... Inserted orally she tickled the touch... Deeply into the back off her throat I felt her hum... As her eyes closed n the suckin had started the fun... My kinda freak, one that don't run yet enjoys rubbin on a fat one... Strokin the feel of my toes curlin to the jitters of my twitch... Sending my body into uncontrollable fits... As I jus couldn't help but to say, that's my bitch... She took the last drop as she knew she did me in...

Lmao... Fuck u...

If there was an us...

Playin with the way it feels under my tongue... That lil movement that makes that tingle come away from the silence of hush... I twist it
into a passion with my taste buds... Teasin the intensity of extendin to the touch... To becomin flush to the clitoral lusts... Engagin with the drip of moisture as my third arm becomes a crutch... I goof jus knowin what'll happen if ur nakedness I'd rub... Softly in thought I ease into the crush... In luv with the rush of the moment to watch u blush... Soaked n pantin as breaths can't shush the gush... Layin upon ur back as ur hips thrust... For in which the climax u trust... As moans grunt on a vibe decimatin the need of want... I flaunt skills that taunt... To tamper with the hunt... Like a stunt man divin in to ur cunt... Jus to say I like it when I confront what could've been a was... To hear the applause from ur lips tempt flaws to relate as a must... Flappin a slap like a snack as u cuss... Comin undone... Jus havin fun grippin my head with ur inner thighs as if hugs... I'm the one in which u were told to never fall in luv...

Steady...

Ease in to it... Slowly... Using emotion as it opens up... For the knowing... Inch by inch... It'll fit... Allowing the satisfaction to rise on the slide of going down... To a different level of understanding so the feel doesn't get ripped.... Coming through to fill the mood... Wrapped up... Setting the moment free... Finding depths in the way of touch... Never pushing to hard... Until time is groped with hands on the spin of the swivel... Enjoying the movement shared... Speaking with soft lips as they dribble... Don't rush it... Accept the way in enters u n makes room... Jus be n let me be me... As throbs beat to the pounding of the boom... Go with the nature of the effect... The way it affects the norm... Taken in n released as get the fuck over here... Tasting the way words make luv feel like porn...

Truce...

Do u know how it works... Can u figure it out if u seen it for what it is... What if it hurts... Even if it winds up to be bullshit... Have u used it properly or not... The way it was meant to be felt... How it jus doesn't know how to stop... Like there's no help... If it came to u in ur thoughts n u understood... Could u find where it fits in... How it holds the key to relations wantin u to open up n give in to what's good... Knowin where you've both been... Standin healed n intact... How is it u look at it... How do u decipher through its cracks... Would u be willin to feel how the pieces have been placed in between the scars as fixed... Comin from within with an honest tone... Where's ur head when time sits so utterly still... Does ur mind roam... Wondering what it'll take to be fulfilled... Or is it u cross them off one by one like it's not u... As if time told u to wait on something better than what it is u think u are... If it stepped in front of u what is it you do... Do u have any emotion left in ur heart... Do u need somethin like it to pull u through, blaming others... Or are u willin to admit not everyone's the same... That some are jus luv'rs... N then there's those who claim the fame of relations untamed... Who is it ur lookin for... What is it u think it is comin around the corner tryin to surprise u... Knockin on the imaginations door... Lemme hear ur truce...

Reachin for the edge...

Days rise as the sun chases his beauty of the night as the moon plays his game of tryin to be near her jus to show her the warmth he is made of. Everyday, day in n day out his presence follows the night sky wanting this world to move outta his way n allow them to be as one in luv. Round n round they live a playful game where he proves he wants her so close that he gave her the world n placed it before her to have as her own n watch billions of individuals desire the passion made possible by her glow. In his mind its the least he can do to show her, her smile alone brings more joy to his own for he will spend his days reaching fir the edge where night n day meet n the true beauty of their luv makin within the colors of the sky is shown.......

Shanked...

Only if u knew what its like behind my eyes.
Knowin what I know n livin without a night.
This shit isn't normal that twists a shanked two edged dagger.
Still in the state of mind of havin no ends that will never matter.
Double takin life n repeatin a bobbin motion, jammin n steppin.
I never thought I had the heart for skeepin alone as me alone I'd be reppin.
Easy is a word better said than swallowed when unspoken anymore irritatin vocal chords.
Standin with a frog in the throat, letting go of pourin of evermore.
Still as fresh as yesterday waking up lookin around it's me I found.
As the rivers dry yet the texts roll in n for help n only I know what I know, wow.
The dog wants out but the man in me has checked his ass to heal.
So here I am, leaning forward n falling into place ever so real.
I seen the life after her n I'm enjoyin the way I move on my very own.
Shits in my grasp n before eyes that stare my character is grown.
The one in which that was slept on as lessons were slowly learned.
So here I go drifting back to the world I knew so well, firm.
Acceptin the thought of i know what I want n for now it's not luv.
N I always said inside relations with an other, I swore I'd never touch.
I'm out n roaming solo, free with a heart guided by a pure n unintimidated mind.
Knowin who n what I am in the aftermath of releasing the one I considered mine!
Never again shall I sell self out the way I have once upon a time for u.
The dog in me is house broken n the rest of me has found its use.
Jus gonna be a minute to get into a grove n open up somehow.
So for now I'm lookin for a lil time n a lot of touch if an other can deal with my growl.
For I'm past the point of an intimate night n it's almost that time to prove myself again to breathe.
Yeah, she released a dog into this world that's best friends with the man within me.
Jus wanting to kick it with one, when we can.
Isn't life grand???

Speak up...

I got what u need in the palms of my hands.. But u gotta gimme what I want before I can open up to the complicit demands. Dig in to this gender touching of awareness n tenderise it's relativity of showing some luv. The cost of time is an expression on emotions sway that flutters within breaths that escape. I have what most me don't posses on reserve n it's waiting to play to the sinkin in of exchangin names. Come up outta ur bag of tricks n put it on me like I've never felt a womans want. That desire to have what would change life in its own jus to hold words in a caring sense of blunt. I got the vibe flowing with the bars in my heart callin whisperin chants that sounds as if my mouth forms the existence of u. Comin from the crowd as stepping forward n away from the rest is presence bein known put to use. Don't tell me what ur gonna do with me for words have many different interchangeable meanings. Come along n I'll show u purpose standin still done with the Bs of dreaming. Come get u some if u got it in u to speak up n be heard. That is if u can calm down n realize not all men wanna pluck ur fuckin nerves. I got u right here with my heart, third leg, mind n body at ur service. Laid at the tips of ur toes with no need in bein nervous. I acquire that thought u can't drag outta ur head right here placed in plain sight. It's ur call if u wanna be the one able n willin to kiss it g'night...

Diggin...

What of that lil bit of luv that kinks in the spine... What of it... Who's to say the missin link like a set of hands to comfort u isn't on my mind... What of the thoughts I keep hidden on the other end of the tip u see as my tongue releasin only pieces of how my head gets lost on u the way u ride my rhymes... What of us... One of us... One as us... What is us... Are we lit climbin climaxes showin the fragments unseen by the light of day... Feelin the freak unleashed suckin in the way we say each other's name... What of the emotion that comes forth to play its roll opened up... Pluggin in to the way ur curves can bend doin a lil thingy called a sexy fuck... Touchy feely free of the what, of even the connection flows a stroke... To fuckin explicit for anything less than what's real n in the moment to live... What of the bouncin of lips that isn't jus in the motion of a kiss... What of the tone in which u come alive temptin me with ur vocal lusts spoken... Of what... Oh what... Who's what here if natural intent cannot breathe with the content of desire rippin loose... Moanin the way I do with u the way u do for me... Diggin in to the depths of the tingle goin past the limits of cummin at will whisperin needs... What of the selfishness of us in an uncontrolled settin naked n bared... Unable to share... Unwillin to tap first... What of truths in words... Where u get slurped up... Flipped over n goin in slow until our skin is flush... What of the devotion of pleasure the brings the best of two worlds together... Talkin about forever... What of the unspoken use... Wouldn't it be cool...

No hope...

When u lose all possibility of belief in everything around u bcuz it's all bs n lies... U settle down in a different state of mind that may or may not fuck with the way u spend ur time... Diggin in to find what's talk n what ain't... What to feel, think n be that's actually fuckin safe... Gods n  holidays being a lost cause as people are all fake but a few... It'll make u so damn discussed you'll wanna puke... Knowin it's all a show n none of it truly means a thing... Redirectin the way u think... When u enter into realities truth... Life changes in the way u use its proof...

Don't miss me...

I wanna fall before u n watch how far behind ur eyes I can get through the reflection of me goin down sayin fuck u bcuz that's where u think I need to be... On my knees beggin u as if ur some type of self made esteem makin u feel like ur better bcuz they're others that want u jus a much as me... The lesser care awaits the return to somewhere I will not be when u get back from that fantasy place you've established in ur mind in which is only a fuckin dream... Ur no more than what I have to offer as self that's taken an interest in the way I thought u said I was that comfort of relief... Please... Don't miss me!!!

Smoke...

Lemme smoke my presence into my subconscious n toke with myself until I am honest with this smoke I under...

Back...

Comin off the chest as if I have somethin to say... Piecin me together connectin with a thought process unscaved... Here I am pieced back together the way I wanna be known... N I have so much more to me that wants to be shown... 

Country home...

Lookin for that country road to take me home... For it to open up as I'm free to roam... Huggin the curves of a woman beyond the city lights... Out where the stars stand out in the middle of the night... Jus wantin that drive away from the chaos to matter to more than me... Watchin the horizon lift n fall in her eyes as we breathe... Stopin on some back road somewhere to take in a moment of life... Easin the fuck outta the comfort in my mind... With the stretchin of the pavement snug up under the wheels like she's tucked into my rib... It's jus the way I wanna live... Out past the concrete that's captured me... I wanna be free... Gettin lost without boundaries as the flat plains go on n on... Findin the peace in which I claim so I can once again feel my norm... It's where I wanna be touched... Wrapped in lil thing called luv...

Done in...

Went in to deep n had to swim to the shallow to come back out... Damn heart sucked me in as emotion turned around... Thought to myself it could be a good thing yet it came to be a mistake... I almost drowned in luv as it held me under with a smirk upon its face... I could've stood up but felt the need to see how long it was gonna submerge my efforts... As I dried the fuck up listenin to whistles as my head became a dessert... A wasteland full of empty space waitin it's moment to ride the thoughts soon to come... As for what I found lingerin in my imagination was the reality in which I was done... Standin face to face in the mirror unable to lie about a fuckin thing... It was like awakin from a long azz dream... Revived with an arsenal of words ready to rip loose... Most tucked away as the tongue went mute... Findin me grown n intact once the feelin of betrayal finally faded... Allowin a best friend to dig where they now lay as I'm no longer irritated... I walked with luv as it stepped on me as I wiggled with a chuckle for I knew it was losin is grip... Releasin the throat to speak from raw uncut n untamed lips... Two n which held the secrets as a last gesture of I meant them no harm... Bcuz more I know I'm the only one who owns my heart...

Paradise...

Wrap em around my neck n hang on... I ain't fuckin with u unless I can lick u like we're in a porn... Grip n squeeze, I bet u can't get away... With every stroke my tongue will have u comin undone as u say my fuckin name... Get ur lil legs as snug as u can cling... Bcuz when I begin to sling my taste buds in circular motions ur gonna feel me in need... Playin as if I've found paradise in ur thighs... Around n around flattenin the stretch flipping the top on ur clits sigh... Jus make sure ur not gonna fall off as I left u up... Pinnin u against the wall n face fuckin ur lusts... Hummin, get it, get that shit til u pop... Takin u back to the bed where it gonna havta make me stop...

A new feelin...

Open to the passion to be shared from within... Still awakenin to find who can feel me reachin in... Layin close enough to be claimed as a luv'r that cares... A goner sinkin in to the comfort upon my chest for relations are fair... Unafraid of the cost on time it'll take to figure out if she's real... I jus like the way she feels... Sparkin a flame behind my eyes... Loosenin the rhythm in which I grind... No longer needin saloon doors to swing at the doorway of my heart... Simply enterin to take part... As the rest is for the wind to know if the breeze switches direction... I'm jus goin with what I see in her intentions...

Knockin on what they don't know...

Open to the passion to be shared from within... Awakenin to find who can reach what's healed n met upon the grin... Whole beneath the frame luv quietly exists... Unheard truths could neva be missed... Hidden behind expressions on the other side of closed doors... Emotion flips the light switch off n on n off n on... Tryin to remember what it felt like not having to pretend... Layin in the dark as friends... Snuggled up to pillows before the day comes full circle n rounds up the light... Afraid to give to an other n what I'd find... Yet in dyer need to confide in some comfort let loose... Scared of everyone, even u... Believin in beginnings wind up in the end of all good things the same way they've ended prior to the now that hurt so fuckin bad... Steppin away from the past... Lookin forward but leery of the intent of others that jus might flip when they get in to u know who... Hearin them knockin to get my attention as if I'm a fool... Yeah, I'm willin as I stand with space in between the connection to study n stare it down... For I'm not one to be thrown away again due to the lack of realization that clings to their mouth... As goin all in is jus a thought so many think of as a way to cope with being alone... Not knowin what it takes to have a home...

If u could help.... would u? As a human being... to lend a hand. Isn't it the way its supposed to be in God's eyes. Help thy neighbor? Or do u follow the lead of the world n turn ur cheek? We as the people of this planet have lost the passion of life to live together as family. What would u do if u were the only one someone could turn to? No matter the situation. Is the gift of a simple gesture within u? Cuz we all have a responsibility to make this world a better place. Yet so many follow footsteps of selfishness. Live ur life for I will not stand n allow those around me to fall when all has failed.......

Lemme speak a rythmatic rhyme in ya ear to last a lifetime as ur smile shines n I can see thru ur eyes what's settlin as u find me on ur mind. Allow my tongue to change what's been sung in movement escaping lungs gasping for air as I'm hung n on the point of pleasure that I'm not jus sayin I can make go numb for I'm not jus gabbin at the gums as u moan omg as size rubs. Jus a few words that'll never hurt followed by actions that blurt out my worth n urs in my world as I slurp up the flavor of proving unused nerves that can n will be a tamed urge to re-emerge as with one with my girth. Jus stepping to u I find truth in use in whoos as its u I choose comin unglued feeling brand new in a moment of proof tied to the bed for u know who. Jus react to me at first n see if u realize that this man with an endless skill rounds out the package made in full for a stretched limo to pull up to ur curbs n slide into u as I stretch n try not to hurt with pure intentions moving to ur interior noises forced out that's forever been unheard.....

painful choices...

It hurts to walk away n leave em in that life of drugs that's torn them down... Knowin u have a better way n broke the trust that you'd always be there no matter what as voices go mute, silencin sound... The feelin of betrayal will fuck with u until u learn to realize there's nothing u can do... Yet it won't make it any easier when ur friend needs someone they can trust n u can't be there due to ur tired of bein a fool... The twist of the feel is beyond jus a break away from someone in there right state of mind partin ways... An addict is someone u don't wanna know as a luv'd one will never again be the same... The rawness of the lifestyle thickens their hearts n irritates their emotion as to be the most luv'n when they get their way... N if the fix is in need, total chaos tares u apart piece by piece wantin to run away... As the sympathy runs out bcuz they know wtf they're doin n jus don't give a fuck... It fuckin sux!!! Time has no meanin unless it's the high the can't get to in time before the sickness. Findin out the other side of reasons bare nakedness... As in u they lean when times feel somewhat normal as if they've heard u cry... Jus before goin back into the unknown somewhere outta this world n lost to that fucked up state of mind... Fearin the worst each time... In a repeat of askin why... It'll eat u alive if u cannot accept the facts that it's their life they suck u into... Forgettin what normal is as gettin back to it, thinkin something has gotta give... It's the feel of turnin the cheek that gets to the guilt that's isn't yours to carry nor claim... As experience has told me with them there's no escape... U may call them junkies that ain't no good for nothin waste of life... Yet inside of each one of them is someone else fightin a lost cause in their mind... Gone to a different place so far away from reality it's as if they've been zombiefied without an appetite other than self distruction... Simply unable to fuckin function... Leavin u to talk to yourself n look over them while the transition of free complicates the definition of a true friend... As relations come to an end... Knowin if they wasn't on their chosen demise they'd be laughing right along with u even here today... Bcuz it was drugs that ripped yall from one an others arms lettin them fade... U havta let go n mind ur own at some point to rationalize with self that they were the one who gave the fuck up... They had ur luv... N it's ok to set ur morals down n ask them to decide what they want... Findin the last words u will ever say to them are I'm fuckin D.O.N.E...

The turn that hurts...

Tears beneath the happiness is the truth behind a grin... Knowin not a damn person cares for where we've been... Putting the front up to hide the emotional pain in which we live... N even I've gotten away from tellin my tale havin nothin left to give... Feelin the twist that hurts that can never be mentioned... Jus the happy lil thoughts so other don't think we're demented... As fallin in luv with the feel of sadness is a thing... Down into depression yet don't tell no one or they'll act as if ur breath stinks... Turnin away knowin they to feel the got wrenchin emptiness themselves... But don't tell them I told u for the leave u to yourself... Admittin truths for the world to know is unheard of... They even get jealous if they seem u under the impression of luv... Even though there's secrets we all save for the mirror inside... Unable to tell the closest to us of what changes or minds... The leakin comes in the dark when we're alone... Driftin on the thoughts of a place called home... Runnin from the past that holds on for dear life... Over thinkin again in the absence of light... Talkin a ramble that makes no fuckin sense... As all we know is the feel of it is too intense... Wantin needs to come to terms with both are relevant... I want there for I need or is it the other way around where needin wanted without hesitance... Changin every so often as the grip chases the final shot before it connects... As there's no true line of defense... Jus movements on moments that build the memory til it goes nuts... All the while tryin to keep what's real on hush... As afraid could give a fuck less to the minds that comes care less... Bcuz the heart has felt the flip side of an opened chest... Fillin the void so solo isn't the worst thing ever... Tryin to stay away from sayin no not me never... Yes, I hide me from those that have no compassion... N I suffer quietly as I sidestep the beginning of passion... Scared I be for I've been touched by the beauty life has to offer to... As it turned n left me standin the way it did u... Goin through one issue after the other within attemptin to figure a way to fix what been broken... I wrote the end... As I didn't listen to what it was I said... Even though it was the truth as I admitted I felt at I'd I were dead... Lost in own loss of feelin my time had me by... Knowin it's jus the way I adapt n it's all fuckin lies... It's the turn that hurts the worst... When u cannot get close enough to hear their words...

Sneak attack...

Sliddin up from behind... Nose findin the scent of the neck exposed... With a sniff the wiff is sent straight to the vibe... Lips releasin the feel of the attraction as the tongue unrolls... Claimin ur sighs... Writing a new story that's neva been told... Naked in between each line as lives intertwine... Allowin ur skin to awaken the nerves I wanna unfold... Thinking it's past that time... So down ya back to my knees i go... Wanting to give to what's in between ur thighs... Bendin u at the waist for ur goods to be shown... With every stroke bringing u to life... Listenin to the u moan... Waitin for the way ur legs shake as u grind... As from behind my face is buried down below... Wantin to feel u burst outside my mind... Neva to return til ur toes curl n ur eyes roll... With only one reason of why... To get u off n taste the way u flow...

Causin ripples...

Findin rocks to skip across the shallows of my heart... Watchin the way they glide from the way I swing my arm... One bounce, two bounce, three bounce, four... Next ones gotta go further a lil more... Standin on the shores where rivets meet my toes... Castin my boredom along the waters top exposed... As the pitch slips another into a ricochet as as it'll go... Out into the deep unknown... Scootin aimlessly along the edge until   pebbles sink... Where the fun resides n cannot breathe... I toss my will out to touch the sun's reflection upon the surface of tiny waves that roll... As one by one I release each one neva again to be known... Gone into the dip down to the bottom of time... Remembered as a moment I stood still n enjoyed a piece of my life...

To live...

Who wouldn't mind being touched by luv that actually exists... To settle the nerve on the edge of lookin from the reverse end on rambling lips... To go in n ease the fuck up for once n jus fuckin live... Touchin laughter without words feelin the rib... Damn, to go under would be great if it neva wound up being missed... Time could sure be more enjoyable if the emotion was real n raw as uncut as it was meant to live... Feeling what it is by depths that give... As back to life the belief in someone jus doesn't quit... Lookin free to be goofy in the middle of life's lil wish... Findin happiness with a friend showin intent... With someone who insists on being frisked...

A touch of Truth...

It's not knowing how to let go compared to givin up on somethin u feel is right... Yet, gettin them to acknowledge ur truths is like a blind man fuckin with a mute doin time... The heart has no eyes for all it knows is the way it feels.... So to step away from someone with an abandoned luv still up in the air is needless to say as it jus becomes what is real... Comin to terms with the other end of what we wanna believe as it is a fucked up emotion wantin to stay... Findin depths upon the surface as they flow headed off to another place.... Bein left to luv the mirror in which they once stood still in... Arms will open elsewhere once selfish wants define needs of worth feelin self again... Adaptin to what's been felt linger its way outta the connection of what used to be... For time gives a moment of realization and another chance to breathe... Breakin ties that bond us as bound for our own self distruction as a distraction waitin on an others actions to pull us apart... As the thought kicks in on que that luv is truly an amazin art... One in which that doesn't fade... As there's many different faces willin to say our name... Unrollin with the tongue to taste the tone takin shape in to form of sounds wasted space... As nothin was ever meant to remain the same...

On some other shit...

I'm jus fine with you not being perfect... N my heart, I don't care of you hurt it...  Bcuz you'd be worth the feel of the bullshit... Even though that ain't you're intent... Who's coming with the rent....  So the tent in which we live, we will not neglect... On some other shit... I wanna taste your lips... Feel the movement on your kiss... Indie your in to seeing on a hammock in between my ribs... My wish... I wanna use u the way u could put me to use n do more than be conjoined at the hips... Yes, I am addicted... I want my fix... It's mine so give it to me the way you get yours in that kink u call a twist...

Nothing left...

It's sad when everything about them finally drifts away knowin they were someone u wanted to know n have around... The sinister shit does things to the heart that slows it's role to find the pieces that fit n shake by the vibrations sound... Goin through fazes willingly to know the doubt is neva second guessed with the knowin of self... Unbound by limits is the teeter that deciphers how to stop... In an honest attempt standin with the only friend that truly turned on yours truly as my own help... When there's nothing left n the move on occurs with a new face with more promise to be revealed... Knowin everywhere we've been still lingers as a moment in which we learn how to feel...

Distasteful...

Before I hear u squeal I wanna hear u moan... Feel the way u get down n deal with the way I jus wanna see how u react to being groped... Prior to pokin u good as hittin it has my lips chasin my tongue all over u as to diggin in with my hands you ur hips... As freaky n open as u can possibly fuckin get... I wanna u to come out n play with me pushin the limits to where there no return... Pure skill n sexuality rollin about it even tied down to whatever works... Hands in n feelin u in every way known as ur explosions leaves that tingle of what the fuck... I'm talkin all out lusts... Me n u suckin fuckin lickin n tastin each other the way we want... Clingin to the way we touch... With a look face sittin n throat stuffin... Not once rushin beyond our bodies rubbin... What's those fantasies u seek that ur afraid to act out..? I wanna give them to u has u call or to me with sounds... Mumbles even muffled as gasps of air can't be caught... Fondlin ur will to go both ways with me as nasty as we can give n take the spewin of dirty talk... Down on knees needin more... As orgasms pour...

The endless...

It changes... The routines we repeat... Goin in n out of rhythms tryin to find a groove... Livin in periods of time with a slur that shortly into a legato theme... Due to bad timin... The vibe switches notes... Slowin the tempo into an acoustic... Feeling the bass fight the trebles gentile flow... Playin with the timbre to decipher what's goin on through sound... Findin new melodies along the way... As different pitches have a time signature to measure beats... Hopin tone tunes the musical taste...

Playing in the dark...

I'm not broken... I've been disassembled... Allowing a few different people take their turn... Hands on as I jus gotta find out how to piece me back together being reassembled... Back to the intact state of mind in which I lived... I haven't been chizzled around the edges for a smooth fit... I'm as rough as they come as fingers did nothin but flip the switch... Off I went as particles of dust disappeared the way I have speakin quietly to self in a dark unlit... Feeling my way through as anyone else would... Writing my own book...

When the lights go out...

Watchin thought put into play... Lookin at ignorance claim a race... Sticking to the shade of skin... Yet, what happens when if one gets along with an other as a friend..? Caught in the crossfire of those who say these are my people... Abandoning humanity to act as a single culture as minds get lost in the hay lookin for the needle... In between societies version the cracks are finely tuned... Taught to stick to one's own by peers quietly being doors on mute... Becoming disowned by those who don't want us to be like self... As if we can't be like any one else... Seems individuality rides on what humans are supposed to be by terms n conditions of where they're from... Absent minded to the fact that it's all land when the day is done... Sense can neva be made of the division when the lights go off... Bcuz unless someone tells u in the dark what they look like we're all the same as confused n lost... Grabbin hands n followin suit into someone else's way of thinkin... Jus wantin to fit in with the similarities that sight gets to seeking... Teaching it's us against them as morals doesn't have a choice due to fear... As it goes, don't turn own ya own or color loses in the mirror... Shamed by those in packs of hate that cannot accept none of us are exactly the same...  Actin like character is something that'll tare away at their lil game... For beneath the surface men n women are different as well... Running around with a kiss n tell... Judged is what comes from interracial relations out in the open... As weight, height, style is shared by multiple personalities through self devotion... Something that isn't allowed bcuz of the way the world is set up through domination... Getting that look in return of what's the hesitation... Pickin n plucking out the obvious bcuz it's the easiest to see... Forgettin we're all here livin with the fucked up mindset afraid to breathe... For words thought up to be spoken might get us shunned... Thing is expressions can say fuck what they think for what one person has to give comes in the form of luv... Not to jus one but to those more like us without the labels that restrict us... Yet to unlearn their way of life would mean we'd be the outcast that turned on the nonsense of all the fuss...

I feel ur pain...

Best way to put it is it hurts the tongue to even try n find a way to say it's afraid it cannot help u set everything I had given to better ur cause here at this thing called life...  My heart aches n in my mind I know ur situation as I placed myself by ur side for as long as I could waitin with everything I had in me that was never enough that tan or time... N yes, my eyes leak from the pain in which I left behind the day I walked away knowin my friend needed help with nowhere to go n alone... As I fight this motion of emotions that stirs within me as it yes me no matter how bad if Liv to return to ur side, I can neva run to u as anything more than friends nor share a home...

Fuckin u...

With two birds goin up up n away as I wink lettin u know I truly don't give a fuck... There's no readin in between the lines beneath the flight of fuck you's defined... Designed to lift on the uncurlin raised as high as eyes can depict ur expression of aw... Pointin em upward as I chuckle for givin two shits ain't gonna become my flaw... Doubled up from both hands with a half cocked grin n laughin on the turn that walks away... So jus do yourself a favor n takes notes on how they unfold n soar on the sound of ur name... For of the ten shots fingers can give it's the middle finger aimed in ur direction... N jus so there's no fuckin misconception or deception here's one from me for u to spin on as if it were my very own erection... U wanna know ur worth..? Fuckatayou n suck my birds... 

Breakin free...

Emptyin thoughts from dreams as I recall she's been the only one who's been able to tame me... As breakin free from her selfish needs cut strings from a friendship that was simply jus a tease... Now sittin still long enough to allow the overflow to flush the luv I had for her out my Mackenzie into the camode... Holdin nothin in as it all hasta go for me to be able to finally go home to what's real as it's shown... Drippin the mission of missin emotion of devotion of elopin as it was a fantasy frozen that I couldn't release myself from since the explosion... Real shit spread in a tongues twist as her kiss switched some shit up n spewed venom from the very lips in which backwards I flipped... 

Ilu Babii gurl...

There's this lil lady that stole my heart from day one.
Ever since I've layed eyes on her her smile has been my Sun.
She's the twinkling diamond shining in my eye.
Givin a daddy more luv in my heart fir I know she's mine.
My lil lady resides within me in the only place she can touch.
Cuz as long as she's been in my life my lil girl has had all my hugs....

Ilu babii gurl......

Witness within...

Where's ur mind at?
Walking away from ur past.
Can u see life on ur own?
Actions speaking n shown.
Does ur vision perceive the gift.
Observin truths behind the bullshit!
Is ur time worth anything if somthin?
Lookin thru what's goin on after witnessing it comin.
R u in control of ur best friend inside?
If so then step outside ur mind.
Will u ever see yourself in the same way?
If u noticed ur smile slippin down ur face.
How is it u feel u earned ur scars?
Cuz n one knows why they r til times get hard.
Do u think it's possible u can learn of yourself?
Then maybe be able to know ur truly felt.
What makes u know u got this?
Cuz all of us step in the same dumb ass bullshit.

Solo..

U never luv'd her if u hate her.
Said the man in me who became the debater.
U gotta let her walk her walk.
N keep it moving as I say with actions talk.
Everyone has the right to live their life.
Wether be by my side or I'm slit by the knife.
I gotta step n make me a better man I told myself.
Yet this time there is no female to help.
Long live the rising man I've become.
Gettin at life's twist til my time is done.

Talk to me..

Talk to me..

What is it possibly u think u wanna do without me askin u what u plan to do for me?
Imma stand still so I know why u wanna be apart of my own personal fuckin dreams.
I don't mean to come at u all like that n shit.
But words speak only in terms of debunked Bs.
How is it in which the fuck do u step?
How's my intention with u gonna be kept?
Walkin on me jus isn't a fuckin option to catch a chuckle.
I'd run through u before u had the chance to bare my knuckles.
IDK who in the fuck u think I am.
Like my life's a twisted joke at the mercy of ur cold deadly hands.
Nah, ur gonna havta lemme see some real shit I never gazed upon.
Or toodleydoo as u witness me with that smile of so long of bein gone.
Let my eyes purposely move with ur activated sway.
Talk to me through that lil thing u do when u spin my way.
Or don't even flick the fuckin switch.
I'd rather bury ur face in the pillow n go on about my way knowing strings don't exist.
One pump two pumps three pumpin the pink n im gone.
Or u could come at a mo fo like a respectable woman feeling the comfort of home.
What's ur angle of expertise?
What game are u tryin to run on me?
Excuse me for bein so fuckin blunt.
But I'd rather get the raw shit outta the way if this could be luv.
Get to the point or ur gonna lose my adhd of an interest.
I ain't gonna be laid up at night feelin hurt n pist n shit.
Dealing with ur Bs that us irrelevant as fuck.
All bcuz u wanna go n forget my worth on a mental note turnin in n away from my luv.
Lookie Lookie here, if u ain't above the level of pure emotion that can not think.
Save that shit for the boys u claim are down that only wanna rub Ya clit.
Yeah, untamed I walk looking for the other half of me.
So unless ur givin me something to believe in, get the fuck away from the air I breathe.
All we could ever be us some exotic freak kinky fuckin sex at best.
Sucking n kissing fillin a void til our body heat simmers to a rest.
My passion doesn't explode on some half azz two bit that thinks shes the shit.
Betta take it up a notch if u wanna hang us on a wall til the r.I.p. from us is ripped.
What is it u are truly wantin from me as u peek in my direction as if I'm some sort of eye candy?
How is it I can fulfill ur desirable needs?
Dig deep for my depths is an endless pit with plenty of room for u to decorate.
I jus ain't on that promisin shit where u wind up walkin away with the definition of hate.
It's jus not gonna fuckin happen.
U won't even get a self inflicted reaction.
U can't make me live that life as it be me in which I lose sight.
So what's the words that were slippin away from u a moment ago in time?
Were u tryin to say some slick shit or tryin to grasp my mind?
Bcuz I ain't feelin shit unless it makes sense to better my life.
If it ain't so, then we can do what the fuck ever.
I'll even be ur in between relations n flip u over as a luv'r.
But that tender zone I'm not giving away to jus anyone.
Ur gonna havta step the fuck up n show me ur the one n only fuckin one.
There is no me, there will only be an us!
Settled down n living full grown on the other end of luv.
I'm not an assholes spittin bitterness in the winds blowin u away.
I jus come straight for the jugular protection the both of us so we remain the same.
If I need to look past u I will at the drop n exact pivot located at the stillness of a dime.
So if ur comin for me, make sure u stand in my way for reasons to last a lifetime.
Bcuz I'll walk the fuck away before I'm forced to dog the fuck outta u as it comes to bein over.
It's guaranteed it'll be u that changes the course of redirection restrictin us as friends n luv'rs.
So, what the fuck is it u want from me?
Ur gonna havta speak up n give in to actually fuckin tellin me!!!

Y'all's choice to do me wrong...

Far from ur norm is where I found myself lookin at me confused... Somehow when I stepped away it dawned on me that I needed me more than when I stood abused... Danglin from ur fingertips that made me out to be the fool I allowed to see how fuckin far you'd take me... Jus to drop me on my face until u needed a friend u neva came to be... I fell down to ur feet wanting to be seen by u to show u my intent to comfort u... Realizin u were no good for me for ur motive was straight to the jugular everytime I couldn't be there m that's the truth... N the fact of the matter is when I was able I appeared unlike u as I neva missed a beat... I found a friend m she too did me the way u did as I went down with a double dose of defeat... I was so far gone tryin to have morals my life stopped not wantin even her to feel alone e way u did in this fucked up world... It wasn't games I was playin for I cared about u through her n wound up feeling for her what I get for u as fingers twirled... N it's here where I've done all I can n put me first the way neither of u ever could consider... So as for the moment my honesty rips loose to speak of the two of u I'mma say I miss her... As I second that with I cannot be with either of u due to the betrayal for drugs that cut me too... Yes, I to accused...

The battle of forevermore...

To be known from the inside out... As if the wall was removed n words had no reason to fall from the mouth... Truths that confide through time in a friend like no other... N is hard goin from one luv'r to another... It's in the daily routine character is shown... Watchin luv fade with the removal of labeled thrones... So called kings n queens change the thought of what they want... Even switch shit up I've they've dig in beneath the touch... Repeatin the same ol same givin emotion away too soon to relate... Jus feelin the need to fall into a coma state of mind as thoughts are rearranged... To know is in time of comfort as the calendar repeats itself... Hopin one is truly felt with the right amount of help... For terms n conditions to be unrushed by another careless to have it all way too soon... Thinkin this is it n allowin the shift begin to move... Connections last for as long as they seem to get their way... For lunch is selfish as tones change the sounds of names... As cautious feet jus wanna find out who's toes touches the tips of their own... Standin vertically for how long till passion buries the bone... Sex bein the easiest to give away yet has so much intent in the way two come together in the way the can tell who's who... All that's ever needed is proof... Mentally n physically conjoined at the lips through kisses n the spoken word of us... Things get rearranged from the inside lookin out in the form of lusts... As depths ain't met due to the lack of interest in an other... People are jus selfish n want more than they give as the question rises as why bother... Goin inwards n shieldin the heart from the pain that comes n goes bein tied down to a devotion that cannot be real... Leavin the sense of my bf left me alone to heal... Lookin in mirrors for the gain of respect we've lost in ourselves hooking up with wantin jus a lil sum sum to truly feel... As sittin alone talkin about it jus doesn't seal the deal... Relyin on attractions that fall on the shallowness of the skin... Where touch explodes n ignites a fire not knowin what even makes each other grin... Jus goin with the sexuality expressed bcuz the mind refuses to believe no one's with it... That worth of beIN alone is the security of the best fix... Promises fall from a state of mind to become someone we neva thought we'd be... Jus livin n tryin not to believe in divorced dream...

Home left...

Home will neva forget ur name... It'll always remember ur face... Home will open it's doors for when u decide to come on in... It won't let u go without a place to live... Home is where comfort settles there nerves... Where time finds worth... Home is a place to run to when all else has failed... Where I needs havta feel frail... Home will be there when times get tough... When life gets to be a lil bit to rough... Home will have a pillow waitin on for u to lay ur head...  Unless home had moved n u cannot find where it went as it fled... Home remains to be the only place that accepts u as u are... Until home has a redirection of the heart... Home has been the timeless presence to the minds drift... But what if there jus isn't such a place to be missed... What if home couldn't be recalled within the thoughts tryin to think it up..? Home would be nothin more than a word that hides from luv... Unable to be found as the feel of home simply goes away... What if home had no name..? Jus got up n relocated without tellin u a fuckin thing... Home couldn't be found to be unlocked so how could u breathe..? Knowin home is jus a thought on ur head gone astray... Leavin other people's homes to call or ur name... Tryin to give shelter to the driftin emotion that cannot find its way... Jus wantin to go home to rest jus the same... Home is the balance if u have one to reside... N if u don't, welcome to how I spend my time... Lost n confused on where home went... Feelin it took off when the back twisted the bend... Home isn't real here to those like me... To us, home is mignon more than a dream...

Farewell to reason...

Analyzin the play back that doesn't seem to make sense... Goin over the facts that become to intense... Tryin to move forward by sittin the doors on the past... Bcuz even new beginnings have an unwanted blast... As the mind disconnects to realign the train of thought... Seems goin all in did more than lethal inject raw flaws... Cripplin the nervous system by shuttin down on needs... Due to the wants that brought the weight carried to thy knees... Rememberin how faces lied n backs were never looked after the way words claimed... Recallin it was nothin more than gabbin at the gums with the exchange of names... As the reel spins to relate to the mislead heart callin out... What was lost could neva found..I. There's an understandin that had been breached... N it looks as if luv was sold as a dream... To complicate the comfort so heels neva got their balance... As true form came periodically on the teeter of alliances... Embeddin restraints inside the memory good intensions attach themselves with all that's went wrong... Becomin yet another chapter of so long... Loosenin the grip jus to let it all go... For if they wanted to be present there's be a place called home...

Sittin behind my lips...

What if my tongue couldn't hold in the way it felt to say a few things that sit behind my truths.  Let's say the thoughts i have found an opportunity to speak as I tasted the way I'd wanna feel u... Slidin off the flick from the tip teasin reason of how we could click... My end lookin at it from my angle for my view winds up in my rib... So, what if my smile seemed a lil different when air moves from in between us jus so life could happen... In a moment where tastebuds ain't gotta find themselves retractin... I jus believe if u sat on my heart like a sit n spin n felt its vibe pulsate vibrations through ur tenderness ur will to play will want even that much more of me... I'm jus sayin, if I were to speak up on another level of interest to set the mood free... Would u listen without hearin n slow me to show u what it is I see when touch connects the feel of us... Creatin the beginnings of trust... But that is if I open up to get u closer than than our crazies can intertwine... Talkin about life...

Breakin a promise...

The feeling of being forced to break a promise knowing they ain't in their right state of mind will fuck with ur head... Finding unused emotion they can't get to as they try to show u there's no need to pretend... As the addiction shows it's face n deteriorates from the inside out it'll neva fade til u know they're safe... You'll care n you'll fight a battle in which u cannot win no matter the strength for what they're hooked on isn't human as u try to rob their grave... N as thoughts coexists with the confusion of what in the fuck is it u are to believe you'll find a brief moment to breathe n know they'll me be same again... As it's in this hesitant step in a new direction that you'll question ur truths as their biggest fan... Bcuz when ur forced to walk away there's nothing u can do to return to them if they were to come back to life... The heartache jus isn't worth the time or even the so called ride...

The female...

The female body is the most beautiful thing there is... Whether it's flawed with scars or felt with a kiss... The curves are not to be worshipped yet admired by sight n if at all possible, by touch... It's attractive on many levels through vanities finest... Yet when it presents itself as a woman thoughts don't go mindless... There's a presence about sexuality this isn't jus raw skin allowin eyes to penetrate thoughts... If she moves right real men will pause... It's the shape n the texture that fondled hormones... Yet it's the way it's maintained in which mages her glow... Standin out in crowds to represent the flow in the design she comes... Lettin only the ones who feels without touch to find their way home... It's most gorgeous thing known to any straight man.. As it alone divides the shallow males from the depths of acknowledgment of kablam!!! Turned on in ways we men find lust within luv coming out to play... N she knows how to play the game... Lose control n be felt to feel the endless visual of stares... Lookin jus past the moment of sight catchin her sexiness to see how times cares... So she can share her figure with a worthy opponent worth givin herself... Lettin him into more than what below the belt... As it's the attraction that leads to fuckin around... Listenin to her sounds...

From them back then til now...

Lookin at the past n thinking where it is I've been... Lost in eyes n tryin to find a friend... Got swept under the rug n sidestepped for substances n it hurt... Only to find honesty in their words... My back has been exposed n dug into by imaginary blades... Guess those are the kind they can't admit was inserted into the severance of my name... I have my all n reminded wantin to stand true... N before those two there was an other that changed bcuz of booze...as I bypassed the good ones that couldn't play the way I'd like... Then again the time of day was never given outside my mind... As running through females was a thing I let go of... All for a chance at a lil thing called luv... As I sit now lookin back at how I went all out to show jus one of them what they had in me... As not a one could let down the substances they seeked... N I peek behind my thoughts to where I thought was emotion openin up... Thinkin it could've been but it turned into nothin more than touch...  Leavin a void for it was I that didn't love that life... I lost a couple of gf's n yes even my wife... As I stand on the come up of yet an other woman who doesn't have an addiction I havta fight... She comes with a reason in which I don't havta lose my mind... So through my 20's I was a dawg n can't remember all of their names... As the war stories of sexual intent wound me up in my 30's lookin for passion fame... For here jus past that 40 mark I jus may have found that neva endin feel... For nothin til now has ever been real... Levels of worth went unnoticed even as I was forced to walk away... U see, I'm jus that type I don't wanna stray... I don't like change n jus wanna ease back n be felt through somethin as callin as sayin us... Goin over what used to be as sit jus want enough... Sad it is bcuz I peed myself out n watch feet not only of luv'rs but those the knew walk on how I truly felt... As for each of them my heart dripped as it was to melt... They knew but didn't care that they had something rare bein willin to be given to them n then alone... As with them they misplaced home... In lifestyles n others that tore is apart... As life's is playin out n I'm rubbin skins again tryin not to go to hard... Jus bcuz idk if it's me that send them over the edge... They keep coming back jus bcuz I ain't dead... So as for the strings that need to be cut... I'm still not in a rush... Anything can happen n I'm open to the feel of it comin into focus... Yet I know who's who n the meanin of worthless...

All I know is...

I hide what I cannot tell u...
Wait for the moment of Truth...
Find in other pieces of u...
Only if u knew...
I ache inside lookin fir a replica...
Afraid of luv...
Willin to be touched...
Keepin u forever in the hush...
I found life jus isn't the same...
No one quite calls or my name...
It's said differently in their own way...
The don't own the expression on my face...
I try to avoid how I feel...
Yet, ur the only thing I've known as real...
N idk if I'll ever heal...
All I know is it's me u steal...
I ain't gone lie here in my thoughts...
The luv we shared is a loss...
N I've been caught up in correction my flaws...
Stubblin around in a pause...
 I wish u knew how I fear emotions now...
I'm so scared of endless devotion n passions sound...
U see it jus might take me away from the words that cannot reach my mouth...
I'm jus stuck here without main sounds...
Knowin u are the one that got to me...
The one that freed me...
The only one who felt me breathe...
As the ride turned u away from me...
I hurt in ways I miss my friend...
N you've been gone since we crossed the end...
But if u knew how far is bend...
Only if u turned turn around again...
I'd come back to life lookin in ur eyes...
Not carin or givin a fuck about time...
U see my wife is always on my mind...
N these are not lies I havta hide...
I've needs fan or if luv with u...
I've only learned to protect my use...
Lived in this world without lil ol u...
Before n after I touched my truths...
No one will ever do what you've done to me...
I'm still open n rejectin everyone's attempt to reach...
Feelin hands that don't match the way u  comforted my dreams...
Makin wants the same as needs...
I will luv u too the day I die...
Til this thing I have runs outta life...
N I know I'll needs hold u again as my wife...
N it's ok bcuz I have the right...
To live with honesty n jus keep it movin...
We both know ain't much else worth losin...
Idk who in the fuck were foolin...
All I know is my luv for u had been proven...
As I walk on my own as the find what u once did...
Wishin it was u kissin my lips...
Workin ur luv'n on my from ur hips...
Jus know, u are missed...

Jumpin for fun...

i sit and think of death
wouldn't it be cool to die
some go in their sleep
not able to hear their last beep
some like the pain
i want to jump from a plane
no shoot no fear
just a cold beer
falling to my destiny in style on a hit of speed
with a phat ass sack of weed
i'm but naked while a bitch sucks me dry
one last time before i die

It's always been u...

i felt u n didnt realize it. wantin somethin for so long n findin out u were the ticket. i shoulda known. knowin u were on my mind every know n then carved in stone. always lookin for it. dealin with not knowin when ill get or even find it. i felt u in ways i never knew. unattempted it never to exist til we wer stuck like glue. checkin em off one at a time with a growin list. i felt u without knowin we could co-exist. walkin seperate lives griten teeth n clinched fists. u live in me as u always have n will. as me i will intend to spill.

Emotions begin to rush...

There's a time in a moment where faces change.
In a glimpse of an eyes blink in giving nick names.
Code words find a place In comforts enjoyment with a smile.
Still frames in the minds movement captured by sighs.
Before the exhale released from completions moistened kiss.
Breath takin lips sweep seconds into an eternal wish.
In an instant forever grasps acknowledgements interest.
Clingin to life giving chance as makin a difference.
Motionless emotions begin to rush feeling alive.
N grabbing a hold of passions smile can never hide.
        There is a time when knowing a life time is before u.
        Stretched faces eases a day filled with truths.
        In the middle of heat in between fates calling two as one.
        Stares get stuck in awe reaching for pleasures finest clung.
        Happy tears of finally, over sees the heart opening up.
        Witness to the end of time in someone's arms embraced in a hug.
        Gettin lost in an other finding self snug so tight.
        Correctin the lessons wrong understanding the rights.
        Actions rearrange a path to no where in direction to now.
        Classic touch of need settles the nerve of bein shown how.

Slidin off the flick...

What if my tongue couldn't hold in the way it felt to say a few things that sit behind my truths.  Let's say the thoughts i have found an opportunity to speak as I tasted the way I'd wanna feel u... Slidin off the flick from the tip teasin reason of how we could click... My end lookin at it from my angle for my view winds up in my rib... So, what if my smile seemed a lil different when air moves from in between us jus so life could happen... In a moment where tastebuds ain't gotta find themselves retractin... I jus believe if u sat on my heart like a sit n spin n felt its vibe pulsate vibrations through ur tenderness ur will to play will want even that much more of me... I'm jus sayin, if I were to speak up on another level of interest to set the mood free... Would u listen without hearin n slow me to show u what it is I see when touch connects the feel of us... Creatin the beginnings of trust... But that is if I open up to get u closer than than our crazies can intertwine... Talkin about life...

Babii gurl...

There's this lil lady that stole my heart from day one.
Ever since I've layed eyes on her her smile has been my Sun.
She's the twinkling diamond shining in my eye.
Givin a daddy more luv in my heart fir I know she's mine.
My lil lady resides within me in the only place she can touch.
Cuz as long as she's been in my life my lil girl has had all my hugs....

Ilu babii gurl......

Rollin thoughts...

Gotta a thought on the mind.
Curiously thinkin bout unspent time.
Drifting in n outta a daydream.
Jus wonderin where I'm headed down stream.
There's this vision in my head.
Floatin on comforts timeless bed.
A silhouette it's still remains til this day.
N I'm curious if n when will it wanna play.

Make it mine...

Make ne want it.
Like life poring thru my veins.
Make me feel it in due time.
Drive me insane.
Make crave the urge.
Touchin the skin like the night breeze.
Make me bring forth the effort.
Graspin ur intellectual fiend.

Takin notes. .

Food for thought... when in a relationship know there r many different things that come along with it as wellies perks.... note... from the partnership n friendship to the like n luv. There the mental aspect of knowing someone has ur best interest in mind n won't allow u to fall victim to b.s. then there's the emotion that connects the two as one in time to share one an others smile. Yet only percentages like contact, kissin, hands on experiences n even sex. Yes sex. They all play out in ur willingness, proving to ur mate that should be ur best friend that u r willing without bein asked to partake in all aspects of the relationship cuz u enjoy them. As they will do anything for u jus to see u smile. If one isn't doin their part or lacking interest. End ur relations!!! Cuz this isn't somethin u can work on. Its either there or its not. Bottom line. Keep ur head on swivel n above ur heart with ur own mind thinkin with ur own mindset n allow ur heart to live as free as its willing to luv. N u jus might find urself in a position where u want for nothin cuz ur other half is there for u no matter what.... live people. Simply live together as friends first.

Oct 16,2016

I ain't feeling it... My reflections isn't right with me in the mirror... Something's missin... Y is it, I must feel this fear... Y do I see a stranger avoiding me... Y can't I look at myself... I don't feel like me no more... Wondering if there's any fuckin help... Fucked up I am inside... Mentally exposing who it is I've become... N IDK, I'm not the same no more... Yet up high is two thumbs... Yeah, sure, I'm OK... As I hide the same as u do behind a hurt smiles curve... Tryin not to be seen... Forgetting what I'm worth... Somethin in here turned on me... I think I turned on myself... Runnin down a dream lost in reality... Unable be be felt... Retractin emotion n intent to keep for me... I'm literally at a loss of words... I got ran over by life...  Strugglin to find a reason to make me work... Hatin the pity eyes ponder with a stare... Stand back up Butch... When my legs won't fuckin move... Fuck u Butch...

The way it hurts...

My guess is, u didn't want it has as bad as me... N that leaves me to believe you've fled back into my dreams... As I'm done running n have faced the pain... Seems no one can come closer to resemblin ur face... U went n faded n left me to slowly die... N even though I'm loving on, I love n live with a lie... Ain't no one u n that's jus the truth... So sad the drugs had to go n put a change on u... Time really does stand still when one is in luv... N there's no tellin when it's all said n done that the gettin over an other can ever trust... U fell away m never came back the same... N I had to watch u drift with hate as u say my name... A friend most is what I wanted to be... Yet, another lifestyle u joined n went n left even me... Standin in yrs of waitin on ur precious luv's return... N I must say, it too me some time to learn... That thing walkin around, no, it wasn't u... Bcuz behind ur eyes we know the truth... U jus hide from what u cannot control as if ur heart had been seized... N it's my arms that wrap around the silence I cannot speak... The way it hurts comforts the way things are... N we know damn well I've done my part... Holdin our luv above my head as u let me down... As bubbles called out for u goin on with ur life spittin venom from ur mouth... It's no secret I've played a fool for u... Even took the next best thing n have it use... Thinkin I couldn't be there for u as tome got away... I held on to what I could as honesty kicked in n recalled the expression upon my face... Help was neva on the way when I looked into ur eyes... Listening to u call for me as I came a runnin losin the feel of the hype... I shattered n found a way to prove me back together without a different woman to fix me healin... As there were a few I found appealin... It was jus that, u, started on my mind... In constant wonder of will I ever get to enjoy my wife... Lost with another version of u failin me... I fell apart as it was u that made it hard for me to breathe... I was there when my time was rang up... As these words hurt me to talk of the way I've luv'd... Bcuz got u I would've died too give u life... To express how here in our time I wanted u as mine... U were my joy n my free will goin at it behind the scenes... As I found myself standin alone unable to move my feet... Emotionally crippled I catered to the feel of never gettin what I wanted... Jus goes to show to me u were truly somethin... Changin everything with a cc simple are u ok... N I now u remember when u found out who I was as everything began to change... Mandy n Butchie at it jus before her crazy legs spun to fast... I couldn't chase u no more for u got caught up in my past... To far back u got stuck in memories that weren't that great... N my heart no longer with u would even be safe... Ur the woman I vowed to lunch. Until my dyin day... As I lay here alone thinking about better days... Cut loose by ur negligence runnin away from u n I rounding the fuck out as the best thing ever... As somehow the end pulled it's lever... It came way to soon for I want done showin u the way I felt deep in my heart... Turned to stone it's thawin from freeze u called art... The things u did to me were deliberate, yet I know why... U hand to push so I wouldn't hurt n that's what made me lose my mind... So as I try to relate to someone new I see bits if u in everyone of them as they come n they go... N all I want is to forget about the way it felt before u even turned cold... Damn near on point if it wasn't for the addiction that too u from our luv... As we can both admit that we lived between the way we touched... I miss u one n there's nothing I can do to rewind what been done... So go ahead n run... I know where I stand... Forever ur biggest fan..,

Changin faces...

Right about now is when I feel it kick in... The empty side of the bed that jus fucked with my grin... Rememberin the expressions that laid on the deserted pillows that cannot talk... Findin pieces of memories that have changed faces due to their own flaws... As the darkness settles the comfort that remains as the release of time... Enjoyed n set free are the chuckles unheard here tonight... As very few ever got beyond the attraction to dig in to the way my emotions lived... Seems lies were whispered beneath the lights of what they say they had to give... Watchin them shape shift into another stranger claimin to be a friend... Til their feelings changed n opened up the other side of the bed as their end... Fallin off the edge before the good shit every truly got to take notice in the truth... As I lay here thinkin luv was put to use... Climbin walls with sweat as passion leaked from the moisture of tongues tasted n faded from tones taken as mates... N as of even at this moment for them there is no hate... It's truly ok... I'll find my way...

The moment...

I like talkin shit comin from deep beneath the covers due to the heat in between us sizzles our sweat to a singe connectin man n woman lost in the penitration of the eyes feelin every fuckin stroke... Talkin about, fuck me!!!

The moment we fall in luv...

Jus be...

Manipulatin self jus isn't possible due to the image in the mirror... So if they ain't that close to u, why would u bother to let em touch u beneath the surface m let em near.?. It should be chuckles n cheers never sayin no n kissin tears... Luv ain't jus a woman draped in lace n man handled that changes the expression upon a her face to bein goofy luv'n n weird... The reflection will tell on u bcuz in ya eyes u can see the immaturities of fear.... Stare it down n be who u are knowin u know who it is within that's alive n kickin n feel the emotional boost with a voice sneakin in ya ear... U cannot lie to self n remain on an elevated level where trust neva fakes the phunk as truths are clear... Hear ye hear ye... Jus be...

Figurin on us...

Let's talk about what's next... Like what's what when we awaken to give our best... Whatchu got to give to someone like me..? As u could ask the same shit putting aside wants for needs... Mornings comin n it ain't gonna wait... How is it that tone slips out of names..? Deliver me some truths n play no games... Tonight is almost over so take ur place... We can be side by side til time runs out... Or like the wind u can be gone by daybreak without a peep to come from ur mouth... What is it u have to share with someone like me..? Who's life are u tryin to better the relief... Sunsets are best when moments find the sunrises that won't allow us to feel like we are alone... N I'm jus tryin to figure out which way is home... Are ya satisfied to remain as who u were or have u come into ur own... There are things I need to know before my heart goes out on loan... Can u keep up bcuz no one before u has ever been able to relate past their own fucked up ways... N no I ain't takin shit out on u, I'm jus statin so called luv's fame... Bcuz I'd like a friend that can see me through the thick n thin... One who ain't afraid of the offerings emotion has to give... So who are u, feelin ur way along my side to get what u seek... U see, I don't fall for the bs I once have for I've become me... N I know what the table can hold... So speak the fuck up if u feel u wanna engage in the clarity of passion before I turn cold... I ain't a waitin bcuz u wanna second guess what it is u think u may or may not have... N I'll tell u here n now that almost is neva enough as alone isn't so bad as compared to what drive us mad... False intensions are not welcome here so come with it or step to the side... I refuse to deal with a half steppin two bit poser attemptin to fuck with my mind... As it's now in the a.m. hrs of figurin this shit out... Right here, right now..! Let the shit be known so things can play out the best way it knows how... What is it in u that I have found..?

Feelin u...

Swimmin upstream to see where ya lil kitty lays... Followin the flow as taste buds are amazed n enslaved... Captured by the purr that sends tingles up ya spine... I'm jus wantin to feel how ya shiver as ya hips grind with my neck as they're intertwined... Rotatin ya flava upon my tongues eagerness to please... Movin with the way I lick ya untold fantasies from ya dreams... As ya opened treasure is spread for the ease to set ya gushes free... As a lil time spent pulsates with the way ya breathe... Here kitty kitty, don't be shy, I jus wanna see unravel before my eyes... My purpose down between ya thighs is for me to hear u sigh... Using techniques that'll make u squirm... N want a lil bit more as ya begin to crave my worth... Bowin down to do things to ya so I can feel how ya sound... With a hunger buried face deep n floatin in ya ocean with an opened mouth... Catchin waves crashin upon my lips as ya personal plaything becomin ya toy... Jus ease on back n enjoy... Come undone n go with the way ya body reacts to bein made a meal... For the way I wanna feel ya is so fuckin real... To intensify ya hormones drippin down my chin... As if I were tryin to more than sexually climb the fuck up in... Teasin n touchin ya skin as I explore ya tender zones... As for when I'm done I gotta lil sum sum ya jus may run from that's full fuckin grown... Mmm, I'd do it for the texture alone to slide back n forth on my tongues will jus u to hear me moan... In total satisfaction n as wet as ya can get from bein groped... With twists n twirls that flatten a flip that flicks ya clit into the intensity of gettin off.... Grabbin at the back my head, diggin in with ya claws... One pop, two bursts, three cums, more... Jus lay before me as I lock the door... To serve ya down upon my knees lookin up... To feel the way ya heart begins to rush... Excited to exceed beyond a single orgasm as multiples round off as if a firing squad lettin loose... All bcuz I'm feelin u...

In the crossfire...

Idk any of these people... It's too crowded here... They're in my way... I don't belong here... No one gives a shit about another life walkin on by... There's no communication... It's like livin in a mental warzone... This is not my destination... Where the concrete lays over the land like a maze... In a hurry to neva get enough... It's too materialistic here for me... To greedy n the games they play on each other isn't nowhere near anything that resembles luv... Overworked n underpaid thinking they're the only ones that matter... The city life is selfish n corrupt by negativity at work... This civilized jingle isn't for me... To me, it has no worth...

U & I...

Pull me back across the lines in which I once believed... I wanna feel u ignite my life n be my relief... Show me what best friends can do n I'm all in... N there I go thinking again... As ur craved within my thoughts... Openin my heart knowin I to have flaws... Find me findin u released upon the surface runnin to each other until we collide... Fallin in n unable to hide... All out luv comin to life... Comfortin the condition of the mind... I'll pull u through times when u feel it's too much... Jus remind me in return that this is fuckin luv... This is what we do... This is me n this is u... Down for a lifetime of what the fuck ever we wanna do... Everyday livin loose... Knowin I got u n u got me... Where wants feel more like needs... Til old age comes a callin n we fight to stay alive... Held n holdin on to what we consider mine.!.

On behalf of all men...

Good men fall too... Then they wake up... Stand up... N actually find luv... Neva again to loose bcuz the hormones become second nature to what goes right straight through with that there of, of a lil thing called lack of appreciation... As trust to self kicks in... With patience in motion... Livin real quick on his own in a sense of free... Sortin through the sides within torn from the distortion of self made dreams... Men fall through the bottom n redirect worth jus the same as u... We feel too... Taken for granted bcuz we allow life to do it's thing... Knowin it's better to know for sure than to walk alone... Lookin for a better reality... Men are far n in between... We know the meanin, reason, purpose n comfort of home... Men want that shit n ain't afraid to luv... Fuck societies version of the stereotypical form of labels it hands out... Men connect bcuz men knows a man's best friend is a woman that only wants to enjoy him... Hush, speak not from ur mouth... Bcuz we to jus wanna live... We fall in n find ourselves once it's over jus so u know... U know the drill... That lil ol thing called experience that we carry with us as we go... Bcuz we crave the feel... Yeah, we're not so different in what this world has become huh.?. Jus be real.!. We all jus wanna be touched... To be felt... To ease back... Comin to a pause to look around is bound to happen... So, as a woman, where have u been.?. Hidden away...  Doin ur thing n hopin at some point that spark ignites again... For that one that stays.!. Who to trust right.?. Yes, men insist to relate... Have u ever seen the way a man can look at u.?. Or heard the way that one releases ur name.?. It seems we don't talk to much or don't gossip enough... Bcuz a woman would neva turn for there is no reason to do so... Men talk about luv bcuz luv is part of who he is so wtf.!? We're jus lookin to go home...

Angie... There's no hiding it...

U see, there's this lil lady that's gotten behind the feel... Into my comfy as strange as that seems as the real deal... Very few has crossed over the trenches of touchin me beneath the skin... N I've had my share where the percentage of those who I've opened up to was none to slim... There's this woman that's somehow walked right through my defenses n woke me up... N I'm tryin to keep quiet but my lips had neva know how to shut the fuck up... She's like that finally moment in the mirror that compliments me... That piece I've tried to give away that found her as she's giving it back to me so I can be breathe... There's no hiding it... No time for any second guessing bs... There's things I've only told my dreams about if what kinda woman I'd luv to come across... N I'm sold on the way her lil hand fits in mine as emotion is opened n raw... Where memories aren't afraid to be made bcuz she's the type that can bring the best from within a mans all... The best friend kind that jus wants to live n luv that neva stalls... There's this someone who's climbed on in n found me wantin more of her in the way she comes... N it's about that time to finally have some fuckin fun...