u calm the bitterness

under the scope zoomed in on every flaw.
gettin down on all fours like a dog on his paws.
tryin to reconstruct how it is a man is represented.
puttin down a past that disassemble the heart as it was intended.
luv jus didn't exist as the falling away went down.
kickin n screamin attemptin to show the descendin mute to sound.
please forgive the irritated emotion left as u endure the rush.
I'm climbin from within to meet ur hands touch.
know I haven't had the best time of my life lastin very long.
the fracture in my core only seems to lengthen do to bein done wrong.
but I'm willin to feel ya cuz I do.
this is me overcomin the lies that were buried in the truth.
lil lady, hold on so find a way to stand with u without the fear.
cuz in actuality I'm afraid of the pain that hurts the tears.
they fall even from a man like me givin on a level misunderstood.
if u could be a bit patient I wish if it were possible u would.
fallin in to fall out to the rock bottom breaks more than a smile.
it's a moment in time I'm lookin to ever from as if more than worthwhile.
hang on to the good that clings to ur presence makin the difference.
cuz on u I'm doin doin into becomin reliant under the suspense.
u calm the bitterness that exploded within.
soothe the fact I've become defensive n sensitive.
I'm seekin a better way with u to simply live.
without havin to fix what it appears I am before u.
a lil tenderness n understandin is all that's needed as I his from the abuse.
straight up n as real as a man can approach ur kind.
I can n will walk that invisible motionless line.
don't get frustrated in the way I'm witness to lifes fucked up twist.
I've got it in my head no one stays forever as fists clinch.
find in me the believer in u that feins to awaken to the unconditional.
I'm alive in here, it's jus somewhat confusin in a minds terminals.
windin up elsewhere news cuz luv isn't what is said to be within every word.
n I hear u speak with trade emotions that linger with what I've always heard.
I'm doing all I can to reinvent self to the me I know so well.
I got lost n I'm countin on u to free me from standin still........