more now than just

my heart needs a beat like my words need a rhythm. Hungry n starvin for the affection that places purpose in my system. The vibe is shocked by the bitterness electrocutin the unwanted thoughts of how someone can be so cold. The emotion is unheard n til now I never knew who self was tryin to unfold. Thoughts drift in a daydream like I'm lost but within I'm found. With so much to say I'm silenced for I needed to change before I released unforgivable sounds. The ache has scared to a numb touch for a the wound has eventually healed. N I'm in need of the comfort of knowin somethin in this world is truly real. Consider me back from the dead n I wanna live without standin still with the lessons that won't allow the trust. My head has been lifted as if I'm more now than just. Jus wantin to be felt is the only void sittin on the nerve. Yet I'm scared to open up cuz its a fucked up feelin to be hurt. I listen for the drum to pound at the passions melody that would ease my mind. To have somethin that'll never leave, I'd stop simultaneously to put in the time.