i don't think i wanna know

I don't think i wanna know where steps taken end up. Seems its a constant worry pullin on the outcome crawlin beneath the touch. Losin sight of direction as both ways is patience interrupted by sittin still. Is the path chosen fallin away before the feet move towards the thrill? Sidelined puttin use in play somewhere along the lines of the attempt to survive. On the shoulders weighin heavy as character is beginnin to hide. Walkin down this road as the edges fall n the yellow seam goes from solid to dotted. Somethin tells me I'm lost in the middle of nowhere spotted. I try to camouflage the pain of feelin alone n dyin alive. When emotions have found a comfort that doesn't on a equal battlefield join the fight. I'm witness on a one way street of life strollin by smilin in my face. Yet it tickles the passion clingin s fingers r clinched to the lace. Gettin home isn't somewhere I've been in this lifetime findin shelter. N here in my private lil world tappin on the truths I jus wanna help her. Helpin me connect with the walls that protect the silence spoken with interest. I don't know if I wanna know if I have it in me to give my best. I'm startin to appear as if I'm not the same as before in a past moment that stood with purpose. Wakin up to a new time where bein blinded is worthless. Where does the other end lead of its headed adrift. Unveiling the unwilling with other wants over needs that surface in the drownin early mornin mist. How it's possible I haven't the slightest clue of the repeated pattern failin to stand by my side. Pretendin to give up on the goods is another givin in to submission to me realizin the desire shared is false lies. Havin that one place no one can take jus isn't as real as it's said to be. Cuz a one sided luv is a lonely state of mind when the march is backwards as reverse lookin onwards with a dream is the next best thing.