I'm seekin within

searchin for the luv left within.

here I am with error sinkin in.

dysfunctional n outta sync.

I've changed since the last time I blinked.

I'm in here somewhere safe n sound.

yet whispers makes it hard for me to be found.

the softer the echo the deeper the silence.

in empty space hate has no resistance.

slippin, the heart doesn't pulsate the same.

vibes attacked by strengths tamed.

it's a confusin time seekin out my replacement.
n I find it to be I'm more than a bit hesitant.
insecurity has claimed the lonely hrs at hand.
cuz all or nothin left me seekin the damned.
settled beneath the version of self.
I see someone else in the mirrors edge that's felt.
I'm in here tryin to gain control.
can u see me reachin from the depths so cold.
help me outta this prison poisonin the pain.
a double dipped dose I feel the strain.
I'm at war scrubbin the stains scribbled.
this is not me outta tone as words dribble.
leapin as I peel away at the core.
chained in a cell I can not escape the lores.
bobbin with a hook that hurts more than before.
deep within the confusion is stored.
cut me open n take from me who u see.
so I can heal the break of what I seem.
betrayed n breathless gaspin for air.
cuz somewhere in her I do actually care.
I don't wanna live in defendin what u didn't cause.
witness to my internal untrustin flaws.
I wanna be me again without this torture of bein hurt.
strugglin I am only a glimpse of the good the lurks.
overshadowed n fightin to become whole in plain sight.
hopin tonight u dig in n fell the real me n sigh.