It's how u taste draped in lace.
Sittin on my face callin me names.

back at the livin

back at the livin. fuckin up on purpose to get shit right. What a fuckin twist. Looks like I'm back at my old ways outta plain sight. So pucker up cuz you'll kiss my azz first. Long before I get on my knees to taste urs. Guess out feels good to be me again. As I cast lines with hearts bobbin at the hook lured. Rare n in form with tears to pave the way if needed. I believe in back at creepin up on the blind side leavin soon. Laughin my azz off wantin jus a few years to bounce back. N as usual no one knows but the three that mean the most to me as I'm finely tuned.....

ends

ends let loose so self can be found once again.
fallin further away from the norm in the way one stands.
in who out is that makes them whom they r.
cuz some change the fact applyin bars.
begin someone else til time says it's had enough.
it's as simple as the individual bein true on the mirrors luv.
blinded by the selfish we all seem to drift.
behind what we realize in our own eyes to awaken in a false kiss.
as rare as happiness is its rushed to feel so utterly alive.
settin aside the friend within that never wanted to hide.
jus awaitin the moment to meet in a motionless moment.
always there to listen n give reason in realities unwillin to fold in.
n when face to face the realization of the let down is the greatest pain.
turnin on self til needed in the emptiness that somehow claimed the sane.
ends of beginnings is the witness that slipped away in the core.
jus to turn around n want to feel whole again cuz we were torn.
at the hands we thought would care more for us than our own.
bendin in a way that we'd never break when we wouldn't show.
it's the matter in which we forget bout who is inside.
right to to the point where we reclaim the open mind.
n all the bs ends...............

don't play

under the tongue as sly n on point in reverse.
with every word each letter trends to hurt.
slippin n slidin drownin in ur spit.
jus another climax sprung from ur lips.
damn the taste is so fuckin sweet.
I can hear ya nibble on my dreams.
as beautiful as u came so simply insane.
with ease pickin at my only name.
belief is behind the eyes that doesn't exist.
so ramble thru my scrambled mind with a kiss.
feel the way ilu touches ur breath.
exhalin the lies as u waste my best.
u forget I'm experienced to who u think u r.
yet I allow slits once again to tear a new scar.
ride me to the point on top of my time.
again n again I watch u unable to hide.
tell me again I'm ur everything as u fade.
as u accept my foolishness playin ur game.
as the bars I visualize locked with ur relief.
I'm as free as u would never possibly believe.
so lay ur pretty lil head at rest on my chest.
knowin u got what u don't have Neva the less.
I don't know how to give in to emotion.
cuz ur all willin to play selfishly with devotion.
I'm only within ur grasp as u haven't any clue.
don't play with me cuz I'll be gone soon.
luv jus doesn't exist not belong near me.
so get to know me n allow me to head fuck ur dreams....

jus like u like me

Jus like u I'm still alive.
but like me ur not willin to fight.
jus like u I've fallen.
yet like me ur absent.
jus like u a line has emerged.
like me it had to stop the surge.
jus like u she is damn near the same.
n like me I'm witness again to ur games.
jus like u to give up on me.
so like me to still feel u as the one in me.
jus like u I'm lyin to get my way.
as like me I'm hi longer the same.
jus like u like me, unlike u as if similar to me.
u failed the me left standin in the middle of a dream.
jus like u to half azz for ur own gain.
unlike me u changed me s I'm causin what hasn't happened as of yet, pain.
jus like u I'm comin up at an others expense.
like me I'm gonna use em up then it never admit.
jus like u I'm back gettin under the surface.
livin like me til the end so worthless.

damn, i think i fucked me up

locked out a kickin n screamin kinda luv.
slowly realizin it's me on the other side of the door reachin for the touch.
unable to change what's goin on within.
the bars on the heart r reinforced with a hate draped as if trim.
only if I would known I was the enemy before now.
while I sit on the doorstep of what use to be the comfort of homes fraun.
shut out n unable to partake in the remodelin constructed behind the walls.
I can't get in to help the emotional torcher in which I've caused.
I'm a stranger to self in a time where I'm fadin so fast.
somewhat like the abracadabra disappearance of my lingerin past.
I can hear the laughter under the smile that seems broken n betrayed.
n it doesn't want my help today nor tomorrow cuz of what I've done yesterday.
damn, I think I fucked me up somewhere inside of becomin the outcast.
banished from the only place I had left to hide deep enough below the fallin ash.
I'm no longer my own friend wantin to laugh anymore.
he doesn't want me to come in n play cuz like the mask of cry later, I'm torn.
conjoined twins decapitated n severed from the only truth.
only one wins the battle within as it's fair to say I'm on the outside n of no use.

lil bit

it felt as if I was on my own.
lost n disabled.
within who it was I once was.
standin n so very able.
my life as I knew it would never be the same.
cold I fell deep.
it wasn't how it was suppose to be.
ended was my one dream.
n outta nowhere u were there.
as I knew I had to have u.
jus didn't know how much til u gave a lil bit.
n ever since I've fallen to the truth.
I went from that need of emotion I'd never hold.
to u never leavin no matter what.
it's redirected my heart.
guided by my mind willingness to pause.
so I can feel u grow within a place I thought no one would ever go.
n once before I fucked up.
but u were there as I cheated my head.
n in UI fell deeper in luv.
u showed me the me I couldn't find starin back that touched.
n til then as u came back thru the door I didn't know.
I never knew what it was I seen in u.
couldn't pin point what it was I actually chase after u for.
but now I know it's u my all calls a truce.
sacrificin n prepared to understand u cuz ur jus like me.
open hearted n sinking in to what doesn't need to be gone without.

before, durin, somewhere else

once luvd, twice hated, third time an unforgettable enemy dyin alive.
satisfaction, fadin in the moment, gone in yesterday's past left in the mind.
driftin along, found in makin due, losin everything but the emotions that linger.
seekin for the one, holdin the passion, unable to forget a stranger that points fingers.
livin in wonder, fallin madly in luv, empty n distant to connectin on that level.
playin games end, opened to real luv, walkin into the horizon alone with a shovel.
secrets hidden from this world, on hush holdin in the pain, showin truths of untold wrongs.
once walkin, twice proudly, third time attemptin to find where self belongs.

anything

if u feel anything in ur heart still beatin in the freezin winds breeze.
what does it havta do with me fightin the battle defeated on my knees.
if there's anything there, what do u expect me to do with the way u luv.
settled in the war won of wantin nothin more than to make it work with an endless touch.
if a bit more than anything less is motionless n tearin u apart lookin in my eyes.
know I'm standin in time waitin on u to catch up n feel the me that u seem to despise.
n anything u think u might wanna say, I wish I would find the words to express the truth.
cuz I can't take this luv hate mistakes that plagues our irreplaceable proof.
cuz anything less than ur luv will never do as I stand within me as a man always wantin u.
holdin the reality of what we can be if we jus opened up to the facts that beg for a truce.

think like me

I believe u luv me as long as u can still see me the same. Don't take me wrong cuz its not me bein unfair to an shellfish game. The reality I live with is under the circumstances of luv. That bein the brutal truth within is temporarily shared til things change the touch. Admittance is the understandin that doesn't receive til self shows proof. Not wantin anything but honesty so lastin soothes. N I feel as if I'm only real in ur eyes til u don't approve. That's when emotions shift as I don't have a clue of what ur up to. Lookin at me as if I haven't remained me cuz u didn't pay attention to the details. Human I am in a realization in which one of us to the other jus might fail. Comprehend for a second that time allows us so long to enjoy an other. Til the day comes strangers become friends than luvrs as for some reason one of the two don't wanna be bothered. This jus might eventually hurt one day that may seem to come to soon. Yet there length of happiness on our moment I'd up to u know who. If that is u can wrap ur mind around sanity. Cuz it is ur luv that I hope u grant to me. As u live here outside of dreams where fairytale's aren't imagined in the mind. What goes in comes outta the tone of a sigh. Today is day which is the beginin of the end neither of us wanna claim. Visualize here n now as memories r made feel safe. Wanted n shared but never a guarantee. Does it make sense for u to think like me?

more now than just

my heart needs a beat like my words need a rhythm. Hungry n starvin for the affection that places purpose in my system. The vibe is shocked by the bitterness electrocutin the unwanted thoughts of how someone can be so cold. The emotion is unheard n til now I never knew who self was tryin to unfold. Thoughts drift in a daydream like I'm lost but within I'm found. With so much to say I'm silenced for I needed to change before I released unforgivable sounds. The ache has scared to a numb touch for a the wound has eventually healed. N I'm in need of the comfort of knowin somethin in this world is truly real. Consider me back from the dead n I wanna live without standin still with the lessons that won't allow the trust. My head has been lifted as if I'm more now than just. Jus wantin to be felt is the only void sittin on the nerve. Yet I'm scared to open up cuz its a fucked up feelin to be hurt. I listen for the drum to pound at the passions melody that would ease my mind. To have somethin that'll never leave, I'd stop simultaneously to put in the time.

thirty eight lines laid

flayed like delicacy on display.
jus cut the string n live for another day
walk away in time n save face.
go n don't turn back to be tamed.
a better place awaits to say ur name.
leave as the feet escape the games.
worth isn't an outburst with profound names.
chopped n diced you'll meet be the same.
stayin is the price paid by child rain.
drown if u must drained of tears claimed.
owned by the ungrateful speakin hate.
tellin u the luv is real that abuses the sane.
witness the gain with a ball n chain.
how many times have u felt the pain?
move on cuz its never to late.
nothin more is to be said for its fake.
a pin cushion poked n bleedin from the vein.
drippin u can stand n find no blame.
silence the loose lips spittin on is prey.
somewhere else where hearts don't play.
stay inside ur mind n realize its insane.
to live in anothers way smotherin the gain.
cuz emotions don't walk so well with a cane.
limpin on to the next changed n afraid.
cuz even outside the bats there r gates.
lockin in the captive on surveillance tapes.
watched to be fucked apart cuz ur so great.
piece by piece Losin the peace is fate?
sounds more like a twisted version to debate.
as the cell in the chest is under raid.
sized up n scaled to be weighed.
all for the sake of 4ever that doesn't have a date?
talk bout icin n eatin the fuckin cake.
in the spotlight of Luvs fame.
is it ur standin in ur own true frame?
or controlled by guilts unfair mistreatment that invades.
scars heal as stains will not always remain.
find elsewhere to drop a seed for roots to lay.

the only one!

cry with me n allow our emotions to grow old together.... Simply beg one another in a apologetic forever.... Eye to eye as the face we wanna see for all time bares expressions.... Pleadin to have mercy of the guilts that have faults in the hearts suspension.... Take in that it's been so long since the touch has meant so much.... N open up to the rarest comfort holdin on to true luv.... Let it flow with me by ur side as I fall into u.... Givin proof that no matter what we stand as one with truce.... Jus look at me witness u as u r for its who I'm.... Yeah, I've fallen n its the only thing I can't seem to hide.... Wrap ur arms around me knowin ur safe with me.... Cuz it mean more than the air I can hardly breathe.... Come settle the wrongs n conversate to a tone that speaks of us.... Cuz I need u n I'm waitin to see if u needin me is true.... I have no need in feelings that go to waste.... N home will never be anywhere without u sharin space.... Shed the tears unseen that leak with the silences drip.... Reachin for the luv spoken deep within a kiss.... It's u I want til time is takin from my hands.... Ur the only one that makes me feel like the man I am.... Can u stay n knowin I'd do anything for u.... Or would it be to much to ask of u to put me to use....

u calm the bitterness

under the scope zoomed in on every flaw.
gettin down on all fours like a dog on his paws.
tryin to reconstruct how it is a man is represented.
puttin down a past that disassemble the heart as it was intended.
luv jus didn't exist as the falling away went down.
kickin n screamin attemptin to show the descendin mute to sound.
please forgive the irritated emotion left as u endure the rush.
I'm climbin from within to meet ur hands touch.
know I haven't had the best time of my life lastin very long.
the fracture in my core only seems to lengthen do to bein done wrong.
but I'm willin to feel ya cuz I do.
this is me overcomin the lies that were buried in the truth.
lil lady, hold on so find a way to stand with u without the fear.
cuz in actuality I'm afraid of the pain that hurts the tears.
they fall even from a man like me givin on a level misunderstood.
if u could be a bit patient I wish if it were possible u would.
fallin in to fall out to the rock bottom breaks more than a smile.
it's a moment in time I'm lookin to ever from as if more than worthwhile.
hang on to the good that clings to ur presence makin the difference.
cuz on u I'm doin doin into becomin reliant under the suspense.
u calm the bitterness that exploded within.
soothe the fact I've become defensive n sensitive.
I'm seekin a better way with u to simply live.
without havin to fix what it appears I am before u.
a lil tenderness n understandin is all that's needed as I his from the abuse.
straight up n as real as a man can approach ur kind.
I can n will walk that invisible motionless line.
don't get frustrated in the way I'm witness to lifes fucked up twist.
I've got it in my head no one stays forever as fists clinch.
find in me the believer in u that feins to awaken to the unconditional.
I'm alive in here, it's jus somewhat confusin in a minds terminals.
windin up elsewhere news cuz luv isn't what is said to be within every word.
n I hear u speak with trade emotions that linger with what I've always heard.
I'm doing all I can to reinvent self to the me I know so well.
I got lost n I'm countin on u to free me from standin still........

til

you'll never understand til you've walked away from luv.

fallin into a different state of mind beneath a more gentle touch.

as emotions face has changed before the eyes that open to use.

in a new moment standin under the pressure of comforts truce.

at the point of impact that digs deeper than bein repaired.

for if it was real prior there'd be no need in meetin someone who cares.

til u feel the break somehow reinvent the loneliness sinkin in of another.

the comprehension of to luv a loss is never to luv but as a luvr.

cheatin self of a pleasure waitin to cling close enough to simply become.

at the line of changin the melt of the heart in a set of hands condition the numb.

crossin over into a place home seems to be more than what u thought it was.

but not til one comes along n gives reason in wantin to be flush.

it's not a replacement in time nor a whole anyone can fill.

under the surface is a compliment of a social kinda friend that awaits the spill.

n til they still into ur life, u can not admit u don't wanna go without them.

cuz they alone make the difference pullin u away from where u were to needin em.

luv is lust

it was once u did what you've done is y it still hurts to see u smile.
since the day of u fuckin failin good times cuz u couldn't be real as if a child.
I've felt the passion n I've felt more than the pain on which u spread.
funny is how I thought I was opened under ur scalpel not to wind up dead.
inside I crumbled within the inner walls you walked through in my mind.
followin u as I chased ya thru the heart that skipped beats knowin u were mine.
I remember what it felt like that somehow jus wasn't enough to last.
n standin in the middle of luv so madly crazy, I knew you'd wind up in my past.
n until u I didn't know what it was like to never be able to walk through home forever again.
cuz it meant nothin under the circumstances to give a lil bit to me as ur man.
the one that stood in place n absorbed more betrayal than emotion could handle.
it's a mystery how bitter sweet somethin that real can jus fade like a melted candle.
u dropped me to my knees n stepped away as if I was nothin more than dead.
I will remember how it was n what u coulda avoided by tellin me the truth instead.
consider done is past tense of finished s I've stepped outta what I become to who I was.
well before u as reality now is a new kinda me with a better understandin, luv is lust.

a wonder in my mind

if I were to die before ur eyes, would u feel anything that resembles a loss like no other.
what if I were to lay to waste dyin inside seperated from what I know as the perfect luvr.
maybe express I've never disconnected within from a touch like urs before that changed me forever.
would the space between linger in ur mind where u realized its me u missed all together.
I jus wanna know before the time comes so I can react to the depth of ur luv silenced.
it mean more than hopin it's u that finds reason in y I'm worth somehow without the violence.
if I were to fade into the distance somewhere unseen as u didn't know my whereabouts.
would u eventually come searchin for the friend I wanna be as emotions speak out loud.
standin n waitin on the truth of what it is we're suppose to be in a world so fuckin cold.
is it me u dream to always wanna be wrapped in my arms as real as life itself as it's u I hold.
if it came to bein misplaced in time cuz we're so blinded by the rage in front of luv that fights with blame.
could u stop n witness the pain caused is cuz we care on a level the nights would never be the same........
it's a wonder in my mind of who it is we're truly gonna play out to be face to face.
friend or foe n even a stranger after sharin the deepest passion once the heart is tangled within its cage.

nothin lasts forever

it's a fucked up saddened feelin to watch em leave. Momentarily it's almost as if it's get back up off the knees. Broken in reality a the emotion can't hide the loss only on one end of the luv. Shuttin down in the absence of lookin around knowin they're gone for good as is to much. When every movement did everything possible to hold en as long as they were willin to stay. With a bent face that hides behind the smiles as if it truly doesn't matter like ours a game. Raw n unfinished depths find their similar to a drug addiction one hasta go without cuz their also the dealer. Rippin the luv from the core as the pain reaches on desperation none of us r willin to admit cuz ya feel him/her. The unwillingness of gettin use to someone to have em step away as if we're nothin at all defines realities nothin lasts forever. There's nothin to be done t to save the comfort that have up in one direction cuz off on their own there better......

loneliness will do the time

sittin in the middle of absence is where a man will never be missed.
cuz real men don't walk away til the end is for sure dead as a kiss.
yet if she doesn't end it he knows one day bein takin for granted will get old.
girl we r not super human n the mistreatment hurts the heart that will fold.
jus cuz we won't stand for the tone doesn't mean we don't luv ya.
stop bein so selfish when a fella takes blow after blow to show u somethin other than pain.
cuz the loneliness will do the time more in his emotions than that of ur own.
we r not all the same if u care to pay attention to the details of worth full grown.
how can we possibly rest if we're not only doin for self the way ur out for self?
try n be a bit more real with ur delivery when u speak cuz everything u say is felt.
the nights can become longer n much colder if u can't realize its not in us to hurt u.
all that's needed is to see u in some kinda way of wantin us in ya life livin in ur smile.
it gets old feelin as if we men don't matter when u seem to explode.
that same ol unwanted thought comes back around every time ur to bold.
jus cuz most men will have u, don't think a real one will beg for ur luv.
cuz if that's what u truly want, the next male could never hold ya with the same touch.
understand even the impact lands on the chest of ur childish words.
We've found within u someone we luv to walk this earth with that's heard.
n at times in more ways than one that's jus not needed so deliberate n careless.
allow us to live in motion so devoted to ur cause able n fearless.
we can only express interest til there's none for the gain chained down n captive.
don't think we havta put up with such a raw attitude cuz its not attractive.
the problem ya may of thought could become a solution somewhere else.
it's jus a matter of time if no matter what isn't given the proper help.
as if another can do better for u when the man ya got is lost in ya luv.
jus go! If that's how u feel passion is worthless bendin for ur touch.
it's only gonna last so long before he stands back up n smiles in a different way.
left in thought of never bein enough to received the respect untamed.
slow ya roll prior to long gone has left n beat u to the punch of pain.
that individual ur doin wrong can only take bout a lil more than to many tears obtained.
jus wait on how he jus doesn't find reason in ur meanin for him to stay.
it's comin n someone other than u will see what u can't be a witness in the way he says ya name........

what is n was once

it's the depths of expression of how it's said it'll never end released from the lips.
to the moment of lookin up n life resembles what it is that's left.
movin mountains as the world watches luv awakened to bein held.
it's the way the wind redirects n flows in the right direction.
blowin emotions away when all is said n done in the presence of perfection.
fadin as words have failed to find the definition n understandin face to face.
it's how yesterday remembers passion broken beyond repair learning new game.
windin up downwind blowin with the breeze as one lands somewhere unfamiliar.
wakin up witness to another expressin my everything in ya til the end that's similar.
thinkin it'll be before to soon comin over the horizon of loneliness.
as one more face will drift in times spent under the touch separatin happiness.
it's a motion mentionin the moisture in between a kiss that speaks.
fallin in n outta what is n was once the best thing to the next that leaves a constant leak.
when an individual means more to self than life runnin wild with the emotions shared.
seems they never want ya once they figure they have u opened n bare.
as naked as knowin themselves in true form it's as if somehow one can't be seen.
in arms that squeeze everything in the same as those that has come before that cling.
repeatin the unmentionable weight listenin to the in the moments truth.
they'll fade with change lookin for someone who never be as good to them with use.
we all want what we can't have standin face to face as calm as forever movin along.
yet when it's in the palms most can't feel the right givin more than goin wrong.

I'm seekin within

searchin for the luv left within.

here I am with error sinkin in.

dysfunctional n outta sync.

I've changed since the last time I blinked.

I'm in here somewhere safe n sound.

yet whispers makes it hard for me to be found.

the softer the echo the deeper the silence.

in empty space hate has no resistance.

slippin, the heart doesn't pulsate the same.

vibes attacked by strengths tamed.

it's a confusin time seekin out my replacement.
n I find it to be I'm more than a bit hesitant.
insecurity has claimed the lonely hrs at hand.
cuz all or nothin left me seekin the damned.
settled beneath the version of self.
I see someone else in the mirrors edge that's felt.
I'm in here tryin to gain control.
can u see me reachin from the depths so cold.
help me outta this prison poisonin the pain.
a double dipped dose I feel the strain.
I'm at war scrubbin the stains scribbled.
this is not me outta tone as words dribble.
leapin as I peel away at the core.
chained in a cell I can not escape the lores.
bobbin with a hook that hurts more than before.
deep within the confusion is stored.
cut me open n take from me who u see.
so I can heal the break of what I seem.
betrayed n breathless gaspin for air.
cuz somewhere in her I do actually care.
I don't wanna live in defendin what u didn't cause.
witness to my internal untrustin flaws.
I wanna be me again without this torture of bein hurt.
strugglin I am only a glimpse of the good the lurks.
overshadowed n fightin to become whole in plain sight.
hopin tonight u dig in n fell the real me n sigh.

i don't think i wanna know

I don't think i wanna know where steps taken end up. Seems its a constant worry pullin on the outcome crawlin beneath the touch. Losin sight of direction as both ways is patience interrupted by sittin still. Is the path chosen fallin away before the feet move towards the thrill? Sidelined puttin use in play somewhere along the lines of the attempt to survive. On the shoulders weighin heavy as character is beginnin to hide. Walkin down this road as the edges fall n the yellow seam goes from solid to dotted. Somethin tells me I'm lost in the middle of nowhere spotted. I try to camouflage the pain of feelin alone n dyin alive. When emotions have found a comfort that doesn't on a equal battlefield join the fight. I'm witness on a one way street of life strollin by smilin in my face. Yet it tickles the passion clingin s fingers r clinched to the lace. Gettin home isn't somewhere I've been in this lifetime findin shelter. N here in my private lil world tappin on the truths I jus wanna help her. Helpin me connect with the walls that protect the silence spoken with interest. I don't know if I wanna know if I have it in me to give my best. I'm startin to appear as if I'm not the same as before in a past moment that stood with purpose. Wakin up to a new time where bein blinded is worthless. Where does the other end lead of its headed adrift. Unveiling the unwilling with other wants over needs that surface in the drownin early mornin mist. How it's possible I haven't the slightest clue of the repeated pattern failin to stand by my side. Pretendin to give up on the goods is another givin in to submission to me realizin the desire shared is false lies. Havin that one place no one can take jus isn't as real as it's said to be. Cuz a one sided luv is a lonely state of mind when the march is backwards as reverse lookin onwards with a dream is the next best thing.

as real as i can possibly let loose

if ever hurt u, know I never meant to.
n by chance if tomorrow became somethin of the past, please remember I wanted it to last.
cuz it be the luv in ya smile shapin ur lips that would neva go outta style.
no matter what happens I have room for u, deep within the truths.
lets jus say perhaps u weren't there that first mornin in the beginnin of a new life torn.
I'd think bout cha n wonder in time where it is u drifted away in my mind.
carryin the loss of how u touched a secret place I'd hold only for u lost in luv.
in other words as pages tell the story, in the end it be u that gave the glory.
I'm jus speakin from a gentle depth clingin to knowin u in a way how I if wound up alone without u, I truly enjoyed ur stay.
a million miles of separation couldn't part me from the emotion reachin for the devotion.
n if u wind up somewhere without me blowin in the wind, the thought would hurt the tears drippin from my chin.
it feel as if home was that one place I could Neva go, n anywhere else would fade slow.
with a single memory of how it felt to be that one closer than anyone so madly in luv.
the passion u made me feel without tryin most likely might in all honesty, leave me livin miserably.
crackin smiles n attemptin to find my way like open arms would feel as comfortable as urs, naked to to the core.
hear me if ur listenin, cuz I fell deep enough to swim in paradise whistlin.
speakin to the nature of the hearts undyin claim jus wantin u still the same.
from day one til the day I'd parish as in between is the me showin its u I cherish.
livin in n outside of my dreams, its no matter if I'm awake or asleep I know u r my reality.
calmin my understandin of what luv is suppose to be somehow alive inside as I breathe.
there is no searchin for who it may be that owns my heart cuz its been u from the start.
n even though I didn't know you'd be felt so intensely within, the insanity I feel for u makes sense with a sane grin.
but if u havta say I had to go, take with u a piece of me that one day maybe might help u know.
u r luvd in a unique kinda maturity that has learned by holdin ur hand, as soft as pride has melted for u to mold as I became ur man.
ur free to run through my mind forever not only as an expression, but as u in true form missed if we Neva meet expectations.
as real as I can possibly let loose, I feel u as if we were still new.

a mature state of mind

in the process of shut down mode one is tired of gettin hurt. Cuttin ties to the ungrateful seems to be the only way to find true worth. Never allowin any one person to get close enough without proof of security. Closin the cage so emotion can find comfort in the way it is felt. Gettin what's been put into relations so stability leveled has the help. Calmin the situation is not as hard to get back to in the presence of reality. Havin a mature state of mind with reason balanced livin outside what appears to be a dream. The final curtain that closes is accepted when all else has failed. Walkin outta one life into the next as everyday life changes cuz another is stale. Unwillin to compromise rights n wrongs with a tone carried that speaks more than they care. Fact of the matter is the enjoyment between two people is in fact a moment together spent with no common ground will never become a pair. Findin they come n they go a way of life to unlock self to someone else. Not that anyone ever wants to part with the touch that's molded the whelps'. Jus to know them was the passion shared that faded for a new mornin of happiness gained. It's the control n understandin of character that doesn't place blame. Everything runs it's coarse til the day the end is witness to the pain deletin the settled smile. Leavin at the doorstep what seemed to be worth the while. In the breakin point that shatters a bond is what is unfortunately undeniable. Only one really wants it more to give will meanin to go as far as bein reliable. N the snap back is like a rubber band that jerks an individual in reverse. So that of a realization can be seen for what it really is to decide they don't wanna be hurt.

someone gave up

goin back at the end is gone away from home awaitin the arrival.
once findin some place considered comfort in the hearts survival.
leavin the future before it happened as it's lived cut short.
dyin emotions filter the emptiness left on the lonely core.
with a on of switch broken the loss finds the old familiar.
sent into the came from cuz someone gave up on somethin similar.
that feelin of where one belongs n in luv which doesn't matter.
forced to seek a prior movement of wonderin disaster.
in the moment of the part disconnectin the head shakes.
when one realizes they've wasted time on another mate.
to what was that ended to make way for the now that had time.
change is the endless pit of betrayal disturbin the thoughts in the mind.

hidden secrets

lets fall away as if the sun is dippin into the hidden secrets wantin to feel the night. Lets chase one another around the bed n see who comes in first in the moons light. Lets play pin reach other til the wall so shadows can connect n enjoy the emotion in sexual intensions. Lets follow the directions of rules broken to set free the deepest passions under suspension. Lets jus n later jus say we did with a smile on hush only for us to know. Lets speak in tongues behind Thai licked door wide open for the slap happy hands of pleasures pain. Lets simply go all the way under n over the covers n drive reach other completely insane.

copy cats

depths hidden from the act.
tucked behind the facts.
there is no diggin into the shallow.
fake faces tend to coward.
shapin a front as if protected.
none the less it is detected.
walkin amongst the clowns.
side by side over the same ol ground.
the walk, the talk, the demeanor.
n so fuckin pathetically eager.
playin the part of a copy cat.
unable to present self at that.
no shovel needed n the surface is thin.
there's nothin unique within.
afraid of showin the inside of a man.
a real individual cuz he can.
raw n on a level made from scratch.
n its truly fuckin sad.
Pete n repeat was sittin on a bench.
as life loses self in their clinch.
following the leaders lost followers.
til the dirty rises to devour.

luv can't be trusted

on a trip cuz luv can't be trusted down six deep.
walkin the distance n layin with dirt beneath their feet.
tastin the unsettled honesty said to be real.
eyes shut behind ties that bind the feel.
face down bein an expression opened to lies.
as frames pic memories broken in the mind.
betrayal handles squeezed breaths with a grip takin life.
in the instant of owned changes good times.
freezin cold in ragin heated moments thawin never more.
raped willingly strippin the inner linin of the core.
in the presence enclosed bottled n tapped.
pourin valves feel pieces still intact.
one way ticket to pains passion loose at the lips.
sinkin quick emotions speak to soon below the hips.
Always will become never havin a chance.
luv is a window closed with broken glass that cuts short plans.
once lived is enjoyments faces takin on new shades n shapes.
shadows n silhouettes of what is replaced that has escaped.
fibs of forevers promises r actual days one at time.
live here to get there no ones real enough at the drop of a dime.
temporary pleasures sit in a stare locked eye to eye.
yet the no matter what part fails to try.
want not needs never to be hurtin the blind.
on the back end of the story self is the find to be defined.
away with the walk tramplin in the sludges stick.
takin steps in reverse forward as kiss my azz is tomorrow's birds flicked.
out in plain sight for weaknesses to attempt to hide within a gent.
guided n reassured the mirror stand with the important than false statements.
her luv is no good in due time of makin shit last.
come n go holdin the line to trip further from the past.
overrated feelins unlock the bars that protect sanity.
they all leave before the end that differed in in their own thoughts.
helpin those in an imaginary sense to live as real at all costs.
on the run that can't get away fast enough to smile.
told ur my everything yet jus wasn't truly with the while.
fell apart at the seams in which connected hearts patchin a different kinda........
pain that was said to be this is it or somethin along the lines of holla...

forth he cometh...

reincarnated comin from the depth of darkness that sits in sweat in broad daylight as life isn't exactly absent. Jus a lil more than a bit lifeless as lessons of bad judgement clings to the smile like a weight that feels bent. Behind the curtains comes forth the revaluation of characters presence of mind that's been clouded n decoded as decisions has drained the will. Changin worth to worthless transformed by diggin in at the edge as worthy of bein abused is realized that the smoothe translation rearranged want as easy as it shoulda been still. Remainin the same yet once upon a time in brief moments of the near part self was allowed to be captured by a touch that clawed the engravement deep in the back that fed rage. Set on display n deliberately forced into a place so unsettlingly the image of whom one is hid behind the reflection on the main stage. The unwindin mind gives truths to passion, life, luv, pain, pleasure, frustration, happiness, that in one time or another is lost. Yet, from the shadow of the under layer of the armor that failed to protect so the obvious could decipher the games of tag in turn is the ultimate payment of cost. With memories that fade walkin into a better way unable to feel as if broken for the ruinin of the naive sum bitch that was ignorant to bein true on the rest form known to man had failed. Now under new management as the face has regained pigmentation n the head has rounded out the backside of who to n not to fuck with is tugs coffin sealed without a nail. Darin the lifeless ambition of the rested to find news intensions n come forth cuz it be crucial to is existence endin. Mercy has already been taken n the limit of expression is dead to the hearts confused state of bein healed is no longer an excuse to hold on to the empty mental image of bein one from two individuals right standin. As I is a tad bit tickled past the hilarious hallucination in illusion of a sane mind plucked n snatched up by the beauty of honesty with me. I'm the only one in under the helmet in control as the belief of fallin still twists the nugget back n forth inside awakened dreams.

clear as a crystal ball

keepin the heart in the chest cuz the ears can express truths that don't get confused by the meanin of luv. Closer to the mind to taste the the shape of emotion that comes directly from thoughts without forgettin the way worth has been touched. There's a long distance relationship between feelins n the imagination that confuses reality with what is felt. A communication breakdown in the vibes wanted as if needed to live another day drown in in the presence. A level head is the only key to a healthy partnership of trust knowin the conception isn't trippin in the battle forced up from the joy that didn't know how to deal with the pain in defense. Clear as a crystal ball as if seen thru to simplify time findin the clock into tomorrow's freedom of use still at stay. Controllin the stability anger grips in difficult moments that stand out in front of all the good standin firm willin to play. The war to rule within hangs on the balance of pure equalization that must be realized in a sense of everyone has a walk. A life that was their own before two became one of u care to express the matter in that direction that claws. Fightin in the middle of a truce to be who one truly is gainin honesties' placement along the side a friend or so it's said to be, a luv'r. The trick is to keep the swivel with eyes that roll with the peripherals contact of the stones that hovers. In between the connection resistin space pushing apart one of the greatest thing known that appears to be irreplaceable. Ease in n remain with the understandin we can only enjoy the temporary pleasures sensation satisfyin the comfort so believable. Givin everything for the possibility of forever that resembles an eternity n felt on a way nothin would ever be the same if the collapse of the agreement ever decayed. Cuz when the passion gives to the betrayal ones truest best friend should gather the pieces n smile for they were never lost asking the way.