i'll know

one of those things.
one where idk for sure.
u say u luv me.
yet i need more.
i know it sounds selfish.
but i'm looking for something.
n i can't tell u what.
u either have it or become a fling.
it's sad for me to say.
cuz i let u in.
u see i crave this.
n i'll know when we win.
so change me if u will.
i am a sponge for happiness.
i like what i see but idk.
seems ur mind is escapin this.
findin everything to get away.
pushin me to ask u to leave.
that's not what i want.
somethin i was u'd believe.
jus b u n do as u do.
as i will me.
if it is what i'm lookin for.
we will be.
but idk if i see it in u.
what i have goin.
my position n state of mind.
n where it is ur truly goin.