More woman than woman...

It's the way she wares her scars.

As her depths reaches the surface from her heart.

Showing life of how she's lived thus far.

Only thing is those who've touched left their mark.

She's been hurt yet she's still able to function.

Somehow beneath the time worn upon her skin that should've forced dysfunction.

I find her to be beautiful just the way she is.

For she's lived a lil even though she's fought for the chuckle in her ribs.

Damn, she's a lesson in the making of something I've never known.

Someone real and on a level who still has hope.

No matter how deep her wounds needed to be healed.

Her flesh holds it's age with an acceptance to the feel.

She must be super human the way she owns her smile.

And I don't think she knows she fits the perfect profile.

With every blemish adding to her worth.

There's simply no way to explain her in words.

Though the nature of her ways speak on her behalf.

Making it look flawless the way she leaves the bs in her past.

Here n there...

It seems ur too far away for comfort to be felt... Distance separates any chance for the heart to melt... As hope gathers interests that are left to think... N days rotate on with life where the heart hasta find somewhere else to sink... I guess friends aren't supposed to last... That is bcuz even u i havta put in my past... To drift with time not knowing if I'll ever endure a real touch... Where a situation can open up doors to luv... N as moments go without the makings to be kept i linger off on my own... Curious to know where is home... Maybe it's the way things should be... So one can truly find the mends to dreams... As in the present is needed to cling to skin... N fall never the presentations of babbling lips... I believe circumstance has come to settle a decision set in play... N from ur fingertips i fade... Giving u space to allow happiness to come along... So u too can enjoy the peace that tends to pause...

It is what it is...

When a big heart just doesn't feel shit... N there's no plug to fit... Nor a patch to fix the dripping of its contents... Filling it isn't a option for ores been punctured by the ribs... Bottom torn from emotional grips... Sending shutters that crawl upon the lips... As sound changes with wits... As the mind forgets how to live... There's no seam that'll hold what's being missed... N a patch job isn't noting but a twist... A quick second to gain a tick before falling with the drain of drips... Slipping further into skipping over luv's bliss... When passion fades from a wish list... N desires dismiss the feel of just slithe another power trip... Caring is like slitting wrists... Deteriorating from the inside out as if hope is too be fished... When stitches can't help the capacities limits... Risks are feared with nothing left to give... The pump takes one too many hits... Making memories crisp... With nothing deep enough worth the dig... In the endless pit where the fall descends into images n short lived clips... Whispering a fuck damn n followed by a shit... Daily shifts recalculate reasons to remain hesitant...

In the reincarnation process...

Creating illusions through a belief that have no truths... The mind confused by emotions triggered the mute... Gin inward with not much left to say... Just to come full swing to win the game... The heart refuse to think logically begore it crumbles to the floor... Jus to be walked on by a friend that wants it no more... N to live in a make belief thought is the torture of it all... Thinking serif is someone to another when thumbs push pause... Leaving the well being within trapped in a moment tgat wad never meant to last... Unable to get back at life n she away with the past... The figment of the imagination reassues false hopes that are never real... It's a fantasy to trust prior to the emptiness' void of something said to be worth the feel... Like magic in a dark room where alone finds the solitude more appealing... To be tricked into luv is the weakness of over peace betrayed in a moment su revealing... As the one deep beneath the surface awakens to the reality overlooked... Finding each situation of trial n error the only truth written in a life long book... With red ink to stain memories made... Lies from tongues correct grammer feeding every single page... Transforming delusions into facts so harsh change defines a news version of self... Like fly paper clinging to any chance to find help... One gets lost in the self rescue only a miracle can give life to... As words linger without mentions to attempt to regain pieces of dignity put to use... In the reincarnation process there's an up n down to being alone...Hollow heads remember everything like reels spinning outta control... Poisoning mislead passions fighting to survive... In time it'll fade as if sound from voices that once carried an honest vibe...

Get with it...

U have two choices,  u can come around me or u can watch me leave... There's things i don't do as i know the differences between wants n needs... If u choose to be childish asf u can go n post up somewhere else with the bs... U can be free as ur disregard that believes imma endure such heart wrenching grips... My mind cannot allow the forgetfulness of me being as jus as human u... So be real the way u claim n calm down on ur presentation i will n can cut loose... N u may or may not miss me if i havta decide on our fate... Bcuz I'd rather have someone who gives me a true piece of mind than remove me grin within... I've made promises to myself on how i am to love my life in the creation of grins... N if u plan on sharing moments that prove how much u do care... I can only suggest u to feel how ur tone vibes for i need not the complications if u want me to play fair... Do ur part to ensure i wanna remain ur closest friend... Then n only then admit I'm ever so happy to never imagine our untiming end... So be mature enough to realize u cannot just treat me any ol way... That is if ur desires cling to the surge expressed upon my face... We either are or we ain't as one in the middle of this chaotic world as it revolves... Have some self worth n know u are for me as we slowly evolve... N if u could just give it to me the way i am to u that'll be great... I just might look at ur numminess n have a taste...

Some of us...

Some of us know what we want n some of do not believe it exists... Some of us are cool with being on or own n some of us had forgotten about how another tickles the ribs... Some of us like having time to self n some of us world like to hear summertime else talk... Some of us are lost in solitude n some of us remember what it was like to be caught up in that unforgettable pause... Some of us are good at moving along n some of us eventually consider opening up... Some of us found comfort in being alone... Some of us don't know what it's like too be liked n some of us found a way to go on wirh life... Some of ur feel jus fine n some of us hate the hype... Some of us just want something real n some of us. Motive how so many refuse to heal... Some of us give too much n some of us have never had anytime to trust... Some of us have it in us to luv another n some of us fear to be touched by a luv'r... Some of us are defined by truths n some of us have never found sometime else to put us to an honest use...

Like leaves n trees...

Going down winding two lane country roads... Music on low... Window cracked... Eased back... With no where in particular to go... Running away from home... Sittin next to a friend... Enjoying the curves that bends... Comfort drifting along outta the window... Smiling bcuz we're not alone... Not caring when we're gonna turn around... As the moment is in the now... With the vehicle in motion... Leaving behind the cities commotion... For a morning made for two... Sippin on some cocoa as the wheels spin loose... Off to anywhere the trees change colors... As hands touch to play with the feel of wonders... Just cruising along... In no rush to have somewhere in which we belong... Simply free with one another side by side... Able to relax n empty the mind... To be as is in a natural state... Just to feel a smile stretch across the face... Looking over for second to connect in the eyes... Knowing damn well we've found the good life... With a real sense of certainty that lingers with the changing of leaves... Stopping in the middle of nowhere to take a moment to breathe... Holding on to each other so we can stay warm... Arms wrapped around u is our luv being worn... As we're just wanting to get lost for a lil while... Out deep in the country acting juvenile... Away from our responsibilities it's just us for a day... Living n laughing for it's us we create... Off to who knows where... Out into the wilds open air... Goin up n down n all around the hills that lead to the straight aways for us to take in the views... Just looking for something new... N how the trees shed n lay upon the ground... Seeking the sights of even an abandoned ghost town... To see the season claim the memory of one autumn day... N how the clinging to the pavement is us needing to a different type of landscape... In our time we roll with the tires leading the way... Amazed that life itself has come to allow us to say each others name... As we sneak in a kiss here n there... N ur lips reach for a nibble on my neck that's naked n bare... We're two of a kind like the trees n the leaves... On a journey as a duo to unknown dreams... Facing reality just riding on the back of distance chased... Reading all the signs that make the drive worth the escape...

Gulps caught in the throat..

 The more i drink the deeper I can feel... Sinking beneath the taste running from everything that can't be real... Every drop take me further n further away... Down goes life in the middle of an endless fade...  Losing sight of reality somewhere in between shots... I sip alone with emotion that cannot help but believe they've been robbed... As the bottom reaches for what's left of my mind... Plucking thoughts outta the blue to water my eyes... I seek comfort every now n again so i can remember what normal is... Without mercy my thirst can't get enough of how the glass touches my lips... Turning it empty by flipping it upside down... Reminding me i did have pieces alive just under the surface of my frown... I go looking in depths for anything that used too resemble who i was... Until the poison is gone n it's back to fuck luv... Pain floats fade down drowning with the bubbles rising to the occasion... Potent n consuming where the mindset drifts with the invasion... As images spark a flame to feel scars that changed me within... For a lol bit i vere orchard of coarse to be a human as scene else just wanting to live...

Yet to meet...

From day one all i wanna do is luv u like a friend... To show u it's u from the beginning to the ends... As sidekicks fighting off the villain called life... To find within each other the simplest piece of mind... Embrace n held so deep as to engrave ur in my heart... To awaken to u daily as my peace that silenced alarms... Though i am get still a stranger to be met behind closed doors... With an emotion free to be more than explored... I wait for the day to witness ur smile save me... To open me up without any resistance to live the dream... So we can get to know why we cannot live unless it's us... Falling deeper into comforts depths as a 100 percent must... It's from the day we first feel the curiosity come to life n play fair... Until we're long gone from a world that face us the time we have to share... It'll be nooo one other than u that gets me in yr rarest form... For u as yourself will become my norm...

Lost n found...

 Coming to mind when moving on to where life is goin.... The thought occurs of them memories never made n others missed out on.... The twist feels how it'll be someone else to gain self...  Having those moments ti be cherished that brings two people together skiing a lil comfort to help... In the transition of letting go to fully grasp worth is the only way to be a friend... Showing a new face enjoying the presence of a use lent... It's how touch is claimed by s different set of fingertips feeling there way along the flesh... Changing a mindset that used to be stuck tinkering with old emotions that diff themselves into thetechie of the chest... As the heart comes around to witness the beauty in the way it hauls... Like layers peeling away to depths surfacing fur something real... Leaving what's tormented free will to open back up... To be in a more natural flow to release the expression of true lluv... 

come back to life...

When u come to, remind yourself it's more than emotional luv... Somehow loosening up briefly so the restraints aren't so snug... As thoughts are free to remember what it was like to have someone self could tell anything to... When a convo is reflected upon as a good thing put to use... With a physical connection that isn't just about sex... The commitment to self has finally come to terms with what it means to be felt... When enough time has passed to forget about the nonsense the single life fights... N the allowing of the wonder of an unknown real friend is quietly thought about once there's been a clearing of the mind... As a willingness whispers at night when the drifting lays still... Think of me n be honest if u will... In a moment to clarify if i am indeed what you've waited on for so long... Jus don't steer me wrong... If life isn't awakening within u maybe u need more time... Bcuz if it isn't natural imma go on back to my life... A true chance shall never be without knowing who is a friend... Someone with more than a physical presence to lend... As only one individual can reach in n turn u on... I'd like to know if i am ur kinda norm... But interest must go both ways for hearts to slowly begin to feel luv'd... But for now, I'll hush...

lingering in the single life...

Why is it i long for u.?. N why when i think of u my emotions move.?. What is it u don't luv me.?. Why can't u just leave me be.?. My heart doesn't understand why ur not in my arms... As my mind keeps trekking it it's just not in the cards... Around n around i go daily wondering if I'll ever recover... When there's no on i touch that is equivalent to u as a luv'r... I lost my friend n now i don't know where to go... Since we parted there's no sense of home... As u wall through my dreams missing it unbearable to wake..  Why is it i cannot have what i want when i say u mane.?. Why the lonely nights when there's no one holding u right.?. Who have i become in the deep stare of ur eyes.?. I'd luv to know so i can settle within life... Why do u haunt me the way u do.?. Why can i not cut u lose... As it feels like ur beating on my chest... N is damn near like i wish there was nothing left... Then maybe i would be free to drift away... Hoping the thought of u truly escapes... Yet the fantasy of feeling ur flesh still drives me mad... Why do i havta be crazy over u as u claw at our past.?.

believe in me...

N when i look into ur eyes n i cannot see anyone else, what then.?. When life changes n there's no going back to the way things were ever again.?. When the answers point at what i cannot do without... When time has been long enough lingering from place to place n i pause bcuz it's u i found... Would it be me the wonder has thought of for so many yrs... Would ur heart truly open knowing u have not a damn thing to fear.?. Would i be given ur undeniable reason to live.?. N would tears slip down ur cheek when i kiss ur lips.?. How breathtaking does it feel in a moment with u in my arms.?. How deep does touch go inches from the surface hovering in the dark.?. How will the mind adapt to us moving simultaneously through life.?. N how could i ever forget a friend that willingly stands by my side... As hope holds the resolution to the chaos in my head... As all others do not exist nor am i misled... As u before i is the one thing I've waited for to come along... As ur company will forever be cherished while chuckles bounce of the walls... If i were to graze ur cheek with my fingers, tell me what's next... If words stepped aside so expressions didn't havta guess... If u looked at me the way i see u the way i do... Only if it were possible for u to believe in me as if i'm someone u could never lose...

tell the truth...

Can u truly live without me.?.

Have u forgotten who i am.?.

Is it really that harsh.?. 

To disown me aa ur biggest fan...

Are u capable of goin about ur way.? 

Back to someone i just do boot know...

Does it fall strange that I'm not there.?.

When u stepped away like i wasn't worth the hope...

Could it be u promised onmy lies.?.

Just To watch the pain settle in...

Working it's way down past the luv we shared...

Aa i struggle to remove u from my pits...

It's just that easy to walk the fuck away...

As if ur heart never felt me standing still...

N i wonder if u ever dream of my face...

The way u turned n skewed me the truth...

Having no use for me I ur life...

So tell mere how smooth the decision was...

Bcuz it hurts to think i wasted my time...

Believing on a friend i never had...

Opening up to witness u pretend...

Was i that bad u fell straight through.?.

Falling to a descend until u laughed while devouring me in the end...

in person...

1... If your home when I get there I'll tell u everything that's been on my mind... Nah, I'd rather not tell you on the phone... It's the only way we can ever truly be defined... Just trust it'll be honest as my heart speaks of what it knows... Just give me time to get to you n life will be what it is to be... Ok, I'll be there shortly... Nah, It's best if I tell you this way... I want you to see the expression upon my face... You'll see it for yourself as truths surface before your eyes... Just be ready so a use can be distinguished from the hype... What's that.?. Lol, I think you'll agree being who you are to the terms I'm pulling out of the hat...  I'll break it down the only way I know how... I'm not, but you should know by now... We are what we are... Two characters choosing to play the part... This is like a dream... Stay awake... This needs to take place... I just wanna do it in person... It would be more worth it... Nah, come open the door...

2... Just tell me or I'm saying goodnight... What's up with your tone.?.  Okay, just hurry up... I've had a long night... That's all I could hope... I'm ready to go to sleep... Why can't u just tell me in the morning.?.  What are you trying to say.?.  Don't play.!. Wtf are you talking about.?. Spit it out... Am I supposed to laugh.?. Is that a fact.?. You're beginning to touch my nerves so get here now... Don't be all the way across town... How am I to know what you're thinking.?. Have you been drinking.?. What part is that.?. I'm setting my alarm... That's where I wanna be... Why are you playing games.?. It's late.!. Oh, here we go... Are you slow.?. You have me up like I'm some kind of whore...

1 If your home when I get there I'll tell u everything that's been on my mind...

2 Just tell me or I'm saying goodnight...

1 Nah, I'd rather not tell you on the phone...

2 What's up with your tone.?.  

1 It's the only way we can ever truly be defined...

2 Okay, just hurry up... I've had a long night... 

1 Just trust it'll be honest as my heart speaks of what it knows...

2 That's all I could hope... 

1 Just give me time to get to you and life will be what it is to be...

2 I'm ready to go to sleep... 

1 Ok, I'll be there shortly...

2 Why can't u just tell me in the morning.?.  

1 Nah, It's best if I tell you this way... I want you to see the expression upon my face...

2 What are you trying to say.?.  Don't play.!. 

1 You'll see it for yourself as truths surface before your eyes... Just be ready so a use can be distinguished from the hype...

2 Wtf are you talking about.?. Spit it out...

1 What's that.?.

2  Am I supposed to laugh.?. 

1 Lol, I think being who you are that you'll agree to the terms I'm pulling out of the hat... 

2 Is that a fact.?. 

1 I'll break it down the only way I know how...

2 You're beginning to touch my nerves so get here now... Don't be all the way across town... 

1 I'm not, but you should know by now...

2  How am I to know what you're thinking.?. Have you been drinking.?.

1 We are what we are...

2 What part is that.?.

1 Two characters choosing to play the part...

2 I'm setting my alarm... 

1 This is like a dream...

2 That's where I wanna be...

1 Stay awake... This needs to take place...

2 Why are you playing games.?. It's late.!.

1 I just wanna do it in person... It would be more worth it...

2 Oh, here we go... Are you slow.?. You have me up like I'm some kind of whore...

1 Nah, come open the door...

2 I am. What.!.

1 We're done...

laying in the dark...

Who is ur pillow supposed to be at night.?. When holding on for comfort... What thought eases ur mind.?.  Is there a sense of wanting more.?. When ur laying there snug n drifting off... Slowly going under... Hoping ur dreams pull u into a silent pause... Fading to the other side where the imagination can touch a luv'r... What thought comes to u when ur arms wrap around the mental visualization of hope.?. Laid up as snug as u can possibly get in ur bed.?. Do u get a sense of home.?. A piece of self that doesn't feel so dead... Where do u go when the lights go out.?. As the silent walls can't see u toss n turn... In the middle of the room not making a sound... As the night comes along to pluck ur mind's worth... Reaching for depths that squeeze the stuffing as if it were someone real... Do u pretend to be laying about with an other jus so u can fall asleep.?. So for a split second to feel... Before u slip off into a different world following the z's...

Me n u...

 Ur not here n all i waaa do is say ur name outloud... I canfeel u yet ur nowhere around... Where cani find u bcuz i don't know where to look... It seems from a current version of reality I've been sgook... Left waiting patiently for u to magically appear... N it doesn't gave a damn thing to do with the shedding of tears... It's just years ate starting to tick n i could use u right about now... I don't even know who u are n I'm falling in to heartbeats thumping to a synchronized sound... Though ur elsewhere as life ages doingwho knows what... When my arms crave the day ur embraced by my luv... Shits getting real n old on the same sense of needed u close... Maybe if you'd come outta hiding you'd witness me aa everything you've never known... It would be nice asf to loosen up for once n come to believe in us... But imma need u to show yourself so this can exist Bennie ashes turn to dust...  As one on one knowing a friend like no other has finally cone into view... It would just be me n u...

Choke it out...

When u just don't wanna feel shit but ur heart wants to try n come back to life... It'll make u wanna choke it out so it stops before emotions once again fuck up the mind... Oh how boredom luvs falling in luv with the hype's gaurd dropping in varies moments of wow... Digging in to new battles just for a fight to wind up with a frown that's gone n flipped upside down... From beginning to ends the truth continues to turn up hidden lies demanding to be believed... Watching a to good to be true friend eventually break the cycle of sharing the same dreams... Passion wnats to live as desires feed into lusts in a single mindset just attempting to remember natural intent... The spark never seems to go out for it's the light showing self around in the dark to somehow someway come from within... When the ol thumper ain't done n behind to beat on its own... Forcing the head to nod to a frsh rhythm after rendezvous that molded it to act like its grown... Though trust isn't something to be given just bcuz it claims to be good for a lil bit... Removing restraints that are loosened as if sighs don't take breaths n turn them into gasps once kissed... Changing realities on a gamble of character due to no one appears to be who they say they are... Choke it out like a sponge that's absorbed a touch making a sane thought prices so fuckin hard...

Holding out...

 The heart was built for relations but the moms went on a solo run... Dragging emotions along some or geeky the news to fall in luv... To remind self of all the bs that comes from the selfishness of others... Aa the skin has forgotten the feel of touch from every new luv'r... Eventually fading into the crowd making it hard to be seen... Just bcuz the label of hoe comes with the full package peole do not believe... Seems any man who chooses to be single is said to be unworthy... So it's fuck the jealousy that spews from females mouths feeding the thought that real men are out to hurt thee... Always worried about the nex chick workout realizing how ugly it truly is... Making it easier to be alone due to self hasn't the time for their immature bs... N as the head fills worth wonders curiosities linger... Waiting on life as it passes bu to show just one who's not pointing fingers...  Just one who isn't so far gone to the attention of everyone else... Unable to be a hypocrite for they seriously wanna be felt... As passion n desires are trapped within the cage firmed around their well being... Saved for s worthy moment I which fees true feelings...

Playing for keeps...

 Fingertips don't need sight to know ur curves... Just turn of the lights so i can caress ur nerves... As i fell me rendering u even I the dark... Deep into the night where evolution builds on the heart... No sex just u n i getting familiar as time ticks... Slowly enjoying the texture so smooth asf i capt hep but bite my lip... For words need no disruption due to the tongue's silence on hush... With a lil one on one feltas depths surface with truths of us... Just listening to a chuckle as ribs are grazed... Laying together on a moment to see hire we fit in blinded eyes that cannot see a face... I the presence where beauty simply cannot be seen... Relying strictly I who we Are just trying to be... Falling in true form beneath the covers snuggled up... With a need found friend not just chafing luv... Just kiss me as we have a lil bit of fun doin what we want... Wearing each other with knuckles locked, like a hand in a glove...

Getting relative comprehension that'snderstood...

 I get the fact yay you've loved someone else on a way that you've never loved anyone else... But, where does that leave us.?. Will i ever be felt.?. Never to be wrapped up in ur touch... I understand how it feels to live in the shattered aftermath of hope... Just wanting one more moment to help emotion let go... So are u to parish before i can leave u alone.?. Watching u fade the way we witnessed another drift on their roam... I can relate to the hesitation of accepting claiming to be real... As the heart gives in you allow the mind to pick others apart... Even after the stillness that pauses to heal.... N yet, have we truly become loners scraping off the char.?. I more than comprehend e what it'll take to trust what words never actually mean... Though Will that mindset define us on a way were no more than momentary friends.?. Loosening just enough to pull back n remain in endless daydreams... Or shall we believe serve found something that well never end.?.

to live...

to live for a greater cause... for another's joy... as a smile stretches their face... filling a void... to feel more complete... having a friend to call home... as alone isn't a requirement... where emotion is free to hope... to adapt to a norm that sticks around... never feeling lost... never having to start all over... able to hear a voice ease a frown... to be as is... accepted as someone true... gaining luv's unique nature... actually put to use... to come from within... spreading cheer in moments remembered... with memories ones able to keep... settling in as a member... to open the heart without fear.. .as fingers feel the skin.. trusting in how together is the way to change... standing eye to eye with nibbled lips... to loosen up for proof to be shown... in arms where comfort holds... believing in another somehow someway... until age catches up with wrinkles so old... to awaken come morning with sighs so real... leaning into someone willing to stay... jus doin whatever comes to mind... to say that one n only name... to live as another's reason to breathe... just by being alive... giving to a cause unselfishly... never having to hide...

Down n out...

You trapped me in my heart but didn't expect me to find the door and sound off the alarms... Shock waves rumbled until my mind woke up... And from the rubble i had a better understanding of luv... Standing in the aftermath with chains laying at my feet... I cannot believe i allowed someone like you to humiliate me... Giving in to being restrained from remaining what i who i truly am... Slowly loosening the knot that belittled my compassion as your number one fan... So i climbed from the hole u pushed me in... Little do u know of the things I've learned of deep in the depths within... Down in places you could never reach... As here today i am free... No longer a prisoner to meaningless lies... Nor captured by the nonexistent truth in your eyes... I found my way back to the surface without your help... As if i ever needed you for you were no more than an emotion felt... You failed to realize i was there when i didn't need to be... As i fell in to feel the bottom long ago just to redirect my own fuckin dreams... Now on the outside of your clinched fists i stand alone... The same way i stood attempting to get you to see me as your comfort for hope... You're not for me as i am not yours to claim... And within the cellar of your mind i do not belong to the games... There is no more shackles restraining me to give in to your selfish needs... Buried in the pits of will i transformed and left so i could breathe... The lock was picked by truths u still cannot seem to admit... N of all things u are the lone thing i haven't been able to come to miss...

Burning pages...

 I lit a fire to the beginnings of us... Burning pages was appropriate to finalize an amateur type of luv... Removing our story from ever being read... There was just no need to spread such a fairy tale that's simply better off dead...U should of heard the silence of every word go up in flames...Even they knew there was no need to mention the special editions escape... The book of luv perished before my eyes... As the blaze enjoyed the end to every little lie...  Torching any evidence that we ever coexisted... It was a moment that felt good on levels where life chuckled as it twisted... I sniffed the smoke to ride the high... As individual letters were relieved to be done with useless sighs... It was a thing of beauty to listen to the singe truly speak on what we are... Disintegrating chapters one by one honestly resurrected my heart... Who would of guessed a spark is all it took to rid myself of it all... I luv me a good roast that can deliver a char as the crackle is the aww...

Let go...

Ur losing me n i don't know if there's anything u can do..  I've tried not to let go yet pieces of us slowly has been removed... The want is vague to crave u close enough to feel me breathe... I believe luv has ran ores course n the cove is weak.   It seems time has come to tell u my heart hasn't a need to continue the whole inconsistency of having u around... I guess the in the healing of holding on my fingers let go..  U just wasn't worth the threat of emotional destruction that was ultimately found... Just past the friendship i realized. Who i was by watching ur disregard towards me... The constant neglect become a numb that transformed into what u will never be able to enjoy... Bcuz i witnessed myself in reflections that mutated in ways i did more than evolve as a void... There are no words to express the twist of reality in which i now live... I'm just so much better off without the emptiness swallowing me up like a black hole when i have so much more to give..  Please understand or don't when i say ley go of me... The landslide settled at the bottom of relations with the ruins of dreams... N i cannot remember one valid reason to allow my life to deteriorate from the inside out... All bcuz u refuse to be honest I a moment that would define a bond's determined route... So i must leave u here to die wiggling me after everything i attempted to site only u... I simple don't want the waste u claim is as real as getting ur way n that's the truth... This let go is the one answer to my own mind comb full circle to r evolve... You've made it easy to rather be alone than to deal with u as a problem to solve... Desperate is truly the only illusion felt in ur arms... As i was the only one who was lost in the cycle of relentless harm... Let go... Ur presence in my life is just the opposite of what creates hope... Ur a foe in luv with the attention when it's good for u.. N I've already cut u loose... As my monster chuckles in the shadows where u do not confide... Behind closed doors when the lights go off is where I've spent too much time... Ur fading faster than i ever imagined u in my mind... N i don't feel the need to play nice just to live up to ur hype...

Short n sweet...

There's no need to hurt me for a selfish benefit... I'll step away before a scenario gets so complex... I haven't in me to feud over childish ambitions... We can be mature without being a victim to the situation... Just talk to me n I'll ease on back.. Conversation is just to see if we can remain intact... People change n it's okay to evolve even if it ain't together... It's not like there's an actual forever... So keep the righteous sideshow others luv so much... If I'm not a friend i have no use in such an ambush... I won't let u tare me apart bcuz u don't have it in u to grow up... My heart is a piece of me that matters n in it i trust... I'm just not into the harsh reality of so called hopes... That real thing is more attractive when trying to give the mind a home... As if alleviate the hurt I'll keep it short n sweet... Am i too u what u are too me.?. Do friends exist with luv transformed from likes... Without the physical pleasures where sight, emotion n touch manipulate how individuals enjoy life... To the basics of interest in which connections are created... Relate to me in a moment nothing less than an honest use could ever be imitated... Sit if u will n spin ur end of what's to be known... To open up is to trust where convo goes...

Truth is,

Truth is, I've never looked at anyone but u n felt my heart fall outta my fuckin chest..  Truth is, I've never been able to put it back ever since it's been kicked around n left for dead... Truth is, I'm lost n i do not know where to turn... Truth is, I put my dues in to the lesson learned... Truth is, life just ain't the same... Truth is, I wish it were ur smile I could find a way to hate... Truth is, u being felt wasn't enough to witness me as is... Truth is, others cannot reach what I have to give... Truth is, I melted when we collided years ago... Truth is, I don't ever want u to know... Term is,  i army through all the pain alone... Truth is, for us, there never truly was any hope... Truth is, I'm better off trying to find my own way... Truth is, passion was the suicide needed to survive every fickin day... Truth is, I wish we could go back... Truth is, it be u I'd bypass... Truth is, I'd miss out on the only thing that had ever gotten to me... Truths is, it all just reminds me of some horrific dream... Truth is, I do know how u feel beyond all the reasons to let go... Truth is, ur the only thing that ever felt like home... Truth is, there's no looking back... Truth is, I'm good with leaving u in my past... Truth is, the spark is evident as we still exist... Truth is, it's a wasted thought dismissed... Truth is, truths lie n need removed... Truth is, lies no longer snuggle up to an open wound... Truth is, the good times are forever embedded in my mind... Truth is, I just wanna forget bcuz it was no more than some sorta useless hype...

The thorn...

 I Just wanna see ur face light up...

With a single symbolism of luv...

A rose plycked from ores roots...

Just to give it to u...

Though it doesn't make much sense...

For Its own life source or can no longer depend...

So what gesture can i possibly make.?.

So the beauty of perals don't wither away...

Is there anything tgat can capture how i feel for u.?.

Ur a thorn the stuck my heart n released hope more on the loose...

Maybe a hand across ur cheek is enough...

Or a Kiya on ur forehead will earn me some trust...

I'd luv to show u what's been on my mind...

To honor uhere I this crazy thing called life...

From a moment of truths til the clinging end...

To know if I'm the one is the becoming od friends...

Shoyld i just hold u in arms until u fall asleep.?.

Bcuz of fall former ink u of i felt u breathe.  

I cannot liye of what hopes on in my chest...

As even the thought of ur lips pressed against mine i do fickin intense...

Va can u sense my detritus surfacing I the way i cabbie help but to stare.?.

As i await the moment our eyesights. Meet in the middle of what is like air...

Allowing the blooming of beauty to rise to the occasion to live...

Fully opened for a scent to be remembered n cravee by the tickle in the ribs...

What's fair if we never ge lost in the way fingers cassettes the skin.?.

If there's no us shared...

No accepting what is known as rare...

With n smile created by being stripped to bare a chance...

All that's needs is a split second to define a use...

A caring touch reaching for who we choose...

As if two flowers I the bush content to be free...

Or shall i just awaken from this dream.?.

Friends in luv...

Luv just ain't no fun without a friend... N one only comes around every now n again... Seems time truly holds the key to the heart... N the rush does nothing but trigger alarms... As passion builds in suspense craving more than hope... Emotions come alive just wanting to know... Is it real or is it another moment to pass... For the mind awaits a use to open at last... With a lil high so actions I Motrin can speak... The crave drives a tenderness to a touch feeling the way luge 4 breathes... Though they'd no enjoyment if it all funded to an end... To restart from scratch lingering n dense... It's a piece of another familiar to selfs art... Having the capabilities to maintain through the spark... Lighting up mood than nights composing desires... For they'd so much more to come after the initial flick that lights the fire...  With a companion to share the tensions of time with... So the makings of memories can be savored up the best set of lips.... As fingers ease the weight of this world with a simple caress... Settling in sacred depths witness to the way willingness fits in the chest... N thoughts gather to remind facial expressions of  of truths n playing parts... Configuring what's behind the scenes in warm embracing arms...

My girl...

Whenever u come around something within me moves. So please don't go... It's too fuckin hard trying to find someone like u... I'm not begging I just know the struggle of solitude can do... Especially after coming across someone like yourself that works me loose... It's rare n it's something craved in the silence when behind closed doors... So stay n see where life will go bcuz i want more... I'm willing to open up if u truly are who u appear to be... Bcuz i know if u are real what i have to give is free... We can go back to ur place if you'd like... Where doesn't matter as long as ur close as i continue my life... I could use a individual with ur demeanor allowing me to feel not only ur skin... I want in as deep as i can go as we sink... To share a friendship unlike anything I've ever known... Truth is i don't wanna havta leave u the fuck alone... To lay by ur side n awaken next you u would just be nice... I could get used to the thought of u coming around on the outside of my mind... My arms aren't for jus anyone to land in... N I've been waiting patiently for a raw sense of humor laughing to live... So feel me as i press myself up against ur world... I know ur grown but I'd like to call u my girl...

When it's over...

 Once it doesn't hurt anymore the chuckle begins its changes... The numb wares off n the face rearranges..  After the pain can't be felt trying to remain a factor to live by... Somehow we all return bank to life with a different state of mind... As even thoughts switch up what lingers on the head... Allowing old memories to finally go more than play dead... When sighs reach a comfort of relief aa if the visions have been removed... The lost awakens to a survival privilege earned defining who's who... In a moment where the lips have forgotten the need in perversions tasted by the tongue... One comes full circle back to the precision of self having a better understanding of luv... After the affects ware off of the heart truths are invited to enjoy time... Living with a stillness of peace. Within the individual unable to hide... Knowing they'd have nothing left to hold on to from a prior endangerment... Eyes open to witness the options of possible engagements gaining pavement... With the first morning of a true fresh start the mirror can rest at last... Yet the friend in the visual is a reflection of growth needed to adapt to laugh...

Trapped within...

I'm down here. I need help.

Throw a rope.  I promise I won't hurt myself.

Are u listening? Can u hear me?

I want out. Please!

It's empty this deep. Eyes are all dried up.

Just tears of life. Wasting in the pits I'm shoved.

There's no one to fight anymore. I'm alone.

All the pieces are dull. This ain't home.

I've tried to dig. But the edge got further away.

The higher it went the lower I buried the pain.

Now there's just a hole. A void.

My echos bounce. Someone, hello, I'm paranoid.

I'm All there's left. I've forgotten the sounds of the voices screams.

Head is hollow. Heart just wants to be free.

This far beneath the surface makes it difficult to breathe.

I'm ready to go. Past my moment to leave.

I think I've done my time. I believe I'm better now.

Fill the creator. Lemme swim or drown.

I can't stay here. The solitude it too much.

Depression is my only friend. I just wanna be luv'd.

Is there anyone echo cares? Willing to relate.

Don't r.i.p. me just yet. My tombstone needs not the sealing of fate.

As the silence is so loud. In the dark is where I've been found.

Toss me some hope. I'll climb right up.

This is a lonely death. I want who I once was.

Shovel me a lil dirt.  I need another a chance.

I'm more than this. Please, just give a damn.

I can't touch the top. I've fallen too far.

My walls are closing in. I mean u no harm.

In the trenches i reside... Solo n roting.

Lend a hand. The end is plotting.

I don't have long. Get me outta this place.

Save me. Change the expression upon my face.

I have reason. I'm sick of the dwelling.

Hello! I know u can hear me yelling.

I'm not the same. I'm worthy of a cause.

Alive is what I crave. Never again to be lost.

Bring me back from this fade. Take me with u.

I'm inside of this monster. Trapped within.

I cannot move. I'm afraid I'll never be seen again...

Disregarded...

 Tears never fall from their eyes... Not once did they ever feel at fault... Maybe it's because we man noting to them... Like some drifter lost along the way collecting flaws... As the pain left behind slowly tares at the heart... Helping luv deteriorate from the inside out... Showing us how we were to peel them from our smiles... Creating a wound to bleed by thy tongue that caters to the sound... They refuse to acknowledge what they simply cannot admit... Not once turning around to comfort a friend that was there for them to take advantage of... With emotion dying they could care less of what happens to us... The loyal ones who are willing to give a lil bit of self to better another for a chance at trust... Yet the betrayal speaks of words unmentioned in shared moments that mean nothing at all... We're no more than a blink until the next stranger comes along... No one ever wants anything but the chase of something that's somehow better... N it makes it difficult to believe in anywhere to belong... From hi to goodbye the memories were a false presence yet to tell the truth... Causing a bitterness provoked when an honest convo woulda eased the mind... Though for some reason they like it when the hurt takes control... I must be a power trip to hear us being torn from our lives... To be curved to alter realities unwanted for we had the one we wanted so we thought... As time gives us a change that defines a guarded fear... Constantly asking self if anyone is truly interested in a passion so raw... A desire barely touched by hands yet to be molded into something rare... They destroy our hopes n shatter our dreams... Use is against ourselves until there's nothing left... N like magic their gone the save way they came in, yeah, they leave...

U know what u are too me...

 To pin u against a wall n work my way down through ur moans... Suckin n kissin on ur body until i taste the way u across me as ur one... The intensity of the crave to feel u move makes me hungry asf... To spin u around n slide in to ur gasps wantin to cum to my pulsating rush... Oh the feeling of u wrapped around me as i reach around u to grip ur throat as it's u i need... Forcing ur head back so our lips meet to feel breathes in perfect sync... Having my way n annoying how u react to me doin as i please... Jut to throw u on the bed n go back down on u with ur legs spread to bee seen... In a take me mood where u say fuck me hard... I'm weakened by u as my kryptonite allowing me to savagely play with ur heart... In a moment in which we roll around trying to move with the way the bed rocks... Sliding down n grinding out an orgasm that jus won't stop... Cum for me baby... Get that shit as u luv to hate me... Fuck yeah, feel it deep within u as u explode to the motions freeze... N i flip u to lick u softly jus to ready u with my tongues twirl on the loose... Having one more round so u can feel me gush to the rotation of ur hips in tune with my grins grove... To stroke u with a thrust of pleasure until i cannot handle the feel of u any more... As i bust n growl with a grunt wondering how in the fuck we wound up on the floor... To hear u chuckle n look up at me lookin down on u as I'm still inside of u... Knowing u know what u are too me as real passion is put to use...

Dead man walking...

The feeling of failure drives the mind insane... Drilled into thoughts gathered is a use put into place... There is no deoending on an other for their actions one cannot control... As there's just no gauranteed  to believe in building a every lasting home... When the heart has been let down by damn near everyone that's gave a memoir to life... Retracting is a better option so a sure thing is more than a hype... With a lacking of trust that someone can grasp how emotion is second nature to the survival mode... Relying on self is the bitter end of difficulty cutting the lace edges off of a lil thing called hope... In a solo act taking on a world filled with words that need to be hushed... There is no catering to anything other than staying course usable to feel any type of rush... For the only thing that resembles joy is succeeding with one step at a time... Doin it alone so things will for once evolve at some point somewhere in the middle of a forever grind... Living in moments that do not resemble others versiin of normal is the hardest part... Tbe sacrificestirs depths wanting to die when seeks never meant anyone any harm... As reality is an unreal mindset stuck in gear demanding a chance to somehow come back to around to smiling again... Bcuz behind closed doors there's a never ending eagerness to make it with only two hands... Keeping everyone at arms length due to self is afraid to lose another round... N tgat in it's own makes touch so foreign the skin clings to the breeze that rarely makes a sound... It's like finding self hypnotized by racing to the edge before it's all said n done... Attempting to manage a way joy hasn't a worry if ever things changed to allow a like to sink into luv... The struggle is merely the shield protecting all things along the way... Calming how petrified goin down claims pouring tears try desperately not to hate... One simply cannot afford to hit the bottom by an other's doin... So there is no significance in a familiar face wondering where self is goin... Chuckles rain on curiosities reaching for a piece to reason with a sigh... As self turns a check so lips do not meet staring into another set of lying eyes... Willing to do it without the comfort of passion just so everything stays intact... Watching days pass with an ache that could use a lil more than what's been known I the past...

Discarded...

 How does it feel when someone doesn't luv u bank.?. When u havta leave all the memories in a broken fickin past... Is it u believe if u tru a lil harder they'll see u did who u are.?. N yet everyday u fade from self worth as time tics away with the pain gathered in the heart... Yipping out the hope to be with the one it cannot refuse... Eventually not being able to shrug off the disregard so disrespectful tears endure the abuse... As if there's something wrong with ur friendship waiting on their end to decide who'll it is u are too them... Creatimg thoughts said to be crazy n besides the point of intentions hiding behind eyes lost in a so caked gem... When touch is a lil different due to the frustration of losingout on life... Can u comprehend before is too that tha they couldcare less if u live or die.?. It's real n then the delusions settle into the mine... As emotions take commit control n fight to survive a battle u cannot win... Have u ever say alone in a dark room trying to hold it together prior to an end comin.?. How'd the struggle change ur mindset when the cut dug deep enough to kill u while u we're still alive... As they snile n watch u fall from who u truly are... Having everything about ur world torn completely apart... Did u ever think you'd amount to nothing once ur vulnerable side allowed sensitivities to thrive... Did it take u long toconvince yourself to confront the issues I which they lie.?. N have u ever felt the blame placed upon ur shoulders that was too heavy to carry alone...  When the last time u thought of where in the fuck is home.?. As the helpless dwell consumes pieces that makeup the design of luv under attack... Drifting from where self belongs when hands aren't held in a grasp... Did u loose yourself in the makings of a future that had to chanc as u had to adapt.?. Tell me what is was u did to deserve chuckles directed to hurt the puritt in ur laugh... Have u let go even though u remember it like it was jus yesterday.?. U adding the onmy once you ressurect yourself from the rubble scattered in millions of opposing directions to be claimed...

Lil thought...

 It's the confiding part when sinking secrets of ones own design into another...

That's the issue that cannot be trusted in the palms of unknown hands...

Though details are the key to knowing someone in a world that cares for nothing but itself...

N even if one's gotta determine if within another there's a deeper depths than the shallows so self can truly land...

Over thinking...

 Been goin back n forth with the thought of hmm... N yet with so much to consider before ever getting to emotions i keep coming up with nah... Faces find sights n words go unspoken due to a splash of details that claim who it is i am... Though the imagination caters to different situations where others stroke the curiosity of how the mingle would find a chuckle of hahas... As life keeps moving for there's things that need to be done... As the mind drifts of an unknown friend when time spent alone has overlapped into the more lingering nights that calm the nerve... Yet, time sleeps with the empty heart as if there's something missing where toes can't reach the bottom... Needless to say i have luv for self but i believe hope still clings to a more subtle worth...

At the edge of change...

N what if time was letting go.?. Releasing me from my solitude where I've spent so many yrs alone... N if the heart was winning the battle... Not caring of the loose thoughts in the head that rattles... Damn near feeling a closure to a lifestyle that needs a change... What if i was curious to the feel of ur name.?. Touching my lips n shaped by my tongue... If i were stepping out to take a chance to trust... At the gates of the chest jus wanting to know ours safe to take a stroll... Would it be cool if we jus talked within respectful tones.?. Bcuz i juts might be at the edge of wonder to wanting to sink into an embrace... That is if lives line up when we invade each others space... So if i were to say hey jus once... To see how smiles would curve to the sound of likes lacing into luv... Is there any hope that ur anything like me.?. Able to live free n on ur own breathe... Bcuz an if is bigger than a lil two letter word... N the power of a moment could mean the difference in actual worth... As hands are remembered as the soothe that creates sighs caressing the skin... What if i could truly use a friend.?. If u knew i was real n did my time on my own... Learning of who i am si i know who would better me in a special place called home... Jus think for a second of if i were honestly coming back to life... Of all the raw depths that is anxious to give me as mine... If i was standing at the line teetering back n forth on the possibilities before me... Do u believe you'd be willing to get in my way n become more than a dream.?. With every motion on point with the way i move... Being the one in my eyes feeling me through... Reaching in to accept pure intent that has awaited a mate... Would u be brave enough to show ur face.?. If i had no baggage or loose ends attaching me to some bs yet to come forth... If i stood as me jus needing someone to want me more... In a present mindset done with the single life... Could u find it in u to no longer be jus a silhouette in my mind.?.

In depths...

How deep would i settle in ur eyes if u thought of possibly losing me.?. Would ur tears build at the edge of a new found life in which i didn't exist.?. N where in ur heart do i fit in to ur comforts if i vanished from ur dreams.?. I'd like to know if I'd be missed if there were no us felt within grips... So is the feeling real enough to imagine hope fading in a moment to specify truths.?. Will a void create a worth that digs beneath the norm of who we are.?. Recharging the serge to never bring forgotten by a friend... Where's the switch to turn off the doubt that occurs in time to come that triggers alarms... Do i keep goin without u or is there a depths for me to swim in.?. I ask for I've held hands with strangers who drifted back into this crazy world... As I'd enjoy seeing the fear of ur passion slipping away... As a twisted certification where u cannot hide that for me there's no other girl... Staring me down the way what matters is having me close enough to be able to touch... Is there a soothe in even bringing up my interest of my own use.?. Giving u a piece of my mind so we're on the same page... Bcuz without u, i wouldn't know what to do...

I am even though i ain't shit...

I ain't a tough guy n I'm far from soft... I may clean up good even though I'm jus another loss... I can't be what another can but i am all me... I jus might not fit u even though in u I'd touch everything nerve ending... I'm jus not what ur lookin for as I'm not like everyone else... I wish i was but after a while u won't wanna be felt... I'm nothing more than a moment as I'll eventually pass through... I might seem confident but I'm nothing much... I'm deep even though i appear to live on the surface... I'm jus not a typeone autos crave bcuz i hide in truths of musts... I'm no prize even though i could only hope to be... I'm jus a pause in time wishing i was a lil more than me...  I believe others are more desirable even when i have what it takes... I'm in disbelief as others tell me i affect their heart rate... I don't get it even though I'm fully aware... I'm jus here jus wanting to elsewhere... I express true depths but cannot allow another to get in... I'm a side show who wants to live... I find it hard to fit in even though i can relate... I'm jus drifting within n yet in constant connection with how i make me feel safe... I'd like to be this dream but I'm no one to cross the mind... I'm a waste as my past is proof there better if i could jus hey to fugue out how to envoy a lil of fuckin life... I hate existing even though i luv to be alive... I love being in the shadows even though i am deprived... I'm no one to crave even if the sec is great... I look happy but yet I'm at a loss when prone say my name... I jus don't understand why interst when it will fade away... I think someone else is more suitable even though you'd enjoy listening to me say ur name... I'm no good as i hear I'm rare... I've loser me somewhere n i found something i cannot seem to share... I don't want to bother u even though I'd like to be considered to enter ur heart... I'm jus not so sure when everything about me likes ur charm... I don't know anything n yet maybe i do... I'm jus right but I'm jus not the one for u...

Sploosh...

She leaps into the plunge... Fearless n ready to be luv'd... With a smile that can tame a beasts heart... Done with how she sits alone in the dark... She's goin swimming without the dead memories... Hoping to luv someone so endlessly... So she dives feet first... Wanting to touch depths worth... To walk at the bottom where air doesn't exist... Jus to surround herself with what moves with her hips... Down she goes... Needing to surface into a different reality where she's no longer alone... On step n the descend is on... With a mindset of do not return seeking a better norm... She jumps with ten toes down n arms up in the air... Without a care she accepts life's lil dare... Creating a fall of a lifetime to accepted as someone real... As the splash is refreshing to the feel... Taking a chance there's no undertow in to the deep... For all she truly desires is not to think... To be wrapped up in joy loosened to a snug... Feeling upon the skin the moisture of luv... As she removes memories of every relationship she's every known... Ripples are like vibes pulsating with life's very own grope... Reaching for the edges where limits lay on shores to witness horizons soothe... N one step is all it'll ever take to take a dip in a common use... Unafraid of the pain for it itself is a part of the thrill... Bcuz she knows deep down even happy tears spill... She lives to luv... She is the definition of trust... Allowing herself to alter the reality in which she resides... She believes in the hype... With an understanding of what it takes to become in transformation of best friends... N she will forever be a woman with no end...

View points...

Comin at it from a different approach... Through another's eyes filled with hope... Self reflects in stares exposed to the naked eye... As wonder creates fear in control of the mind... From their angle sights are met with opened arms... Yet when close emotions hide in the heart.. Causing friction they do not deserve... But how can inner makings give when one doesn't know their own worth.?. The struggle to comply is as real as it gets... A sense of lost has taken over the chest... Unable to feel what others are so willingly to do... Seeing the good goin to waste within u know who... Met at expressions jus to retract statements so people Aren't led on... Thenagain at times that's a lil too late becoming another's norm... As rejection settles into their face... Hearing the let down change tones in the way they sound out names... It's madness that shuns out good individuals for no reason at all... Left to sit alone once again as life can't get over the wall... Even with a consideration that triggers a smile... Self hasn't been honest for far too long... I'm the turning away of others ones durian the truth in a moment to pause... To cater to desires wanting to live... To feel a truce leap from another's lips... All with a notion tgat acceptance with come with ease... Though if that were the case maybe self could truly breathe... No longer drifting in day dreams of what it's like to open up... From their standpoint i can relate to the frustration when caressing luv... As the find in isn't so easy to do... As all i ever do is watch them cut me loose...

Trapped within...

On the drift one gets lost... Spending countless hrs alone trying to correct flaws... Hoping to find a balance between the had n the heart... So one doesn't havta swallow words when curiosities set off alarms... In the middle of life one examines self... Wanting to be resurrected n eventually be felt... Though time behind the eyes find comfort in the shadows buried in the nights... Unable to hear broken promises made that surface as lies... Lingering is one falling into the silence... Holding on to memories that never turn out to be timeless... Thoughts forget of the feel good when letting go... Losing self in the process of setting down figurative thrones... One rides solo on life's back digging out the pain... Jus to awaken as a stranger in reflections that chase ones face... Growing older than comfort is willing to accept... The transformation changes presence as well as depths... In the redefining moments locked away one's mind is absent on how to live... In disbelief when it comes to what self has to give... Fading like confidence fear settles in to the chest... Restricting emotion from ever believing self is anything moor than nonetheless... From shattered to scared to healed n afraid... Days are chaperones to the mind fighting a use to to be claimed... When the solitude eases the peace within... One tends to settle in to a basic kinda grin... Wanting to reach out n touch someone with luv... To land in a sacred place that has no means to rush... One can only get so close... Jus to shy away n be alone... Roaming as if the battle within has forgotten its way home... One jus needs a real reason to loosen up n go with the flow... Knowing there's so much good goin to waste... Trappes within jus seems to be the safeat place...

We belong...

Just touch me n lemme know you're there... Willingly reach for me so i know u care... Giving hope to having a friend that week never leave... Feel me rest come mornings light for it's you i need... Place your hands upon my skin find your way to my heart... Follow the beat in sync through a pulse attached to your charm... Find me worthy in a moment behest your fingertips... N taste a bit of real luv expressed from my lips... Sighing to the stroke a being caressed... For it is you felt in depths i havta admit... With a twitch that tickles loosening me up... I move to your motions as we lay flush... Playing with my outline so your eyes aren't the onmy thing to learn of me... Upon the surface press your hand on my chest... I pulsate differently when it's you emotion invests... With one finger at a time you sink in to who i am... Touching every inch of my skin as fingerprints land... Flowing to heal the pieces of me no one else can have... You open me with a singke graze n i just want it to last... You're a rare ease that tingles in desires to say the least... So if you would stay, please...

don't speak...

ssh... let's not tell anyone of the flavor that touches taste buds... jus hush n go with the flow... reach with the tongue n enjoy the touch... move... rotate ur hips n dig in to the motions coming to life... desire wants what it wants... trust is in the makings of moans awakening to dirty lil binds... on the other side of typical where tasty strokes drive the crave... delicious n easy on the eyes... no one needs to know what it is we do...  bared to the nakedness of touch groped by the thrill of night...felt by passions need to please every nerve exploding simultaneously... down on knees in tune with the sensation of moans loosening up... feeling for self the interest to give n receive a lil extra at will... don't talk unless flirtations find filth on the perverted side of opening the gates to the rush... piecing an evening together where bustin is a facial in the works... bite ur lip n sigh with the vibe creating a hormonal satisfaction that jus won't rest... grinding to the way we as us dive into a relentless submission to be used... talk to me through gasps that send a serge straight to my chest...

The silence's end...

Maybe it's in the way a touch could heal the pieces of me that's afraid to feel... With fingertips rescuing me from the outside jus wanting me to surface for a moment that's all too real... It's like I've never felt truth supply an antidote that soothes more than my skin... As I'm trapped within myself when all i ever wanna do is live... It could possibly be i fear myself slowly giving in to the silence's end... Able to reason with what i cannot control n accept the possibility of a friend... There's nothing broken behind the eyes where use trembles not knowing who's who... Thoughts jus assemble a false state of comfort so self is safe from the heart cut loose... Free to express a truce without the tension that struggles in the deepest pits covered by hope... Or it might be I'm jus too far gone on the other side to realize I'm a way waste when dying alone... Stroked is the nerve that secretly awaits a sensation opened up by a simple graze... Flowing in sync with the details buried that want to be resurrected for another to embrace what truly needs to be saved... So a memory doesn't havta live in solitude creating imaginary twists pretending to be ok... To be restored to a different kinda normal with a physical connection that triggers depths to reemergence from a hole i cannot seem to escape...  Ambitious is the emotion simmering to witness a face changing through the yrs... Never to leave no matey the weight of tears... Perhaps a distinctive voice carries a tone to awaken a lost passion my mind refuses to fetch... Digging in without scaring off the remains of what's left... The willing fragments resting in restless patience to finally be used... There's another world under the metaphorical armor that has a desire to move... In a leisure state of harmless flirtations interest comes n goes... As wants confronts needs demanding a chance to prove self has grown... It's a stranger craved to cure self of the damage self is petrified of... To bate all to a like of some sort to evolve into luv...

True intent...

How would u feel if i told u i lost hope n i havta go.?. I Georgethat's the answer we seek so we don't feel lost n so alone... As it's a friend to cling to that digs into the mind... Hellng life rotate through days that land in the middle of nights... So who would laugh first of today was the last time i ever kissed ur lips.?   To behind strangers again as i keep on getting on looking for a lifestyle that fits... Will ur face relieve itself of having to feel anything for me.?. Or will my words in their own devastate the well being of ur heart as leave.?. Questions have honest replies if tongue can speak as freely as a bird whistling to its true luv... Tell it like it is a of it we're u deciding what kinda reality u need to be able to trust... Though is rather witness u soiree me be jus being who u are... We're either someone w cannot love without or another face in the crowd that somehow had a chance to turn away n choose to depart... There is no indecisive thought of knowing real comfort exists... So if i were to walk back into thus world without u, would i truly be missed.?.

On the darker side...

I wonder when would or be a good time to never wake up... Anymore i don't feel any type of real luv... All that's known is being alone in a self absorbed world... As the thought lingers of why is it i need to continue to hurt... It wiukd be much easier to be gone... I'd only be an every so often memory lost... For in alive now n very few act like i even exist... N my curiosity plays with relieving them from the eventual twist... Jus poof, done n invert auth the shit show i face... Maybe in due time everyone will forget my name... The same way it feels sitting here tonight... I'm no mite than a chuckle absent from life... Maybe i wish it would all jys fuckin end... Bring a lil piece my way that isn't so lonely hence hence... It ain't like my dreams aren't as dead as the darkness i can't remember anyways... Only having to be abke recall 2 reoccurring scenes in my head tgat won't seen to ever fade... Down i go 6 feet within to imagine how solitude really feels... N it's allot live my reality when my eyes are open n tgat shit is real... It's pointless to keep on auth an emptiness lingering in depths... As forever is inevitable when there's nothing left... On the darker side of hope dwells an unforgettable plot... N it catches me periodically off guard n i dehydrator need it to stop... To live or die with a death wise is no good to come... But when days upon yrs have wound me up here it jusain't no kinda fun... So i continplate on situations if i had my way to rest... N the one thing that i think of is how i luv the way my oulse beats in my chest...

Loosen up...

I don't wanna talk about emotions n allow the silliness to cloud my mine... I jus wanna kick it live we're bat friends n enjoy lil life... Doin whatever comes without limits on juts getting along... I juts wanna feel like i fuckin belong... No bs n no games as the moment spent finds a laugh... I don't like fairytales that only feed force fed dreams of perfections that always winds up in an unfortunate past... Jus be n don't attempt to pretend to present yourself to what u think of like... Real is an attraction words could never describe as a delightful type... Breathe for once n exhale to be seen in true form... Restraints. Aren't necessary when time still eventually tell on self as the mask from the face is torn... I don't need a rush but a slow ease that awakens a comfort of jus having u around... Someone who understands that majority has a playful side that wants to come out... Free is the intent that moves at will to soothe a mindset that never hasta question a use... N I haven't it in me to submit to gender roll playing that transforms into a lazy awkwardness as a conversation is duped... Jus smile of it feels what eyes have landed upon... I ain't for everyone...

Secrets hushed...

I truly try to be discrete but there's something in the way u move that drives me insane..  As my tongue awakens jus to whisper ur name... Wanting to know the flavor of how u loan up... Yay, is luv to hear u moan as i play n touch... So excuse my intentions of they was live... The attraction is unreal n cannot censor howyou'd feel upon my lips... With every kiss roaming in places sensitivities come to life... There's jus no way to get u off my mind..  As my silence breaks hoping to envoy the thoughts that run through my head... Giving u scrubbing i have until there's Judd nothing left... I'd tinker n tease with a lick that would bend ur toes...  Open u up n prove how deep i wanna go... So pleas know how hatd u make it keeping to myself... N how you'd be a meal more than felt... As u trigger every desire stretched to hormones craving only u... Only if u knew...

Are u free to be.?.

I don't wanna push the limits if u ain't ready. To be freed... Atrempting to dig in wouldn't be something that should be free... So i ask, how us it that u truly feel alive.?. Rambling over what goes through ur head as u love ur life... Bcuz there's no fuckin way i could possibly entertain u long enough if ur shackles haven't been removed... As I'd jus like to know woke it be worth s moment for us to get loose... Legitimately speaking i hear words talk with tones depicting what it is u want... Though are u seriously looking for a friend or jus chasing anything that resembles luv.?. Fur there's no point in clsim hope holding on to the answer if it's a short term pause... N I'm one to put blame on u like the end will be ur fault... I have curiosities that linger in the balance of who in the fuck we could be..  Though that relies on if u refuse in ur dreams here with me on reality..  Open n willing to experience every lil detail that connects through note than touch... So If u haven't figured u out jus step to the side with visions of lust...