Discarded...

 How does it feel when someone doesn't luv u bank.?. When u havta leave all the memories in a broken fickin past... Is it u believe if u tru a lil harder they'll see u did who u are.?. N yet everyday u fade from self worth as time tics away with the pain gathered in the heart... Yipping out the hope to be with the one it cannot refuse... Eventually not being able to shrug off the disregard so disrespectful tears endure the abuse... As if there's something wrong with ur friendship waiting on their end to decide who'll it is u are too them... Creatimg thoughts said to be crazy n besides the point of intentions hiding behind eyes lost in a so caked gem... When touch is a lil different due to the frustration of losingout on life... Can u comprehend before is too that tha they couldcare less if u live or die.?. It's real n then the delusions settle into the mine... As emotions take commit control n fight to survive a battle u cannot win... Have u ever say alone in a dark room trying to hold it together prior to an end comin.?. How'd the struggle change ur mindset when the cut dug deep enough to kill u while u we're still alive... As they snile n watch u fall from who u truly are... Having everything about ur world torn completely apart... Did u ever think you'd amount to nothing once ur vulnerable side allowed sensitivities to thrive... Did it take u long toconvince yourself to confront the issues I which they lie.?. N have u ever felt the blame placed upon ur shoulders that was too heavy to carry alone...  When the last time u thought of where in the fuck is home.?. As the helpless dwell consumes pieces that makeup the design of luv under attack... Drifting from where self belongs when hands aren't held in a grasp... Did u loose yourself in the makings of a future that had to chanc as u had to adapt.?. Tell me what is was u did to deserve chuckles directed to hurt the puritt in ur laugh... Have u let go even though u remember it like it was jus yesterday.?. U adding the onmy once you ressurect yourself from the rubble scattered in millions of opposing directions to be claimed...