I am even though i ain't shit...

I ain't a tough guy n I'm far from soft... I may clean up good even though I'm jus another loss... I can't be what another can but i am all me... I jus might not fit u even though in u I'd touch everything nerve ending... I'm jus not what ur lookin for as I'm not like everyone else... I wish i was but after a while u won't wanna be felt... I'm nothing more than a moment as I'll eventually pass through... I might seem confident but I'm nothing much... I'm deep even though i appear to live on the surface... I'm jus not a typeone autos crave bcuz i hide in truths of musts... I'm no prize even though i could only hope to be... I'm jus a pause in time wishing i was a lil more than me...  I believe others are more desirable even when i have what it takes... I'm in disbelief as others tell me i affect their heart rate... I don't get it even though I'm fully aware... I'm jus here jus wanting to elsewhere... I express true depths but cannot allow another to get in... I'm a side show who wants to live... I find it hard to fit in even though i can relate... I'm jus drifting within n yet in constant connection with how i make me feel safe... I'd like to be this dream but I'm no one to cross the mind... I'm a waste as my past is proof there better if i could jus hey to fugue out how to envoy a lil of fuckin life... I hate existing even though i luv to be alive... I love being in the shadows even though i am deprived... I'm no one to crave even if the sec is great... I look happy but yet I'm at a loss when prone say my name... I jus don't understand why interst when it will fade away... I think someone else is more suitable even though you'd enjoy listening to me say ur name... I'm no good as i hear I'm rare... I've loser me somewhere n i found something i cannot seem to share... I don't want to bother u even though I'd like to be considered to enter ur heart... I'm jus not so sure when everything about me likes ur charm... I don't know anything n yet maybe i do... I'm jus right but I'm jus not the one for u...