off in to the distance...

at it without the control of snatched reigns... kickin rocks n skippin moans so it doesnt change my face...

free handin life as im off to where i am to wind the up... standin still long enough to catch my breath once i bust...

i loosened the grip that held on too tight... bit my lip n it changed my fuckin life...

so yeah, i walk without that feelin of luv... theres only one way id wanna be touched...

due to i jus aint got it in me to bow ever again... i dont wanna meet my biggest fan...

im doin me n goin on about my way... n theres really nothin else to say...

things jus aint the same for the feel of relations jus aint what therye said to be... i gave up on findin someone who thinks like me...

my hesitations got fed up n ran outta patience... as i do not beleive in datin...

the checkin of tongues keep the honest fling from bein real... i dont trust it n i refuse to play as its me they try to steal...

theres no such thing as fate therefore my interest gave away the notion of how u feel i need to correspond... im too busy doin what i do to fall back in luvs ...

sorry follows that feel that redirects thoughts goin under the pain... friends neva last long enough to enjoy the distance fell too short jus before they decide to bang out n escape...

dont reach for i wont havta avoid ur feelings callin out... i dont wanna hear i luv u slip from ur mouth...

i jus wanna get along n jus wait for the end... without expectations of a so called friend...

my heart aint on the attempt for the shallow fill that dips in to stir shit up... theres nothin there after the motion surges from the ultimate rush...

time tends to unwind in another life where they simply do not exist... as the taste of a kiss isnt no more than the changin of flavors drippin from the lip...

im not in to the turn that separates the good times with that incision below the chin... to me, thats jus no fuckin way to live...

lemme be me on my way that away goin on about my merry way... time wont wait on me to reside where i am if i stay...

that let down jus isnt my thing... n no, i dont wear legal rings...

all i have to give to u is a moment to cherish ur desires needin that fix... if i aint what u thought i was u can always think differrently of me as jus another dick...

maybe thats jus who ive become... tuned in mentally to know using that emotional dig that tends to force a lil too much...

yet, ill allow u to get as close as to place ur hands upon me for ur own comfort from time to time... then i gotta go as i dont believe in the goodbye thatll eventually come as its me u wont like...

its a choice u have to face lookin at me bcuz i aint gonna wait around n waste what i have... i dont get attached n i truly dont wanna lie to u the way words do as i dont want u to be mad...

its jus nothin lasts forever so ive gotten used to bein alone... so fuckin far, far, far from home!!!

n i know im not the only one that felt the delusion break the mindset of trained beings... i jus wanna be me...

livin without the slammin doors that come from the hinges swing... findin the discomfort tryin to push me to my knees...

watchin one an other act like the other aint shit... i cant do it for its control is to me, a lil to childish...

n the sooner i can go the better off ill be... due to like has more impact than luv ever will with its constant need...

n i cant feel even the finest of tingles wantin to come back out n play... so please, u dont havta remember my face...

im jus here bcuz this is where weve met... as im afraid of that thing u wanna do as time spent...

even flowers die n lose the beauty they posses... this here no matter how u are, jus isnt meant...

im jus waitin on my time to curl up n go with the flow of the nevermore... dyin inside wantin my turn to become that note written as an endless chord...

when it exists...

its the scent in the breeze as u walk on by... how u give a lil chuckle when u see my face... as my eyes follow the imagination with u changin my life... say jus my name n watch me lip sync to the crackle of the flame... lit  for me to see the way ur boby curves around mine... so smooth to the feel life has on time opened up to u... im dazed by the smile the resides thats perfectly intact... its in the way tones go down beneath as whisper callin to me the way u do... ur that dip that splashes back... a gasp of somethin fresh enough to want over n over again... a softened emotion could neva lie to the heart when it comes to u... damn near reachin for i whats felt is the stroke of ur hand... gigglin to the way u toot... a beautiful sight of pure sensation is what u are... a piece of a connection without even bein touched... goin back n forth with our smart remarks... from lusts to likin the feel as crawlin up n under the attempt at luv... ur in the roll over come mornin with that look that drives me wild... as the hop skip to relieve yourself is quite cute if i must say... with that lil scoop tryin to hurry up as if it u were runnin a mile... jus to get back to me waitin for u to stay... thickenin up as if ur stuck to my hip holdin on... ur that endless feel of contentment goin the distance facin u know who... jus doin what ur doin... as u cant believe where here together as livin proof...

Something ain't right...

Times ticking n I can feel my chest... I won't be around till the end like I hoped but I'm doin my best... The feel of my heart at times aches n idk why... Yet as far as everyone knows I'm perfectly fine... Damn flutters tell me something ain't right ya know... Like I don't believe I have as many yrs left here as I jus wish they'd move slow... My pump skips as it's irregular at times... But I'm always alone so no one can see me cringe for my life... Mom's died at 48 n pops has 7 stints... What an I to do but I'm damn near as old as they were when chaos made em both flinch... As it's not this world I'm worried about leaving behind... It's my 3 that'll have go on without me the way I had to back in 99... Will I make it.?. Idk...b all I know is something ain't right n the shit has me thinkin my own...

The choice in which...

What addiction.?. What is it that had ur attention.?. That bad habit is hard ASF to break... What's the choice in which u luv to hate.?. The mutha fucka feels good huh.?. Like, what a rush.!. The way it finds u no matter where u are... What did it make u feel in ur heart.?. What sacrifice do u give to it.?. Wantin it in ur mits... U cater to the way it feels, admit it... Be real n gab at me from the jibs... It's got u... Consumed... Willin to give anything to have what u want... Huh.?. We all have one u know... In our own way it shows...

Mergin...

onward motion into the release we go... holdin on to nothin but whats real enough to know... hopin time doesnt return us to what we thought was home... that place we thought would neva allow us to feel alone... gone we flow... somewhere off to be whoa'd... to find what held us back no longer has its hold... short n sweet words find their way... as u n me merge lanes...

Pucker up...

There's only one display I wanna be seen as, n that's in the way u look at me... Best believe it's the eye contact speakin through emotions that connect as energy... As one sound will revert to the way my name sits on ur bottom lip... Swingin my feet n leanin in for the softness of ur kiss in which we cannot resist... Listenin for that tone to pucker up in a way we transform like into luv... N the way u feel me as we touch jus rushes with ur nerves thumpin with heartbeats that trust...

Open up...

If u don't crave the feel of good sex there's nothing I can do with u but turn u out... N if it good it's all u think I want for u I no use for luv is yet to be found... There's no reason I'd fuck u if u weren't a freak as getting it in takes it's turn in relations... The same as feelin a different kinda physical sense that goes through a process of elimination... Lame I can't do so yeah it's u if u wanna make luv... There's times for that shit just like there's moments to open up n fuck.!. If u can put the emotion on my tip as u slide down me that be fuckin great... I like the feel of passion slippin n slidin as ur pussy gets wet n wants to ride my face... Add in the touch of desire clingin to the heart n depths find the cure to I'm tryin to tell u... I don't want u unless u can loosen ya hips n grind on my use... There's more than jus bein friends if we were to come together n settle on the truth... I do have more dick than u need as it's not the only thing that can move... What's ur tongue for other than words.?. How does time exist without the full package of luv n worth.?. Half steppin laid out boundaries jus ain't no fuckin fun... I'mma tell u now jus so u know, for that lazy shit I ain't the one.!. Where's ur depths of knowin what in the fuck it takes to please someone.?. Bcuz if u don't have no rotation in ur groove consider me already done... U gotta fill the void in levels u prolly ain't neva too in to consideration to get ahold of somethin like me... As I call myself a thing until u get the point n open up to bein free... Don't try n lay there or have limits on the kinkier side of pleasure comin out... I don't need that kinda frustration to wind up at the end of a friendship tarin apart more than moanin sounds... u guess give to receive to revive yourself so u to can be pleased... As I like to begin with the lips til I do to my knees... Fulfillin fantasies n untold thoughts as if u want ur own to come true... As all the sexual content is a side attraction that forms a balance fallin in luv with u...

Jus as lost as u...

What is it I havta do.?. What'll it take to get me next to someone like u.?. If I spent the rest of my life doin what I could jus to be good to the way u move... How could I find myself put to ur use.?. I was jus wonderin if u were lookin for someone like me... Maybe if I said somethin other than some slick shit you'd know I'm not the type to eva wanna leave... Luv doesn't disattach the way lies does as others forget who it is you'd be... N there's no sense in bein fed soon to be lost dreams... It's a matter of who's turn could seem to arise the feel of ur longin soothe... N honestly I ain't nothin perfect but I'm the loyal faithful kind that finds comfort in knowin who's who... As I can say it's u I wanna get loose... When is ur gates gonna open as the passion that resides n willingly feel a truce.?. What'll it be that'll bring life to the way u breathe.?. Run me through ur thoughts the way I come n attempt to see who it is I'd be to u livin free... I'm jus curious to come face to face with u lookin at me... Findin more than what's expected flickin birds at this world n laughin at it on its beggin knees... Do I even have a chance to reach for ur hand with what I have to give.?. Or is it ur thinkin the same thing wantin that chuckle back in ya rib... I'd jus like to arouse ur intensions by lettin myself be known as I too jus wanna live... U see, like u, idk who it is that can hold my own heart with expressions unable to hide within that rare first to every fuckin desirable kiss... So who is it ur lookin for as u rest ur head behind closed doors.?. Could it be my face that's been missin as to get to knowin me is the wantin of more.?. I'm damn near goin deep to allow u to see I ain't like the others that's left ur emotions trampled on beneath their feet upon the floor... What will it take to get u to not waste anymore time n allow me to slip into ur core.?. No, idk if ur her jus the same as u don't know if Imma give life to that silhouette u seek... The only thing we could ever be is what u n I both call me... As time ticks into the unknown with passerbys diggin in to the feel in which we leak... How can I keep from runnin down ur fuckin cheek.?. I'm jus as lost as u are tryin to figure a way to get into a set of luv'n arms... If the direction found us standin still, would u believe it's u I don't eva wanna harm.?. Bcuz there's other things I'd rather do doin my part... How is it I'd get close enough to fall in to a collision that lands so smooth with the right amount of charm.?. As I won't force u to witness me comin from a place that seems to wanna know u... What would come from jus tellin the truth.?. What would make u wanna take notice in the way I come unglued ova u.?. Ssh, no, I'm not new to relations as I've already proven I can pull through... Yet I jus wanna know who is we'd become if we were to share life.?. Like, what would happen if we were to open our eyes.?. Jus take a moment to ramble n get to the meanin of what's on the mind... Givin in to a better reason of why.!.

Jus outta reach...

Far enough away touch isn't connected... Jus outta reach so a mutual understanding isn't debated... Inches from fingerprints able to feel emotion come to life... Tryin to find a reason to mingle in life... Held in sights before skin volunteers the soothe... At a distance that halts on the move... At a stand still holding off so abilities are known... Until intent is given a chance to be shown... At the point of impact without being groped... Even though if things go well playtime will explode... As the initial stance figures on the pros n cons... Physical isn't the only way to enjoy the relevance of the bond... Comin together to collide when the time is right... Landin upon the texture once the motion cannot hide... Right at the tips of fingers I wait... Say my name.!.

Only if we knew...

What would happen if outta the kindness of our hearts we spoiled em.?. Could it change the direction in which way they come knowin emotion is on the run.?. If we didn't entertain em do u think they'd stick around or leave.?. Bored, fallin away when they should be leanin in to ease the way they breathe... So good the treatment rips open the pretend version of wants... No longer talkin about luv but the interactions that complicate the reason of trust... Are they actually shallow themselves not able to come out n play with the realization of questions answered with motionless lips.?. When that feel concurs the sexual interaction as things switch... What is the possibilities that allow em to perform as they can actually function in relations away from the phoney shit.?. Ready to dig in to the flesh as motion holds the needed grip... If we were to reconcile before we get involved without the gimme gimme bs, who would we be.?. Think... What is it they want gettin close to the rush of a vanity ridden crush.?. N how much of em would we believe as their honesty felt our touch... Not wantin a fuckin thing... So they say, yet do we have different values on rings.?. What would come from givin respect instead of jumpin through the same ol loop holes... Is the difference in the angle of literal n metaphorical thrones.?. The end result still standin, how do we get there.?. How from here sittin still thinkin of somethin rare.?. Wantin for nothin n unaffected by terms n conditions thrown out the fuckin window... Would they remain the same if we unloaded intent to give em that comfort that isn't jus a sexual moan.?. When fillin their time, do I think it crosses their minds to take notice without fallin for someone who can do for em.?. A lil more than a lil sum sum that results in the presence of friends open to the feel of luv... Who is it they'd turn in to if we cherished em.?. When a word like, "like" were to come in to play n u enjoy em n for once have some fun.?. Are ya sure they won't flip scripts in the way life is too be lived... Will they get bored with us as lips are licked.?. findin the attraction the only thing worth havin around... Is the truth the only way to witness time unable to effect sound.?. Who will they be if we found it in us to make a move on their worth in our lives.?. With no need to hide, who would we be if they were what they said they were comin in to focus in between the lines unwritten by the hype.?. Do u think the mingle would turn out somewhat different if we found each other jus goin through life.?. In control of axtions n willin to feel the way the click understands first n foremost what it takes within the mental elements of the mind... Who's on the other end of effort takin place.?. N what would it be like to finally taste their name.?.

At war with choice...

We get stuck in a state of mind jus as u get caught in a way thinking... Losing hope in opposing genders as the opposite sex isn't a myth worth dreaming... Tired of the same ol bullshit we jus stop believing the way u feel free to give the fuck up... N all in all, all we ever want is for someone to open to the feel of us n actually fall in luv... Men don't find crazy attractive the same as u don't want no fuck boy climbing in ur bed... Yet with both sides shut the fuck down, who's gonna drop their guard n place a bet.?. Time has taught us how to grow up n give in to a more reasonable way of relations... As the moments it's taken women to get to the now we seem to be nothin but a figment in ur imagination... We sit alone wonderin where in the fuck she's at due to every night it's the same ol shit... As u hang around home drifting in the thought that all men are bigots... N as time gets behind the moments we take it seems we're running out of days... Lost riding solo pretending we ain't so lonely chasing the expressions upon our face... We both know we've bad decisions no one else can claim other than self if we were to deal the truth... That is once we're done being selfish n trust in someone so we can move forward with a better use... From the wall men can't climb to the door that opens for us to leave... A woman can't find comfort in a boy the way we can't find a friend in a lil girl who has wants over need... As the goin back n forth is jus as immature as the choices made that bring us to feelin let the fuck down... Listening to the passerbys goin unnoticed unable to hear their feet shift with sound... War has raged in the hearts of the abandoned n abused keepin emotions at bay... As we try to convince others we don't give a shit bcuz we ain't afraid... When in fact deep down in the depths we all know it's a fuckin lie... We all jus want one person even though we can't own them, to call mine...

speak to me...

stop me if u must, so i can correct me in which way i come... ive dealt with so many twisted fools n ive fallen outta luv... if u find me ahead of myself n ur truly not like the rest... its ok to speak up if its a place within me youd like to test... im jus one singled out man tired of the complications relations bestow upon me... i dont wanna give my all unless she fits in to my reality... time cannot tell u the tings i can n why i wont allow jus anyone in... n honestly, i dont know where youve been... im jus doin what i need to do to protect myself rom yet another failed attempt... as if hearts arent given as to theyre only lent... dont take me wrong for words are direct n to the point... theres more to me like there is u tryin to one day fill that fucked up lonely void... so if u must, if u think u have a side i aint neva seen... please, by all means, speak to me... i havent had anyone wanna get to know me as theyve all found themselves wantin what they could neva give... jus remember as im sure u already know, i jus wanna live...

the leave of absence...

friends of eras come n go... friends mean mothin as time moves slow... friends turn for their own selfish need. friends it one thing we can neva be... friends fall short of memories made... friends lose interest as faces fade... friends fall in luv n leave before promises are kept... friends aint around to feel how emotions are wept... friends tend to lie to stay in good graces... friends dont realize the lack of truths end fazes... friends come at different times all sayin th esame ol shit... friends are only around for a short time spent... friends claim to be the one n only... friends will eventually leave u feelin lonely... friends want that feel of somethin magic... friends cant resist the leave of absence... friends fulfill their own self luv... frineds dont know the meanin of like if it fell flush... friends tend to think expectations arent what hurts the feel of the mood... friends forget how to let friends be n live loose... friends lay flush until some else comes along... friends aint shit once pointin fingers have been done wrong... friends neva wanna go without u in their lives... yet friends, bail out every time...

the tender zone...

welcome to the tender zone...

where all ur hormones cum on the repeat of eva so close...

as nerves loosen to ya boundaries...

n legs shake as a finders fee...

 call it as u want...

here is where i get to diggin in to ya grub...

feelin the flow strip u of what youve known...

lettin go of all ur unused moans...

  a tko sort of speak as u find ya feel...

grip n wrap around the texture of somethin real...

from that gentle sooth to uncontrolled breathin...

in the mix of it be u ive been needin...

come on in to my world n get comfy...

as i show u a few things on how u neva thought youd want me...

makin time last so u can multiply ya own release...

i guarantee u my all as i left from my knees...

drippin from the way u dangle from my chin...

down on the rise of goin in..

this place in which youve stumbled upon isnt what u think...

bcuz its not jus about the way u leak...

i wanna feel u come undone...

grabbin at my head as u try to run...

its a satisyin technique thats open to the likings of u...

as ur able to free ur deepest truths...

either beggin for more or beggin for me to stop...

either way, to me, its fuckin hot...

watchin the way u retreat after talkin so much shit...

as i break u the fuck of with my tongue ticklin ya lips...

i jus wanna play with u til u cant get enough...

so youll cum again n wanna be touched...

felt n groped as natural intent over rides what weve been taught...

until the night gets away from us as we get lost...

with a lil one on one...

youll neva again feel alone...

as the advantage taken is a position in which we collide...

untamed n allowed to live life...

Grown is grown...

There isn't enough luv to go around if I don't like u... Like ur words given ur word I don't want like anything else from u... I can't feel u if u ain't on my level jus to keep it real... N I ain't tryin to relate to a thief lookin to change the way I feel... N even if u manage to understand it's ya actions that plays out behind my eyes... N there only way to get that look u seek upon the vanity on which u hide... I'm not new to this n I ain't on the whole jus gimme bullshit... There's jus not a depth reached within me willin to share with shallow minded lingerers attemptin any ol thing to get their fix... As the linings in my pockets do not have holes so there's no need to follow me around... If u listen you'll hear my patience come from my very own mouth... I ain't like anything you've ever known as so fuckin many claim to be different yet resemble the rest... Nah, I ain't willin to experience the selfishness shoved in to my chest... I don't have it in me as my time has past the motion of bein wasted... Even though u jus might be as delicious as bein tasted... No I'm not anything special to anyone but me... This I know for I've been to my the end n dangled on the edge of luv slippin from threads of my sleeve... I don't want none n I cannot give u what it is u think it is u wanna do... I set emotion aside n found the ability to see through thoughtless use... Let time fade n find yourself n stop pretendin ur not like everyone else... Maybe then I'll open up as it is ur face that is to be more than felt... Bcuz I ain't been shit to no one or even u thus this long so I know I ain't shit to fall in n be someone I ain't got it in me to be... I jus wanna be who it is I am without that silhouette in which u dream tryin to shadow over me... I'm already free n I'm unwillin to switch some shit up jus to go in reverse... Honesty could neva hurt unless u have to much self worth... To good for ur own good... As I'm doin exactly what I should... Lookin after the way I crack a smile n who is allowed to affect my stability... If u don't follow what it is i have to say maybe u truly haven't joined reality... There's a mindset that remains intact that mingles within the way we interact... N I'm jus speakin on the facts... Grown is grown as goofiness is a must to ease the fuck back... Now how ya like that.?.

crushin hard...

often more times than not the thought comes to me thinkin outside the box... what would i feel like to u beneath the way u reach for the likings of me as my fingers are crossed... am i wrong to have the interest of return jus to know if youd be willin to want the need of me under ur fingertips on the loose..? i seem to get  lost in the mental drift collectin what hasnt even happened as id luv to be the reason u open up to my silent truths... u dont know it but u seem to follow my daydreams from time to time as they lead me to u in my mind as if u take me for a ride... somehow ur presence is felt as if it were real enough to touch me as u guide my direction in life... as quiet as its kept i dont let it be known as youll prolly neva know i have this thing for u that keeps comin back around as u cross my endless mind...  n i wish i could release the energy u bring up from within that goes unsettled with the vibe as i let it pass through the cracks of my eyes openin themselves to the way i hade..

Judge not...

Knowing ones truths isn't a reason to judge... But to realize they've been where u haven't even imagined in their plunge. U wouldn't understand n prolly couldn't handle it any better due to the circumstances that exist... Minding their own beeswax yet u call them damaged...There's some that have strength beyond ur own understanding... Proving a point to self for u do not matter to their handlings. U have no clue n wouldn't know of the real struggles that they accept as their come up... Unaffected by the dribble off ya judgemental lips talking shit as they're a better human chanting here battta batta batta swing a batta contemplating th angle of ur own luv...

word...

Ur word is ur tone in which way u move... Flip it around n feel its froove... If u give it away n ur foot lifts from its set stomped to hold it down... Ur word ain't shit as when it falls from ur own filthy mouth ... A lil sum sum for ya mind to untangle any confusion this worlds taught u... For u havent a tongue worth tastin its ooz..  It's some old school shit u can't do anything with but accept... Bcuz it's some real shit as quietly as its kept...

i win...

at the top lookin down from luv i watched the ground rush up on me til it was too fuckin close... bouncin for yrs on the dribble of times life tryin orchestrate the addiction of emotions dose... found alleyways comfort a place to sleep once materials lost their shallow feel in my depths taken by force... felt a metaphorical foot stand on financial debates on how to come back up thrown into the gutter by the courts... thinkin in the middle of the mix of a way to rise to the condition of societies spoiled needs so the struggle would release me as i neva gave up... even looked in eyes i knew wasnt a friend a few times as it was to pass time peepin on the nudity set free to feel me full of lusts... as i spent more time workin jus to eat n snuggle a pillow in hotel rooms all due to i trusted passion that turned away with my mind as i gave chase... runnin out of real estate in my heart i went under the flow of such things pointin fingers callin names.. back then i figured it be worth the moment that took to fuckin long to stand back up without a way to go home... as the funny thing with that is it moved the whole foundation that resided somewhere i havent a clue to the longitude n latitude roamin alone... i felt my reality change on the switch of pain to the experiment that attempted to live agian... found i was jus tryin to return as self with a new twist which was inevitable as to who i was as a man... as i was resurrected the day my ties ran out n i nneded no one to pretend i had any meanin in their life... i stopped where i stood as i knew i found where it is i belonged n it was nice...  diddly dallyin with the flip of words from the tongue documentin the path yrs took to correct my mindset that fell to harsh lines frakin the feel of frustration misbehavin... back when luv didnt exist within peekin... out from the inner makings of what i allowed to come forth n be as at the time there was no escapin... n as i sit n tap on the truths i know it was me that defeated self as well as gained control of better things to come as currency was freed to cash in... i win.

Useless drift...

Dabbling in the depths as it comes around about the time of nights skies darkening n dropping drips of truths behind doors that lock in the silence of the mind speaking without sound... Ssh, there's a reason for the silence that's buried the feel of solo flowing comin to life behind the scenes unseen by the naked eyes bouncing to the hearts thumping pound... It's not that place in time one wills to be listening to the answers of the wrong questions that become the front line of protection of self lost in a room alone... Thinking, where that comfort went as it drifted into a memory stalled out in a waltz that went out for a stroll never to return as the expression of touch misplaced it's home... Wonders cross reference with the past to attempt the understanding that shit happens as time plays out with no warning of edging thoughts into a corners grip... As a smile cracks the face to a more complex vocabulary squeezing of ripples in between words that goes a lil something like fuck it... Lips can't kiss what's missed as there's no purpose to lay in a motionless snag hung up on what claimed to be luv... Promising exactly what the last one found before it became a ghost turning on passions movement jus wanting to live n let live as self comin out to play going numb jus gave up... So back to the confusion that rambles it's babble deep into the thickness of the long spent aches that wind it's way out of meaning absolutely nothing at all... Knowing there isn't a thing to gain wanting what didn't wanna stay as morning creeps in to remind the notion of worth that it's useless to contest the game so raw...

Without a her...

This pillow jus ain't workin tonight... Miss the presence of a woman at this point in my life... Only if lips could kiss... Damn it... Sometimes a fella jus wants to cuddle... Soft n subtle... Kinda like jus wrap someone up n feel em... The touch of it has my mind on the run... Jus gettin close enough to go mmm... Hmm. N find a convo worth talkin n lay down... Listening to the tone of their voices sound... The comfort of it is the shit... My mind for some reason is chasin it... Twisted n intertwined... I guess it's jus one of those nights... I can see me not getting any sleep... Thinking about hearing someone breathe... The way a body would snuggle up n all... Flush n rotating as a head lands on my chests pulse... In a moment to ease back n relax... I could go for a lil of that...

Thirst isn't interest...

ur really pretty... my eyes tend to get stuck on whats beneath ur beauty... every time i look i catch myself wantin to know a lil more... but i dont wanna give the wrong impression bcuz i know ur heart isnt on tour... as my eyes follow the shape of ur face... my hands have thoughts of their own takin to ur shape... yet were jus friends that have some kinda intent... i can only see u from a distance... even though time may get away from me watchin what u post... theres a hidden truth u jus dont know...

time...

time on the roll tells me to pick it up... that my feet drag spinnin on the pavements touch...

out to get mine til life unfolds... theres no time left to be controlled...

life isnt waitin on me to get it together... n ive tried a few different luvrs...

none exceeded past there own selfish ways... so i get at it alone unwillin to behave...

as the clock spins me a tune the clicks... i look forward to my moment to simply live...

all anyone eva wants to do is change me... n theres nothin wrong with the way i dream...

bcuz thats where my thoughts havent been able to escape... silence stole my name...

n its ok due to i still have a chance to get mine... as life tells me i gotta claim my unbound time...

Jus to know of it...

Lustful lips want to know what luv is...
To release the approach of thought of what it is that completes whats been missed...
Intentions are willin to figure a way to find the expectations puttin in as the return gives...
For the life lived without its feel is jus another moment of an untwisted kiss...
One that goes with a tongue to express what comes from the depths it touches in the way it fits...
Emotion is empty goin on alone as the mirror knows theres no true chuckle in the ribs...
Jus words standin still can neva accompany free wills ability to be anything less than fibs...
As conversations with self always ends on a positive note lost in a silent wish...
Calmin the nerve yet claimin the feel to do more than want of hers n his...
There's somethin in the way only passion can do more than open up to speakin from the jibs...
It's an art to feel the connection come to life beneath the caress of fingertips...
As the nerves rush with the shiver of what's real callin dibs...
There's no end to the limits of the level of pleasure nor wits...
The unknown wants to be known as somethin other than a lonely trip...
An inquirin mind such as a solo thought tryin to relate jus needs to be held by a grip...
Jus to hang out n sit for a lil bit without all the useless bs...

That booty...

On the land of the squeeze... That azz without contact is jus a tease... Hangin around ur backside temptin a feel... Jus to see if the connection is real... That booty u have as round as it is... I'd do more than kiss it with the warmth of my lips... I like the looks of ur butt for the way it shakes... For the bounce generates n the clappin it creates... That tush that follows u everywhere u go gets to me... To see it up close n personal I'd drop to my knees... Jus to poke it til it recognizes me... To grip a handful of ur luscious hips I'd forget how to breathe... Watchin ur thumper as u walk truly excites me in a way I can't shut up... As the curve of it makes me wanna fall in luv... From left to right it goes up n down workin together for the perfect visual effect... N I don't think u understand how ur rear beauty makes me erect... It's like it paralyzes all judgement when it catches my eyes chasin it in motion... Unable to look away with pure devotion... That thing ur packin u have behind u is my fixation jus so u know... As comin up from behind u is where u can find me movin slow... Reachin for its smooth irresistible texture to bare itself to me... Stripped of clothing n set free to be enjoyed by need... I lika ur rumper n the way it appears to fight itself within ur pants... N yeah I know there's more to u, but daaaaamn.!.

It's u....

When the mornings on the rise, it's u I wanna see as I open my eyes... In it natural state happiness coexists with who it is I am... As a friend a luv'r n ur biggest fan... It's u I wanna feel as night comes back around to lay with me... To feel the comfort of knowin it's u so close u can damn near touch my dreams... As the lights fade away from sight n the day brings once again life... Awakenin to u eases my mind... From soon up to the horizon sittin pretty with time... It's u in a moment I wanna get lost with doin what we do... Jus me n u...

Dip game...

If u can't dance u can't fuck... Truth of the matter is is u ain't got no rhythm as that bouncin up n down jus ain't no fun... Wheres the rotation in ya hips as u grind on ya fix... U can't ride if ur jus sittin on the dick... Ur gonna havta be tighter than a virgin that's neva popped out a kid... Yeah I'm sayin it bcuz men have been bashed since idk when... Whatcha workin with on a sexual note that'll turn our toes down... Do ya got any twist in the way u slip on a chub as I'm about to speak on ya mouth... As the suckin isn't literally blowin yet the movement of the feel should interest u... How u gonna dip into givin some head if ya jaws can't take their time n please us as pleasure of havin a dick u can tame n use... It's not whorish to take a moment to express ur enjoyment as the majority of females are jus lame... Ooooh, yeah, right there, yet are defeated mentally in the oral exchange... Talkin out the side of y'all's necks when u do look good with a hard cock in ya mouth... Yeah, the shit turns men on as I ain't got a prob sayin it out loud... It ain't like we wanna share ya as we'd like to keep u to ourselves... But u gotta add to the package u claim is in our lives to help... To comfort as we don't havta look any further with some lame azz sex... So how's ya hips n ya tongue move to the feel if we put u to the test... Nah, we ain't the only ones standin silently as the firing squad takes aim... It's been long over due callin out the impact of names... Foul mouthed n filthy isn't for everyone n if it ain't ur thing u truly ain't workin with shit... Grab a grip... There's times the switch flips from the norm n caters to fantasies that come to life... N I ain't the type to shy away from what needs to be said so I can enjoy my time... Does ya crave make u wanna act upon a real woman's gush... Not jus gettin urs but puttin to use the skill of handlin some wood... We don't wanna fuck y'all as u lay there n moan ya way through another soft porn scene... It's more than jus fuckin as knees need to hold the weight of actions becomin more than a dream... So how is it u like to get down... Show ur will in motions shuttin the mute up without a sound...

what if i was with it?

what if i wanted to get close but couldnt? what if it wasnt anyone other than me sayin i shouldnt? lets say i jus needed to get me together but not in an emotional way. would u be patient to find what it is ur interest has taken in me n wait? i need a friend who can relate... shit fell apart n im tryin to come back before i can show my face... that is the way i wanna with that look in my eyes. so what if i wanna, yet found myself correctin my life? what if i was in the process of holdin out for a better cause...  believin i have more to offer than jus who i am to help out in lifes moment to pause. what if i grew up n found a way to help me for once after reality changed? total loss if u must know as if it took too long for it to rearrange. what if i had interest as a friend for a bit n jus walk in my own lane without any complications? what if it isnt i that needs a demonstration? what if im ready on an emotional n physical level as im tightenin up my end of things so i know i got me? bcuz if u cannot relate to that, please, leave me be!

u signed...

i aint gonna entertain the fact that luv was the one thing i had given u... n i think its fair to say its long past the moment of tellin the truth...  its funny how the heart heals bcuz i thought id neva see the day i knew i was better off without u rippin me apart... u see i left u where u signed papers as if u were signin the makings of ur own art... things change n time exceeds comforts when it finds itself wastin away... n in ur life i hadnt a chance as u knew there was no reason to stay... as its come to be a thing of the past n ill neva see ur face as i awakin somewhere else... as fine as i am with that i jus wanna add u are no longer felt... u lost me the day the dotted line set me free from a contract i wouldnt withstand... willingly u wrote ur name to show me the filin was as real as goin separate ways... n now that im free i cannot recall why it is i hung around waitin on u to come back to me n stand face to face... ur a luv that was once missed... one that was enjoyed in ways emotion got pissed... so do ur thing as ill neva complain over findin where it is i belong... as this is the last of my truths that found thier way after so long... yrs with u taught me how to be a man... as goin without u showed me who it is i am... lookin for a place i can call home where a woman gets it in when the time comes to be... somethin as real as u claimed it was u n me... lies dont make it as they give in to freeing a state of mind... u were a good time while it lasted as i end this by sayin, goodbye...

that gray area...

it was luv...

no matter how much u dont wanna admit it...

so gettin mad at yourself is ur own fault...

u felt that shit...

yes, it was good...

then it fell away from the feel...

n u excuse yourself from the truth...

talkin like it was real...

admit it...

u say it wasnt true...

yet, u tasted their name upon ur lips...

u hide for u got hurt...

spittin the downplay from ur jibs...

u dont wanna let em have ur best...

washin ur mits...

ignorin the fact that the passion that jus gave out...

as ur givin up come from ur self empowered mouth...

like it wasnt worth it when u had it...

n we both know that was BULLSHIT...

 u remember tryin to hold on to the way it ripped...

how the tare opened u further than u wanted to be exposed...

retaliatin with it wasnt meant to be...

when the fact of the matter is nothin ever was, is, or will...

u know the reason u dont wanna get close...

afraid n not bcuz u aint feelin it...

u fear ur gonna havta let go the same way u did before...

with someone reachin in n releasin what theyve find...

the denial that awaits of them takin part in ur life...

collect ur mind...

reason with what spews from within...

fakin the front so others dont look at u as if ur weak...

or is it self u try to fool knowin someone got in...

n as it didnt work out u refused to be honest as healin was more imprtant than needs...

as the want of them realized what u could neva say...

n that leaves one question that asks if u didnt luv em, who did u luv...

dont fake it to make it when weve all been there...

fallin to our knees  away from the way they feel to us...

it was what it was...

in its moment to enjoy like, damn.!.

let it go down in ur past that u were capable of more than they jus aint shit...

u wasnt sayin that when they was in ur hands...

a different fulfillment...

Idk why we can't jus be friends n take care of each other... Gone to the need of wants down upon knees as luv'rs... I don't get why it hasta be more than that... Seems everyone siders from havin to be judged like good bad, worth it n trash... All over sexuality bcuz dinner love a lil different bein ok with livin alone... Havin someone to fulfill the mood when one gets in their zone... Why can't relations be at a distance as we do what it is we do... Why does the attachment of ownership have be a factor with emotions pushin on use... Constantly tuggin on tryin to change the way someone is jus wantin to be... For the life of me, I don't understand the concept on goin on n pretendin to be free... Where u goin, watcha doin..? Questionin everything thinking rights have been signed over as thought wonder wtf is goin on... Is there a need to invade or restrict free will..? Put in a situation where compromise fails expectations as feelings are hurt due to b the way the head tilts... Home is the mental state of mind bcuz friends aren't established prior to openin up... N no one wants to give shit til an other knows that raw temptation has the time needed to know there's a possibility to get at luv... Am I not felt even as u say the same shit but can't yourself put in the work to read back n let things be... If u wanna stand alone without a go to that's on u as u miss out on the end result unseen. . Always caught up in a dream as the same ol shit society teaches jus ain't for me... I can't get down with givin my heart away to have it throw away as a response to gimme gimme gimme... Connection are felt yet earned one face value losses its touch... What's the fuckin rush..? Chill n give in n enjoy somethin in return... Or is the next one u so call claim gonna be ur last u hold so tight..? There's another way if u don't mind livin ur life the way u choose n still be able to feel a body at night... Gettin together when a moment comes to takin care of the release point... Jus to fulfill the passionate side from time to time in between the void... As it's alive n aloud to crave to keep the will alive itself... But I bet u didn't think of it that way as ur more worried about yourself... I wanna do me with someone I can count on as I have no ties... U tell me what's wrong with livin that type of life.!.

wakey wakey..

the stealin of minds due to currencies slide of hand has even u thinkin im beneath the level of worth that i truly am... but hey. who am i to someone like u but a labeled name for the trackin by legal terms n condition unwillin to see i am a real in the flesh n standin man... whats ur business with who it is u think i am upholdin a title given at birth..? damn, is the whole fuckin world blinded by the washin of minds tappin out of reality to an easier way to feel the sellin of natural intent to the system as the complainin will neva end selfs true worth... confused n lookin a peep at me on the outside spittin truths for the awakenin to call me out as the crazy one bcuz i know somethin they dont... hold up, how am i wrong for doin humanity a favor so life can be restored as the estate of the mind isnt somethin that can be owned by the company kept as financial backin is sold... the blur of words are flipped with a tongue of legalies that rearrange the way we think by speakin in another language livin parallel with the simultaneous guidlines of difference in meanings... n yet no one can hear me knowin theres somethin wrong as yall are unable to pinpoint the precise move of the stillness weve become under hates finger placed in our minds n hearts by bein catagorized by a higher so call class bcuz theyve been given the power to make the rules upon us earthlings... yeah im out here in an outter body experience trippin on my own tongue n fallin in deaf ears unprepared to hear the issues in which weve been taught that conflict with the way shit really is... im not wrong for diggin in for a better way n sharin what ive learned for u to enjoy a lil more of ur time easin the fuck back unlike the placement of wealth which is in fact misplaced in the happiness of the ticklin ribs...

am i able to be me..?

am i too far gone to come back restrained..?
to act like the rest who havent crossed the fire in the heart is to blame...
on the other side there is no returnin the same as to keep what has been to continue...
gainin a respect of like over luv comes in to play comin from within u...
well past the levelin of the mind...
am i buried within my own losin valuable time..?
turnin the shoulders interest its not everyone elses fault...
fightin of the feel of that tender emotion as if i remember its claws...
diggin in isnt the only way out of the box in which ive become...
am i done or am i jus at bay waitin to go home..?
i can tell if i resent luv or if im jus flat out scared...
n i feel me afraid to admit that the one i had did me in n lit my flares...
thrown warnin signs ave chased away a few good ones peekin in on me...
thinkin they wanted a piece of my time jus to breathe...
am i lyin to myself due to what ive allowed..?
have i fallen in luv with bein lonely somehow..?
knowin i miss the way an other fits my touches feel...
am i ready n standin at the edge of the bittersweet healed..?
im startin to wonder what it is i can do to change...
tell me, have i flipped my wig as life got rearranged..?
im out here driftin by myself n jus need a friend to guide me back...
am i lost somewhere where u might not find me as i face the facts..?

a lil question...

hey, can i ask u somthin thatll only take a moment to say...

i was jus wonderin if u could be what ive been missin all this time..?

that feel of bein wanted over all others here tryin find our way...

as the comfort of luv is able to rely on more than words that tend to lie...

i jus dont wanna mess around n lose another moment ill havta forget...

iv had a couple of those n that i wish i didnt havta mention...

are u the type to relate to who i am as i do u if it were u i get with..?

ive been wonderin who it is to be that reasons with me with a verbal lynchin...

n id like to know if i opened up n gave in if youd be who id need u to be...

im at risk of losin the feel of what comes from like if things dont go well...

the heart is relyin on my mental gatherings of who i am to see...

standin before me tellin me things they cannot sell...

so, i gotta ask a lil question of what it is youd want from who it is u think i am..?

im jus one person lookin to find someone willin to keep it real...

wantin to walk somewhere on the other side of what ive known hand in hand...

n i dont know if ur gonna let go or fall in luv with the way i feel...

i aint nothin more than who i awaken to as life must go on...

n it gets lonely at times so could u tell me now how i fit in to ur world..?

id luv to know prior to makin a fool of myself as the memory is torn...

i dont want nothin but some time to enjoy u sittin still long enough to become plural...

back from my past...

it feels like im finally wakin up into whats left of my life...

like life went somewhere as i was jus a walkin around through time...

its been a long time comin to get me back from where i went...

seems my heart couldnt accept shit happens n needed to know the emotion was spent...

gone as in the past tense i feel like im comin back to life...

n walkin out of the haze in which ive gotten stuck i changed my own mind...

i went in neva to come back unless words could find comfort in the way they vent...

n ive returned to find me standin alone lookin at myself as if ive pushed out luvs dents...

sad one had to fall to understand relations n the reasons they hide...

as im jus now comin to terms with who it is i am able to set aside my pride...

n it was all due to the shameless trust given in to the mirrors edge that was lent...

stuck in a picture of the truth of vanity yet not of truths intent...

ive come back bcuz im ready to pick it up with what im yet to find...

strong enough to resist the feel of old friends so i can live a lil before i die...

for the brutal realization of where i was somehow lost was a place so much different...

it held me til i was ready to move on from what i wanted over needin as bent...

in between the lines...

they aint gonna wait... ur either with it when they are or ur gettin left jus the same... findin worth is less than givin em what they want... n it seems everyones a lookin but the feelin aint what they can handle when it comes to luv.... if u aint ready as they walk on by they dont have a moment to waste... kinda funny how needin a minute could say so much as the time comes to stand face to face... yet, that selfishness wants more than needs can wait on as the moment rises to have a chance... as the watchin of wtf eva walks on by as if they cant ease up... their loneliness craves the feel of relations that jus wont let up... n since u aint for the leap bcuz u know what comes of the dive sinkin to the bottom without knowin the facts of like that can wind up on the other end of done... ride when theyre willin to get it in or get sidestepped as they think ur a waste... movin on to the next one as u wait on a more patient kinda mate... witness to an others now or neva not knowin what could come of what hasnt a moment to be found... whisperin to self, jus let em go for they aint about to fill the void as theyre missin the point of motion without sound... consumed by the feel over a friendship they dont skip a beat on to the next best thing like u aint shit... like ur jus another disappointment that didint feed into the rush of lips... as the passerbys feel the loss interest in the common grounds of everything happens when it needs be...  livin in a emotional dream the mental angle is relentless of the inevitable crash thats hard as fuck to leave... feelin steps vibe with the feet on the gettin to who will drop their guard n feel em before actions can give what there is to be known... real shit isnt taken what u can get but be shown... as that gimme gimme jus aint appealin to even the naked eye for its a lust at first sight... let em go n jus keep skippin rocks in between the lines...

on our way to the finally...

Tell me how it's supposed to end... N lets work it backwards from there... I'd rather walk away from the pain n the loneliness u say will neva come... Into the reverse angle can we please move until we know not of each other bared... In the opposin hate to the return of us before we even met... I don't wanna know the other side of u that tends to save who..? Raw n uncut as our friendship is overturned... Can we not go as far as to feel good about the abuse..? To live prior to the retreat of emotions still intact... Too far gone is the state of the enemy unwillin to believe... For there's a time before we cannot see eye to eye that promises the empty lies in a moment yet to take place... Must we find ourselves lost in words no longer in sync..? In the now, within this place in which we've found of comforts needs... Why do we hafta drag out the twist of such remains..? Who's to say we'd make it to the other side of better reason without resentments best..? to live is to luv as like holds its ground to stay sane... There's no passion fulfillin enough past the breakin of names... Hope has no room in the unknown actions of the brutal misfortune we await... Released into phrases spit into the face... It's not u i wanna blame for everything goin astray... So allow the capture of me to go free as expections will ruin the mood... Feel me until we've come to like the motion of knowin to simple facts... Life doesn't allow anything less than it will all come to close... I'm more satisfied with jus bein who we are as days ain't spent so fast... Can we jus let things be n walk from the final finally standin free.. For the finish line hurts too much to cross alone... Paths part failin the connection felt beyond the hearts attempt to tame the beast... I've been in other races where the finalization rapes the memory that's wound up fallin short of home...

Only in my dreams...

I seen her face again last night as I was lost in a dream... I swear I could feel it as my hands gently eased her head upward to look at me... N as I stared in hee eyes it didn't feel as if I was sayin goodbye... We were still in our moment as our lips met passin time... N in these illusions of us that pop up uncontrolled... Sneakin up on me at my most vulnerable moments as life is put on hold... With every single time I lose another part of my luv for her that's been reawakened... All I wanna do is forget about an emotion forsaken... I'm haunted by what's left that doesn't exist until I'm gone behind my closed eyes... I guess that's the one place I cannot hide behind the lies... On the other side of where I awaken as I come back here... Without her n better off for the luv is gone as it took some years n flowed away with the tears... It's not the person but the feel of emotion I find myself leanin in to... Everytime she sneaks up on my passed out clinging to my truce... I went deep like I do every night as I fade... N all I want her to do is leave me be with this game... Even though I know it's not her but my own mind rotatin old thoughts... Deep into the darkness as I lay still n snuggled to her in a pause... Unwillingly my consciousness hands over control to my subconscious jus wantin someone to be real... N all it's known is a friend I thought I had to feel... As now I fight away her memory to get back to me... So someone who truly wants to find me can enjoy me in more than my dreams... I believe I need to open back up so my time isn't wasted on thinkin of why she still walks through my head... As she's quickly met... Attemptin to stroll at will through my saloon like doors... Stompin on my insides til my heart luvs me no more... There's nothin left to give to entertain the presence of her stuck in my mind with the passion we once shared that no longer exists... As with true intent I get it n no longer give a shit... I don't wanna sleep if she's there to bother my mood... Yet I have no one that's stepped up to who gives a hoot...

(i wasnt gonna post this...)

(i wasnt gonna post this...)
but,
i found the words!!!
lets talk about luv...
how many ways do i need to say it..? in how many others do i need to confide..? how may different tones does it take..? jus how can i get what i put in to life..? has its been long enough as im still standin... has the last blow been taken..? it hasta be gettin close..? who has the need to end the fadin... jus wantin someone around... as jus anyone jus wont do... jus so u know im tired of this shit... jus in case u missed me as u walked on by... who in the fuck made these rules..? who said this is the way it must be..? who, bcuz id like to know... who is it thats lookin for me to change the way they breathe...time aint gettin to be but a bit outta hand... dont u think its about that time to open up.? whats life mean to time to u without that one friend i jus might be..? whens it my turn to fall in luv..? as luv looks me back the way i want its touch... i wanna know what luv feels like... as luv combines with me bein liked... luv...does it havta wait so fuckin long..? does it havta be this way..? does it feel like a waste to live alone..? does pride own the moment that got away..? wants n needs hope n drain themselves everyday... the need wants the emotional help... wants need to live... who is it that wants the need of me as i too am felt..? stripped i am ... ive been stripped by a thought to cuss... n i jus wanna watch u until youve been stripped... as in stripped from what only resembled luv... hi... hi... hi... high... im tickin n i cant feel a thing... are u tickin..? ticklin a tickin in between u n me... passion is passin the tickin that ur too busy pickin... why cant we jus be..? theres no reason why we cant get along... i could be ur reason of why... as youd be why i believe with u i cant go wrong... if ur out there... that is if u exist... jus think of the what if... if we met to release words from the lips... i thought u were someone else... someone thought they could pretend to be u.. its jus a thought... a thought of me n u...

deep in to roots...

It's in the way they whisper goodnight into ur ear... The comfort it gives never to be feared... Feelin em scoot back atcha as u wrap em up... Ya feel em as u fall deeper in luv... As each night tends to never get old... Even when age walks along time with a heart of gold... It's how their tones touches the silence broken to speak up... Turnin over to face u bcuz it's u they trust... Openin their emotion to u in moments as eyes become mirrors... Held in ya arms jus wantin em near... Layin quietly to hear em breathe... Knowin life wouldn't be the same if they were left in ya dreams... As the movement in the middle of the night clings to em to know they're there... Their presence is jus enough to make ya care... To feel somethin other than self comin to life... It's how the bring a better state of mind... As the friendship snuggles to the absence of light tryin to survive... U seem to do jus about anything as they're welcomed inside... Deep into the roots of relations that has no shame... For jus bein with em as motion rests is the end to a perfect day...

bottom up...

hey... ssh... u wanna play a game..? one where we dont forget one an others face... i can show u this trick i realized i could do some time ago... its gonna take some time for i like to start off slow... imagine how good i have gotten at it since i first began... as man n woman... hey... psst... lemme see if i can get u to... mmm... lean... yeah, would u like to have a lil fun n jus take a ride..? open up the mind n allow what it is u hide... interactin right here right now as i dabble back n forth in bewtween reality, fantasies n those empty daydreams... maybe take these whispers n set them free..? i jus wanna show u me... n listen for a response as our voices bounce off the walls ... refusin to tap out for givin in is goin in raw... relations may find a comfort in bein turned the fuck on...somethin so much different than the norm... it can go deeper than youve felt as of yet... doin a lil thing as youll get my best... interest startin at the bottom to find the top lookin down locked eye to eye... gettin lost somewhere in the middle of sighs... sucked in by the tongue that puckers for the kiss to be licked... n yea, imma taste ur lips... u see, i have this thing i like to do... jus keepin it real as i dig into u... rollin on the flip to give u what it was u didnt know have been needin... somethin that u might have only thought of as misleadin... as all i can tell u is that it will be more than worth ur time... jus easin back with me breakin away from life... findin where the night may lead as curiousities rise... as it be up u to go as far as youd like... yet, jus remember if ur goin the distance im all in... comin down ur lane like a wreckin ball let loose to vent... i have a nice lil mixture set aside jus for u... hey, u..!

its on my mind...

I get to thinkin about goin home.... Somewhere the key I hold towns the tumbler so I can see someone I truly know... It crosses mind the closer I get to where it is I wind up... Flush n untamed jus goin home to luv... The thought alone insists I listen if the possibility exists... N I wanna feel her against my lips... My sanctuary of peace in mind... Like jus bein witness to a face awakens the blind... As body parts find comfort in touch... As that's between us fallin past luv... I sometimes find myself whoever mentally... Wondering what it would be like to live a different reality... As one man somehow lost as I fell through the cracks... I wanna go home where my 100 is intact...

the perfect annihilation...

comin down from that self righteous cloud... denounced by the empowerment given to me by no one other than thoughts that found thy mouth... becomin better in a state of mind to rid away those who cant see me torn apart by lies... as i descend back to a lower line of sight no longer lookin down on relations as a high... i learned a few things floatin around as if i somehow rose above the twisted mentality that stings... findin people are in their own zone it they bring the takin of deliberations ring... comin in n gettin outta the way sent me flyin as here i jus couldnt stay... i had to bye bye for a lil bit n resurrect luv for hate got stuck on my face... as i sailed with the wind takin me to a place ive neva been... seems i tripped n fell into my own head as emotion fled from myself sinkin in... correctin the flaws that factored stability on my knees where i captured me lost... i had forgetten who in the fuck it is i was as it did me some good to soar til i was safe... back today to talk of a so called luv that wasnt given both ways... i luvd me as i also luvd someone else more than my own needs... not carin if the resentment sounded as if it wanted to be mean... like a bird fingers rose to the occasion with much deliberation... checked in to the mirror as i had to guide me on my way back from a perfect annihilation... as coocoo as brains liftin off to get the fuck away... the moisture dropped n beat me to the ground as i can honestly say im here to stay... returned as the aftermath version that played the game n neva collected the fame... ive been there n back n ive claimed my sanity playin in the rain... i am real n in the flesh more than i have eva been... grown from a boy i find myself in a league of men...

Lmk, I got shit to do...

When's time gonna give u a heart..? Or give u urs back, healed n scraped from the char... As that persona ur attached to rests in peace... I'm jus askin bcuz interest is truly about to leave... Do u know situations vary as moments more than likely go to waste..? Are u in the mood to own ur life n have somethin u can't help but to express upon ur face..? When's ur past gonna be over..? When can a real mutha fucka actually become the feel u crave as more than any other..? Tell me what it is that u bob n weave behind... What'll it take to see the pullin down of ur guard with a reason of why... Do u ever think it could somehow be good again..? Standin as a real woman intact with the interaction of ur man... I trip on the thought myself believe it or not... I fell also, from the very tipsy of the highest tops... When do u think ur gonna be who u are n live with the likings of luv..?  Lmk so I know when to come back n dabble in life n such... That is if I ain't doin shit as sooner or later you'll grow the fuck back up... Yet, we can keep that on the hush... As u convince yourself with the lies u tell yourself comparin everyone to one person that took u for a fuckin ride as ur the one who got lost... I could send my intentions off on a search party but unless ur ready it'll be nothin more than a loss... N I can't afford to waste any more time on jus anyone jus passin time... Why do I believe it to be u can't remember the feel of a best friends shine..? Who changed n who forgot who they were before the now of lookin me in the eyes... U ain't where I've been as I could neva go back in time... When's enough enough for ur emotion will seclude u from ever bein truly happy at this rate... Bcuz I feel its u ur afraid of as the cost of ur own isn't worth the gain... Tell me to go fuck myself bcuz u live by dudes jus ain't shit if u must... Jus lmk when ur done blowin off the dust... Hatin men when it was ur fault for the choices you've made in ur own past... Ol cob web wearin hag... 

Lmao...

Weekend getaway...

Phones off... N two days later, come back from beyond the need spun n twirled... Jus get lost somewhere else... With no contact with the outside world... Jus u n the pleasure of me... With complete attention left the fuck alone as we breathe... Elsewhere where no one can find us collidin... Mixin sweet n layin around jus a talkin about flyin... Jus a couple of days in the hidin... Imagine droppin the weight n bein defiant... Lettin loose... With helpin hands that escape time as we move...

Thanks...

Between the cracks I fell through time... Drifted away with luv n woke up tryin to gather my mind... The things I've learned from the depths that failed me... They actually set me free... I found luv at the bottom n had to walk away... As I turned around n willingly said goodbye not a moment to late... Within the selfish purpose I went in hard n found myself pullin out afraid to be touched... Gatherin the purity of luv... Dodgin affection n healin behind the truth of bein in luv jus to have somethin to do... Through it I had a friend that no longer walks with the flow that left me confused... There was a truce.. There was no use... As minds parted they drifted in two different directions n that's real... Avoidin emotion for mine lost the feel... There was simply not another use... Self woke up n said no... It's through... Lettin the memories go... Comin back to life on the other side where the masks pretend we don't know one an other... Truth be told... It was no more than a moment as another luv'r... Oh, I was done zoning out talkin to the walls that carried my voice back to me... Bad habits went skippidy doo with a bye bye... They cleaned me out as maturity moved in... Thanks, I win!!!

back n forth...

how far u gonna dig if i break out the shovels... are u gonna use my physical ability to carry ur weight..? come at me level... headed straight for my heart... or have i mistakin u for as jus a pretty face... claimin u own no scars... if we begin to remove the foundation to improve n build... can u go as far as free will..? u want the same as id havta do my part... puttin food on the table to eat today... lets speak n be heard as the near isnt so far... gone on the seperation kickin rubbles... are u ready to remove ur face..? n lemme see who it is goin back n forth behind the mumbles...

shovels weight level heart face scars build
will part today far rubbles face mumbles

rhymed it in n away from the middle with the same sounds

Stoned carved steal...

Stories told in different tones as versions conflict with the truth of wicked tongues...  Yeah, I know the feelin of that awful hurt after endurin the ability of showin worth... Revived pain replaces the resentment until the twisted emotion heals as invisible scars have no dimensions... Damn heart can't help but to feel in between preventions as stoned carved steal fails to mention... The mind switches triggers as time gives to patience findin some kinda way to go figure... Only the stubborn dies alone fightin off every possibility of goin home... As hope of self past the makings of the fixin somehow comes to terms as for once to jus fuckin listen for some help... The torture seeked is in the type we cling to connected to a sexual feel gettin lost in the departin that easily leaks... As life will be what is allowed drawn up for the memories reel to be displayed in flaws...

Who's done..?

Not everyone has a reason to smile... Not everyone feels the hype behind the lies that stay in style... Not everyone wakes to life as their back is safe through night... Not everyone has a home to reside... Some jus want a better way that isn't so painful... Some jus wanna be able to rest in peace before the pieces they've become insanely difficult... Some jus give it their all n can't find a break... N some jus find it irrelevant to pretend that luv isn't selfish which makes it fake... There's people who gave given time a moment to find them... There's people who can't stand the torture of always feel the exhaustion of bein spent... There's people who wind up lost lookin for a way to somehow gain a home... As there's people who don't trust shit or anyone as they gradually fall alone... Yet I'm not everyone... I'm personally nowhere near done...

Lets do it...

Upon my chest is where u can lay ur head... There's things in life that jus can't be said... Help me find the words that feel the need to live... Then lemme taste them restin on the texture of ur lips... Comin together as one within the emotion in which we hide... I don't think u know what it is I'd do to have u in my life... Lay with me as the beat of our hearts chase the mood... Feel me the way I jus need to rip loose... I'm talkin about the whole shebang for us to share... I believe I need u like I need thin air... So stop dreamin n see me standin in ur way... I'm right here so u can see my face... I wanna be the one u allow behind ur walls as I dig in... Goin deeper than like could ever reside in the curve of ur grin.... I'm jus me tryin to look out after more than my selfish ways... Listen to my truths cling to the notion of wantin u to stay... I mean u no harm as it's who u are I'd luv to see come to life... Before u there's nowhere I can possibly hide... I'm out in the open jus wantin to feel u lean into me... As passion breaks free from the chains that let leave us be... Let's do it like we know what the we're doin... Bcuz I'm tired of wonderin where in the fuck I'm goin...

Open ur eyes...

Fuck yeah I wanna feel the way u open up... With that raw rare unique kinda luv... The type of shit that can't let go as it begs for more... As guards fall like clothes upon the naked floor... I want it to be u as my heart gains control... As true emotion gathers self as time unfolds... U damn well know I'd luv to say ur fuckin name... Day in n day out, in so many ways... Bringin out what's been beneath the surface in which I tell no one else... Confidin in u as my desires only help... As best friends n luv'rs on another level of becomin one under the covers... In me u haven't a reason to entertain any other wonder... I'm dead set on givin in a way that will blow ur fuckin mind... Jus unzip yourself as the feelin is felt of u n I playin with the definition of a lil word like grind... Bcuz I hear u want that never endin crave to come to life as u hold it in ur own two hands... Open ur eyes as ur arms are the witness of a real fuckin man... For I stand alone as a solo act waitin for what appears to be my turn... Gimme the chance to show u the meanin of worth... With one purpose m that is to treat u as I would want to be treated... As it's u in my situation ever so needed... Catchin a vibe of pure intent holdin u close... Yeah it's u that I believe is one in same as a place that I'd luv to call home...

Are we friends..?

When times get rough I need u to help me hold on... Bcuz without u this friendship can be no more... If n when shit seems to be at a total loss... It's u I need to count on when our hearts have stalled... Through the good times jus feel me breathe... As the tough life gets down n dirty... Stand with me no matter the tasks at hand... It's ur presence that helps me make a stand... Ur worth in my life is more than u could ever imagine... As for there's nothing I wouldn't do to correct a perfect disaster... If it's u n I the way u say u feel me in ur heart... Don't play with me n let's make this luv a work of art... Bein all in is more than words jus held behind the tongue... I need ur goofiness as u find me at ur feet so fuckin far gone in luv... Are we friends or are we waitin on time..? Bcuz it's u I can't seem to get off my mind...

The bitch...

So u want a man with a deep sense of passion... That is until u call him a bitch for feelin what you've always imagined... Actin out bcuz u don't know how to act... Throwin out the window the reason that points out the attack... In a false sense of the bitch u claim to be is relentless as it's fake asf... Then u wanna pretend ur rampage was outta luv... As we know it runs out bcuz ur to into yourself... The bashin hurts most from a friend that's felt... As worth means nothin in ur outbursts that turn us away... Knowin we luv ya n are actually afraid of the fade... Findin ur tone tell us we're not the only one u can have around... So don't wonder why luv isn't so easily spilled from our mouths... We know the temper tantrums are beyond acceptable as u think it's ok to treat us like shit... Tastin the hate spit from ur lips... Thing is once we figure out ur not who u say u were... Lessons have been learned... For we come to realize real women don't lash out as the crazy is to immature to allow in our lives... Ur uncontrolled emotion is ur weakness as we say goodbye...

the untold attraction...

is it all about u...? do all females find it irrelevant to tell us the things u wanna hear... is it not ok to speak on the thoughts u find as ur truths..? maybe to u its jus flat out weird... or possibly u dont wanna seem out of line... maybe u jus dont feel the use in tellin it like it is as ur eyes take a peek... unable to relate to the beauty of a mans walkin on by... would it make u feel wrong to express whats on ur mind..? as if ur not supposed to taste words screamin to get out... why is it we cant listen in on what it is u imagine behind closed doors... resistin the temptation to make a move out loud..? do u think wed judge u as if we dont know u could use a lil more... open up n jus say what it is u think in a physical interst...  our ears tend to relate to the curiousity in which u hide... are u jus afraid of the way wed respond to ur intent..? bcuz we dont wanna assume u can find the time to reason with us before we walk on by...

the closer i get...

I've been thinkin as the wonder has my thoughts driftin on the hmm of what she looks like n who she truly is... Idk who she is as I haven't got a single clue of her whereabouts sittin here jus a bitin my lip... Seems the time to reveal her face is still at the hands of time spinnin closer to the day as if she even exists... On the wish list to have the deepest of desires come from the tuckin of the rib as her silhouette from the beyond slips... N I can't help daydreamin from the imagination as it's me I've fixed... With eyes that say come get me as the tongue connects with her clit... Yet her drip hasn't been tasted as the flava is unknown to the pleasure enjoyed followed by the pushin of what's is felt as thick... I get to lookin into thin air lost in the moments taken tryin to imagine her characteristics... Where oh where does she dip as her own solo act flips pages alone feeling her way around even down in between her hips..? One day the collision will drop like a bomb as the only thing held in fists is the luv found in our balled up mits... Til then I guess it's jus somethin I find the void of her to be missed... I jus gotta live as I gather what it is I have to give... As I close my eyes late at night pretendin to be as close as to bodies snuggled up as friends... When will it end as we get this on with the depths of our wits..?