The circles end...

I remember now... Of who i was n what happened to make me become who i am... I can feel me again... N idky it's taken so long to come back to life... To feel free like all the weight has finally lifted from my heart... I see me as a child... As a teen... A young man n everything from there on n in between... As i can recall vivid memories in which I've forgotten... How did i ever forget how to live.?. To wonder lost for so long... I was so full of energy... Hope... Luv... N now I'm back in touch with me as the pieces within have finally found their place... I'm me again... Laying in a silent room listening to the sounds outside... N as i close my eyes i can go back... To replay thoughts like I'm still there... I see my mothers face... Feel the cool breeze coming in the window laying in bed... I've always been the loner who just wanted to be luv'd... The distant one that allowed my mind to get away from me... Taking me inward... Creating a fear... Stealing from my own heart, my own worth... Though here tonight is what I've waited for for so long... To reunited with the old me as i introduce him to what i don't wanna be... Trapped... Afraid... Defeated by emotions cut from the nerve... Damn it feels good to sigh... To release the pressure on my head... Not to have that feeling like drifting is all i am... As I'm still here after all this time... Smiling n able to enjoy my life... N i haven't felt this way for quite some time... Loosened up to be once again... As the real me was happy to get it in... Fearless... Ready to gain a friend... So to combine what I've learned with the truth I've hidden away, priceless... Like a child eagar to awaken to see what i can get into... The circle has found its end n now i can finally breathe... I'm safe from living with the void... With precious memories of my kids when they were lil coming back into view... N dreams of how I've always wanted to do it all... It's now that i chuckle for i cannot be stopped... Hi world... This is the real me n I'm never letting go...