Something i just...

Do u remember that time i slide up behind u n softly whispered in ur ear, "I'm madly in luv with u" as i kissed ur ear.?. N do u recall ever since, not even my friendship ever meant anything to u bcuz truth be told i was someone u could spared.?. Yeah... I've lived through the change my heart had to adjust to as u had fun at my expense as no matter what stood its ground without one ounch of proof... Though i looked the entertainment based on gimme gimme that allowed me to remove u from depths i didn't believe would ever let go of u... U don't know but when i wad with others it felt like i was cheating even though there was spave n time forcing me to wake the fuck up... Though i liked it due to the things I've learned that helpedme comprehend the true messing of luv... N i just wish i could have my tag back at times bcuz u ain't it but i wouldn't know u the way i do... From ya smile to ya strut to that laugh thst went through me it's the real me u are too lose for i honestly never had u... Don't call, don't text n by golly don't ever believe or wonder if u ever cross my fuckin mind... I buried u in the hole u dug n watered me a brand new htatifying type of life... Using ur memory as the fertilizer to grow upward n back into what u failed to realize what u held in ur arms... N yeah, I've known for some time i was never held sacred to ur heart... N we all have how w feel n u have that right though i jus wish u woulda told me instead of thinking u were smarter than me... I have a knife n gave u a flame as the wick burned until u couldn't be felt pulling out the blade setting me free... I just wanted u to know bcuz u presume to imagine I'll always be one phone call away from u needing a lil comfort from a friend... When in actuality i was done the day i didn't at me in ur eyes n that was prior to ever walking away from a touch that soothed the beast that came to peace with relations end...