full circle...

i remember what it feels like... it came back to my memory tonight... the feel of the comfort escaped my life... n i let it go once i gave up the fight... yet it's touch found its way full circle in my mind... allowing me to after so long sigh... releasing the wonder of the forgotten hype... i came to me as the rain came down to lift my spirits into flight...humbling me jus tool a matter on time... guess i had to go through emotions within my mental state of why... losing pieces of self until i returned with a vibe... pulsating in my nerve as my heartbeat slowly climbed... leaving behind the drift that ended different versions of me combined... all by jus waiting on my moment to shine... to become the reason within who it is i am defined... i recall the pleasure of a friend i can call mine... n the worth one can give to an individual willing to align... it's like i missed something n had to search myself through to pinpoint the distance i created between me n a shrine... a display of prior feelings as visuals were combined.... stuck on repeat n shielding desires by sheltering use so i too wasn't to lay in my outline... i felt the ease recollect the past as its uselessness fell from my passion intertwined... captured by the stillness in the reels replaying the pain reaching for my spine... crippling my will to open up on the front line... triggering an after effect that took yrs to actually say goodbye... realizing there was a new depiction staring at me in the mirrors reply... showing character in expression wanting to get on with what it takes to truly live as mine... knowing the tongue will never tie me to those who do not fit the soothe in my eyes... refreshed i sit in silence listening to the storm cry... reminding me of what i need not to comply... as wasted efforts ruin the simplicity of a certain passerby i cannot deny... for i rectified me in the darkness n overcame what i no longer havta hide... saying goodbye to what doesn't better the sensation to be amplified... never to be crucified... moaning a lullaby that maintains my sacrifice... i went in n removed the ache that owned relations disqualified... as i now comprehend the remains that clarifies my battle cry...