There was no one there when I hit the bottom... Jus an empty echo fallen as I was forgotten like I was the problem... Left to sort out how I was gonna figure a way to stand back up... Losing everything falling in n outta luv... Damn emotions believed in her more than she believed in herself... Yet i didn't did deep enough for me to be felt... N in the way down life took a turn... As I didn't know the lonely nights in alleyways would become my home as it hurt... Goin in faded in the mornings rising without a bed... Wearing the after effects of passion that I had to shed... Now finding yrs missing in places I should've never been... The descend tore holes in my heart to vent... Thinking it's a good thing if I could jus get there memory to leave me alone... Wanting to drift off with the acting of moans... To bury them beneath the exact spot in which I landed... Then run into the night as the unwanted bandit... Feeling the need to steal hearts opening up... Knowing the collection I had I had to return to those I crushed... It was my turn for once to drown in tears that was meant to cater to smiles... I lost to a fuckin lifestyle... Needing to gain control behind hotel room doors... No one ever heard the way my desires poured... Calling out to a friend that wasn't there... As I looked around n seen for myself that no one fuckin cared... It was me that trusted in ways I thought I was good... As mindless acts I allowed had me shook... Resting in cars when money fell short... Disattaching from those who disappeared when I gave everything n more... On the line went signatures that meant nothing at all... As someone else held the one I luv'd which felt like time jus paused... Frustrating the fact that I had no fuckin place to go... Never to believe in metaphorical thrones... I sat with nothing to do for so long by myself n it changed the way I think... N all I'll ever wanted to do wake up from that fucked up dream... For the feel of it drove me to swing back... All on my own I stood up n out the work as time passed... No longer looking in to the past I found my way... Without the lies that relations maintain...
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