resuscitated

Closter phobic I panicked in a heart that was collapsing.
I smile at sad songs because its worth the fading.
I've surrendered on my time under luv.
as the patches are stitched all just because.
the leak isn't worth a friendship that wasn't there.
and I've bounced back like a champ in relief.
that is if u ask me what it is I believe.
trapped with no way out I ripped me open.
fell hard and healed the bruises within woven.
sowed to the inner lining of what remained.
I once stood with a so called fan within the fame.
yet like foes echoes are heard with every turn.
I'm just happy to say it was a hard lesson learned.
as the glory of comfort suffocated the passion.
and in reality it turned out it was nothing but an attraction.
now that it's out I haven't got anything to say.
nada nothing zilch, the expression can finally go astray.
relieved secrets are no longer held from me.
because I resuscitated the dream of who I am and I am free.
the walls hold out the wind that blows emotional death.
reinvented I've found a joy inside the chest.
ironing out the kinks that wrinkle the face.
I thought I was defeated by what turned to hate.