behind come forth

friggin spark won't light a flame.
it's like I can't stand behind my own fuckin name.
somewhere on here I'm walkin on circles.
lookin in my spittin image turnin purple.
I know who I am but it doesn't seem I can be.
I failed me n lost sight of the under thing I cling.
over protected I've entered a depth in the mind.
n it won't release the idiotic past tense that's mine.
it's for self to face not to live with daily.
held behind the line insides I'm restrained in time.
most of the excursions is the head talkin to the heart.
unwillin to listen to the fire I've become b not doin my part.
I hate me for fallin to a fake cause that tweaked.
changin my reflection as if a crayola scribbled me on my knees.
crippled n squiggly outside in demeanor.
defeated as strength hooks bait behind the eye sore.
theres no easy way in no fuckin possible way out.
ask I have is words that r muted blinded with no mouth.
n there's a rumor within that speaks of a spiral that lingers.
a zero that can't escape is what I'm called unless u listen at the end of my fingers.
spreadin a new curve at war beneath surface.
one unwillin to believe who I am is worthless.
I claim me but me don't want me to live.
constantly riddlin a diddle doodled hid.
I can't fuckin touch I til he comes from behind where I'm hung.
a noose with a slipknot with no noise sprung.
tuckin honesty in nightmares frustrated.
n they've become so comfortable luv'd n hated.
jus awaitin the day I wrap a clutch around it's neck.
cuz I'm over checkin myself since we've met.
I'm my own villain trapped n causin havoc.
runnin wild from the wolf I'm scattered like a rabbit.
shook about as the attempt to misplace self elsewhere was unsuccessful.
dumbfounded I returned to rid me of the one place tension was pulled.
it backfired n superman climbed walls as of Spiderman.
smashin memories wound hip in a web wounded.
n the expression of done is to fuckin fluent.
it's me I can't get to, to reinvent the resentment.
ask that's wanted is to be once again stand independent.
unfazed as a boomerang that always returns.
cuz even if I refuse to listen, I've learned.
lessons left lesions on a legend leakin.
as scars taste the treasure no longer bleedin.
so why's it swingin on a hammock in between my shoulders.
draped in front of emotions ready to kill the soldier.
it's been long buff fit the claim that's eats at the buffet.
I want me back in time to catch up to bring back the days that all that mattered was gettin paid n laid.
behind come forth from the tail end to the beginnin of me again.
untangle ur roots n lift the pen that traded me in as a man.
cuz its like I'm deep throatin my past to ease the pain jus to sit still.
grittin my teeth it's time to bite down n end it's thrill....