facin the truths

I'm fuckin sorry already!
is this truly the end of our reality?
for real?
what am I waitin on here?
r u forgettin bout me?
did u actually jus corrupt my dreams?
I don't wanna believe.
luv, the luv won't leave.
does it havta be this way?
what do I havta do to see ur face?
it's been long enough don't cha think!
I'm urs as the missin link.
r u seriously not comin for me?
jus gonna ignore that I breathe.
damn u, u got me waitin.
in wonder, holdin patience.
what is it u wanna hear from me?
Is there anything u need?
cuz my minds to crippled to think.
missin u behind every blink.
what else can I say?
the pain hasn't left, it stayed.
I don't think I can hold on much longer.
the luv in me isn't gettin any stronger.
is this everything u ever said it was?
or did ur lips fake the fuss?
let me know what it is I am to do.
how longs this gonna take if we were can't face truths?
cuz I gotta let go of u soon.
n somehow finally get over u.
u don't havta fade if u don't wanna.
cuz forever, I'd still luv ya.
is it u can't find me?
cuz I'm not where u left me.
I'm not hard to find.
look in to luvs design.
I'll be right there sittin with eagerness.
waitin on my happiness.
but if u seem to live without.
if u choose to never again taste my name in ur mouth.
jus know I held out for only u.
for a luv in which u had no use.
if u never reach for a friend.
I may jus spend my time unable to lend.
I don't want anyone else to help me smile.
no one but u is worth the while.
so if this is really goodbye.
know in front of u I didn't know how to hide.
u opened me up as I still have the hole.
n without u, my heart will fold.
don't come, that's on u.
cuz I'm listenin to the truths.
repeatin I fuckin luv u one!
no matter if ur here or done.
it's real.
n I guess by now, it's my own ordeal.