it hurts holdin on

I can not keep on luv'n u.
it pains me to admit this unforgivable truth.
I gotta go.
it's who I see in ur eyes where ur secrets r told.
forgive me, is not that I wanna leave.
if I stay here imma wind up losin me.
n when I go I know I'm Neva gonna see u again.
either way it'll break this man.
it hurts holdin on to the u I luv.
this will be the saddest day I ever lost touch.
I'm sorry if u feel as if there is a way.
but the change u modeled went a stray.
ur jus not the same.
n I must be on my way before I'm to blame.
please take care.
cuz livin with u i live as if I'm scared.
I'm goin now, down the road for a bit.
I won't return as I remember this shit.
it is what it is.
I understand now how ur open to luv.
but imma ease into shuttin the f... Up.
there's nothin more I can do.
u give me no proof.
not one reason that convinces me.
n I don't have ur in me no more to plead.
my time here is done.
u made me believe I am the one.
so, so long, it's been real.
but I can't afford to feel this deal.
goodbye's r forever.
n as of now, we r no longer together!