No faith in women...

A good man trapped in a bad boys image.
With a mind turned low on emotions constant leverage.
A teddy bear with a ticking bomb exploding within.
Different in ways of the odds speaking untold truths with a grin.
I for my own train of thought may not be ur sip of tea.
I'm not for jus anyone that can simply breathe.
A twist of pain inserted it's likeliness for my change.
Cashin me out n standin solo fiddlin with the tone of induvidual names.
Which one rolls more smoothly across my tongue?
As harmless as an empty six shooter smokin with a barrel on the run.
Click, click, click is like a cherished kiss.
Tastin the way tenderness feels upon my lips.
Knowin luv is suicidal eatin my words.
N not a once have I been heard.
As gentle as the breeze pushing up ur skirt.
Yes, I know my undyin worth.
Set aside outside the sea of possibilities laughin back.
N that is jus that.
I may jus be on the other end of what ur so fuckin use to.
Bustin a move.
In my own direction walkin from the mindset in which u sit.
What I am is nothing like that shit u continue to spit.
Leveled n crisp.
Catchin stares from a distance.
With a easy touch to soothe the connection of us.
Corrupted by my own existence in the life I hate to luv.
Wastin away in times spin the further it gets behind the need.
Makin the reality for which I fiend a damn near forgotten dream.
As a man loosened up I fade without a friend.
Mentally prepared that this is the way it ends.
Eyes seekin the reverse psychology of genders as candies twitch jus to let go.
Ur all unable to deliver what u claim as u continuously fold.
With untold stories set as chapters in a tale of the war on luv.
N bcuz of it I'm slowly goin numb.
As I miss the feel that neva truly said my fuckin name n meant it.
Simply smiling jus bcuz I can n will remain the same in my wits.
In n outta lanes pulling u-turns on one way streets.
Understandin I've been misunderstood as passion leaked.
Tippin hats n openin doors.
In true form.
Goin under the expression of walkin on my back.
A real man, with a real pasts.
A damn good man losin hope for limits go too far.
As patience set off alarms.
N said to be the greatest thing ever.
To realize the word no spoken isn't so clever.
Restless in wonder I jus linger.
For I do have two middle fingers.
Committed to risin to the occasion if necessary.
Meanin no harm for my peace within carin...

A grown mans sigh...

I'm not gonna lie. I'm in luv with the shape of ur body for it's appealin to me as ur jus so fuckin nice. Curvin ur image into my dirty azz thoughtful mind. Not one wrong turn on u for every crease of u is jus right. I jus wanna wrap u up in my life. Do things to u that drag outta the absence of light. I'd luv to taste u tied up in bondages vines. The touch alone is the crave of my tongues twirlin hype. Runnin through n in between how u feel in my mind. Before me in ur birthday suit as I slowly n Eva so patiently grind. Flush n butt naked I need ur form to ease my time. Bared for the pleasure of comin undone as u are for a Lil while, mine. Sexually I'm emplodin n wantin to know is it within u where I can hide. As my hands jus wanna release fingertips upon the direction of ur spine. Taking me down to my knees to please ur ever so curious climax climbed. Buryin my face in ur wettest drip as ur nerve can feel my nine. Comin to life. Risin to the knowin of insertion about to take flight. Oh, the feel of u would make me feel so fuckin alive. As close as air I'd luv to flip u twice from front to back as I'd toss u from behind. Take me as ur personal plaything willin n able to stretch u opened wide. Pulsatin within u with the stroke of my neva endin glide. Mmm, how I'd make u the only one I'd eva wanna do at the drop of a dime. N that's jus me wantin in between ur thighs. For I cannot stand still until I experience u, for I like. Hands on n all in jus to please ur passions reasons of why. Bcuz u do it for me on levels as line after rhyme after oh my blushes with a grown mans sigh. I want u rollin in silk sheets n fishnet thigh highs. Gimme what I want as desires cling to the feel of a hearts throbin vibe. Sexin a visual display damn near dancin in the middle of the bed from the front door comin to break u off as I dine... Hi... U wanna hear a grown man sigh?

Let's get on a lil down that a way.
Jus u n I comin undone at the end of the day.
Trip on the fact of who's wrapped up in the mix.
Rememberin names added to the arsenals twist.
Under the cover of night grippin the reality of fool proof.
Come on out n show intentions on the trippin of let loose.
Unwind for the crave of more vibin vividly to life.
One on one playin unselfishly in endless time.
Guards like shackles removed n laid at our feet.
Crossing borders of fine lines n reactin to the way we breathe.
Match me makin a moment like magicians whisperin abracadabra.
I'm tryin to get close enough to fully know how to react to ya.
Inside n out, turn for me so I don't havta imagine the beat of ur pulse.
Set free upon me with the sinkin of claws.
I'll give u a head start to move in the comfy of ur imagination.
For curiosity landed upon the way u move to my eyes levitation...

Come play n get lost without time on ur mind or fade back into life runnin with the hype in ur mind. Lay still n ease on back n drift with me on this side of reality or remain captive to ur lonely misplaced dreams.

Lemme know when ur done fighting off luvs struggling fame tightening up ur face. When ur guard drops n u come back out to play jus to say I need u speaking of names. When ur past leaves u be to live free for once getting at it head on full steam. Believe me I'll be still dreaming of the need tucked away in the coming of the breeze. Yet wait not to long to emerge upon the nerve of emotions worth that could wind up a blur. Slurring words of past tense that went unheard with a smirk. Time stands still briefly for that tingly feeling so sweetly pleasing. Running outta reasoning to redeem the remembering memory slowly leaving. Gone to once upon a moment shared by the caressing care dared to step up n be fair. Like a flare giving away to the nights compared to the with n without stares glared into the forgotten bared. Hearing voices mid stroke of hope drift with the passion of home fold to the story that erodes. Never to hold on to long for it be to bond to die forever slow...

Play....

Waking up from the land of the lost. Released from the stillness of the pause. Exiting the other end of dreams leaking. Reality I've slipped back to the connection speaking. From outta nowhere running outta time I found pornageahic like fame. I had oughta known better but wanted to play. Opened eyes drifted on the sight of obsessions. As fine as the curves that sway with tasteful dimensions. Having my share of the twist of their vanity. Thoughts embedded n acted out for the recollection of the baggage of insanity. Beauty beheld upon the surface as lust caressing luv. All in all the want was to feel them in a touch. Forced to redirect my aims calling of getting it in. N the sights I've seen had em in ways that makes me grin. Soft n hard n as dirty as they could come out to play. As I now stand solo peeping something deeper that would luv to taste my name. From the dead zone covered in broken passions step that wasn't made. Sexually the grip clung to them needing my penetrating games. Meat stuffed they came so fucking hard. As I thought I was a god of some sort claiming their woos from the start. At least that's what they called me inside of their hips rotating move. How could I possibly lose. Enjoyment craved what I teased in my hands. Riding n bent over the submission was grand. Yet, there was more I needed as a man. So I put em with the fantasies in my head. Licked n locked in the vault I walked away from the bed. N as good as the depth reached wrapped around the girth filling their void. I turned to save myself for they were only a moaning noise. Erecting the stance pleasing more than any thought that could be taught. N it was the man in me wanting more than flaws. As a package swimming in more than their drip I needed more than to see em crawl. Even beg for more as hands bonded drove em sideways scooting away from my tongue. On the run I dipped in n outta the only thing they knew. Getting fucked. The porn stars that met their match. N it's me in which I laugh. Checking the freak within. Yeah, I finally win. But still weak to the fact of pleasure to the fullest. Women are like a loaded gun with a single bullet. N it's jus if they woulda given reason to my worth I woulda stayed. Opened up a Lil instead of jus wanting to sit on my face. With the behind the back Bs that influenced my birds needing to be shown. As they remain in memories still sitting upon their thrones. I've had  more than my share... N not a one of em truly cared...

It's the way in which she said it. Make me proud. N i jus couldn't help myself... Shit. Looking for an angle pausing to be seen. My tongue took a dip when it came from in between my lips. I had to. I wanted to taste the way her legs clinched. Scissor locked n trapped. The swiveling twirl wrapped around the moans throwing her back into a fit. Azz started walking across the bed. Yeah. I took chase jus to touch the trim. The texture alone felt my buds on the loose. Stroking convulsions to explode simultaneously under lights dimmed. Oh. The joy of pleasure was all mine. Skills came from the wave of digging in. Flattened out sliding through her time. Flipping a lick with jus the tip. Damn, she came out to play. As the man in me chuckled with a ticklish grin. Til her hands gripped the back if me head. Right there, right there, feeling her live. Mmm. Hmm. I rolled through her orgasmic twitch. Til I had every individual last drip. Get it girl. Get that shit...

Stepping into the minds view walkin the way u do. Unfamiliar with the walk u cross my mind very fees gotten in to play with my tine. As the door swings like saloon hinges watching u step in n free n friendless. U know that close body laid up in a snuggling touch holding on for dear life layin flush. I'm jus sayin u keep walkin in front of my thoughts with that stroll makin my motions pause. Oh, how u seem to catch my undivided attention jus doin what u do. N damn it's getting warm in hear losing focus on what surrounds u comin near. A heart breaker from head to hips jus waltzin through as if u own this shit. Invadin what takes place behind eyes that close to witness u turn about n face. Fuckin beautiful is an understatement by far as I must believe this is insane. There's no way u got through the locks that guard my mist sacred place. Yet beneath reality u roam with that swing u sway with so irresistibly unique. How fuckin sweet.

As the tenderness of the kiss crawled up the back of her neck. Sending a sigh to her heated breath . As she spun around as she rolled over. Landing flush with open mouths exposed as endless lovers. As whispers from my lips spoke softly, lemme show u something. Making time touch her nerves with every click trembling. Lay still n jus go with the feel. As she tried to as it was her heart I aimed to steal. Smoothly touching the softness of her chills jumping with a twitch. Like a puppet without a string she moved to my orchestrated wish. As the caress ran down her frame. Ssh.. I heard her say my name. As the pitter patter of taste exploded on contact. She shimmied a shake n gasped for air. Damn. I what I did to her jus wasn't fair.

No house filled with luv to welcome me home.
My walls are glass so memories are irrelevant to gloat.
I'm in a bucket seat of bad decision left with my mind.
Roaming in n outta the patterns needing a change to get back to life.
Astray believing in others, self outright forgot he mattered.
As the image of luv has been purposely shattered.
There's no place mentally to go with the thoughts that dwell echoing to sound.
The constant reminder smothers any logic that may stand its ground.
Lost in a tin can with rubber wheels there's no help that I simply can't ask for.
Like a rose with its beauty poking a whole with its thorn.
Luv took the best if me so it thinks n rode the fuck out.
As it spoke softly as deceitful as it could whispering aches from its mouth.
Now plundering to find a way riding solo to my escape.
Seems a few yrs has come to pass as I blame me n it's great.
Knowing I shoulda walked away with my nuts in my hands grip.
Yet my heart couldn't bare their self inflicted pain callin for me to help them live.
As feet trampled my existence n stepped from the good I gave.
N now it's jus me remembering all the idiotic games.

Someone tie my heart to my sleeve so it doesn't try to leap into her hands. It Luvs that tenderised Bs squeezing the life outta me. Someone please, restrain the damn thing so we don't get hurt all over again. It doesn't learn n can't decipher what's wrong from right as its unconditional tobempty dreams.

I'm awake. Head on swivel looking for a direction. Tryin to remember what home is. I've fallen to deception. Damn. The dog laid the fuck down on me. Thought it had it made. Stuffing that Lil bitch called luv back in to useless dreams.

Don't step up if ur not willing to play. I'm a grown azz freak jus wantin to hear u say my name. A man in the flesh with girth backed by skill. I'll teach u how to pole dance sittin a spin for the feel of the thrill. There's no need to attempt me if ur a Lil to mild mannered in the bed. For the boredom of ur lack of sexuality will eventually trap the desire of u in my head. Deliver me those things u think n thought that u never acted out. N moans will come from the depths in which playtime will find the rise of decimals gettin loud. Vibrating ur pulse as 8.5 on the rector scale laid out to please. Don't come fuckin with me unless u intend to get restrained to the ur knees. Yeah, there's a side of me that will fancy the fetishes u seek. Be yourself n tell me what it is u truly need. We all have something that will open us up if enjoyed beyond the settin of the sun. N I'm jus the one to satisfy that azz tryin to take to getting away of the run. Don't come a wantin what u can't keep up with. Bcuz behind this man's eyes is one hell of a grip. Backside thrusts flipped n tossed as licks stroke the nerves burstin cumin again n again. Ssh. Jus give in to Ya sexuality n live in my hands. I'd turn some romance loose on Ya blindside. Petals thrown from the front door to a candle lit bath jus to blow ur mind. I ain't doin shit but goin to waste fuckin off by myself. Lemme touch ur wet dreams drip as it's juices melt. Bcuz I'd luv to turn u out. Right Mutha fuckin now. I'd fuck u slow or make luv to u as hard as u can withstand the push. I wish u would. It's OK to be afraid of what u don't know. Yet, come play a game n call it gettin urs as my fingers roam up n down ur curves jus before I attack. Nibblin kisses up n down Ya spine used as a train track. Destination neck sucked throat choked gettin loose making sex. At the tips of my very best. Explicit n slippin in n outta the gasp tryin to catch the weezin of air. From the backside pullin Ya hair. Stay at home if ya ain't feeling yourself gush with the purpose of pleasure. Jus stay away from what u can't meet in the middle of pure irresistability. Together. If u can't wear me wantin to taste ur intents callin. Leave me be to feel some real shit never stallin. Hide n seek. Play with me. I wanna know what turns u on. Put ur horns on. I'm diggin if ur hip to the lingo of pushing the limits. Climaxes like rivets meetin the shores of ur tsunamic lift. Come get it. We all have that hush waiting to shake grounds comin undone. But don't come at it if u ain't on havin some fuckin fun. Freak me. Freakin u. Put to use. I am that twist. Where's ur willingness to live?

Curiosity of single is the question.
Seems there's some things I've neva mentioned.
Yet to ask is to evolve an answer.
N I ain't the one to lie on self's behalf with a great enhancer.
Feedin luv the table was full.
Believin in sine other shit as the neva pulled trough.
Substances took the man outta the thrill of me.
N not a one touched as they trampled the dream.
It was not I that fell short tryin to ride out in what was thought of as a turn.
Life took a whip n through itself in reverse.
Soles stepped on the nakedness of my emotions.
Bared n beaten beyond consumptions dying devotion.
Standin in the way superman had no way to help.
My invincibility became transparent as I too was no longer felt.
The high took em n left me in the middle of luv looking out.
After depths of reality had gotten twisted ripping vocals for talking out loud.
Luv I have on a level that damn near did me in to let go of.
N another that followed her up from the backside jus went too far as u felt the touch.
Two prior of a six yr stretch is where I began.
Letting luv in my heart to experience what makes a man.
Sittin solo my heart chuckles for it knows what I'm about.
I didn't lose bcuz I wasn't enough, I lost due to the drugs that changed what was once proud.
Taking on 7 other kids on top of my own n handling the work load like a beast.
To losing the power I had for there was nothing to be done so it seemed.
Hands went up. I had to go.
Savin self wasn't so selfish once they lost control.
So that wonder of why a man like me steps alone.
Jus know, what turns on me is a place called home...

I didn't know...

I didn't know her heart was a cemetery.
N I didn't know she had a tombstone with my name on it.
Seems that cold chill was etched into a chisel.
I didn't know I was the pain she enjoyed as her fix.
The undertaker here above the soil.
To leave me dead inside in the middle of life.
I didn't know time would fall into stolen hands.
Lost beyond the darkness of the absent of light.
I didn't know six foot down could claim a man the way she did.
Jus inches beneath her surface where the shallow was deceiving.
Using lust in the vision of luv reaching from my grave.
Extracting that childlike emotion from me to ease her selfish relief thing.
I didn't know our playground danced on so many that couldn't warn me.
Her misdirection of my heart spilled more then a man willing to be.
Stepping to the plate blinded by the invisibility of her intentions.
I didn't know the one thing I was to lose was me...

Beneath the smile I know it's all for nothin.
You'll walk away leavin me with my heart in one hand n my dick in the other for the rubbin.
Life will linger into the unknown of better days that await.
I didn't want much anyways.
Jus someone to show me the reason I take up that empty space in their life.
But ain't that somethin when u don't know where to hide.
To be unnoticed when it's all said n done.
Takin another piece of me as legs begin to run.
I know it's enjoy what one has while it remains.
But damn, for once can it find a way to wanna stay.
My all is jus tired of dependin on endless promises that never pull through.
Somehow touchin shit within as I am of no good use.
Who knew I'd be the one at the finish line unable to cross waitin on my turn.
Left with the loneliness of when will I ever learn.
As the madness is comforted with the ease of lettin go.
The one that's always there jus wantin to go home.
Yeah, I know imma fall short of ur happiness u can never find.
It's the part I play hopin to be more in ya mind.
Behind ur eyes that can't seem to find my worth.
Yet, can ramble on about how I'm everything in ur life that makes sense within ur words.
N it hurts that imma havta take every fuckin blow.
Opened up attemptin luv as u fold.
Holding the queen of hearts in my hands.
When the man in me will never be enough yet again.
Ur as friendly as ur conviction doin time walkin in relations of blame.
Forcin my retaliation that'll never give u the light of day.
I'll never hate u for bein who u are.
I'm nothing like the image in ur head of me emptyin my heart.
Drained to the drip as what will be is what must be.
Under cover luv'r, please jus leave me be...

Carved in stone...

Misunderstood due to the way u think.
I needed u to hate me. So I can breathe.
You'd still be runnin around tellin tales.
Of how u own my heart. N how u ride my rails.
Ur a locomotive n I'm jus one simple man.
I had to turn away. As I stood patiently. Damn.
The reality in my eyes came in to focus with u.
Don't get it twisted. I realized my worth was used.
U had go. I had to get to goin where comfort was.
Sittin around waiting on u only lost me in luv.
For u to disappear is the logic for me to live.
Letting go. U see. There was nothin left to give.
Get ur tongue under control when u speak my name.
I meant u no harm. Yet, I finalized the game.
Put a stamp on ur seal n mailed that shit off.
Ur twisted ways of me runnin when u needed me....
Hmm. Yeah. That last time I enjoyed watching u leave.
Done. For its ur turn at the spite knowing ur lies did us in.
So when u listen to the wind jus know we're not friends.
My tongue is muted on the Bs u pulled at my expense.
N these saloon doors no longer swing to ur periodic remembrance.
You've been cut the fuck loose so I had a chance.
Tryin to find a rhythm for my heart to dance.
Not wantin another disappointment that reminds me of u.
N that's the truth. Please hate me in full bloom.
Remember I walked away as u sat there lying.
Witness to us dying. As I was done trying...

Checkin in mentally. It seems the dents came in from the outside eventually. Damn thing twisted n rung itself out. Surprisingly on its own it dripped without a sound. Gave me back what it held in the dark place in my mind. Simply released me n allowed me to reclaim my life. Didn't even give me a pep talk like it knew I knew what to do. Jus Sat back n watched me cheese as if a weight was lifted n let me loose...

Back from my knees as a nonbeliever.
Damn thing called luv strayed as I couldn't retrieve her.
The pain was unbearable as I felt the fine lines of done.
Standin in the middle of life left to die without my home.
Shit was crazy the way my emotions ached from the loss.
Misplaced I collapsed internally as the mind couldn't halt.
Yeah, it snapped n I remembered who I was even though I cried.
With the man in me finding reason that she has a life with time.
As I'm jus not that piece that fits quite like she was for me.
Yeah, I've been there at the edge of no return n lost my balls.
N I'm here as a more well rounded individual seeking happiness once n for all.
Don't doubt who it is u think u see for I'm jus one man wantin to be felt.
Neva desperate as self knowin I luv myself but would luv to melt.
Somethin real with a look that'll accept a presence who is humanly sane.
It's called being alive n findin who it is within that cares for the gain.
Who's out there that doesn't feel afraid to openly give worth?
I'm not asking u but tryin to relate beneath the surface unheard.
I'm diggin for the pleasures of the heart as the mind is in control.
Where are u mentally as yesterday is gone n today is exposed?

Watch out world...

I felt something like that ol familiar last night.
It was life comin back within reasoning of why's...
Somethin cluqued as I felt it n then it went away...
N it came again tryin to jump start the depths of my hearts cave...
I forgot what it was like to feel the design of luv...
Yet jus past midnight I wanted to live again as it touched a give a fuck...
The memory of me laid still to be felt opened up...
Damn thing went n caught an emotion idled on hush...
In the early hrs of sittin alone with the thought of what I have become...
The overflow rushed through me as I was no longer numb...
I remember now who it is I truly am...
 N it was me in which away from self I ran...
The moon was lit as the darkness scattered...
N all those itty-bitty pieces were no longer shattered...
My guess is, I let em win...
But I'm back from where I've been...

Neva endin til it's all said n done... Barrels loaded as chambers feel the heat of unloadin the hatred of gums... In luv n war pleasure seeks the pain to come as usual as that mo fo called clutch is flawlessly abrupt... Unless friends are to be in luv with life n havin a lil more than the same ol same kinda fun... For along the backside is the six spun to create a visual effect as a trust factor in the middle of luv goin in on retrievin the term dutch... Without it the dreaded feel of exposure will be followed by bein hurt as worth gets to goin completely numb... N they say they'll luv u til there is no tomorrow n til the end of time as the legs spin like clock arms on the go of the run... As the nevermore appears to soon in its own time collidin with a yesterday to be unable to remember today's rush... Slippin their tongue on the sliver dippin a lickin down on their words stroked by reasonin upon ya belief in em as if the confusion sounds like a grunt... Thinkin thoughts thunk like, better hope the friendship exceeds the like of luv's touch... As gropin minds through stares n the display of motion is jus a mission to be happy as fuck... Lastin as long as it falls short switchin up the way hearts pump... Good is a change needed as bad decisions lookin in reverse was in all seriousness the wantin to pull through n tame the expression that sounds somethin close to ashes turnin into dust... Yet the mornin after they've went poof on their own way flingin fingers at bitterness that dismisses the wantin of kisses on the bum... As sittin still recalls the moments of how the passion was nothin more than poison temptin unreliable lusts... Left to remind self life ain't over till the end comes a callin, yet to pull off another stunt... Jus to figure the configuration of if it'll go the distance for once n allow the comfort in believin in em to come undone... Will they stick around long enough jus to be n live without any more unwanted lumps bruises or bumps..? Livin as two individuals in the unity of one layin naked n flush jus to be bared to an irreplaceable crush... In the clarification that the end is where air has no more use to the hunt... Accepted by luv... Doin away with the once upon a time type of relations that only reach for a sexual rub goin ooh ohh huh..? Within spendin the time of foreva, too soon finds its way back to the beginnings of thrusts... Feelin someone new due to the short arm of how betrayal breaks with the lies told goin with the winds flow to neva to walk away n such... The plan is to fall in luv with ya best friend that doesn't become a use to be in another time where ur limit to bein over is like an others tippin of the bottle jus to get drunk... Shit, only if a single face jus couldn't help but to smile n be real about standin side by side in life knowin the difference between need n want... Clickin the safety on the guns to on so the blood doesn't havta be scrubbed... It be nice to be felt in luv...

I ain't a lettin get go... Bcuz she's safe with me... Times already proven I don't have it in me to do her wrong... N she knows that bcuz of her I find it easier to breathe... Like a breath of fresh air as if life in the flesh... Down right my kinda passion let loose kickin in... Best friends above the odds is our own comin together... Not givin a fuck about outside confusions for we are the resolution... Side by side doin the deed of gettin busy... My lil lady brings me to life... Felt she ain't got a thing to overthink dealin with me... As my luv for her could neva hide...

I don't wanna be around the shit... I don't like the shit... Don't wanna even put up with the dumbed down bullshit... Yeah I'm from the shit... Grew up lookin at the irrelevant bullshit... But I ain't neva once accepted the shit... It neva got to me n shit... It's all childish bullshit... A lower way of life n shit... I'm not the one for the shit... N no I'm not a product of my environment... I rose above the shit... But not betta than the bullshit... Jus own my own mind n all that kinda shit... I evolved n got away from the shit... Jus bcuz there's a more comfortable way to live n shit... Anyone thinkin they havta be a certain way bcuz of their surroundings crack my fuckin ribs... It's ludacris to be controlled​ by the bullshit... Simply put it's not worth a moment in it spent... Fuck that shit... There's other things to life to be n I wanna dig in n shit... The hood jus ain't my type of permanence... Shit, n I don't do anyone lookin down on me with a babblin lip... Fuck in that useless shit... Money doesn't make me bend backwards at the hips... N I most definitely understand the bullshit that goes on around me n shit... But like I said I ain't it... Ain't in it... N don't want any part of it... My minds to well rounded to allow the shit... I was born with a fuckin gift... N I'mma relate to live n shit... Not a destructive way of life n shit... Gettin caught up in its inhumane mix... That's how the system gets to u n shit... Believin in the toxic bullshit... Yeah it can teach a few things to make u a lil tougher n shit... But you'll never come up if u listen to its constant bullshit... Trapped mentally neva to come from within n shit... Simply just flat out permanent... Stuck at the bottom n shit... Tisk tisk... The hood is jus as fake as the rest of this world n shit... So anywhere u go ur to go ur gonna hear the spatter of spit... That's why I love my life n shit... N stayin with it is the time that ticks... I live mine for me n shit... I need not the backstabbin of so called friends n shit... I have my own lil familiarity of Independence... N that way from it I went... Jus bcuz I seen a betta flow that allowed me to vent... To get shit off my chest for I wanted away from the bullshit... N I ain't a goin back to it... I am my own ticket... So fuck that bullshit y'all be talkin n shit... Corrupted as fuck n shit... I ain't got the time for it... Drift...

The enemy within is scared of what it's found... Lookin for a way out of what it thought was muted sounds... Damn thing got fooled n has no way figure on how to escape... It jus can't function in here with me as make it say my fuckin name... As it moans for me to put me to sleep... Guess it didn't know I was as twisted to the point of I make it think... Damn sum bitch went n ran into the darkness within me... N all it hears now is deviant chuckles close enough it can feel my imagination breathe... I welcomed it in wantin to play a game it didn't know even existed... Kinda like anal fuckin it double fisted... It's my bitch now but I'll let u fondle it for a dollar... Two will get u one of ur own for I'll have offspring with it n make it holler... N three will get u fucked up for it's mine to tease n torment til I feel for to let it go... Creepin up on it through the chaos in my mind fill fuckin blown... It begs but doesn't know that kinda kinky shit turns me on... Yeah I treat it like my own personal whore... it shouldn't had stepped up n thought I was the one to earn its wings... Shoulda kept it movin on tight along to the next best thing... Now it doesn't know what to do or what's even next... N all I can tell u is I luv how it can't find its way into the cavity if my chest...

Puttin the mind away for a more reasonable piece of the puzzle to unwind to before eyes notice that chuckle in the mirrors edge escapin it's view.  Watchin the never surrenderin mentality display the mindset playin with a more experienced version of child proof... Twisted, the eternal resistance begs for less n gets nada bcuz the unwanted mixture of maturities jus does't fit quite like me in another world... N this is what happens when I sit on my thoughts that find their own way into words as the fingers twirl..... Do da do da, I'm not the one that's fucked in the head thinkin in fact that's what the imagination pretends not to want... Mouths are intact n flush to truths n in fact loyal to survivin the relentlessness of understandin the miss use of luv... One piece at a time is fallin into place... N the dead weight is slowly bein lifted off the expression on my face... Comin up n surrounded by that crave to bounce the fuck back... Driven by the bottom where comfort found a friend within that'll last... Down is where the went to felt like life was about chasin green dyed cash... Losin the feel of the norm turned around as a new sense of mental contentment to commitment fought to stand up n live... It was in the shallows of the barrel where clarity wrapped it's honesty tight to my ribs... Better times have come to terms with those I've forgotten as of how to enjoy in a moment the careless ticks of once u know, some time ago... Here is the leveling up for the ups of givin never gave in to societies side show... Memories in the makin n others that can't be remembered as the way they were fuel the destination awaitin the puttin in on... N yet even though idk where to I'm on my feet n anywhere but here is in which my point of no return is gone with the goin... Another yesterday still isn't as good as it feels right fuckin now... No quit, no chill, n no sidesteppin the only way how... N it feels good knowin what necessities really are... N for no reason imma say emotional art...

Watchin em come to realize livin in their safe zone won't give em anything interestin to talk about when it's all said n done... As ears listen to em speak from around the edge of corners of how their lame azzez couldn't chance the choices made from this side unwillin to go numb... Careless is their version of what they are afraid of as it's routine routine routine til life has managed em the boredom that captures theirs freedoms to live... All the while poking fun with smirks n words aimed in a cast as far away as they can keep someone like myself who jus doesn't fit... Rules do not apply in a happy state of mind that kicks in the locked doors to allow the hidden intent of secrets out to play games that make conversation contagious no matter who tastes it... As they peep me bcuz they ain't got a fuckin thing to talk about due to the lack of willingness to be themselves n shit... I'mma do me n no I ain't got the materials they do in this superficial world as I'm to busy enjoy a more simple way to be... Considered to be at the bottom not caring what they believe as they look down on me so deprived in their eyes for it's too fuckin funny to pass on the opportunity to check em on the note of who it is that's actually free...

Jus enough to care bcuz no one else could... There's no givin up on what's merely misunderstood... Proving self in ways everyone close bailed the fuck out... Yet legs neva moved unless the same direction we took made it somehow... Friends clingin to one piece at a time is fallin into place... The dead weight is slowly bein lifted off the expression on my face... Comin up n surrounded by that crave to bounce the fuck back... Driven by the bottom where comfort found a friend within that'll foreva last... Down is where the went to felt like life was about chasin green dyed cash... Losin the feel of the norm a new sense of understandin fought to stand up n live... It was in the shallows of the barrel where clarity wrapped it's truths around my ribs... Better times have come to terms with those I've forgotten how to enjoy in a moment ago... Here is the leveling up for the ups of givin never gave in to playin the roll... Memories in the makin n others that can't be forgotten fuel the destination awaitin the puttin in on... N yet even though idk where I am on my feet n to which direction I'm goin... Another yesterday still isn't as good as it feels right fuckin now... No quit, no chill, n no sidesteppin the only way how... Connectivity from within... Findin truths changing what use to be as a has been... Caring for self by an other as belief stood strong... Jus bcuz a lil something whispered a secret like there's jus no feasible way we can eva go wrong... Back on the six spinnin in circles pullin through... Findin the wait was worth the moments to gettin back to livin butt booty butt naked n loose... Sometimes u jus gotta believe in someone other than ya own to find who it is ur tryin to give away... N who it is that is willin to stay...

Live that shit... It's ur decisions that's wound u up where u are... N yeah, choices have been made... Now play the part... Or do a lil somethin to change the bein of where u fit in... Slap happy with ya own fuckin lips... Babble with the nibble of truths... Be ya personal difference n know ya wits... Or accept what this world calls fate... Losin ur mind due to ya blatant excesses... Ya issues are caused by ya own free will... U can't catch what u refuse to get after jus calling it dueces... As complainin is a permission granted by self... Do as u do bcuz u got u right..? Thinkin what's the use... When it's ya existence missin the meanin of life... One chance, one time... Yet u forget who's purpose u claim... Goin on with the flow taught to control ya minds capabilities to do for self... Stand on ya fuckin name... Rotatin ya next move into actions on display... Is this how u think of yourself..? U know it will always be what u allow... As this is a lil note to me knowin I am what's felt... Diggin in for traction tryin to betta my chances... From ground zero up the head is neva hung... Checkin me in the mirror every mornin til I exceed expectations... N there's no limits to the ends of me knowin what I'm worth... Make a stand... Choose ya path... Time can only grant the opportunity to loosen up... That is til it runs out n u ain't done a damn thing but live to fast...

Attention is advised when they switch some shit up bcuz ur jus enough to give a lil bit different of a piece to... Somethin they ain't neva given but in thought as the resurrection of self redirects itself as the comin of all the way through... Over lookin em may not give a second chance unless they know what u got n jus need to be shown in details diggin up signs... N it's when they turn to u without peekin through u to the other side n stare at ya as if sayin wtf u gonna do bcuz I'm here for life... Clingin to the way u say their name in moments bouncin off the walls in n outta heated passion becomin more than they've eva known... As it's on u not to slip once u get in for the fallin out will lose a friend like no other grabbin at ya luv as a need feelin the emotion of home... Don't getta goin gone by not bein able to notice the return of em coming back around jus for ya goofy azz lingerin through life tryin to get to ya breakthrough... Bcuz they jus might pass u on by if ya can't seem to figure a way to train with self as u got what they've been a lookin for n fur u they have use...

Pictures painted through actions that feel their way through the undyin memories... They'll show ya the reaction they have to ya in the movement of proof locked in their eyes in between luv's series... N we can admit the feel is real while it lasts till that one comes along that digs into the dog... Sittin at her feet jus wantin to lick her lips to taste ya name in a whisperin breath ready for the long haul... Findin the detail in her sway that swings our way for a moment to figure relations are more than worth the effort shown... Yet it's in the way she confronts our presents comin from within her as she simply jus cannot get enough believin we're more than what she's eva known... U gotta understand her angle n mindset that allows her heart to play witcha emotion... It'll tell ya everything u need to know pullin ya beneath the surface for a bit of devotion... As to decipher which ones are genuine is to pay attention to the response on display... She won't be able to hide her truths if ya are indeed cravin her will the way she's into wantin exchange names... Dirty or sweet with a bit of kink that brings ya closer to her need... With luv to give in her own way as korky as she can be lookin back atcha addicted to how u to move to her lean... There's a friend ya want if u can break away yourself the way she has from the daily must be's of the goofiness of gender rolls played... Connected n intact interactin with the facts that she has u the way u do her... N it's all in the way silence goofs with the silliness of words...

Hey u...

Avoidin the pleasure of want by not askin for what it is one cannot say... The wall must come down by the time this ride ends... Gotta allow the willin in to the factor of jus wantin to be met half way... Unafraid of the let down of freely doin for the opposition​ both ways simply goin at it with a friend... Ask n not be harmed for what it is one could use the most as the key ingredient to limitless... Feelin em as if it were themself they were lookin after... Knowin one needs not to go without as even hands are lent to the touch of relentless... That crave to be close enough to enjoy for self as a continuous laughter... Only if words were spoken that didn't feel like a beg as one could only guess it's a personal thing... Do for me as I do for u... Jus bein the one lookin to give so u get what u want as luv's necessities... U for me n me for u... Yet one cannot ask for the other to say what they need not mention for the needs to be fulfilled... It's given without a peep bcuz self enjoys an other in this world with proof... Hands on in the middle of life holdin on to our fuckin will... That type of shit that ya don't eva gotta wonder... Taken care of like no other will eva do... On point n standin in the way of the gettin away with the lingerin luv'r... Put the fuck to use... I'm urs n ur mine in the mind so the rest follows suit, ecspecially the emotion that clings to the attachment comin to life... Who's who..? With no reason of why... Jus gettin it in n cuttin the fuck loose...

People will never be happy... Only momentarily they find comfort n then it gets old to them... They hate when someone else is livin the life they can't have bcuz they don't apply themselves or the type of life they don't approve of... Human kind is a selfish kinda stupid... N the society based mind embedded into empty heads doesn't help matters by teachin me me me materials money ftw... Always needin somethin new or better, buy buy buy every fuckin holiday... This is a sad place to live if u actually sit back n take notice in the way we, the self proclaimed rulers of this plateau, are no more than the fuckin plague... We walk right by one an other like everyone is a problem... Judge others bcuz they're not like who we are... There is no value for life anymore... Why is it u can't walk into a room n be yourself..? Take music for example... N imma say this n if u don't like it fuck u..! It's like pointin fingers at people... U listen to country, redneck... rock, racist... U ever took notice in someone switchin the radio station bcuz someone else is close enough to hear it like they need their approval... Like it ain't cool to like what u like as this world says be yourself... lol.. There's more than this fuckin garbage rap ya know... Open up ur fuckin minds... We are people... I ain't pickin on one type of person bcuz we all have issue to deal with within the human race... Music is jus international connection most refuse to cross bcuz their ignorance... The act of not knowin.. N I haven't seen anyone in yrs that hates someone for their skin color... It's the mindset they don't agree with... The constant regurgitated wack azz negligence as a human to get along... N it's fuck u n u n fuck u too , n oh yeah u over n over n over again... Stuck in heads is this vision of self empowerment... Like any of us are any better than any other... N fuck u again if u don't like my train of thought... God's are forced into our heads as the belief teaches consequences yet not morals... N if u think that fuckin book has any morals, u better read it... Brainwashed bs... Anything man made cannot be trusted... We as a species are what's wrong with this planet/plain, whichever u prefer to call it... We can't even buy somethin n it last, there's no profit on anything if a product isn't a demand... So to sell it once n that's it, that's not good for business... As in doin so it's made to be replaced... Gonna havta go get another one... Created revenue... Jus like legal law... If they can tax it or force any one of us to pay them let the extortion begin... All due to legal matters have nothin to do with our common rights... This world is of money n of power... Control... Everyone wants em... N that's whats wrong, no one can get enough or rise above all others n rule... I can't stand the majority of people as a whole bcuz of the way u allow yourself to think... Fuck y'all..! N that's the outcome of jus goin with the flow... Divided n concurred by an invisible state of bein all bcuz ur to fuckin lazy to open ur mind n realize shit ain't right as u do nothin like startin with self first isn't an option... Lost cause right..? Straight fuck it... It doesn't affect me... I'm ok with it... Who gives a shit... I'm shallow n get my fix on useless bs... Lol... It's a fuckin joke... No I don't like this place we so call share that y'all think should go ur way... Y'all are bein sold a dream that doesn't exist... Someone else is gettin rich off of u... Talk about u if u better yourself... Considered a sell out for acceptin a way of life that's better to suit u to find that happiness... N don't pull away from ur ethnical background... Noooooo..! As it's ok to forget we're all human first... Talk about some fuckery... Jus bcuz ur skin color is the shade it is does not mean u havta live or act a certain way... Bottom line... U can kiss my azz if u think I'm not gonna be me with a conscious... But that doesn't mean I'mma treat u any different than what I'd treat my own... N the funny thing about that is we are all our own as a whole... Society forces the divide... Born into it... So unless ur one of the few that can think for yourself, ur a lost cause... N the saddest thing known to all of us is it's only gonna keep gettin worse... The only true thing is life... Through it all other things are possible... N no one takes it serious enough to pay attention to it as the clocks on the wall do nothin but spin... Keep ya close minded azzez away from me... As there goes the other end of the chaos cuttin off the uselessness we're all so fuckin use to... Smdh...
...Two birds...

We lie about it u know... But if we can get u to keep doin it ur gonna eventually catch on... It's kinda like a trainin program where we don't mind the option of havin u go down... We allow the time to allow u to perfect ur skills... It's a win win that doesn't always pays off... Only way that happens is if u absolutely luv what it is u do to us for yourself... Anything less is a good time gone to waste... N there's where the fakin comes in... Hopin u catch on the sooner the better... So don't call us azzholes... We're tryin to be patient with u while u do ur thing... N yeah some of u it's as natural as sucking a lollipop. But even y'all slurp to quick n it doesn't last as long... N that's cool n all but like I said, we lie jus so u can luv every last drop... Lmao... Fuck u it's funny...

Most people don't know about it... Fakin the phunk to seem to understand the shit... Goin through the motions of bein able to be self proclaimed... Jus so they can hear others speak their name... But very few go the distance of ride or die... The rest of the majority can only tell u the lies they hide... When's the last time u went all the way in on someone... Gave em a reason to step in ur direction known... It's a term used to loose by so many others that's used way to fuckin much... All due to people are to into themselves to give a fuck about anyone else on another level of real luv... Phonies... Wantin to be homies... Talkin about, I'll stand by u no matter what... Yet we all know that bs only gets as close as to be touched... There's nothin like givin everything u got to come up empty handed... For when the heart realizes you've connected it's the mindset in which they live is where you've landed... So if we take count of how many will be seen as the one who gave the fuck up to soon..? Y'all are the shallow ones goin on with the faze of self righteousness with no proof... Jus talkin the talk as ya lips do nothin but flap... Not knowin what it takes to stand in the opposing corner lookin back as character would neva spaz... Manipulators is the proper terminology for u n u know it's the truth... U ain't real whisperin to yourself behind closed doors of what's left of ur own use... Selfish n self centered to be exact... But hey, I'm not sayin everyone is worth the effort as u remove their mask... Yet be honest, you'd rather die than to ride out on ur word u retracted as nothin more than a mere statement goin back to bein strangers... Shit, in my eyes u are the danger... False promises only spit what's good for the temptation to better self... N there's not a fuckin thing about u that lends em help... To worried about ur own feelings to see someone else fade away from somethin great... mates..? Nah, it's more like fuck buddies u neva got to know the other side of... N ur immaturities tell on u everytime u try on luv... Fuck it... As u loosen ur lips... Who gives a shit right..? Well how about that someone u told life would neva be the same without whether it be any kinda relations seen from the motion of the hype... Bcuz that's all this world knows how to be... The next best thing... No loyalty... N always lookin to be treated like royalty... So called kings n queens that ain't got it in y'all to become the best of friends... N the one thing that comes to be to soon u say wont be til u die is the end... Spittin bs... Like venom crackin ur own fuckin ribs... Haha, funny chuckles is all it is to u... But then again that's somethin we already knew so fuck u too..!

Playin...

Behind the eyes where the lids shut is the mind watchin the display of vulgarity upon the mental reel acted out... Hidden in the silence with the thoughts awake to porn like movements no one knows are playin in the nakedness without a sound... Doin all the lil things in ways of bein labeled a freak jus wants to get down n dirty... Findin truths of self untold on the other side of locked doors gettin the fill to the point of only the imagination is worthy... Beneath the surface in a crave of touch is a chained beast luv'n the tightness of unbreakable restraints... Taming the hormones set free when tryin to get another to loosen the fuck up n feel the goosh of the gain... Fallin in luv with what cannot be seen til the moment arises to claim the neva endin fixation of bringing out ones best is the only way the expression rests... In frame n trimmed to fit the mood as if roll playin in real life is the lettin loose in a lil three letter word called sex... Opening up to the pleasures of life diggin in to the process to climax at it's best... N it's even better if u add a lil emotion to the pulse comin from the chest...

I caught her fallin in love with me outta the corner of my eye... N there was somethin about the look she took in my direction that told me I needed her in life... From that lil sneak peek in which I stole with my head turnin from it's swivel, I got stuck in a stare... Seems I've neva eva seen that look-see castin it's gander n it made it so unfuckin fair... In the time it took me to catch on to her lost in my expressions I somehow froze n she damn near turned away... Yet there was somethin she noticed I didn't know about myself that found its way into her sighs leadin the way... N the peek-a-boo she had given climbed my nerves in such a way the determination of gettin closer to me was immediately granted... The mind went fishin on the thought that didn't take long to realize the heart had already made some room for her to join me open handed... It was a fire like a twinkle in her retinas that grew when I witnessed her diggin in to my face... N by golly I couldn't refuse the passin let loose spontaneously through the movement comin together as if becomin sane... Feelin that tear of joy that leaped from the wells pocket untucking life to come undone... Singled out as proof that time has arrived to take my azz home so she's not alone... N then I woke up n laughed at the thought of my mind losin itself beneath the level of gone... Somewhere in between the balance of goin under n wakin up I had an hillucination that fucked me up n disturbed the dog... blah blah blah... Haha...

Gimme a mix n I'm good...
No matter the shade or preferences...
We're​ all different...
Day 1, accepted... (Thank u Mama...)
Stop resisting it bcuz u should...
It's what makes the individual so great...
Be u n I'll be me...
Now walk n let's be...
Face to face...
Jus like yesterday, ain't shit changed...
Everyone simultaneously in luv with life...
Sharin their version of the hype...
N we all take a look at em in their moment...
That mixture of ages correction comin together as the true meaning of independent...
As one with airs aroma...
Makin this world our hooooma...

The trick is not to get too emotional that the mind doesn't know how to respond or what to do... As ur attempt to feel what's natural to us all comin from that sweet spot needing to be touched n put to use... Over emotionalizing without enough thought process to maintain a level head will have u in a state of self destruction... N that's the moments where u lose control bcuz u haven't matured equivalently as relations takes a toll in a new direction... To relate is a mental issue guided by the devotion aimed at a friend without overthinking the process n remain subtle in a vocal response... But this prolly sounds like a bunch of jibberish to those who simply don't understand luv is more than claimin depths before they get lost...

Wasteful thinkin goin untamed in a mind without limits to climb... Pickin loose the chains imagination to rattle to the sounds of freedom fallin behind... Chasin the edges echos vibin to no sense of direction blinded by distance wantin life... From the darkness within followin the scent on fresh air clingin to the feel of defined... Lust n luv linger in the feel of intensions on the move in between the lines... Seekin the silence to speak with the leak drippin into the open so wide... Splash, with the dip, words play in the moisture where the tongue will forever resides... Lickin the creativity senseless into a moment of tempted sighs... That's where I can be found caterin to motions cut out from the cloth of emotions jus to evade a lil time... Unbound without restrictions twiddlin the twirl that diddles a constructive rhyme... For no reason of why to ask of the paradox to become mine...

In my best Samuel L. Jackson voice...

The mutha fucka u are behind closed doors is the mutha fucka other mutha fuckas wanna know... But ur too busy playin the part of a goofy mutha fucka bcuz u jus don't know how to be u mutha fucka... So do what u think is u... Be fake... Or be that mutha fucka no one truly knows how to be out in the open... As I bet u can't bcuz u won't by keepin on doin the same ol shit due to that's what's accepted by other mutha fuckas that ain't u... Don't switch it up when u come outside mutha fucka... Be that mutha fucka u are when u are alone... Don't lie to yourself... N don't fake the funk... U don't havta be afraid of what other mutha fuckas think... U claim u don't shive a get anyways... N  we're all tired of the masks worn thinner than paint strokes can be applied... So choose what mutha fucka u wanna be n stick to script... Hopefully it's the mutha fucka u look at in the mirror even u can't lie to... Mutha fucka...

If it were to jus let up... If it were to jus give in... If it would jus leave ya the fuck be... What would ya do once you've gotten so use to the struggle as if it's a part of the way ya breathe... Givin ya that growl... That grrr... That hunger that refuses to die... What would ya do without the constant sacrifice that's molded ya mind... Fuelin the will to neva surrender... Strengthenin ya own crave to survive... Redirectin ya know how to make the best of what it is ya have... What would u do if it were to change ya jus to abandon ya outta the blue...

I like the pain... There's jus something about the way she applies the twist to her tongue as she says my name... Dippin into the secrets n fantasies as our minds collide... Tied up for there is no escapin the depths that we refuse to hide... Opened to the temptations shackled to broken chains... Free to be a still as the moments come to flavor the texture of callin names... Playful with luv as lusts mingle in between thoughts shared by touch... But sssh... I'mma havta hush for I don't wanna say to much...

The thrill...

Could u imagine the impact played out in the mind if we were to actually fall... U know we're to comforted by the rush to even care to plunge bcuz it brings us to life... Testin time to deal with us defyin the odds that are to be... It's not the actual fear of the descend but a luv for the feel of it as the moment is a split second pause... Ooh, the tingle of the outside of the glass is as free as bein attached to structure gettin to the mind... Swingin away n gettin paid we know the possibility is worth the fed notes that come to load n unload the pockets lining from the ups n downs in a second sense of literally speakin... A different reality with a view unlike a natural state lookin up to the thrill as we ride the label of crazy... Yet in touch with sanity we jus want em to show us thier window to our world as a thought bcuz it be somethin to see danglin... So underpaid it's the profession restless to be taken seriously enough to get em to pay the worth alone of life that has its needs...

Lookin thru a man's eyes at the angle in which a woman notices him. He slowly realizes thru her eyes we all r held down by those amongst us that give real men a bad name. Yet there's nothin he can do about it Starin eye to eye as the only thing that can be done is provin what shes known men to be its not what a man is. N somehow only a few men understand the simplicity of the concept n put forth the effort to ease her conception of a real live man Standin before her. If she cares to notice men's angle on comin with the realization of knowin what it takes n is accepted for his effort as she to shows that not all women r the same with interest. Jus sayin. It's takes a real man n a real woman to go further than they can with a half Steppin being of the opposin gender. Is ur Mind awake yet?

Hating that feelin of bein alone.
With thoughts that grunt to a empty moan.
Feeling the feelings old n over rated.
As luv tends to be misbehavin.
With the upper hand n bein  taken fir granted.
One again Findin comfort in seeds plucked from planted.
Solo n Sittin with silence that echoes.
As lips whisper not again, hell no!

Thru the outlet at the point of the tips of fingers comes the impression of the hearts prison  thats thought carefully by the mind to unleash what no one can possibly see from the outside lookin in.

the pourin of emotion turns to dumpin everything held in for honesty wasnt real. tippin the hats of g'bye as forevermore stands solo in the winds to heal. drippin leftovers as the walk is remembered acceptin the mind. back to life. done gone off the deep end to show irrefutable evidence. time allows brief moments connectin the rippin of depths relevance. alone one comes to the goin of memories intertwined with thoughts as they collide. invisible to eyes the loss flees back to the sea of strangers wantin a turn at sighs. two three four more the roller coaster zips from place to place. exhausted with the shortness of breathes to believe mutters once again with a sour flavorin taste. gettin behind a better cause of self knowin the need has lost its feel. its a damn shame with so much luv to give wantin someone near. repeatin round after round in bouts that never deliver a reason of blows swung. battle bound is relations on the opposin war awaitin for fools to miss what remains on hush. slippin through fazes of temptation sittin with empty hands n a worn out heart. replacin frames hung to remind that was then upon the walls... .. . .  .   .    .     .      .       .        . as distance clears from within the smoke risin to a new way. what else is there to say?

Show me I can turn my back to u without having to worry about who's who's friend n I'll back into u...
We ain't always gotta see eye to eye if we can find the feel to meet the six as we tell the truth...
All u gotta do is accept beyond the imaginative doubt that we're somewhat different...
N I'm here in a moment to be spent as friends...
Fuck the negativity bcuz I come in peace...
Jus breathe n believe in me as we set each other free...
U n I, thank you...

If it's a must of u havin to take a look-see at someone that's suppose to have u in mind a say don't let me go to waste... They wasn't on that level to begin with... But u can help them understand bcuz it's all for the good of relations as a friend or as luv'r no matter which way tomorrow curves like their smile... Havin someone to count on life is some good shit...

Welcome back

I do it a lil different when the tongues plays with u... As words feel the flip dive like a spring in action comin through the makin of the hype... Ur the kinda feelin letters run to the attempt to express... N all I can do is write no matter the topic of interest... My lil piece here to u gettin to know me knowin u knowin what it is... I do it better with u for it's life u help me undress n kiss... Touched by lips on the release of truths spoken out loud... It's u within me I've found... N I jus wanna fall beyond the horizon where the mornin comes back again... Hey u, psst, I'm down n standin in the frame as a ready made man... U see u better me n I ain't got a fear left to give in to with u by side... N all I wanna share with u is my short lived life... I cannot hide my own truths behind my eyes for sight connects the visual with the movement u flow with in my heart... U are the missin link to this verbal form of art... Talkin back in silence to be heard as the mute speakin up for once is written for u to read... Tryin to make sure a lil easier breathe... The better me is a version more complex to the detail of ur presents here... U are my neva endin cheer n that stare in the mirror... U move with me from within for u are the realist thing I've eva known... Home...

If time came along n told her there was somethin else that would be more than worh her time.. I'd sit back with the moment of losin a friend that seemed so fuckin hard to find... But I'd understand bcuz minds change every so often with the winds whistle til echos fade... It would jus blow holes in my figurative heart as life corrects itself to be hoorayed... That is if she to will be gone before the spoken meanin of the end in words shared falls short of what's been promised... N jus thinkin about it feels the possiblity of lettin the go of not wantin to see her happy elsewhere so utterly missed... If it were to be the day to come of partin with her bcuz it's the way its gotta be... As damn would be all the worth fallin in to an others arms late at night sharin dreams... Back to the basics I'd go believin in every now n again as someone comes along to stay a while... Fuckin optimism reflectin gullible mindsets excited by a new cheesy azz grin... N we all know the memory neva let's go til someone fresh comes into the view of in between hi n the mind rememberin back when... So if she eva chose to remove me as that one friend that collided with her in life I'd prolly go under the emotion to dig me out... The impact of presents is to much to release her back into the wilds bout...

A different kinda mental

Thing would be I found a reason within... Same type of shit that's always been...
I jus rounded out n got a new twist with tighter lips...
N there's nothin else loosenin my smiles hinge...
Change is gonna come n it'll take the fuck off...
Somewhere around the time of thinkin self is lost...
Briefly stagin signs of goin in at all costs...
I found me sittin motionless with the moment of the pause...
Gone, under the felt expressions of wtf...
Ridin the rope hung from the haha of luv...
Takin the L for I've gotta live by trust...
Decipherin through the antics hidden beneath the touch...
Damn life went astray as a lesson for me at the bottom of time...
Purpose came outta the shadows in the shallows that could neva mind...
I went in hard n came back a different kinda mental neva to hit rewind...
As words are merely jus an insight to my sighs...
Goin wooo hearin whoas judge choices of morals made...
Knowin whispers could neva step to the value of bein sane...
On the other side I arrived plain n afraid...
Yet time was did in n put on as if the pain of fame is to be named...
The ol stranger that comes around here n there to see us through the nights...
Talkin shit n bustin chops of the chatter box that lies...
N all I've eva wanted was to claim the feel as a selfish kinda mine...
But I found the other side of me opened up n dippin in to the sky...
Feelin the ripples touch the makin of waves reachin for the shores from the deep...
I went n feel in a lil to far in a couple times jus bcuz of me...
Wantin to know is only a game of chance bringin reality to a dream...
Yet I'm better now for the fallin landed upright n literally free...

Collapse into without losin yourself... Feel that extra portion of ur heart tilt...

I'm jus gonna sit there n let u feel me the way u wanna feel me... Enjoyment at its finest comin to life...

What if it was the loose ends to free up some funds so u can live a Lil. That partner type status we can get at together with a bit if will.  Playin life here amongst the living so alive we're truly felt.

We all have a different reality in which we live. Our own personal piece tryin to figure this shit out. Hey hey, here we are. There's no better time than now!

I'll stop immediately n leave. N I want come back... Get ur square azz away from me! There's no time to find that shit funny n laugh...

A freak with thoughts but a tease in the bed. Better loosen up n show ur freak if u wanna fuck with my head.

Most feel the same in the sense of thought.
Thinking without a heart bcuz it paid the cost.
Wrapped up in shying away from worth.
All in the presence of bein alone ramblin words.
Guilty yet unconvicted for admittance is weak.
Yet behind closed doors the aches silently leak.
Frontin in plain sight appearin to livin it up.
Claimin those emotions can't be trusted with luv.
Forgettin they come n go for we have a life.
Clickin for a bit so time can tell us about the hype.
Droppin the mic on the leave as kiss my azz speaks.
Men n women don't live in dreams tucked away from reality.
As the fairytales fed to the mind mixes with the let down.
It's all in what ya put in to have that comfort that'll always be around.
False kings n queens representing yet another realm of royalty.
Jus to wind right back at the point of less than perfect spoiling things.
Laid back connectin with self after a few times rollin up under the bus.
With hate slippin from the grasp of letting go as the tongue tastes the cuss.
U gotta remember n maintain that we're all in this shit together n not all of us clique.
Even if it's good in the beginnin of the end to come sayin done as names are removed from ya lips.
It's self needing that image in the mirror to step up n ask....
Who am I without a sidekick to claim the hearts stash???
The mind flips under the pressure of relations getting it in.
Who's exactly suppose to win?
So can u luv ya self before u give it out so freely?
Knowin mentally in the game of give n take nothins guaranteed...

Unable to feel a thing captured in the minds realm.
Fightin off thoughts grippin the flippin of neva felt.

One on one wraped up in the middle of pure lust. Back to back spinin to face luv starin on the hush. Silent until behind closed doors comin undone.
As all hell breaks loose as climaxes are overcome.

It was the feel of it. That sense of no return. That, I finally got it. U know, that Lil feeling of my turn. It made the heart flow with the rhythm of her feet. Tapping her way through life. It brought the man out to play. For before emotions there was a like. I neva felt the power it possessed for the long haul though. Seems standin still watch that strut go. It was the snap in the mind of reality changing behind n in plain sight. Eyes filled, drain n dried til there was no mo. it dug it's hole decorated as if a grave. Unable to see the reasons but knew the truths. Luv, hate, luv. For me there was a loss of use. Left with a raw state of self knowing self has what it takes. Whelp, lives were to be lived so it is what it is. Earning yet another memory cut short by irresponsibilities hate. One more face to miss. It was my honor that was drained of the trust. Loosening the connection of proof that didn't exist. Moving on the retreat unlike paradise it failed. Roaming was I drifting attempting to

I cannot trust what hides in the darkness if ur heart. For it doesn't wanna be seen as goin unnoticed is an art. A game I can no longer play with u or any other. Complicatin relations of secret intent never brought to the light of a luv like no other. I fear the pit of no return dug so deep I'd perish in ur depths. Knowing the possibility of u allowin me to fade is my precious time spent. That other side of ur facial expressions is only seen in mirrors that'll never lie. Behind closed doors as ur natural beauty come forth with unheard sighs. I cannot cling to what cannot be seen. For I choose to be awake as u drift into the slip of ur muted dreams...

No one gives a shit n no one cares. We all come n go with googly eyes n blank stares. Felt periodically til time is a waste. Til luv is misplaced n replaced by hate.

A lifestyle took what most envy right outta my hands.... An addiction not of my own for I fiend for her luv... So yeah, she can most definitely have my heart... I don't need it, for enough is enough...

I don't mean to lead u on. I honestly jus wanna be alone. But I have this desire to play with someone like u. As u fit the description in my mind slowly stripped down til ur totally nude. I don't play games that are not felt as pleasures finest. Jus don't go looking for emotions n try to somehow define us. I've come to enjoy u in a pure physical sense. To touch, to taste, to feel u til ur no longer tense. I want nothing to do with ur emotions that aren't connected to ur sexuality. Giving n receiving the thought of us is a most cherished reality. Yeah I'm comin at u but I really don't wanna be ur man. I truly wanna be less than what reaches that plateau of what u cannot stand. Flickerin in the night with candles lit. Becoming ur fantasy n explorin the feel of ur skin upon my lips. Playin double dutch with the shock waves rippin off the ease. Use me for I could use someone like u to please. There's no desperation, jus a simple interest that's as drivin me crazy. Come, lay with me. Feel how clever the tongue can curl ur moans. As I massage the kinks outta ur bent n damn near broken toes...

I went deep n found a friend like no other waiting for me within. I came back to the shallows of vanity that changed its grin. Somehow goin through em the way I did I can see em for who they are abandoned in their core. I dove in to find myself swimming along their curving shores. Dragged into the deep blue n pulled under before I even had a chance. U eva tried to stay afloat upon the surface where the waters edge meets the suns reflection as they dance? U prolly neva looked down from the horizons display of paradise huh? The canvas also has a hidden secret that turns black away from the line of sight so fuckin blunt. Splash! Grabbing bubbles of survival mode to rise to reach dry land. Damn near dead I came back in rare form as a man. Move to the side for there is much to be done. I own me with a better understanding of why one needs to feel home! Fallin in luv with the emotion that takes away from the thought of who self is. I'm back n I will not put up with ur goofy Bs. I am the factor in my life. Without me, no one I enjoy will eva take my side. U wanna step on something so ur feet can find comfort some time soon? Stand on ur word n don't let move. Full circle jus might bloom with some deep azz roots. I got me intact n living loose. Ready for the next round to untie the wave of words released with facts. Trust in me as self or u kiss my fuckin azz...

If imma live without Ya. Then that's jus what I'll havta do. U will not come n go. Know where u belong in this civilized zoo. Choices of chance volunteer time ridin the vibe. N I'm like oh my, jus tryin to live my life. Friends zoned by depth getting closer than comin in to play. Home. Jus say my name. Following up ur step in stride. On the front lines allowing u to light up my life.

I can't kick it bcuz I can't be seen through the shell u see... I can't be me bein judged bcuz I'm different than thee... Seems independently my minds pulled away from false dreams... As I'm on the outside of societies mind without a person to relate to the way I think... By myself ridin that solo train of free... No, u are not like me... I don't believe we could eva connect mentally to simply be... I'm on the other side where I actually have accepted life's means... I ain't feelin u nor anything that falls short of common sense bein able to breathe... I live in a different place in my head that deciphers through wants n needs. Leaking a trail to be caught by relativity... By relations on any level that have stepped away from the teachings of insanity... For the luv of humanity... U ain't feeling this shit that lives within, that if u could, you'd damn within me...

On a cloud looking down. Eased back thinking bout the absence of sound. Hearing only thoughts speak in tongues. Inhaling a toke as the minds on the run. Watching words come to life high af. Hit it again Butch n let the tone make luv. Carving letters outta smoke. Puff... Now hold. Ahh. Let it kick in n breathe. Now release what's unable to be hidden within creativities cure. Opened up n pure. Lost in a visual mentally so far gone. Rhymes without a rhythm choking on abong. As the ink spreads truths as if the legs of a whore. With stories to tell that drip from the pour. Leaking like a river raging for change. This is life rearranged. Known the purpose of my own name. Fallin from societies fame. As the flame strikes another blast accepted by thy lungs. Once I say what I can't get out, I'll be done. Twisting the alphabet any which way n loose. To play with my state of mind til the zzz's are through. I'm at war inside beneath the fog like wave of comfort. Able to see clearly tempting the honesty within the core. Inhale, pause, exhale. To be me I could neva fail. Ripped with bloodshot eyes drifting into my special place. Relaxed in life tapping on the flava of its taste. Call me crazy for expressions are real. Without them who would know how to feel? So under the roll u go popping out o'rings to entertain my time. Yeah, I'm goin all in on every last sigh. As apart it must come to show me what's in actual facts. So maybe this diddle will be my last...

I appreciate the offer but I don't agree with ur reasoning. I'm not the one to be a moment of a seasonal flings. Loneliness isn't good enough when u don't enjoy who it us u am. I could neva fulfill ur void if jus having someone is the angle in which u cum, for I am not a fan. If u don't wanna wind up in a booty call situation looking back wondering why I can't stay. Chalk it n watch the way u say my fuckin name. There's nothing wrong with two adults grinding n then getting to get of the I'm goin home. Relations can be sexual as lives don't connect other than in the middle of the tension of attention bein known. Ur alone n I get it. Shit. I kinda miss it. So yeah it be nice to have some in house down n dirty on a regular. But those emotions that linger plays way too much n I'm good as imma stay singular. Ur intentions ain't what u say they are for ur eyes are fuckin me as we speak. Woman. For u I'd have only one need. To please n pleasure my own desires unleashed upon the tenderness of ur orgasmic nerves. So if u didn't know, now from my own mouth, my words you've heard. Keep that fairytale Bs to yourself thinking tis the season to lock a good man down. I see through ur intent bare faced as I am not ur clown. Dick runs deep this way n it'll fuck u up. Show me why u need my time without mentioning luv. N skills u will receive. Yes, I am a rare breed...

When we meet in that moment of for once in my life... Tracking in from the unknowns reality of getting to the good shit... Holdin the line... Know me to enjoy the way I move luv'n u... Like when we get there... Let loose... Gimme all u got to give... N I will make certain, u will have a life to live... I'll be ready on the downside of lessons ain't got shit on me... So make sure u jus come willin n free... When we actually collide n are unable to resist the facts... I'll be waitin kicked back n intact... Let's do this... Whenever ur ready to calm ur nerves n soothe the void of bein missed... It's only a matter of when the ticker climbs through our tenderized chests... Til then, only you will eva make the difference... Where oh where can u be..? Come be u as I'll be me...

'd suggest u ease on in. My water is frigid along the shore lines of thy heart. U might wanna reconsider jus jumping in. I'm damn near frozen solid n need that one spark. If u wanna chill I'll bring a new meaning to the term. A Lil more ol school n to the point. No I don't trust anything emotion has to give. Skinny dip if u must flirt.

Are u not ready to get down? Come on. Come down! Let's get outta the way we think n dial in to  a different tone wantin more. Whispers to moans, jus speak so ur words  are considered luv. How longs it gonna take u to open up n feel the rush? The return of me is very possible if ur about it, but I can go. Not sayin much other than imma find a lil sum sum til u turn around n face me. How is it u enjoy bein above n beyond my means? Shit makes no sense to me. Not one bit. Tickling the ribs. Tell me to touch u n I will not stop. U got it. That thing for u I have in the bulk of alots. I'll catch u if you'd jump into my arms before I gotta remember myself. Jus know I'm after ur smile to be felt.

In my mind I'm alone n gathering thoughts that need not be held. Telling self to let go for hearts jus not felt. Crippling my mindset is an entity taking up valuable time. N for the life of me I don't recall why I even died. Living has become a wait that doesn't make any fuckin sense. Everything that lingers beneath the surface is past tense. N I can't get with it to see anything that might come correct. As I know the real is in here that I continuously inspect. There's no excuse for the mangled chips on my hearts calling. I have every piece n as of yet, I'm stalling. Stuck on stupid wondering where I belong. This shit has me rubbed raw. So from here on out I'm dropping the dead weight. For my own person fuck sakes...

I never heard that whiskey train rollin down the tracks. I needed that crack in fact to dig in n come to pass. N it ain't like I needed that winters chill to the breeze that went right on by. To know life as I knew it was about to change with the coarse of time. As I gotta say it was the best thing I could stepped away from. Without a drop of flava to wash down the bitter sweet sip fibrin trumped for once.

Yeah imma flirt, but I know the lines of boundaries felt... It's all in good fun until relations take serious interests in self... Redirecting intentions towards one spinning the head loose... In no disrespect, not all men are dogs tryin to decipher through female woos... It's like getting a buzz before one gets to the party goin all night... Jus peeking a look-see at what jus might bring him to a Lil four letter word called life... Know we ain't all jus tryin to hit it n quit it jus so u can undo the belts... Some of us has been there on both ends of use n are bypassing females waiting without searching for that one that crawls up n under the skin to melt... Like wax trickling from the flame lit at the tip on point to dance as passionate shadows fall uncontrollably in... Yeah, there's a look , walk, tone, tude n maturity level we peep as we gaze from within... This is jus a piece of a glimpse of real men so u know what to look for as u take a gander in between the lines twisting as we want a tad bit more than to visually n physically ride ur curves... Sights is a visual lust in the immediate appeal yet not the ultimate turn on as men think before feeling with that overwhelming nerve...  Touched n teased all in one from a far to flush giving moments to connect... To flirt in a single man's mind is to take notice n inspect... Welcome to the insight of our train of thought... Where friendly friendships never cost that penny as it is u he craves to applaud...

Doin time outside the mind in the wide open closing sights in the reality in which is lived within musical rhymes. Hi. Shit has dropped on the dime spinnin on a pivot n gone is the feel of the hype pushing rivets . 7 yrs in relations rolled the release date as unknown

There's so much to write that emotion could bring to life... Yet luv made sure it doesn't live in my mind... Existing only in a figuratively kinda way it appears. As there's jus no response from inner inner makings on a level of the only thing there is is them getting near. Close enough to connect n bounce off the walls within. N the taste is sweeter from the bottom up. looked down upon n irrelevant to the version of my version of luv. Seems chewing syllables is to reload the ammo shot from the mouth of disregard. N pretending that immaturity of crazy is actually bein hard. Only if the tongue could do what it unleashes behind closed doors. Locked for a reason of pleasure as passion runs it's drip contributing to my core...

Playin a different kinda game. One worth the time given without stayin. A chameleon type of luv workin em over then I was gone. Real mental shit I was too good at that anymore jus ain't worth playin. Bein inside her mind is better to be a joy than knowin the works was in to breakin her. An old fascination that's second nature laid down as if the delusion was unreal. Believin in me for I believed in myself before I tried on luv n got chard... Games of two genders in the mix of relations as differences collide. Sex vs emotion with the mental stability attacked by true intentions. Lie to me not n I'll NevA lie to u. I was a player like u were diggin by definition...

When's the last time u felt ya'self making luv? Wrapped up n movin synchronized with the feel of touch... Rubbin skin to skin kissin n gropin the flow of somethin turnin into a bit more than a crush. Flush with the rush of the hunt of the brush. Of sweat drippin from above... As passion runs from the fingers leap grippin the bodies curved bumps. Tongue takin the shape of an others taste enjoying a Lil grub getting at the goin down on Ya  as it is a must... It's jus like a question that intrigues me comin undone.

The wooing n dinners of spending my m$o$n$e$y on Ya... Nah. Dating? Yeah OK. I'm a gentleman until I hit the bed. But I like that mental shit. Not this winning ya over on what fades or needs replaced. U know that Lil ol thing called relating...

Playin a different kinda game. One worth the time given without stayin. A chameleon type of luv workin em over then I was gone. Real mental shit I was too good at that anymore jus ain't worth playin. Bein inside her mind is better to be a joy than knowin the works was in to breakin her. An old fascination that's second nature laid down as if the delusion was unreal. Believin in me for I believed in myself before I tried on luv n got chard... Games of two genders in the mix of relations as differences collide. Sex vs emotion with the mental stability attacked by true intentions. Lie to me not n I'll NevA lie to u. I was a player like u were diggin by definition...

Can we end this n get down for once?

There's so much to write that emotion could bring to life... Yet luv made sure it doesn't live in my mind... Existing only in a figuratively kinda way as it appears. As there's jus no response from the inner makings on a level of the only thing there is them getting near. Close enough to connect n bounce off the walls within. N the taste is sweeter from the bottom up. Looked down upon n irrelevant to the version of my version of luv. Seems chewing syllables is to reload the ammo shot from the mouth of disregard. N pretending that immaturity of crazy is actually bein hard. Only if the tongue could do what it unleashes behind closed doors. Locked for a reason of pleasure as passion runs it's drip contributing to my core...

Goin nowhere in between the clicks of getting those federal notes. Home has moved away as I sit in alleyways losing the thought of hope. Keys ain't unlocking doors of where I've been before. Jus the four door rubber rollin tent that gets me around moving when I push the pedal on the floor. But I have a way after losing the materials that mean nothing n aren't worth havin as they were taken by the hands of luv. Sash, don't judge me. I went in n wound up................... Done!

I'm not the only one. I jus refuse to hide from it. I accept what it is I feel. It's who I am. N I am real. No I am not alone. We're jus sidetracked by the ways of this world n have forgotten what it's like to actually luv. Huh... There's a thought. Bcuz we all know it Neva needed to be taught. Some shit jus doesn't make sense. Walkin towards luv thinking this is it. Yet, not considering the facts of not everyone cliques. N I like it deep enough there is no return. But for me I jus haven't found my worth n have been more than hurt. So no, I know I'm not riding this spontaneous emotion solo. Whether u admit it or not, we're the same with saloon doors swinging open for business til we're closed. They look better in the comin as the satisfaction of em leaving is a relief. But why? We all have a life to live. Who are we hating as lies to self are believed? U wanna fill a void? Fill it with yourself so u know who u are. Then come up for that fresh breath of air to do ur part. Not everyone gets it n we havta face the facts. Alone? Nah. That's jus the lingering effect of the past. Move on n let em find what brings em life. Settle those fed thoughts of gettin even n sigh. I will Neva half step myself bcuz an other is afraid to look in the mirror. I know what luv is n it is what I fear...

U wanna be single. Yet u also wanna play. U don't wanna give in. Now ain't that a crying shame? U want the attention as I can relate. U really want someone's worth. Before u jus jump in n fade. I guess I'm the alternate choice. N that's OK.  I'm good with fillin the void. Close enough n give that comfort. As the only string is cut for total freedom to do as u please. Jus doin our thing. I can detail ur wildest dream.

I'm not hollow. I jus have a reserve. Gathering every emotion unused. Jus to be unleashed on a real woman's worth. Whether ur out there or not I'll wait. I ain't rushing a damn thing tonight. I'm jus resting n getting ready for when we meet. Thinking with my head on my shoulders about how it is u bring me to life everytime I tell u goodnight.

Be beautiful to me with my eyes closed. It's a trust thing that cannot be seen tucking my bone. Don't touch, jus come close enough to be felt jus before we collide. Sssh... Jus close ur eyes. Go with ur other senses for once in ya life. Try to see me in a different way I wouldn't mind. Now come undone with what naturally flows. Bcuz like u there's more to me than what's bein shown...

Naked eyes dancing with the fever of the flame. Whispering moans clinging to the sound of names. Touch goin soft in the caress of luv. Parallel with the shapes moving along the walls on hush. As silhouettes take up the same space in time. I bet u don't know u blow my fuckin mind...

The broken silence within a man roars.
Comin from chewed words that pour.
At the limits of lines crossed like bordered boundaries.
The stand rises as fed up with the twisted
Bass fills

Seems i ain't been out to play since Mandy I parted. That's not like me.  Life was discarded. Putting rest to a dream. Damn I missed bein me. WTF is it I thought? Thanx one, for now I'm free. I paid the cost...

It's my fault as the thought came from the back if my mind. Into my reality standing here in life. I fell n they fell learning valuable lessons sooner than expected. But that was to be intended withstand careless heart. Now inspected. Shown em how a man rises from my depths up n runnin.

Would eva could...

Thinking within a conversation with self.
Not getting the response I need to be felt.
I'm divided between the heart n the mind.
In the middle of their feud tryin to get on with life.
These two stubborn mofos jus can not agree.
N all I wanna do is sleep in peace with my dreams.
This name callin bullshit is for the birds.
Neither of them for one an other have any worth.
My thoughts tells me I'm a sucker for luv.
Yet my own fuckin emotions say they refuse to go numb.
Both flipping fingers to show me what I've done.
I guess I've separated who I am n it isn't any fun.
I'm jus bein me torn apart inside attempting to relate.
Pulled through the ups n downs hearing the hate.
Why are we alone my feelings ask daily.
As my own brain simply jus can't save me.
There's no winning with neither of them turning out.
Sittin in silence this battlefield needs to calm down.
It use to be peaceful beneath what is shown on the surfaces plane.
As for what resides now is luvs dismissal of nothing that remains the same.
Speaking to myself doesn't do any fuckin good.
But I wish one of these two would eva could.
Jus give in n find mutual grounds to play nice.
My personal lil fiasco done with the way I live my life.
Yet they jus don't understand we are the full package.
As the rise of hormones chimes in n awakens what's to be imagined.
No! I will not allow us to step to anyone til this is settled.
N they pout like two yr olds bcuz I meddle.
Bcuz I care to be united with who I truly am.
Damn if I do. Damned if i don't. Damn!

Have u ever been afraid to use emotion?
Like ur stuck in time in the middle of an explosion.
Jus simply scared shitless of feeling anything.
Shut down n in need of a friends scream.
All cuz urs jus wasn't heard n ya can't breathe.
Never wanting again to ever be hurt. Damn me!
Yeah, it's like that.
Runnin away from the past....

Can Ya feel me now?
Standin on my own two feet.
In true form corrected.
Lost in my own silly dreams.
Bringing u to life.
Here in my imaginary state.
Solo n riding the winds of time.
Read the expression upon my face.
It's mental knowing who u are.
Willing to stand in ur way.
The same as day one.
Feeling what'll never fade.
Back to who I truly am.
Living my life opened n bared.
Waiting for u to come get it.
Willing to see how much u giving a care.
Here I am.
Staring u down.
Putting ur luv on the spot.
Are u in or are u out...

Why is it u came here?
Of all places to be.
Falling further than one can help.
Is this in which how u breathe?

Waitin my turn...

Jus accept it n lemme crush on u... possible look at u in a stare or two givin u proof... So what, i gotta thing for u... U can handle a lil humor can't u..? I ain't talking bout luv jus yet... i never even said i was gonna reach out n grab me a touchy feel with my lips suckin on ya neck... Ooh, i think i jus gave me away... hold on, im not easy to tame...Jus a lil fun n get along is all im gettin at... I'll stay in my lane until u feel me back ... Jus tell me when i can let loose n do a lil more peek a boo... ill keep respectable n take my turn if it comes around to find some use.. Listen to the way I say ur name... no wait, I gotta remember u that maybe one day...That is if ur available... Bein so fuckin irresistible... But for now imma jus give u time to figure some shit out allowin u to breathe... yet, Imma savor every syllables within conversations jus so i taste what jus might be... As it goes on n on n on... On down my very own way followin me to where im goin...  U see u tracked me to this point in time... Tellin me i can not have u in my life... Damn thing jus dont make sense if ur askin me... But thats the way it goes as i watch everyone else live the dream... As i ease back n think about u when my minds not over ran... How is it that im not ur man..? I see u n u jus dont appear to be all that happy let ur eyes tell the truth... Seems to me ur goin through the movements of bein use to someone tellin u ilu... I wont tell ya ur goin to waste... Its not my place to change what u think u feel upon ur face... Lets jus say its tellin a different side goin down in ya very own heart... N for every endin theres a start... This is that curiosity comin out to play... Bcuz of u lil lady, i am not afraid... As i sit still as i may never fell u against me jus once... If i did youd be done... So imma jus u do what it is u do as i linger in the back of ur mind... Wantin to explore u n i in the middle of the hype... Livin life n gettin it in... Hmm, what u could do to my grin... U jus dont know the vibe i get when i get caught pretendin im not lookin at u live... But i am n im diggin what i know about the way u spoke words to give...

Watcha puttin in... U matchin what I have to give... I'm jus sayin... Bcuz if ya ain't, I ain't stayin... The one way head trip u can keep... I'd step out n jus leave... Don't bare what u know u can't level up to... So again, Watcha got for time to do... If ya in I'm down... But don't go switchin shit up... Don't fuck with my luv... Once I dislike u I'm done... Been around to long to feel ya feet step on me... Bent every which way but loose chasin dreams. Come play with me in reality... Where those fairy tales embedded into ur mind meet maturity... I am alive with a will to get it in... If u ain't digging your'e receive nothin from within... Yeah, a real man u will appreciate the way I will u... Round out n come away from how you've been abused... I didn't do hat shit... So let my name actually feel ur lips... Watcha wanna do... It's ur life n it's up to u...  Correct me if I'm wrong when I say we have the same mindset... N if I'm wrong left right left find ya step... I'm on some other shit comin out into the open... Gimme what I seek tradin in ur past hopin...I don't mind the single life one fuckin bit... But I am missin that certain kinda tickle in my rib... Laugh now cry later jus ain't my style... U can tell me now so I know ur worth my while... Imma grown azz man n ain't dishin out birds... Not unless ur fake like the rest with ya vision blurred... Lemme see Watcha got up n under that mask... Make me gasp...

No gimmicks. No twisted tongue. Don't play with emotions out the gate for like is more important than luv. Speak to her as if her vanity isn't part of her personality. Be as if u can relate as a factor of reliability. Winning her over isn't goin to far if character doesn't hold its line. Take notice but go beneath the pleasure of sight. Be yourself in true form n explore her creativity. For she wants to be seen for more than her vanity...

Does it havta be so sexually orientated? I mean yeah it's there yet can't we be more versatile n a bit more obligated. U know, to mental stability n emotional connectivity. There's more shit like, like over luv so relativity levels out with a grown aspect of maturity. Don't get me wrong bcuz I'd like to know what u look like draped in a lace thong. But that's a bit explicit at this point even though I'd like the way you'd moan me a song. I'm jus wantin to tap into the inner linings of ur mind opened wide the fuck up. Sorry to be so vulgar but getting to the source of the eyes wondering back n forth crossin vision is only a crush. I jus wanna know if ur depths have ever been swam in the way I could dig a lil deeper. Find ya thoughts n get back with me as imma ease back n pause for a moment to check out more of ur features...

Would u wanna actually be mature? Wrap ya mind around a cure to what u thought was so pure. Standin with true intentions without a hook or a lure. Take a tour free of charge n see for yoursrlf I'm not goin door to door. Jus came across someone that seemed to be a Lil more than what others had in store. Paint a picture in ya mind of what it is in ya core. This isn't relations at war. Jus a common interest wantin to explore ur ways before u think I'm jus another bore. As my tongue has now flipped the vocal chords on in the direction of wantin more...

I'm somewhere else doin things in my mind words can not express... The lights are lowered n the mood is set... As my eyes are damn near rollin outta my head... There's a bed... N petals scattered in the shade of red... Fully undressed... Playin anything less than games in total agreement of sayin yes... Let's!!! Movin to the rhythm of the thumping chest... As candles bring out my very best...

Lemme in.. It's cold where I'm standin. Allow me to unthaw the both of us. Jus melt the chills chatter of bones ramblin. Lets get close U n I n shut it up. For once jus to warm the void. Givin a lil comfort. In from what's become the norm. Open up. I'm freezin n could use someone like u. Weatherised with the burrr that hurts. Shakin with even skin turnin blue. Knock knock. Ding dong. Is there anyone home? Or is it u jus do not wanna get burned by another flame? Would u rather be alone? The heat could do us some good. Wrapped up next to the fire. Lit with a spark to ease the hearts drip. Comin back to life as somethin to admire. The temp out hear has locked up my chest. Stuck in a deep freeze. Like ice cubed for a later date. I have a chisel if ur in need. We can chip pieces of solid moisture a Lil at a time. N take a moment to find what's been shoved away. Jus shovel through the depths forgotten. I'm jus outside if u feel the will to play without games...